On the day he accidentally uttered his confession, Sailom immediately packed his bags and returned home. He told Mrs. Ging that he had a personal matter to deal with urgently, and asked to stop tutoring for a while. Mrs. Ging didn't ask too many questions, but if he kept avoiding Kanghan like this, it would be like everything was over. If they're in the same class, you can't avoid Kanghan forever, right? Moreover, now that Kanghan and i good friend Guy are soccer team players, when he asked Sailom to buy water to bring to the soccer field, he had no choice but to face Kanghan.
Kanghan wiped the sweat with his shirt, then raised his head, his sharp eyes involuntarily stopped for a moment because they met Sailom's eyes. He was also uncomfortably embarrassed, but Guy's voice calling him not far away pulled him out of his daze. Sailom averted his gaze and nonchalantly passed Kanghan. Although he has always liked Kanghan very much and this affection grows stronger after the two become close, but he has never brought this up to Guy and Auto. Sailom knows that his friends don't like Kanghan very much, and besides, he feels that there is absolutely no future between him and Kanghan. So right now, regardless of the words he said or the feelings he gave, he had to let go of his hands while they slowly faded.
"I'll pay money you back later." Guy took the water from Sailom's hand and tried to open the bottle, but his hand was sweaty so he couldn't unscrew it. Sailom had no choice but to take the water bottle and help him open the cap.
''Where's your towel?" Sailom handed the water back to Guy, then went looking for the towel he used to bring with him to practice.
Guy turned to look at the second floor stands behind Sailom. He leaned over, took out a large towel from his bag, at the same time Guy poured some water from the bottle to wash the sweat off his face, avoiding the sweat from stinging his eyes. After washing the water, bring your face towards Sailom so that he can wipe it for you.
"Am I your friend or your servant?"
"Take care of it for a bit. I'm a football team player."
"When will they choose the lineup?" While Sailom asked about the starting lineup and reserve lineup of the soccer team for the match, he helped his friend wipe the water off his face with the towel he took out.
"The day after tomorrow, don't forget to come see it."
"Even if you don't come to see it, you can definitely be selected for the official lineup." Auto commented that although he is not a player, he has seen his friend's footwork before and he dares to say that Guy's talent in this field is unmatched.
"It's not certain. If there's a relationship user this time, I might as well be kicked out of the official lineup."
"You mean Kanghan?" Auto asked.
"It's just that."
"What about Nava, heard that he was a goalkeeper before getting injured while playing basketball together, isn't he also applying for the main goalkeeper position?"
Although Auto has nothing to do with this group of players, but also knows a lot of gossip, yesterday Nava was playing basketball during recess and accidentally pushed the player of the friend team who is also the goalkeeper of the blue shirt team. As a result, the opponent broke his arm, causing a sudden accident. But Guy was always recognized as the captain of the blue team, so he asked Nava to take responsibility for his actions, so Nava became the goalkeeper instead of the original goalkeeper. So today, besides Kanghan, his friend Nava, will also participate in training.
"It can certainly enter the official lineup." Guy said.
"Hey....are you praising it?" Auto looked at Guy in surprise, because he knew in advance that Guy and Kanghan's group had conflicts with each other.
"Not that I'm praising it."
Guy fixed his gaze on the teenager in question, and he admitted that Nava was very charming because of his tall and thin build, broad and muscular shoulders, good image, and was loved by many people. Guy himself has seen the ability of the opponent since Nava came to the team to practice as a goalkeeper, but he has always held a grudge against Nava because he is a friend of Kanghan whom he hates to the bone. marrow. Guy in particular was very dissatisfied with Kanghan going to fight with Auto, even changing the subject to Sailom who wanted to save Auto. From then on he directly set up a fortress to oppose the leader of this group.
"But didn't you say someone else was in the goalkeeper position, how could he still be in the regular lineup?"
