Cimani.
Yawning, I stretched as I had to get Chloé up and ready for school, my head was pounding as I had a slight hangover from last night. I winced as I tiptoed to her room, seeing her knocked out. I frowned, she had came in late last night from cheer practice. I knew because we had Life360 and it alerted me when she came home, and what time.
I walked over to her bed kneeling down, "Chlo. Wake up."
She groaned, tossing over in her bed. She sat up and wiped her eyes, she had bags under them and I realized that her computer was still on and it seemed as if she was finishing up an assignment. "Chloè how late did you stay up to finish that assignment?"
"I went to bed around five." I looked around until my eyes fell onto the clock, which read 7:45 A.M
"You can stay home today baby, try to catch up on your assignments after you get some rest. Okay?"
A smile grew on her face as she jumped up, suddenly getting a burst of energy. I caught her in my arms as she jumped on me, laughing along with her. "Thank you! I love you sooo much." She exclaimed, I kissed her cheek.
"Shit if that's how easy it is to get you up Ima start tricking ya' ass in the morning." I laughed as I jogged downstairs to make something quick for us to eat. It was Monday now and I thought we would both take a chill, stay at home day. I had a few errands to run but after that, I planned on staying my black ass inside.
Saint: Goodmorning pretty girl.
I rolled my eyes at the text, for somebody that did not want a relationship Ezriah kept doing things that flings shouldn't do. I debated whether or not I should text him back, and a part of me wanted to but I couldn't decide on what to do. To get my mind off of things, I decided I wanted to go out to get food, by the time I get to the restaurant I should know whether I want to text him back or not. Also I wanted to go out as a way to clear my head, driving always helped clear my mind.
"Chloé get dressed, we're going to IHOP."
"Okay!"
I went to my room to change into something more presentable and I decided to throw on an all black activewear set and white and black hoodie. I threw my hair into a ponytail and grabbed a pair of shades. Although it was nearing the end of September, it was a little chilly but the sun was beaming.
"Ready?" I asked Chloé as she stood by the front door, fixing her hair in the mirror across from the entrance.
"Yes."
We walked outside once we were ready and headed to my car which was parked a little further down the street. Before we fully left off my front porch I checked for my keys and I couldn't find them. I frantically patted down my outfit, it seemed as if I always forgot my keys or was misplacing them. Just as I was about to turn around and head back inside, Chloé's voice stopped me in my tracks.
"Oh so you weren't lying about you and that guy not knowing each other. His girl friend is pretty." She smiled as she pointed across the street. There stood Ezriah and the girl he was fighting with a few weeks ago.
I jumped as I heard my keys fall out of my purse, "There they are." I said but I guess the sound of my keys falling had been heard from across the street because both of their heads turned in our direction.
I can't even lie and say my heart didn't sink to my stomach once I seen them together, I mean we damn near fucked last night and this is what he's doing? I for sure wouldn't be able to do this fling. Nonetheless, the girl was beautiful and overall I was happy for them.
"You okay?" Chloé asked since I had froze up as I bent down to pick up my keys. In all honesty I was just hoping Ezriah didn't see me, because for some reason this was all so embarrassing for me.
"Y-yeah I'm fine let's go."
The car ride to IHOP was quiet, I played some R&B music as we drove but honestly what I just saw clouded my thoughts. I was honestly glad I didn't have sex with Ezriah because the way I felt just off of the head had me rethinking this entire situation. I really thought I would be able to do the situation-ship thing and the way he made it seem, I wouldn't have to be worried about any other females. Which was lie.
What I really wanted to know was when did she get there? Did he text me good morning as she laid right next to him? Did they have sex after we did what we did? A million thoughts ran through my mind as we headed to get food. It clouded my brain so much that everything going on around me felt like a blur and before I knew it, Chloé and I were sitting down to eat.
"You sure you okay Ci?" A concerned Chloé asks.
I contemplated wether or not I should tell Chloé what was going on. She was my sister and told me her deepest darkest secrets, I just didn't want to go too into detail about the situation because I didn't want her to get any ideas.
"Well, the man that we just seen me and him actually do have a little bit of a history." I told her. Which was true after today Ezriah was in the past.
She sucked her teeth as she took a bite of her pancakes. "I fucking knew it Ci! Why didn't you tell me from the get go?"
"Because, it was never anything serious. And today just proved that I'm better off not speaking to him. We clearly want two different things."
Chloé nodded her head as she took in what I just told her. "Explain the situation to me so I can voice my option better."
