Amara's pov :
He look my hand and tried to drag me away from the mansion....as it started to become cloudy already ...thank god ...I didn't make any outdoor plans today ...
But I refused ...he tried to convince me "We can't go back in there Amara ...pls Jaan "
"Why can't we Mann ?"I questioned though I knew the reason behind his actions ...
"U know why "he stated obvious ...
"But I want to listen it from u " I reasoned...he closed his eyes and took a deep breath ....
"Becoz this is the place where I saw u crying miserably ...for the first time....this is the place where I made u hate me....the look of hatred in ur eyes...the pain in ur tears ...everything is still embedded freshly in my memories....I kept this place on sale ....it will be sold in a week anyways ...the realtor already talked to a client "He revealed
I got agitated listening to his last words ..."No way in the hell I'm letting that happen!!! .....this is the place where u ...my Mann... revealed that u are going to marry me ....the place where we both got ready for our Marriage ...and most importantly ....the place that my Mann prepared with his own income in dreams of living together happily with me...."
He looked at me shocked ...his eyes turning red and he gulped looking away from me...
I continued "Did u really think ...I would let u sacrifice this ...just because u saw me crying here? ...let me tell u...I was momentarily happy that day when u said u wanted to marry me .... Until u took everything upon urself and lying that it's a part of ur revenge ..."
"That happiness lasted just for a few seconds "He trailed lowly
I clarified "Yeah...ok...I did cry that day ...but why ?becoz I love u ...why can't u understand ?"
"I know that now ...but still I can't let out the broken image of urs from my mind "He looked down disappointed
My eyes twinkled with an idea "Why don't we replace those memories today ?"
He looked at me confused "how ?"
I shrugged "Make me cry again "
He instantly rejected "hell no...never again...I won't ever break ur heart again !!"
I shrugged again "Then don't "...he looked a bit irritated "Then how am I gonna make u cry ?"...I smirked
"Just so u know ...Breaking my heart is not the only way to make me cry Mr.Rajvansh ...breaking the bed would work too"I revealed
He frowned at first ...but after a few secs ...he seemed to register what I meant ...his eyes widened and his lips parted in shock as he looked at me ...waiting for me to take those words back ....
"U-u mean...we...today ...here ?"He looked at me with questioning eyes ...
"Yep..u can have me completely ....here "I clarified
A delighted smile formed on his lips ...but it lasted only for a few seconds ...as a frown appeared again on his face ...
"Can demand something else too?"He asked with hopeful eyes ...I widened my eyes "Now now Mann....u r behaving like a kid who is asking for an xtra hajmola .....when their parents are giving them the most expensive and tastiest chocolate in the world "
I mean...how needy my Mann is getting....aren't I enough? ...he wants something more ...wtf....I thought he will be like ...on the top of the world ..when I revealed this to him....but look at him being greedy ...
He pleaded "Pls Jaan...pls pls pls "
I huffed ..."ok...say it ...what do u want "...he smiled and asked "U will agree with whatever I ask?"...
I rolled my eyes and nodded ...gritting my teeth ..because this seemed to be more important to him...more than us consumating the marriage ?
He bit his lip ...looking at me calculatively...and nodded negatively ...wtf !!?...
"First promise me ...that u will agree ...no matter what I say "he demanded ...forwarding his palm
Aaah ....this man!!!!he's seriously getting on my nerves now !!!I huffed at him...and put my palm on his "Promise ...ok...now ...tell me ...wtf is that "
He gave me the most widest smile of this day ...my bunny ...fuck....don't melt Amara ....he's a greedy man ...u are angry ...remember ?
"U will see a therapist again ..."he revealed making my world stop ..and couldn't believe that this confrontation is happening in real ..the secret that I have been hiding is out ...
But the rain droplets that fell on my skin made me understand that ..unfortunately ....this is not my imagination ...it's happening in real ...I'm busted ...
"What ...why would I need a therapist Abhimaan?"I asked him trying to act as if I'm alright ....he sighed and looked at me firmly "U didn't open up to ur therapist completely ...did u ?U told her ...u don't have nightmares about ur parents anymore ....but u still do have them ..."
I was left speechless ....because ...I thought I can cover it up well...but who am I kidding ...I can't hide anything for him ....I looked down ...unable to meet his eyes ...
I felt him lifting my head by holding my face softly in his palms...as if I am made of a delicate glass...
He looked at me ...but I am still looking down ..he softly pleaded "pls look at me meri Jaan ?"
I lifted my eyes ...which are already wet to look into his eyes ...which were demanding answers ...
As I looked into his eyes which were filled with genuine concern for me and pleading me to confide in him...I decided to pour out my feelings all in front of him...because I know ...he won't judge me as a weak person ...and I am not a burden to him ...
And as if that's the que ...rain started pouring out too ....but still....it didnt disrupt our moment ....as we were too lost in our causes ...him wanting to heal my inner scars ...and me wanting to put my heart bared infornt of him....
At this very moment ...I felt ...baring my body infront of him seemed so much easier than baring my heart ...
I gulped as my tears fell freely along with the rain droplets that were soaking us ....he still managed to see my tears even in the rain and wiped my eyes softly with the pads of his thumb fingers as his palms are still holding my face ...he nodded ...encouraging me to continue ...
"U-u were right "I choked finding my heart grow heavy at each passing second ...
He sighed and asked "why did u do that ?hmm?"his voice was so soothing and soft...
"B-Because...I didn't want t-to be a burden to u-ur parents ...a-and(sobs )I'm afraid "I broke down
He frowned "what are u afraid of bacha ?"