'' Because there are very few players in the goalkeeper position, Nava can enter the starting lineup even without using the relationship. But as for Kanghan....he was able to pass the selection round, I feel it's just his luck."
Guy shifted his gaze to the right, and that was on the other side of the stands, where Kanghan's group was sitting together. Sailom also had no choice but to look over, but happened to meet the sharp gaze of someone who seemed to have been looking at him for a long time. Sailom saw his lips move, as if he were saying something, but he was sure the person on the other end definitely didn't want to talk to him.
"He said he liked me, but he ended up caring about others."
''What did you say?" Mac asked, he was capping the water bottle Kanghan had just finished drinking, heard his friend mumbling something, but couldn't make it out.
"I said I'm thirsty."
"Didn't you just drink?"
Without waiting for Mac to ask more questions, Kanghan grabbed the bottle of water he had just drank, opened the cap and poured it into his mouth once more before the suspicious eyes of Mac, Nava and the other friends. Until seeing his strange behavior, people asked suspiciously.
"What are you upset about?"
''Do you look at me like you're upset?'' the young man who didn't know himself asked succinctly.
"You look like you're about to hit someone." Nava said while leaning over to dodge, afraid that he would turn into the person in the sentence he mentioned.
"Hey, I really want to hit people." Kanghan once again looked towards Sailom's group, the more he saw him smile at others, the more angry he felt.
"You've never smiled like that before when you were with me."
"What are you mumbling about again?" Mac scratched his head, looked at Nava, and then they both shook their heads.
"I came back earlier." Kanghan finished speaking, stood up, packed his things and went home.
'' Huh... didn't you just say you wanted to go find something to eat together?" Nava yelled, though at first Kanghan himself said that he's been bored lately so he asked them to eat together. , but in the end he was the first to escape.
"I'm not going anywhere, I'm lazy."
"Who stepped on your tail?"
"I'm not a dog."
But now he is no different from a rotten dog, who says he likes him but laughs with others, dealing him a fatal blow.
Kanghan was so upset that he couldn't continue to watch the scene where Sailom and Guy were together. At the same time, Sailom suddenly felt his chest lighten and looked in his direction to see the teenager walking out of the soccer field with his school bag on his back. It seemed he had accidentally lost something, even though that was not his intention.
"Are you feeling unwell? Why are your eyes so red?"
Guy stood in front of Sailom and shifted his gaze from Auto to his face, as he saw that Sailom had been silent for a long time. Seeing the languid appearance of Sailom, whom he always considered strong, Guy couldn't help but ask.
" Nothing." Sailom immediately denied it, and Auto gently touched his friend's forehead with the back of his hand until he felt a rush of heat.
"Did you get wet in the rain yesterday?" Auto remembers it rained last night and he nodded in acknowledgment after being asked. Auto let out a heavy breath.
"Then go home and eat and take medicine. Leave it alone for too long, it will get hotter."
"I don't get sick that easily."
"It's strange not being sick, do you know you're hot?" Guy heard that and urged and both insisted to take Sailom home. Because Sailom easily felt guilty, knowing that everyone went home in a different direction, they had to get him home first.
Sailom normally doesn't get sick easily, in the past, although he had very little time to rest and worked hard, he rarely got sick. However, recently his physical and mental state was very abnormal, so he didn't sleep well at night, and all of this made his body weaker than ever.
And Auto's warning was fulfilled the next morning....
As the alarm blared in his phone, Sailom struggled to open his eyes, his head was so heavy it was hard to lift off his pillow, his slender hands fumbled suspiciously, grabbed the phone and switched it to mode silent. Staring at the screen of his phone for a moment, his eyes were stinging with tears. He slowly propped his weak body on the bed, afraid that if he woke up late, he wouldn't be able to go to school in time. But then the symptoms of the disease became more and more obvious, he coughed until he was shaking non-stop, he shook his head, his head was heavy and painful, as if someone was holding him back, he could only give up.
