'I'm fine, I just haven't been feeling well.' I say guiltily on the phone.
'I miss you, should I come visit?'
'No. You might catch whatever I have. As soon as I'm better, I'm all yours.'
'Alright, cool. I love you, yeah? Talk to you inna bit.'
'Love you too Tae.' I whisper before hanging up.
'Jayda, you need to tell him.' Nia gives me a sympathetic look.
'I know, but it's so hard. It's going to ruin everything.' My voice cracks as I rest my head in hands.
'Believe me when I tell you this. It's better to tell him as soon as possible rather than for him to find out through someone else. Trust me on this.'
'I know, I know. But what am I gonna say? All I remember is kissing him, I don't know if I did something else.'
'Just tell him the truth. It will eat away at you if you keep it to yourself.' I sigh and nod, taking in what she was saying.
'Thanks Nia.' I reach over, giving her a big hug. It had been two weeks since I kissed Kalim and I had avoided Dontae like the plague. I finally confided in Nia, but no one else knew yet. I was too scared to even tell Jayden. I knew how it would make me look, and I wasn't ready for everyone to be disappointed in me yet.
'It's okay hun. Hold on, Michael's dropping something off quick.' She got up and jogged downstairs. My phone rang, showing Lesha's number.
'Hi.' I answer.
'Hey Jayda. Um, I don't know how to say this.'
'What's wrong?' I ask immediately feeling concerned.
'No, nothing. But there's this rumour going round... you know at Keeran's party? Apparently you gave Kalim uck.'
'What! Who's saying this?'
'Some boy. Don't worry, I put him in place. But Jay, you know you can trust me right? Cos you did disappear and everyone said you were upstairs with Kalim for ages...' I sigh deeply at her suggestive tone. I trusted Lesha and I kknew she wouldn't tell anyone.
'Don't say anything please but I was drunk. We were playing a drinking game and I just remember being in the bathroom then in a bedroom, but all I remember was kissing him.' I say. Saying it outloud made me feel worse, cos it was confirmation that it actually happened. Despite how or when I tell Dontae, our relationship was over. It was enivitable. I know Dontae.
'Oh shit. Have you told Dontae?'
'Rah. Jayda yeah?' My head snapped to the direction where a deep voice came from. My eyes locked with Michael's and my heart dropped in my gut.
'I'll call you back Lesha.' I say before hanging up abruptly.
'What?' I turn to Michael, too scared to ask if he had heard my conversation.
'So you're a cheater now? Rahhh, does Reckless know?' He says with a smirk, like it was some kind of joke.
'Fuck off Michael. I don't have to explain anything to you.' I say with a screw.
'Don't bite my head off.' He holds his arms up in surrender. 'So he doesn't know innit? Rah, this is all a bit mad.' I glare at him.
'He used to be my boy uno. Might have to tell him his girl's moving a bit mad.' He looks me up and down in disgust.
'You're not boys. You have no right getting involved. It's my relationship.' I felt tears prick my eyes due to the anger bubbling up within me. Who was this scum?
'What? You crying cos you cheated?'
'Michael! I said don't come up here. Sorry Jay.' Nia gives me a sympathetic look.
'No wonder you're both friends. You look cheating on your man innit. Do you sit and exchange secrets on cheating?' Michael chuckles humourlessly. The sound of Nia's hand connecting with Michael's cheek rippled around the room.
'Get out Michael. Just fuck off.' She pushed him roughly. 2 minutes later, the door slams and she comes back upstairs.
'How does he know?'
'He overheard me talking to Lesha. He's gonna tell Dontae, what am I gonna do?' A lump got caught in my throat as all possible scenarios filled my mind.
'I don't know what his problem is for fuck sake. I'll try talk to him, but this just means you have to tell him soon. It will be worse coming from someone else.'
'I know. I'll tell him this weekend.' I sigh, wiping my tears once again.
*
'OI FAT'ED.' Jayden shouts up the stairs. I grumble, pushing my earphones in further, and focusing on the movie on my laptop. 'OI man.' He comes into my room.
'What. I'm busy.' I give him a blank look.
'Everyone's downstairs, come bruv.' He pulls my earphones out of my ears.
'Who's everyone?'
'Keiara, Aliyah, Corahn and Nia. Dontae is coming in a sec, he's buying some food.' My heart beat automatically sped up. 'Oh yeah, and Michael as well. He came chatting bout we were all boys once and reh teh teh.'
I felt the bile rise up in my mouth as I felt physically sick. My head started spinning. Why was Michael here?