I cleared my throat before speaking, "Long story short, we want to fuck with each other. But I want a relationship and he doesn't. The only reason why I feel a way about today is because he told me I wouldn't have to worry about any other bitches."
"I get it, it's a respect thing. If he is going to be talking to other females he shouldn't be sitting outside his house knowing you live right across the street."
I wiped my mouth after taking a bite of my pancake. "Exactly! It's like I know for a fact I'm not gonna be the only one because in order to be committed to some one you gotta be in a relationship. But I just wish he at least had the decency to keep us separate. Imagine if I would've went back over there because I left something?"
Chloé's eyes got wide. I forgot to mention to her that I had been to his house. "You spent the night with him?"
"No." I say putting my fork back down. "I went over there for a few hours and we did some things."
Chloé's eyes got even wider. I know she probably was surprised because I rarely told her about my love life. "Cimani, you fucked him?"
I gasped. "No." Almost.
"Oh okay good cause I was about to go to his door myself and rip his ass to shreds."
I laughed, "We just did oral that's all."
"That's still a big deal." She said as she took a sip of orange juice. "Either way it was disrespectful of him to do that. I think you should call the whole thing off, unless you want to go tit for tat with him."
I was big on revenge and making people feel how they made me feel, but I learned that sometimes shit just played out right. I wanted to sit back and kick my feet up because I just knew that I was going to get my lick back, some way some how.
...
It was going on 3 p.m when Chloé and I pulled back up to the house. I avoided looking across the street because like I said, I wanted to forget about Ezriah. "Cimani." I heard a voice call, which sent chills down my spine.
"Chloè, go inside and lock the door." I say as we make it to my doorstep. I couldn't help but notice the bouquet of flowers he had in his hand. He cannot be serious.
Once I seen Chloè was inside I turned to face him with my hands on my hips. "What are you doing here Jared? You already put your hands on me once, what you wanna hit me again?"
His face sunk with my words, "Baby, I promise you I was high. I took a X pill that night because I was going through a lot. I came here to talk to you but you saying you was gonna fuck wit' another nigga sent me over the edge. I love you I would never hurt you baby." He said grabbing my hand.
I snatched my hand away, "You already did. I'm sorry Jared I don't know if I can forgive you just yet. You were somebody I felt safe around, now I feel like I have to protect myself from you."
"I understand. I'll give you time, but just know I'll be back for whats mine." He said as he walked over to me and placed a soft kiss on my lips, I reluctantly kissed back. I felt a little spark within me which made me sigh as I pulled away from the kiss.
"Thank you." I said as I grabbed the flowers from his hand.
"Pose." Was all he said before snapping some pictures of me.
I couldn't help but to pose as he took more, I know it was going to take a while for me to forgive him but I knew he was going to wait. When it came down to me and him, we couldn't be apart for too long. We had grew an attachment to one another and there was no denying that.
Ezriah.
I stared at the picture in front of me and shook my head, I thought Cimani was better than this. Instead of texting or calling me to get an explanation on what happened earlier, she decided to be petty and have her ex come over. Corny. Not that I gave a fuck though, I just hope he knew her pretty ass mouth was just all over this dick.
Okay maybe I was a little pressed, I told her wasn't no other bitches gonna be in the picture and I meant that.
@thecashnigga: At this point we stuck..@SeeMani
Exiting out of the instagram app I sucked my teeth. I was feeling Cimani but if she was going to be childish and not talk to me about shit, I couldn't see myself dealing with her. I knew it was going to be hard to forget because I didn't even fuck her last night and I slept like a baby. Her sex game was strong, but I knew that before I even got her in bed because her sex appeal was on a thousand.
I sighed as I leaned back into the couch, reminiscing on what happened earlier. Maybe I should've handled things differently.
September 27th, 2023. Earlier that morning.
Ezriah had awoken from his drunken slumber and groaned. Not only was he fucked up last night but the way he got his dick sucked put him to sleep faster than the liquor did. He managed to get out of bed and made his way to the bathroom that was connected to his room. He took care of his hygiene and took a long, hot shower for about forty five minutes.
As he stepped out of the shower, he then washed his face and brushed his teeth. His head was still pounding a little so he decided to take and Advil. After he took the pill, he picked up his phone and looked at the time that read 8:30 A.M.
"What the fuck?" He didn't know how or why he was up so early, especially after the night he had. He had plans on going back to sleep so he tried to hurry up and finish what he was doing. Before he put his phone back down he sent a text to Cimani, He wanted to make sure he contacted her as soon as possible because he didn't want her to think he was a dickhead. He knew that girls liked to be chased especially after sexual intercourse but in this case, he didn't mind chasing Cimani at all.