From the beginning his intention was to get out of bed, shower and get ready, but then Sailom could only use all his strength to send a message in the chat group consisting of Guy, Auto and himself, saying that he wanted to. I asked for a sick leave, asked them to notify the teacher for an hour, then fell down on the bed exhausted and fell asleep, hoping that when I woke up, my body would recover a little better.
Kanghan went to school early in the morning, the result was that Sailom was nowhere to be found until the first lesson started, he became depressed again without knowing why. In fact, he couldn't sleep last night, remembering the scene when Sailom said he liked him, until he almost forgot a few days ago that he had confessed to Pimfa.
It was not until the teacher of the first subject took attendance that he heard Guy loudly tell the teacher that Sailom was uncomfortable and wanted to take a sick leave. Kanghan just heard about this, he didn't know why he was so restless, wanted to go over and ask about Sailom's condition, but he didn't know what identity he should take to ask for an answer. Because if the other party asked him why he wanted to know, Kangham also knew that he himself did not know how to answer.
In his heart was born with anxiety, mixed with sadness, but he did not know where it came from, he could only blame Sailom in his heart, because the confession that day made him as uncomfortable as So. But seeing Sailom and Guy have such a good relationship, as if they had crossed the line of being a good friend, made Kanghan feel...
Maybe..... Sailom didn't really like him like he confessed.
He wanted to be like before he knew Sailom, to push his story away from his mind. But that night Kanghan had a reason that could be used as an excuse to come to his house to find him. Lying quietly in Kanghan's backpack was a Thai book, this was the report the teacher told him to do. I don't know if it was fate, or someone ordered it, but he and Sailom were assigned to the same team to make report.
Kanghan stared at the closed door for a few minutes, then took a deep breath as he prepared to knock. But the door opened from the inside first, appearing in front of him was a tall man with a slightly surprised expression when he saw him. Kanghan immediately remembered that this was Sailom's brother, and greeted him first.
"Hello, is Sailom in the house?"
Saifah also joined hands to greet him. But his gaze was drawn to the luxurious watch on his left wrist. Before, he knew, this friend who came to help Sailom was not like his poor scholarship recipients, but this time after researching and considering, he discovered that the person in front of him was most likely to appear. came from a noble family, moreover they were embroidered on Kanghan's chest which made Saifah feel very familiar, like he had seen or heard of it somewhere before.
But when a interrupted voice sounded behind him, all of Saifah's thoughts had to stop.
The sound also made Kanghan turn his head and glance over his broad shoulders. Then he saw Sailom come out, his face as pale as paper.
"A friend of yours has come to visit you." Saifah nodded towards the person still standing at the door.
Sailom caught a glimpse of his brother's shining eyes, because he knew from a young age that he could see through all of the other's thoughts with one glance.
"Aren't you in a hurry to get to work?" Sailom didn't say anything, forcefully pushed Saifah out of the house, until Kanghan could only step aside to give way.
''You came to visit him?" But Saifah didn't make a fuss, turned his head to ask Kanghan
" Yes." Originally, he came here to complain to Sailom for causing chaos in his mind, but at this moment, his heart was confused, he could only nod and say yes.
"Then let's take care of it a little more, since this morning, it has not eaten nor taken medicine."
The patient accused by his brother could only stand there and avoid Kanghan's fierce gaze, as if he had done something wrong. Seeing his brother out of sight, Sailom turned his head to stare at the person who had just entered the house and closed the door for him.
" You..."
''Why are you sick but still don't eat or drink? Are you a kid? Must be so stubborn?"
Sailom wanted to ask what the other party was doing here, before he could ask, he was scolded until he shrunk his neck and ran away.
"Say it? If you don't take medicine, you can't get sick, right?"
"I can't eat. Because I don't eat, I don't dare to take medicine, fearing that my stomach will be scratched when I'm hungry." Sailom whispered in reply.