'Oh, okay. Lemme get changed.' I reply after gulping. Jayden nods, exiting the room. I shakily stuck my legs in some black leggings, putting on some Nike socks and a crop jumper over my sports bra. I took a breath and slowly trailed downstairs.
'Here comes the lost wanderer! I haven't seen you in weeks and it's the bludclart holidays!' Aliyah screeches before attacking me. I laugh, hugging her back.
'Blame hayfever b.' I shrug. Keiara greets me, before focusing on Jerry Springer, as usual. I give Corahn a hug before smiling at Nia.
'No hug for me, nah?' Michael grins at me.
'Skn, shotop. Are you even wanted here?' Aliyah retaliates, screwing him.
'Shut up, you Indian patty.'
'Don't try banter me. We're not friends boo.' Aliyah flashes him a tight smile. Aliyah really didn't like him, and did not mind showing it. Michael just chuckles and nods.
We all watched a bit of TV and spoke, making plans for prom. Our school was actually so dumb, so our prom wasn't until August. I don't even know why. We were arguing about whether to take a limo, or walk (Corahn's dumb suggestion) when Dontae walked in.
'Man like, wagwan.' Corahn grins.
'Errr, you're so gay. Why are you so happy to see him?' Nia chuckles, causing us all to laught.
'He's my babes innit.'
'Not in public Corahn bruv.' Dontae tuts causing us to laugh harder. I watched as he distributed the food and drink to everyone, that he had been sent to buy. A small smile etched on my face as I watched his actions. I was telling him today, I had to. It wasn't fair to do this to him.
'What you saying b?' He gives me his dazzling smile as he stops infront of me. My eyes tear up instantly. 'Oi, what's wrong?' He asks softly as a deep frown settles on his face, and his concerned eyes ran over my face.
'Hayfever.' I sniff, giving him a small smile. He nods before grabbing my hand and starting to pull me out of the room.
'We're going to beat quick, sorry for her screams innit.'
'Eurgh man.' Aliyah gags. I laugh, slapping Dontae's back.
'Rah, you sure you wanna beat that?' Michael chuckles cynically. The room goes silent as everyone turns to him in confusion.
'I've tolerated you being here Michael, don't start to piss me off.' Dontae warns, with no trace of huour.
'I'm just tryna warn you innit.' Michael shrugs, holding his arms up.
'Michael, stop it.' Nia mumbles. I felt my chest begin to rise and fall rapidly as I repeatedly pleaded with God in my head, for a distraction, for Michael to stop talking, for Dontae to just ignore him and continue on his way.
Please, please, please.
'Warn me bout what?' Dontae asks, now curious.
'Low it man, he's chatting hella.' Corahn tuts, waving him off.
'Me? I'm just tryna be a good friend. Bros before hoes, innit?' Michael says with smile, his eyes glinting of evil. My mouth went dry, filling with the taste of blood. My eyes locked with Michael's as I silently told him to shut up. His smile just widened. I wanted to laugh and brush him off, push Dontae upstairs and ignore Michael but I was frozen.
I knew it was too late. No matter how much I prayed.
Please don't do this.
'Rahh, I get it. You feeling a bit sour innit. Bit upset that you couldn't secure her? You still on this Michael?' Dontae chuckles.
'Nahh bro. Not even. But if my girl was cheating I would want to know innit.' Everyone's eyes fell on Michael, and then on me. I swallowed before frowning, knowing I couldn't summon up the words to defend myself.
I knew it was all over. There was nothing I could do now. I knew soon, the tears would start and I would look even guiltier. I attempt to even out my breathing, to stop the frequent palpitations but I couldn't. The dryness of my mouth prevented me from finding the spit to even swallow down the huge lump in my throat.
'Are you fine Michael? Who's cheating?' Jayden laughs loudly. I met Nia's eyes, which also contained the same fear I knew mine portrayed.
'Dontae's girl.' He nods towards me. 'I'm just looking out for my bro.'
'Yeah, stop now. It aint funny Michael.' Keiara says with a small frown.
'Am I lying Jayda?' Michael's eyes met mine. 'Tell em then. That you didn't cheat.' Everyone turned to me and my throat burned even more. I felt eyes swivel from me to Dontae, but I kept my eyesight firmly planted on Michael, unable to tear away.
'You're chatting shit.' Dontae laughs. 'Nah, you're sick. Why would you even say that?'
'You think I'm lying?' Michael scoffs, his eyes still on me, swimming with amusement. I pleaded for him to keep quiet, to just stop talking now but he seemed to find the situation so funny. 'Ask your girl.'
