[OP] Randomly register an account. Posted on January 21, 2017, 23:20:15
I have already forgotten how my conversation with Fu Yan ended that day. Probably he felt guilty, while I remained calm and composed.
After Egg Brother and Fu Yan left in the evening, A stayed at the hospital with me. Since it was just an island, the medical facilities were not well-developed, and there was only a couch for A to sleep on. That day, I was really exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I leaned against the bed and quickly fell asleep. In the middle of the night, I woke up groggily and saw A sitting on the couch, holding a pen and paper while checking his phone and writing something down. The paper was densely filled with writing. I checked the time and realized it was past 1 AM. This couldn't be a travel guide; he usually didn't bother to check. Before, it was always me suggesting places to go, and he would agree.
I couldn't help but ask him, "What are you doing?"
He picked up the medicine prescribed by the doctor and shook it, saying, "These medicines have all the instructions in English. I can't understand them, so I'm checking if there are any precautions. You can't take medicine randomly."
The doctor who prescribed the medicine spoke in English, and when he explained how to take the medicine in the afternoon, we barely understood the dosage and combinations, but when he mentioned dietary restrictions, the three of us were utterly confused.
"Oh," I didn't know what else to say. It was rare to see A being so caring about me.
A is someone who acts on impulse. Occasionally, when he's in a good mood, he might pretend to dote on me for two or three days, but it doesn't last long. No one has the energy to care and dote on someone they don't love every day.
Sometimes he can act very caring towards me, but it always comes with conditions. The last time was when my mom passed away, and this time it was because I fell into the sea. I've tried hard for five years, but I couldn't get a balanced loving relationship. I always have to pay a painful price to tilt his emotional balance a little toward me, and it's all out of pity.
Now, I'm tired, and I don't want this kind of pity anymore.
I don't know what time A went to sleep that night. When I woke up, he was sitting on a chair next to my bed, with his head resting near my pillow, and his right hand was unexpectedly interlocked with my left hand. We had only done this kind of intimate action on the bed before, and I wasn't used to it, so I quickly pulled my hand back.
My action of pulling away woke A up, and he rubbed my hair, asking if my foot still hurt. I shook my head. Then he helped me wash up, had breakfast with me, and took me back to the hotel.
In the afternoon, A and the others went to discuss the medical expenses with the company that rented out the motorboat. I heard that D's girlfriend was good at English, so communication was not a big issue. Later, that company covered my medical expenses. I breathed a sigh of relief because since I had decided to break up, I would need to pay back A when I got back. Speaking of which, I have to complain about foreign medical expenses. I spent nearly ten thousand dollars for that treatment, which roughly translates to 60,000 RMB. For someone who had just started working, it was a huge hole in my wallet, and it wasn't even top-notch medical treatment. There were plenty of problems. I really can't stand it when people say that foreign medical care is better than in my home country. <(￣ ﹌ ￣)>.
That day, I was lying alone in the hotel, feeling extremely bored. Our booked flight was in two days, and for a moment, I thought of buying a ticket to go home the next day. However, when I saw the ticket price had increased fivefold, I calmed down. My mom had worked hard to take care of my sister and me; it's not like A and his friends, whose families had plenty of money to spend. Now, as a new worker, I don't have much money either. Even when I want to be reckless, I have to think about whether I can afford it.
The doctor said I couldn't get the cast wet, so I couldn't take a bath and could only wipe myself. When A came back in the evening, he saw me dragging one leg and holding a towel, not knowing what I was doing. He came over to help me wipe, but I said no. He pretended not to understand and snatched the towel away, intending to help me undress. I didn't have as much strength as him, so in a hurry, I pushed him, and he nearly slipped in the bathroom.
A looked at me in confusion, "What's wrong with you?"
I replied, "I'll do it myself."
A asked, "What if you fall again?"
I said, "I'll do it myself."
A: ......
Me: Leave.
A: ......
A left the bathroom with a hint of anger, slamming the door shut.
A few minutes later, he came back in, looking helpless, and said, "Although I don't know what I did to upset you, please don't be stubborn with yourself. If you fall again, you'll have to go through the whole process of setting the bone and getting a cast again. Wasn't it painful enough yesterday?"
After thinking about it, I realized he was right. I shouldn't stand up; I should sit down and slowly wipe myself.
I looked up at A, "Go bring me a chair."
A went outside and brought in a chair that looked like a couch.
Me: Good, now you can leave.
A: ........
The next day, Egg Brother and the others went out as planned to enjoy their time. I felt guilty because of my situation; it had affected everyone's enjoyment for the past two days. They all had busy lives, working in the company, and whose annual leave isn't precious?
That day, A somehow managed to find a wheelchair and put me in it, pushing me to stroll along the beach. The wheelchair couldn't go on the sandy beach, so we could only observe from the cemented area far from the sea. A pushed me to a higher observation deck, where I could have a panoramic view of the beach.
