Chapter 30: My mates
Sophie's P.O.V:
I felt the weight of an arm wrap around me tightly. It was not crushing me, I don't even know how to describe the feeling. But it felt nice. It felt safe. It felt right.
I knew exactly who it was by the grip on me, I could easily tell. Xander was the biggest and even though he didn't mean to, then he had a very tight grip on me, his muscular arms always made me feel so small and safe. Jeremy always had me close, he always held me differently than Xander, it is hard to explain. This was Jessie, her skin was so soft and less muscular than Xander and Jeremy.
Maybe it wasn't even their grip on me that told them apart, their smell was very different too, not in a bad way, but Jessie smelled like roses. I liked that.
I opened my eyes in surprise by being in her arms, not remembering how I got here in the first place. But I relaxed really quick again when I heard Jessie shushing me right above my ear. She was so close that I could feel her hot breath on my skin which made my entire body tingle.
I looked up at her sleepily and gave her a shy smile, she gave me a flirting smile back and laid down again pulling me with her so that she was spooning me from behind.
Her hand that had pulled me close travelled up my side, tracing the outline of my bra up to my shoulder where she leaned closer and left a feather light kiss at that spot. As her lips made contact with my skin I shivered in pleasure, I liked that. enjoyed being in her arms, so safe and so relaxed.
She laid back down again and right after I felt something going up and down my side, it was her fingertips, brushing against my shirt ever so lightly, but slowly moving under my shirt, staying in safe distance from my bra - Probably knowing that now wasn't the right time for me to do that.
She took her hand out of my shirt, slowly pulling it back down to cover my exposed skin. Once again her fingertips ran up my body, and found their way into my hair and I felt her rub her fingertips against my scalp so lightly, giving me a scalp massage.
It felt so nice, so nice that I couldn't stop a moan from escaping my lips. I could hear her let out a smiling breath, as if she was laughing silently enjoying what she could make me feel.
I leaned my head back and felt how my head perfectly fit under her chin in this position. I loved what she did, it wasn't sexual, it was just very relaxing and nice. I have never received anything like this, so it was a big thing for me.
But just then I realised something, an empty feeling. She must have felt my distress because she stopped and leaned closer so that she was hovering above me "They will be here soon don't worry" she comforted me as if she had read my thoughts.
That calmed me down a bit, but then I remembered what happened before I fell asleep. I wanted badly to ask her questions, telling her what i was thinking, making her understand my concerns, having her comfort me and all that, but I couldn't get myself to do that just yet.
She looked me over with a wondering look, probably looking for any cue on what I was thinking on at this very moment. But I didn't dare to ask her, this was all so scary, so fast and so out of my normal world. I run, I don't stay. But I don't want to run anymore. I want this.
Where was I? I wanted to ask her so bad, I wanted to know, but a voice in my head, my consciousness, told me that everything will be okay, don't ask - she will just think you are ungrateful of being here with her and not at home.
Even in my head that reason sounded stupid, but that was what I was telling myself.
"Where am I?" the voice in my head came out loud, it wasn't meant to, it just happened. She didn't seem the least offended, it was just a stupid concern of mine. I knew that already. I should be able to ask them anything, Xander, Jeremy and Jessie - but this all seemed to out of my world to be real.
Jessie sat up in bed and I took that opportunity to do the same and look around seeing my surroundings nervously trying to make connections between where I was and the events that had happened.
I was in a very big room. A very big white room, and it was obviously a bedroom. I was sitting on one giant bed With Jessie. The bed was huge, it had the size of a double-double bed, and that must have been the biggest bed I have ever seen.
The bed was all white, pillow, blanket, bedcover, bedpost... all of it. It was with no doubt the softest bed I have ever slept in, in my entire life. But I felt so at peace and so well rested that I know that it wouldn't be so bad to stay here.
The bed had an elegant metal bedpost which was twirled into what looked like roses, it was very elegant. Beside the bed was a bedside table with a lamp on, on each side of the bed, it was very elegant. The walls had a few abstract paintings in soft colours giving the room a peaceful harmony.
One wall was covered in 6 mirrors beside each other, I had a feeling it was a closet, but I wasn't sure. the mirror gave the white room an appearance of being much bigger than it actually was, it was just beautiful.
White light curtains covered an u-shaped window-arrangement right in front of the bed. The view behind those curtains, I bet that will be wonderful, I have never been in Alaska, but for what I know it should be beautiful.
Either a professional designer had been involved or else Jessie just had a talent for decorating. I like fashion and art and design and architecture and all that stuff. It interests me.
This must be their house in Alaska, that must be it. Even though I knew, I wanted to be confirmed in my suspicions. "Is this your home?" I asked shyly not looking at Jessie but instead letting my eyes wander the beauty of this bedroom taking all the details in as if trying to imprint it in my mind.
Jessie nodded confirming my suspicions. I wasn't looking directly at her, but I could sense her movement behind me. "This is our home" she corrected putting pressure on the 'our' part. This will be my home too? A home, a real home that I can call mine. A home that I will not have to leave right away, at least not for now. I don't want to run anymore. I feel safe now.
"Don't cry" begged Jessie as she pulled me over to her and hugged me tight into her body. I didn't even notice that I was crying before she said it. And then it just became a full blown cry. I wasn't really sure why, but I gave up holding it in and just cried my eyes out.
Happiness because I have a place to call home.
Sad because it's not with my family.
Relieved that I am safe.
Guilty that I left my sister and mom in danger.
I don't know what it was, but I didn't really want to think about it either. I just let it out as she held me tight and traced invisible circles on my back with her fingers as a comfort as she whispered in my ear. I couldn't hear what she said, but I felt her breath tickle my ear and that calmed me down.
The squeak of a door opening sounded behind me, I turn in Jessie's arms in surprise to see Xander step into the room, more like sneaking. Xander looked stressed out but as he looked up and saw us his depressed features changed into happiness. He walked towards us with a big smile on his face, but as he came closer he looked sad again. I didn't want him to see me in this state so I tried to turn around, but without luck, our eyes met.
"Why are you crying princess?" his soft tone calmed me and I instantly wanted to be in his arms. But I didn't want to move and end up causing myself to break down once again. He sat down on the bed and leaned over to us and placed a hand on my back as a small reassuring gesture. Then he placed a kiss on Jessie's forehead and then he did the same to me. It made me feel a little better to be honest.
His hand cupped my cheek "princess, everything is going to be okay, I promise" he spoke softly obviosuly giving up on getting an answer from me. I smiled weakly back at him, his reassuring words made me feel happy, and i was very thankful that he said that. I needed to hear that.
Gently he ran his thumb under my eye as to wipe away the tears. "Even if I have to beat up an idiot or two" he joked with a big smile on his lip. A lame attempt to make me feel better, but it worked. "Yes, that's the smile I was looking for" he cooed at me grinning.
He sat down with his back against the bed post and without asking or waiting for permission he took me into his arms lifted me off Jessie and made me lay up against him instead. He put my head against his chest, and ran his hand up and down my side, he leaned closer and left a kiss on my forehead making my entire body tingle all over again.
Jessie smiled at us and without any words being said she laid down on the other side of him in the same position as me and took my hand, who unconsciously had found its way to his chest and was playing with the fabric of his shirt, and held it in hers.
No words were said, and I liked that. But Jeremy was missing. But just as that thought crossed my mind I felt a hand go around me from behind. I felt complete.
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A/N IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE! - Help me! well at least i have wifi now :) i wrote way more than i intended to about this, but i love writing... so good news is that next chapter will be up june 23 :D thank you guys! you are awesome!!