I felt Dontae's gaze on me and knew there was nothing I could do to save myself.
'Jayda? He's chatting shit, innit?' I forcefully look up to Dontae's face, I saw thee doubt cloud his eyes as soon as his eyes met mine. I gathered up all the saliva in my mouth, before swallowing.
'Dontae, i-it's not like that...' My words came out mixed together, as his facial expression faltered. I heard the shocked gasps and murmurs of everyone in the room.
'What?' A deep frown overtakes Dontae's face as he looked down at me. 'What?' He repeats, in disbelief as he looks at Michael, who had a smug look on his face. I gasp as Dontae roughly grabs my arm, pulling me out of the front room.
That's when the tears started. They silently began to roll down my face.
'Are you being fucking serious?' He asks, looking at the wall above my head. I flinch as his hand balls up in a fist and his breathing hitches. 'So, he's telling the truth?' He looks down at me. I meet his eyes and nod, as more tears fell down my cheeks. I opened my mouth to explain but nothing came out.
His eyes closed as he breathed deeply and I knew he was trying to calm down. I bite down on my bottom lip, and wipe my running nose, knowing nothing I say would help or diffuse the situation. I was also aware that everyone from the front room was listening.
He looked down at me again, the anger clear in his eyes which caused my tears to fall more rapidly. He was silent for a further two minutes before chuckling, almost in disbelief.
'I'm sorry... I was gonna tell you...' I hiccup, feeling as if I needed to explain myself. I wanted to explain everything, I was drunk, it was just a kiss, a mistake but I couldn't.
'When.' He demands then pauses. 'Actually, you know what? Fuck this and fuck you Jayda.' My heart twisted painfully.
'Dontae please.' I begged. I knew it would come to this, but I couldn't accept it. His eyes filled with disgust as he stared down at me.
'Why you crying Jayda? Why the fuck are you crying? He spat with disgust, like I was stupid. I knew I was in the wrong but the tears wouldn't stop.
'I-I...' I trail off, as my crying becomes more frequent. I start to hiccup as the way he looked at me made me feel like scum. Like I was just a hoe from the streets. I cried even more because I knew it was my fault, I had ruined this and I didn't know how to fix it.
I attempt to calm down as I felt him stare at me. I look up at him with wet eyes and I saw his face soften for a split second, before it regained its disgusted expression. I sniff as my tears slow down, and my hiccups decreased.
'I'm done.' He says causing me to frown. He said it so easily, like he didn't care. I look at him in confusion. 'This whole ting is done. We're done.' He says with no emotion. Like we hadn't been together for more than a year. A pain resisded in my chest. I don't know how to explain it.
It was like I was a 5 year old with a balloon. A balloon that made me happy then suddenly I let go of it. I let go and it started to fly away. I couldn't catch it and it was gone, and I knew I would never get it back. And I cried, but because I knew it was my fault. I had let go, and not it was gone.
Dontae was gone, and it was my entire fault.
'Tae, you don't mean that.' I breathe out.
'Don't say my fucking name. We're done man.' He kisses his teeth and dismisses me, stepping back.
'Dontae, please.' I plead, moving forward to be near him. I grab his arm, wanting him to listen to me, not to throw it away. His jaw clenched as he looked down at me, hate in his eyes. He roughly pulled his arm out of my grasp, pushing me against the wall.
His eyes scan my face, visibly softening. His expression held hurt and it made my heart break, knowing it was my fault he was like this. Knowing I had caused him to feel like this. I clutch his cheek and he unknowingly moves forward to me and keeps eye contact. Our lips were millimeteres apart as we stared at each other and I took in every detail of his face.
His bright, chinky eyes, his cute button nose, his caramel complexion, the small beauty spot underneath his eye, his long lashes, his plump, soft lips, his dimple.. everything about him.
'Why Jayda? I can't belive you would...' He says quietly in a hurt tone. My heart swells with love for him as I felt hurt, knowing I'd hurt him.
'Tae, don't do this please.' I plead quietly, my bottom lip quivering. His hand cups my hand that was resting on his cheek and for a second, I thought he would give in and talk to me. But he moves back, like I was an infection, or disease and kisses his teeth.
'Fucking thot.' He throws me one last look before storming out of the house. I was momentarily stunned before I tried to run after him but Aliyah came and pulled me back.
'Leave him to calm down.' She says sympathetically, but I when I looked at her face I saw the same disgust in her eyes that Dontae had looked at me with. I break down again and Aliyah held me. I felt everyone watching me, not knowing what to say as they had just overheard my whole conversation.