In the midst of him getting dressed he heard commotion down stairs. His eyebrows raised as he quickly slipped on a pair of boxers and a white tee. Once he made it to the bottom of the steps, he sucked his teeth. He did not have time for this today.
"Ayana, come on bro. I have a mean hangover I cannot do this with you today." He face palmed his self as he walked over to her.
"Why the fuck haven't you been answering my calls Saint?"
Her voice was like nails on a chalkboard to him, his head felt as if it was about to explode. "I'm not explaining myself to you because once again, I am single and so are you. Please get the fuck away from my residence before I really do something I regret."
Ayana threw her purse on the couch and folded her arms across her chest, not before bursting into tears. "Really Saint? This how you do me after all we've been through? I hate you."
"Truthfully I didn't put you through anything. I told you what it was from the jump and you chose to fuck wit' me. Bye Ayana for real."
Ezriah didn't want to seem mean or as if he was cold hearted but he saw right through Ayana. She didn't want him for who he was she wanted him because his money was long and his name held weight. It didn't take long for him to realize she only wanted clout. Ezriah would've cuffed her but she showed her true colors early and Ayana is not fit to be anybody's girl friend.
She balled her fists up, her face turning red. "After today you're dead to me Ezriah. Mark my fucking words."
"Good." He exclaimed. He just wanted her out.
She stood there, and did not move. Ezriah sighed once he realized he would have to physically remove her from his property. He didn't want her to make a scene like last time so he decided he had to figure out another way to get her gone.
Walking over to her he grabbed her hands and intertwined their fingers. "You know what baby? Why don't we talk about this over dinner tonight. Just go home, calm down and we'll talk later."
She grinned, "Mastro's or Ruth Chris?" Ezriah knew exactly what she wanted to hear, she wanted him to spend money. Which he didn't mind doing but he could tell that's truly all she wanted from him, she barely got fucked by him and would only nag when she was low on money or wanted to go out.
"It's a suprise." He said as he walked out the house with her, hand in hand.
Ayana on the other hand, felt completed. She didn't really care for Ezriah at all, at a point in time she did love him but eventually she realized he would never fully commit to her and she decided to just use him from then on out. He wasn't the only nigga on her roster spending on her, he just was the only one she had to act out for to get shit out of.
Ayana placed her arms around Ezriah's neck, placing a kiss on his lips. He was taken aback since they rarely ever kissed. He raised his eyebrow about to speak until he heard something in the distance. Looking over, he seen a teenage girl he'd thought looked familiar. Next to her stood Cimani. She had a pair of shades but he could tell that shape from anywhere. Ayana keep rambling but in the moment he couldn't even think. He didn't want Cimani to get the wrong idea, he did tell her she wouldn't have to deal with any bitches.
"Fuck." He groaned as he watched Ayana drive off, he knew he had fucked up big time. The thought of him even trying to explain to Cimani what happened had him stressing already. The way everything just played out he doubted that she would believe him.
He walked over to his front doors, stopping at the two guards that stood outside. "Fuck am I paying ya' niggas for? Keep that bitch away from my crib. She come back here ya'both dead."
He scoffed as he shook his head and locked his door behind him.
I adjusted the Royal Oak Skeleton Audemars Piguet that was on my wrist as I sat outside of the crowded party. My brother and I had pulled up to a barbecue our family was having, this was going to be the last family barbecue until next summer. The entire back yard was packed and half of the people here I barely even knew, my mom was a social butterfly and took in half the neighborhood so I wasn't surprised. Everyone that stepped foot on this lawn had to get marked with a stamp though, just so we knew how many people were actually here and for our safety. This was my mama house and I dare anybody to act a fool.
I had stepped out right quick and stood at the front of the house so that I could make a call.
"Please leave your message—"
I hung up before it could even finish, my calls had been getting sent to voicemail all night which meant that Cimani had blocked me. I didn't blame her, in her eyes she saw something else but I knew what really happened and I just wanted to at least try to explain it to her.
"Fuck you doing out here nigga?" Ermias asks as he walks over to me, a Hennessy bottle in his hand.
I stuffed my hands in my pockets as I leaned back on my car. "Tryna' call Cimani ass, she blocked me."
"Why?"
I shrug "It's a long story but basically she seen me and Ayana, but it wasn't even like that. You know how that bitch is."
Ermias nodded his head in agreeance, "She is crazy as hell so if you say it wasn't like that, I believe you. What I'm tryna' figure out is when did you and ol' girl start kickin' it?"
