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BILLS POV:
It felt amazing to have Regan back. I mean I missed her so much, and I understand what she went through. It makes me sick to my stomach to think how ANOTHER man that's not me treated her like that. I also keep replaying that moment in my head, when Regan was standing on that ledge. Would have she jumped if we were not there? Would I have seen her, blood pouring out of her skull? I swear I would have ended MY life. I would have just died right then and there. I hate to say it but, my life would have been ended if hers did.
We went back to the house, I was kinda frustrated that the boys were being rude to her, like really Tom? Really George? They obviously knew what happened to her. Why were they mad? Ugh I can't even deal with them right now but I had to.
Gustav was driving back to the house, while me and Regan were sitting in the back. She seemed nervous, her leg bouncing up and down, seeping her eyes into the back of the seat in front of us. I put my hand on her thigh, she darted her head to me and smiled a bit. Aggh how I missed that beautiful smile, I could stare at her all day. Not even joking. "Are you not going to eat?" I asked. "Uhh- n- no not right now.." she said, I knew something was on her mind but I did not want to push her to explain.
MY POV:
We were driving back home. Gustav driving and me and bill in the back. I missed this, just hanging out with the guys. Even though if we're not talking and it's just 2 of them, I still missed not having hands all over me, and having to worry about being hit. I'm so glad bill forgave me, I couldn't have asked for more. Oh fuck. George and Tom.. they are probably going to hate me. They won't forgive me. I mean bill did, so they will to. Right? They seemed pretty mad. I got nervous just thinking about it. Bill saw and but his hand on my thigh, which calmed me down a bit. His touch His. Is different, it's so heavy yet light, it leaves me feeling new and loved. I looked into his dark, deep, brown eyes quickly, I smiled a little. He did to back. "Your not going to eat?" He asked. "Uhh- n- no not right now.." I said hesitant at first. I did not want to gain weight, I liked my body skinny. Even though I have not eat for like 4 days or something, I'd like to keep it that way. Bill knew I was thinking about something but brushed it off. Then we pulled into the driveway. My heart started to raise again. Uggh...
TOMS POV:
I heard the sound of a car stopping and, 1- 2 then three car door close. Me and George were in bills side. He's my goddamn brother. My twin, I'm not going to choose him over some slut. Then the door opened. I saw bill at first, I gasped, I haven't seen him all day and I was getting worried. Then I saw Gustav, I mean he was okay, I was still pissed because he left with- "Regan." I say mad seeing her enter the house, I mean it is kinda her house but she was being bitchy to bill. I got off the couch and bill tied to hug me but I passed him up. "Uh- Tom?" He said, then I walked past Gustav, he just scoffed. Then I met eye with Regan, then I got hold of her throat.
"TOM STOP!" Bill said at Regan did not even try to get out of my grasp, she just kept eye contact with me, it kinda made me feel uncomfortable. Idk why. Bill ran up to me and tried to pull me off, same with Gustav, George- he did not rlly care but I saw shock and fear in his eyes, I broke the eye contact and still held her neck, tightening
My grip. " TOM HÖRT AUF, IHR ZU VERLETZEN!!" ( TOM QUIT YOUR HURTING HER!!) Bill said in German, still trying to stop me, but I was stronger than he was, a little bit. I felt a rush of pain run over me. I let her go, making her fall to her knees and breathing for air. I backed up, processing what I had just done. I felt scared of myself. Why did I do that? Why am I like this? She went through enough already.. "N- no.. Regan I'm s- I tried to say but bill quickly pulled off of Regan and turned to me, with tears strolling down his face, and rage in his eyes " NEIN TOM, das tust du nicht! GEH WEG UND KOMME NICHT ZURÜCK!" (No Tom you dont go away and don't come back!- I think..)
He pointed at me, "No- bill I'm sorry!" I say, I really was. Idk what was going through me. "Don't tell me what Tom. Tell her!" He said pointing at Regan, grabbing her throat softly and trying to hold back tears. "Regan I- I'm so so sorry.." I said. - No response - I was standing there waiting for one. About 20 seconds pass and he opens her mouth.
MY POV:
"It's okay tom." I said, coughing a little bit after. Bill looked at me. "WHAT?! Why? AFTER WHAT HE DID TO YOU?!" Bill raised his voice and came closer to me. I scooted back, not wanting him to touch or hit me. Everyone had shock in their eyes, even George. I laughed a little, it was silly to see all their shocked faces. "Yep. It's alright Tom. Nothing new anyways." I said standing up. In a more clear voice. I went to hug him, he stood there, not hugging back. Then I went to the bathroom and cleaned myself up.