"T-That...what if .....the nightmares stop ?I -I can't see them again ...(sobs )...I am afraid ...if that happens ...I will forget them ..."I revealed ...sobbing infront of him
His eyes filled with tears making me understand how my pain effects him...
"I can't go to therapy Mann...pls...I don't want to lose them..."I cried..as I tried to convince him ...
He hugged me immediately....securing me safely in his arms ...his bulky body ...hugging my small one ...as if he is hiding me and protecting from the storms of climate as well as my life ...
His arms felt like a warm shelter in the external rain and internal agony
"U might not remember ...but ur mom once told us...how ur dad threatened the doctor that he should give u an injection without making u cry ..or else he will sew him ..."Abhi spoke softly still holding me ...my head shot up...to look at his face ...as I was still cocooned in his arms ...
He looked into my eyes reassuring me that what he just revealed is true ...my tears took a break in sync with the rain
My lips parted taking in the information ...
"And u know ...she said ...ur dad cried ugly when they peirced ur ears "he continued ...making me chuckle "really ?"
"Yeah ...ur mom had to go through severe medications ...and take different syringes ...treatments ...to conceive u ...because she wanted to give ur dad a Lil angel like he always wanted ...and kept going even when ur dad asked her to stop after seeing her in so much pain due to those injections and she said when she saw u for the first time...she felt ...as if u are much more than what she bargained for ...she felt u r worth much more than what she had endured for u "he went on ...making my heart warm
"And ur brother ...he didn't even let us touch u ...he was so protective of u ...he used to carry a small bag with him always which had all ur necessities and he used to wipe ur face time to time with the wet wipes scared of u catching an infection ..."he revealed...making me laugh
"He would have killed Ayaan already if he was alive ...and ...u would have been bestfriends .."I dreamily stated ...
"He might not be alive ...but he is always with u....like a guardian angel...they all are ...they protected u from falling in love with the wrong person ...or worse...getting married to and being abused by Ayaan ...they have always been with u ...and will always be "he stated softly ...making me smile heartfully ...that makes sense ...
"They loved u so much baby ...they will feel so disappointed seeing u holding onto these miserable memories of them instead of holding on to the happier ones ...because they are bringing their little angel misery ...they might feel so helpless ..being unable to hold u when u cry remembering them ...not being able to wipe ur tears....when u cry for them every night ...is that how u wanted them to feel ...hmmm?"he questioned
I nodded negatively immediately ...
"No...I want them to be happy ..."
"How can they ...when they see their little angel being miserable ...haina baccha ?"he spoke as if he was speaking to a 3 yr old ...and I nodded pouting sadly
"What should I do Mann ?"I asked looking at him ...
"Lets go see a therapist ...pls Jaan ?"He suggested and pleaded at the same time....
The fact that this is what mattered to him ...much more than ....having my body made my heart flutter...
Maybe he was right ...my family is still with me....like my guardian angels ...they were the ones who bought me and Abhimaan together ..
I should not make them feel sad...and I will not ....so I think ...seeing a therapist is not bad ..
"Ok ...we will ...together....u didn't seem to have a smooth childhood too and you too have trouble sleeping "I told him
"Well...not anymore....I am sleeping peacefully as long as I have u in my arms "he defended ...hypocrisy !!
I glared at him....he gulped ..."o-ok Jaan ...we will go together...don't get mad "he accepted..making me smile....
I decided to make the mood light ...so I came out of his hug and began speaking "hmm...but I'm still doubtful about one thing tho "
That made him frown ..."what is it ?"
"About u making me cry in bed ?I think...may be it will be reverse ...but it's alright ...it doesn't matter who cries "I shrugged nonchalantly ...knowing very well that it would rile him up
And it successfully did because his gaze hardened ..."Did u just question my capacity wife ?" He spoke dangerously low
I moved closer to his ear and whispered "It wasn't a question...it was a statement..."and with that I bit his ear ...then pushed him away suddenly making his eyes go wide as I ran into the mansion
"Jaan!!!!"he followed behind me....
I entered the living room...as he tried to catch me ..and we did circles around the sofa there as he tried to get a hold of me....we both had playful smiles on our faces ...
I ran up the stairs ...going into the master bedroom.....laughing throughout it as he chased me and I stopped as I entered into the room...I stood near the bed
He entered right behind me as I turned back to face him ...I saw him standing there breathing heavily mesmerized by the decorations that I arranged in this room
Bed :
Bathtub :(he didn't see it yet )
My breathing which was already heavy due to the running became heavier as I thought of what is going to happen now ...
Abhi took his eyes off the decorations ...and as his eyes landed on me...the mesmerised look of his is replaced by predatory one and he closed the door slowly with his foot still looking at me ...
He then slowly began to walk towards me looking at me as if I was a meal ...while he removed his blazer followed by his watch and threw them in the couch non chalantly as his eyes are still trained on me and only me ...which made me nervous.....
I stood still as he approached me while looking into my eyes ...none of us breaking the eye contact ....making my heart go wild ...
He pulled me towards him with a force ...making my chest collide with his ...and my lips parted at his gesture ..
He slowly leaned in making me close my eyes involuntarily ..
I thought he would kiss me...but he started whispering making me frown and open my eyes "jump"
I was confused ...but complied any ways ..by jumping onto him such that my legs are wrapped around his torso as his
Then he suddenly pinned me to the wall with my legs still wrapped around his torso ....making me gasp ...
"Be ready to cry out my name baby"he whispered dangerously in my ear again ..making me gulp my saliva
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Lengthy one ...
I felt they need to deal with their trauma or atleast take a necessary step ...before they became physical ..
U guys gonna get it in the nxt chapter ..
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