"Even if you're smart, you know that taking medicine on an empty stomach will harm your stomach, but you don't know how to eat rice....so good."
After saying that, seeing the patient standing there with his head bowed, Kanghan's voice couldn't help but soften. This was their second meeting after Sailom avoided him, and he didn't feel uncomfortable at all, or rather he always felt very comfortable around him.
"Did you come here to scold me?"
His eyes were red with fever, and the look of resentment made Kanghan's heart soften. At first, he was going to scold him for not taking care of himself, but Kanghan restrained himself so as not to be rude, and also restrained his usual violent temper.
"You and I are going to do a presentation together in Thai, but you don't go to school today."
Kanghan put his backpack on the ground and said. He walked into the kitchen and seemed quite familiar with the place. Although this was his second time here, when he saw the lunch box still closed and the medicine bag still beside him, he took the food out of the box and placed it on the plate that was upside down on the shelf next to the sink. The room was so small that he only needed to take a few steps to check every corner, except for Sailom's bedroom, he could only see the door open slightly.
''Let's eat here first...Hurry up!''
Kanghan saw the unwillingness of the other party and had to repeat it again. Normally Sailom was always the one to arrange everything for Kanghan, but when him was sick, he was like a child in his eyes.
Sailom walked over with pouting lips, willing to sit down and have a decent meal. Kanghan started from the medicine bag to rearrange the medicine, then he sat on the side to supervise, until he saw that the rice in the plate was half empty, and Sailom now looked sick, so he didn't either pressure, just bring the medicine he has already divided and give it to you.
"Get the report out and do it quickly. When you're done, go home." Sailom said after taking the last pill.
''I'm not in a hurry.''
"But then you'll be home very late."
"If it's too late, I'll sleep here with you."
"Can you stop joking around?"
Sailom also wanted to say 'Can you stop playing with the feelings of someone who likes you?' But fortunately, he managed to keep his mouth shut in time.
"Get the report out. Try to get it done before the potion takes effect."
Kanghan didn't intentionally prolong the time when he thought about the time when Sailom should go to rest. In fact, it was not difficult for him to see the contents of the report from the very beginning, and planned to do it himself. But in his heart he wanted to find an excuse to come see Sailom. But his mouth didn't follow what he thought, so there was no way to say it directly.
But after a few minutes, even Kanghan noticed, Sailom became so tired that he couldn't lift his eyelids. They were sitting so close, Kanghan could even feel his body temperature, he intimately reached out his hand to rest on the boy's forehead wanting to check his body temperature a bit, but frowned.
''You're so hot. Did you take the temperature?"
"Before you come, take a measurement. The temperature is not very high, after a while, you will cool down."
"Then do it now, I'll do the latter part of the report myself. When it's done, I'll check it out for you."
"I don't want to take advantage of you."
"Where are you taking advantage of me? Because in the end, if I make a mistake, you're the only one who corrects it."
Sailom listened attentively to his advice, but his symptoms did not improve and the medication he took made him want to rest.
" Go to sleep." Kanghan stood up and held out his hand in front of his opponent Sailom frowned.
"Tell me to go to sleep, what do you stand up for?"
"Let me wipe you first, then put you to bed later."
Sailom shook his head, but a stubborn person like Kanghan couldn't give in.
"Want me to carry you to the bedroom?"
"The more you talk, the more shameless!"
"If you don't want me to carry you, then take my hand and stand up." Kanghan's hand lightly touched his slender fingers, until in the end Sailom had no choice but to compromise.
Kanghan took Sailom to the bedroom, then went to the bathroom to find a basin to get water, took a small thick towel to dry on the shelf, and returned to the bedroom. But as soon as he placed the basin of water on the bed, Sailom narrowed his eyes at him as if to find fault.
"I won't use a rag to wipe you off."
"I'm afraid you got the wrong rag."