BILLS POV:
We all stood there in shock. "There is definitely something wrong with her.." I heard George say.
TIME SKIP 30 MINUTES LATER
We were all sitting down on the couch. We were going to book Regan therapy sessions. Just until she got a better. She walked out of the bathroom with a crop top on and shorts. We were all looking at her, she giggled. I wonder why her moods are changing so fast. In serious situations this this. She had a big smile plastered on her face. And plopped down on the couch next to Gustav. "What's so serious??" She said still smiling. We looked at her and I shook my head. "Ohhh.. can we go to the beach! Or the mall! I want to get new shoes!! PLEASEEE!" She was acting like nothing happened to her, I mean I'm glad to see her happy, But it was weird. We all exchanged weird looks. "No we can't Regan.." I say sighing after. "WHAT?! WHY?! I want too! Fuck y'all." She said, why was she acting like a kid? This is so weird. "Regan are you okay?" Gustav asked. She gave him a -do I look okay- look. "NO. I wanna go to the mall, but these bitches won't let me."
We all were so confused and worried for her. But it was getting dark so the boys left and me and Regan slept in the guest bedroom because she kinda broke ours.
REGANS POV:
I wanted to go to the mall but they didn't let me. Fuckers. They ended up leaving like 10 or 15 minutes after. Then we went to sleep in the guest room cuz I ruined it😊 I sat down on the bed, waiting for bill because he was brushing his teeth. He came back in and saw me messing with my hands. Then looked at my arm and wrist. "Regan what are those?" He said referring to the scars. "Oh uhh- you know just... just idk.." GOSH WHY DID I MAKE IT OBVIOUS AHHG! "D- oh no... really?" He asked getting closer and sitting next to me. His hair wet from the shower, dripping on the bed. "Why Regan..?" He said, his voice cracking. "I- idk.." I knew but did not want him to. "You can tell me, please." I felt bad that Tom knew but he did not. "Uhh- so I kinda wanted to die. So I broke a mirror and... yeah." I said. He gently picked up my arm, and planted soft kissed on them, it felt good, his warm lips against my cold arm. A tear ran down his cheek. He lifted up and looked at me. "Promise me you won't do this again.." I did not respond. "Please.." he said. "Okay. I promise." I said. I can't tell if I was lying or not. But I would try, for bill. "Okay." He said softly then laying down beside me. "Oh uhh- we are going to book you a therapy appointment tomorrow at 3:30 so please get some sleep. I nodded, I did not want to go. But it is what it is. I felt my stomach growling. I'm sure bill did to. I held it trying to keep it quiet even though that's not how it works. "You still haven't eaten?" Bill asks kinda disappointed. "Yeah..." I say. "Let's go eat then. We can cook!" He says sitting up. "Oh okay.." I said. If I eat I'm gonna either slit it out or throw it up.
TIME SKIP
The food was ready. We made eggs and sausage. I sat down with the plate in front of me. Bill sat next to me, "You need to eat." He says looking at me just disgusted at the food. He picked up my fork and put egg on it. And put it up to my mouth. I did not open it. "Come on open." He said. I did and he placed the egg in my mouth, I tried to chew but I ran to the trash and threw up. Idk what I threw up but it was nasty. Bill held my hair back. And grabbed me a towel to clean my face. "Thanks." I says as he nodded.
I tied to eat again but stopped half way. I was gagging the whole time so what's the point. "Good, at least you ATE something.." he said as we cleaned up. "True." We went back to the room but bill stopped me on the way there. I looked at him "what's wrong bill?" I said "are we okay?" He asked "yeah why wouldn't we be?" I asked confused "Well because we kinda you know.. broke up??" He said shyly. "What? No we didn't? U just just said no to the proposal YOU wanted. And I did to." "Did?" He asked "I mean it's okay if u don't. I just hope we work out okay. Yk?" He had a sad look on his face. "So we are then?" "Yes hun!" I said smiling then pulled his face into a deep kiss. He was shocked and I giggled at that.
Then we went back to bed, snuggled up together.
A/N: IM SO SORRY FOR LEAVING YALL!!
BUT THERE WAS A BUT MORE THEN I USSALY WRITE! I'm thinking 1 more chapter, then I'll start a new BETTER story!! TYSM FIR READING STAY SAFE AND HEALTHY BYE BYE😛😛