My face screws up as I see Michael sat comfortably on my sofa.
'I hate you!' I scream as I lunge for him but Corahn pulls me back, telling me to stop. I wriggle out of his grip, seeing the disgust and disappointment on his face. I saw it on all of their faces and couldn't take it. I left the room, running up to my room and locking the door. I broke down once again, taking in what had just happened, no matter how surreal it was.
*
I squeezed my eyes shut as more tears spilled down my cheeks. It literally felt as if my heart was being crushed.
I hadn't left this spot for 4 hours.
When I realised that I was actually crying over a boy, it made me cry harder. I can't believe what had happened. The actual fact that I've ruined everything... all because of one tiny mistake.
I cried because I had no one to turn to, no one I could confide in or even talk to... because I had pushed everyone away. How did I get here? My boyfriend hated me, well ex boyfriend, the only friends I had left were disgusted with me, and now here I was. Alone and heartbroken. I should be celebrating the fact I had completed all of my GCSEs and finally left Beckworth Acamdemy, yet here I was, crying.
I picked up my phone, wanting to see if he had called me yet, after I had previously called him, more than 10 times. A fresh set of tears rolled down my face when I realised he hadn't. I shakily pressed his name, calling him. I gnaw on my bottom lip as it rung constantly. He busied me 5 times, but I still called. On the 8th time, he answered.
'What?' The tone of his voice made me crumble.
'T-Tae?' I ask as my voice broke. I hear him sigh deeply as I take in the background noises. 'Where are you? I ne-need to see you, please.' I say, my voice barely audible.
'I said we're done man, I don't want to see you.' He says with a hard tone, making me frown even more.
'Please Tae, just let me explain.' My voice cracks as more tears ran down my face. I threw myself on my pillow as I heard the dial tone and sobbed harder.
I've ruined everything.
**
'Jayda, please just open your door.' Aliyah begged on the other side of the phone.
'I really don't wanna see anyone.' I croak out.
'Give me the fucking phone.' I heard Keiara shout. 'LISTEN, stop feeling sorry for your bludclart self. Open the rass door so me and Aliyah can fucking talk to you. We're your friends, we want to see if you're bloody okay! I'm giving you 5 seconds Jayda fucking Michaels.' She hung up on me. I couldn't help but laugh. I actually appreciated Keiara's harshness, especially in situations like this. I knew it was what I needed.
With my duvet wrapped around me, I travelled downstairs and opened my front door. It was 9pm, Jayden had left to go to some party and my parents were out at some fancy dinner.
Aliyah and Keiara were dressed in skirts and crop tops, looking ready to party.
'I'm missing out on alcohol for you. You will talk.' Keiara had said once we had settled in my room, and I had been silent for a good 5 minutes.
'Sorry for not confiding in you guys. I thought you'd be angry with me.' I eventually say, quietly.
'That's not important. Just explain what happened, cos I'm still baffed.' Keiara gives me a warm smile.
I explain that whole night to them.
'Kalim is out of order, he knew you were drunk and he likes you. Fair enough you should not drink if you can't handle your liquor...' Keiara gives me a pointed look. 'But Kalim knew what he was doing.'
'Yeah, he defo knew what he was doing, prick. Does Dontae know it was just a kiss?'
'No, he won't hear me out. I haven't even explained.'
'I have an idea. I know he's bigheaded and that but he wil get over it. It was just a kiss, that you didn't inflict.'
'But we all know how Tae is. His ego..' I shake my head.
'Well, he at least needs to hear you out.' Aliyah squeezes my hand sympathetically.
'Everyone's going to his tonight, right? After the party. We'll lock you two in his room.' Keiara smiles.
'He wont want to see me.' I shake my head, already knowing how he's gonna react.
'Shut up. Go and shower, make yourself look pretty. I'll pick your outfit.' Keiara pulls me up. I sigh, knowing there was no point in arguing. I felt sick with nerves as I showered, playing out Dontae's possible reactions.
As I walked out the bathroom, wrapped up in my towel I heard Keiara's bad singing. On my bed she had laid out my black halter neck crop top and my black ribbed body con skirt.
'Keiara.' I gave her a straight face.
'What, you'll look pengers and he wont be able to resist you. Im even allowing you to beat when we're in the house.' I shake my head, picking up my ripped, high-waisted black jeans.
They forced me to wear nice underwear as well. I don't know what they thought was going to happen, but they quite clearly didn't know Dontae. It was going to end in tears.