"Last night actually. Thats what makes this entire situation worse." I said as I looked over to my brother, he's the only person I ever came to for advice and the only person that knew my personal business.
"Damn man, you fucked up but look, I been fuckin' wit her home girl Ashley. I told her to pull up and I doubt she coming alone, you better try to holla' at shawty if she come."
Nipsey's words gave me a little bit of hope, I don't know what it is about this girl but I didn't want to end what we had just started literally yesterday. I wanted more time with her, I wanted to be around her.
...
"You need help ma?" I asked my mother as I watched her struggle to bring the bags of chicken outside. She had already seasoned them she just put them in a few ziplock bags so she could get them from the kitchen to outside on the grill without making a mess.
"I got it baby."
I made my way over to her, grabbing a piece of chicken that was done. "Food good as hell." I said, placing a kiss on her cheek.
"Watch your mouth young man." She pointed her finger at me before handing my aunt the chicken to put down.
"I'm a grown ass man." I laughed before walking away, I knew if I didn't she would've found something to hit me with or throw at me.
After I finished my piece of chicken I headed over to where a few of my cousins, Ermias, and Flocko were sitting. As soon as I walked over there somebody handed me a blunt.
"You want a shot cuz?" My cousin Mari asked, handing me the Hennessy. I grabbed the bottle and as soon as I took the shot thoughts of last night came flooding back to me.
"Shit." I said as I twisted my face up, the taste was disgusting and it was something I would never get used to.
"Hey Hussle." I heard a soft voice say causing me to turn my head. A light skin chick that stood about 5'5 stood in front of us. She was beautiful don't get me wrong but my eyes stayed locked on Cimani. She wore and all black body suit a V line, cutting deep. A pair of Rick owens, a black and white camisole with a Gucci Dionysus crossbody bag.
She didn't even look my way, she had a smile plastered on her face as she greeted everyone. To my surprise she greeted me too.
"Wassup. Can I talk to you right quick?" Ignoring my question she went and sat down. I followed right behind her, sitting directly across from her. Once again she did not even look my way. She looked around the back yard for a little then she reverted her attention to her phone.
Snatching the phone out of her hand, I clenched my jaw and made my way inside of the house. I heard her right behind me, I could tell she didn't want to make a scene because she was whisper shouting.
"Give me my fucking phone!" She said as she hurriedly tried to catch up to me. We made it fully inside the house and I made my way up the stairs into my old bedroom just so we could have some privacy. I looked around and seen a few people had just threw their coats and bags around, I scoffed. Just cause I moved out don't mean this ain't still my motherfucking room.
"Ezriah please, I'm honestly not in the mood to play around with you." She said with a frown.
I locked the door behind us, leading her to the bed. "Just sit down and listen please, just give me five minutes to explain myself."
She rolled her eyes and crossed her arms over her chest. "Why do you want to explain yourself so bad? All you wanted was sex right, well you got a little taste and clearly that was enough for you." She said as she got up, heading towards the door.
I stopped her, "I didn't say just sex and I also told you that you wouldn't have to worry about any other bitches."
She raised her eyebrows and scoffed. "Are you serious? So now I must be blind then. Okay Ezriah, you won you got some of me last night and some of her this morning what more do you want?"
"That's what I'm trying to explain to you ma, I didn't do anything with that girl. She's crazy as you can see that's not her first time popping up at my crib."
She stood there quietly, as she looked at her nails with an uninterested look on her face. "I don't care, it's nothing that you can say to me that can fix this. I think you're a piece of shit and I'm mad I even agreed to go along with your little situation-ship. Forget about me, go be happy with who you really want to be with." She said as she grabbed my hand.
"We're not meant for each other Ezriah and that's okay."
I couldn't help the anger that I felt once I heard her say those words, I didn't want to scare her though so I tried to stop myself from doing or saying some crazy shit. "Yeah maybe you belong with Cash."
She let go of my hand and laughed, "You really are a clown ass nigga you know that? Don't bring up Cash now you have no right to."
"Why not? Instead of asking me about the bitch you decide to go link up with this nigga?"
She threw her hands up and shook her head "Why would I call you and ask you any questions when A: you're not my man and B: I seen it with my own two fucking eyes!"
"Look, it was really nice knowing you Ezriah but like I said whatever we had is in the past. I hope you can respect that."
Was all she said as she walked out, for some reason I felt and eerie feeling. I didn't want this to be the end of the situation we had going, I wanted more. A dangerous feeling hit the pit of my stomach, A feeling that I didn't know would flip almost everything upside down. I had to go after what I wanted though, Always.
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