There were many people on the beach-families with children playing, two young couples cuddling together, and a few friends having fun together. The sunlight was bright, and the sea breeze was gently caressing. The ocean water was so blue, connecting seamlessly with the distant horizon. Occasionally, a few seagulls leisurely flew across the sky, and everything looked so beautiful.
I turned to look at A, who stood in a backlit spot. The sun's halo outlined his well-defined features, and it was this attractive appearance that had initially drawn me to him. Suddenly, I remembered the day I successfully confessed to him for the first time. It was also a sunny day like today. He had just won a game, and as the cheering crowd gradually dispersed from the stadium, we sat side by side in the audience seats. He smiled at me, saying a few words I can't recall now. At that moment, I just felt that he seemed to emit a glowing light when he smiled, and his eyes held stars and the ocean. So I blurted out, "Do you want a boyfriend like me?"
He hesitated for a moment, then nodded and agreed.
At that time, my heart burst into a thousand fireworks, feeling like I had eaten a ton of honey. I thought I was the happiest and luckiest person in the world.
If only time could freeze at that moment, that would be so wonderful. If only life could remain as it was when we first met.
"Do you still remember the first time we went to the seaside together?" A pointed at a crying child in the distance and said, "You, a person almost 1.8 meters tall, got pinched by a crab and almost cried."
"That was really painful!" I remembered when we went to Hainan; I was just casually walking on the beach when unexpectedly I stepped on a crab, and it pinched me until my skin broke and blood oozed out. It took all my strength to hold back tears. Those were not tears of grievance; they were tears from physical pain. Since then, A called me a little crybaby.
Suddenly, many familiar scenes rushed back into my mind-the scenes of us playing games at home, me kicking and hitting him when I lost; the scene of A happily holding me and discussing how to decorate our future house; the scene of him getting drunk and saying he loved me. All of them flashed before my eyes like a movie, quickly running through my mind: Lhasa, Xiamen, Siem Reap... all the places we had been together, everything we had done, passed like a whirlwind.
As it turned out, when it's about to end, I only want to remember the happy moments.
I wonder if A also recalled some emotional memories. He lowered his head and gently kissed my lips. Two nearby tourists smiled as they watched us.
This time, I didn't push him away. At the end of these five years, a farewell kiss-I thought, since we started on a sunny and clear day, it should end the same way.
At night, after washing up and lying in bed, I turned off the lights. A lay beside my pillow, covering me with a blanket. He turned over and hugged me, resting his head on my shoulder while talking endlessly about his plans for tomorrow and the day after. I listened without saying anything.
A seemed to be used to my indifference towards him these past few days and didn't mind. He continued talking about his arrangements. He was talking, and then he reached out to pinch my cheeks. "When your foot heals, we'll take a few more days off during the National Day holiday and find a quiet beach to enjoy ourselves. You didn't have a good time this time."
The night was so deep, and when I turned my head, I could see a glimmer of light in his eyes, illuminated by the moonlight. This serene night, this intimate posture, these tender words, easily made one believe they were true.
I removed his hand from pinching my cheeks, turned my head to look at him, and spoke calmly, "Pei Hao, let's break up."
[1st Comment] Alex is Vanilla-flavored: Ahh, they broke up!
[2nd Comment] Procrastination Syndrome: Waaah, breaking up is good, but why does it make me feel uneasy? (/Д')?゜?
[2nd Comment] I don't trust your shoes: Oh my goodness, the scumbag A is named Pei Hao!!!
[3rd Comment] A Female Pervert: The OP probably didn't use a real name, but the name Pei Hao indeed sounds like a scumbag.
[4th Comment] I'm Using My Brain: ... I'm also named Pei Hao, I don't want to be associated with this jerk... (Xiao Xi, come out, let's discuss and give scumbag A another name, okay?)
[5th Comment] Reversed Beauty: Hahaha, it can't be that coincidental, someone on the upper floor is also named Pei Hao?
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[11th Comment] Thirteenth Master: About foreign medical expenses, my friend in Canada said taking an ambulance costs 2000 dollars (scared.jpg).
[12th Comment] I Live in a Village Hehe: When you get acute gastroenteritis in the US, you dare not go to the emergency room...
[13th Comment] GD's Wife: My heart goes out to all of you living abroad (hugs.jpg).
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[20th Comment] Guo Qing Bu Ru: Perhaps, at the end of each relationship, we just want to remember the most beautiful moments. It's not about how reluctant we are to let go of that person, but rather respecting our experiences and lives, cherishing the beautiful moments we once had.
[21st Comment] Take Me Flying: Xiao Xi, didn't you say that A never told you he loved you?
[22nd Comment] [OP] Randomly register an account: What's said when drunk doesn't count.