After doing my hair and makeup, Keiara called Jayden.
'Where you lot?'
'...'
'Nah, me and Aliyah got caught up. Is everyone still going Dontae's?'
'...'
'Ohoh, me and Aliyah will be there soon then.'
'...'
'Alright. See you soon.' She hung up and turned to us. 'They're all there, let's go.'
'Maybe I should leave it, he'll talk to me when he's ready.' I stutter, feeling nervous.
'Shut up.' They both say, pulling me out of my room. I groan. On the way to Dontae's we went over some of the things I could say and the different ways it would play out. Apologising wouldn't do anything anymore, it would further infuriate him.
'But it's been like 2 weeks, he has to be ready to talk. Plus it's your 16th soon, our group can't be split up for that.' Aliyah emphasises.
'I know, I know.' I sigh. 'I'm not even gonna have a prom date.'
'Don cry, don be negative fren. We'll sort it out.'
2 minutes later, Keiara was knocking on Dontae's front door. I slightly stood behind her and Aliyah, almost hiding.
'Oi oi.' I let out a breath of relief when Corahn opens the door. He frowns slightly when he sees me which turns into a little smile. He greets Aliyah and Keiara, telling them the boys were in the garden and I heard Keiara discreetly trying to fill him in on her plan.
When it was just me and him in the corridor he engulfed me in his arms.
'I've missed you bares, don't go ghost on me Jay.' He mumbles into my hair.
'Sorry Corey. I was feeling a bit embarrassed.' I admit, inhaling his usual scent. 'I missed you too.'
'You two ain't spoken yet innit?' He asks with a sad smile. I shake my head.
'That's why I'm here today. Keiara's great plan.'
'Yeah I know. You lot just need to talk. Obviously mistakes have been made and that but you two are perfect.'
'What do you mean mistakes? Only I made a mistake.' I frown.
'Yeah yeah, that's what I meant.' I didn't miss the swift avoidance of eye contact or the uneasy expression on his face that quickly formed into a smile. 'You lot will sort it out.'
'Yeah, but I cheated Corahn. He's not gonna forget that.'
'Trust me, it's not that deep.' He dismisses my statement. I frown again, we all knew how much pride Dontae had. This was like the worst thing I could do, and it wasn't that deep?
'Go and wait upstairs then. I'll send him up.' He pushes me in the direction of Dontae's room. I jog upstairs nervously, going through what I would say and how to react. I decided there would be no tears, I wasn't the victim in this situation.
I looked around his familiar room, taking off my jacket and neatly setting it down on the edge of his bed before pacing up and down.
It felt like i was waiting for years before the door creaked open.
Our eyes locked immediately and tension invaded the room. I couldn't read his facial expression. I didn't want to give myself hope but I was certain I saw a flash of happiness in his eyes when he saw me, which disappeared quite quickly.
'Hi.' I meekly mumbled. I internally scolded myself "hi"? He just nodded, keeping his eyes trained on me before sitting down on his computer chair.
'You came to talk innit? Talk.' I let out a deep breath before beginning. I just told him the truth, I didn't sugarcoat it or try to gain pity from him, my eyes were void of any tears.
'So what I'm hearing is yeah, you went to a party, got drunk with a yute I've told you I don't like then lipsed him?' Was what he said after 10 minutes of me talking and 10 minutes of silence.
'If that's how you wanna see it. I know how you are Tae, so I know it's over but I just wanted to explain.' I sigh. He doesn't reply so I take that as my cue to leave. I pick up my jacket and get ready to exit but his voice stops me.
'Come.' I turn to face him with confusion. 'Come here.' He repeats. I drop my things and walk over to him. He did the most surprising thing. He opened his arms and enveloped me, crushing me into his firm chest.
The tears sprang to my eyes as I hugged him back. I sniffed them back before frowning in uncertainty.
He pulls me down to straddle him as his lips attack my neck.
His hands wondered my body as small moans escaped my lips. His lips briefly connects with mine before he lifted my top over my head, his kisses trailing down my neck.
'You know I love you Jayda.' He mumbles, as our eyes connect. I saw the emotion in his eyes, felt how tenderly he touched me and I actually believed everything would be fine.
'I love you too.' I reply, almost whispering. He moved us onto his bed, swiftly taking off my jeans. He positioned himself in between my thighs, planting soft kisses on my jawline, down to my neck.
'Tae...' I built up enough courage to gain his attention. After we had sex, he became all detached.
'Here.' He threw me my jeans, ignoring me. I frown, wriggling them on.
'Dontae, aren't we gonna talk?'
'About what?' He scoffs, Turing to face me. He slips on some jogging bottoms and stands up.
'About us? Where do we go from here? Are we... Together or?'
'Together? You cheated on me Jayda. I told you, that relationship ting is done.'
I frown deeply, feeling like a mug.
'But we just, you told me you love me.' I gulp down the big ball in my throat. I pause my actions of dressing up and stare at him.
'What? Cos we fucked you think i still wanna be with you? I have needs innit.' He shrugs. I draw back at the harshness of his tone, 'fucked'?
'So it's really over? I explained to you and I've apologised but you're not even gonna try to work it out?'
'What's that gonna do? You still went and lipsed next man cos you always get fucking drunk. How do I know you didn't fuck him? You just fucked me cos I said some nice words, what's to stop you doing that with the next man that compliments you?'
'Is that honestly what you think of me Dontae?' I walk so I was standing in front of him. 'I made a mistake, you know I wouldn't ever intentionally cheat on you.'
'Are you taking the piss? You did cheat and I found out from some yute, if he didn't expose you you would've carried on letting me look like a dick'ed.'
'I was going to tell you! I was just scared because I knew you would just end it.'
'Did you really expect me to stay in this relationship?' He chuckles humourlessly. 'You're still mine but this ain't no relationship.' I felt myself get angrier the more he spoke. He had no emotion to his voice, and his face was expressionless.
'No, if it's over then it's over. Don't try to have a hold over me.' I say with a screw. I slid my top on and turned to leave.
'Oi.' He grabbed my hand and pulled me back. 'I ain't joking, don't go running to Kalim. You're still mine.'
'Whatever. Fine.' I say wanting the argument to end.
'And to think I actually felt bad.' He chuckles.
'Bad for what?'
'I was gonna tell you innit. I have a kid.' I looked at him like he had lost brain cells. He had a blank facial expression, and didn't seem to feel any type of way.
'What?'
'I found out around April. She's gonna be 2 soon.'
My mind couldn't fathom what he was saying. I couldn't even come up with the intelligence to try and work out the dates, to see if he had cheated. My whole face dropped as hurt radiated in me.
'And you didn't think to tell me?' I scoff in disbelief, his expression wavered for a second and I saw the guilt in his eyes. 'You're a joke, you are actually a fucking joke.' I leave the room, racing downstairs. Everyone was resided in the front room.
'Jayda?' Aliyah asks.
'Is everything sorted? I heard you enjoying yourself so I didn't-.'
'I'm going home.' I cut Kieara off.
'What? I thought it was sorted.' She says with a confused facial expression. I felt Dontae's presence behind me.
'We haven't finished talking.' He grabs my arm.
'Don't fucking touch me.' I immediately pull away from him. 'Are you guys staying?' I ask Aliyah and Kieara impatiently.
'Um, do you want us to come with you?'
'No, stay if you want. I'll call you later.' I turn to leave the front room.
'She ain't going, don't worry.' I hear Dontae say. As I turned into the hallway, he pulled me around to face him.
'Get off me please. I want to go.' I say without looking at him.
'It's late, come and sleep in my room.'
'Let go. I'm not your responsibility anymore. You don't need to worry about me.'
'Stop being stupid, come.' He pulls my hand again.
'I'm not even joking Dontae, fucking let go of me.'
'You're not going home. Come.' He says stubbornly. I give in, retreating back to his room knowing I wasn't going to win.
As soon as I was in his room, I stripped down refusing to take his shorts to wear. I got into his bed, shuffling to edge of the bed and facing away from him.
'Jay.' I ignored him as he asked if I wanted anything and as soon as the door shut, and I knew he was gone a single tear dropped down my cheek.
Everything has literally been effed up and although I had started it, it wasnt all my fault.
I heard him re-enter the room and I wiped my silent tears. He slid into the bed and I felt him pull me into his arms. I wriggled out.
'Stop.' I sniff but curse as it sounded like I had been crying.
'Jay, I didn't mean for it to come out like that. I was being a prick.' He says quietly, pulling me into him again and turning me to face him. I refused to give eye contact as his eyes scanned my face. I sniff again, resting my head on his chest and allowing him to hold me.
What was I gonna do?
Hiiiii
I'm so sorry for the late uoloaddd😁
I had writers block but enjoyyy
Also, what do you guys think?
Was Dontae right to act like that?
Or was he a complete dickhead?
Does Jayda have the right to be upset?
Or is she just playing victim?
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