Kanghan had no choice but to bite his lip to suppress his laughter. He could swear that he had never seen Sailom so cute. But now I don't know who has a fever to the point of delirium. Because he was currently watching the other person take off his shirt, his face turned red as he looked at him non-stop.
It's really cute!
" What exactly did you do to have such a fever?" Kanghann took a wet towel and carefully helped Sailom wipe his body, one side to reduce his embarrassment, so he found a topic to talk about.
"Get caught in the rain."
"Why didn't you bring an umbrella? Didn't I give it to you already?"
"Who knows if it's going to rain?"
"Isn't it because of me that you're sick?"
Sailom glared at him, matching his four eyes. But the respondent replaced the answer with silence. However, when the healthy hand touches the smooth skin that is warm with fever, the patient's body heats up again.
At the same time, the person who should have been as calm as water also began to become speechless. In fact, many times Kanghan completely forgot about himself, only loyal to his inner need and desire to get close to Sailom. While absentminded, the fingertips accidentally touched the opponent's skin, Kanghan's hand lingered for a long time, wanting to prolong this time a little longer. He almost wanted to sink into it, even though he was muttering in his heart that he had never had any other thoughts than being friends with Sailom.
" Take a break."
Kanghan left the bedroom after cleaning Sailom's body, because he was beginning to fail to identify his feelings in his heart, leaving only dark eyes watching him. Then the drowsiness and the effect of the drug hit, Sailom helplessly lay down and fell into a deep sleep.
It's unknown how long it took, but when the medicine started to take effect, his body temperature returned to normal, Saillom's dark and bright eyes slowly began to move, and he could see a little light reflected from the outside onto the ceiling. He glanced at the clock on the wall, it was three in the morning.
Sailom frowned, thinking that Kanghan must have gone home. But just as he moved his slender hand, trying to use his strength to prop himself off the bed, he bumped into a strong arm. Sailom was startled, quickly withdrew his hand, and then his eyes fell on this sleeping person, as if he wanted to keep this face in his heart.
Although he confessed to Kanghan and told him everything, Sailom's feelings did not diminish one bit. On the contrary, even when he moved all his belongings home, Sailom still felt very clearly that his feelings were getting deeper and deeper, and life without him by his side not even a few days had passed, making him feels very alien.
Nostalgia and worry made Sailom involuntarily move his face closer to Kanghan, close enough to see the thick lashes over his tightly closed eyes, close enough to see the contours of his lips. But at the moment his thin lips were about to cross this distance, Sailom regained consciousness once more and sat up straight.
"I don't even dare to kiss you, because I'm afraid you'll feel disgusted if you find out."
Sailom smiled as he looked at the sleeping person with complicated emotions, a kind of affection that surpassed even the word "like".
"You ask me...is it because of you that I'm sick. But to be honest, I haven't slept much since that day, afraid that you will be angry, afraid that you will dodge So it's not even good for me to choose to run away from you."
It is unknown how others will deal with this situation, but as for Sailom, he is not deeply in love yet, so when choosing between facing or hiding, he would choose the latter, not just out of self-protection themselves, but also because they are afraid that what they say will destroy the other's feelings.
"I'm doing my best so I can give up on you."
Sailom choked with difficulty, knowing that the other party could not see, but still tried to smile.
"But this is not an easy thing, that's why I have to stay away from you for a while."
Falling in love with someone is very easy, just for a moment, but to let go of a part of love is very difficult, because sometimes we may need to take a lifetime to be able to forget someone.
"So you don't have to like me in return, as long as you...don't hate me."
Sailom sat staring at Kanghan's face for a while, then decided to turn around and lie down again. Honestly he didn't know that less than a minute later, the cold eyes under the thin eyelashes gradually opened, Kanghan looked at the teenager who knew absolutely nothing, whether it was his confession or his actions almost kissed him, Kanghan knew very well.
" But what are you saying? Sailom wants to give up on him?
Just thinking about it made him mad!
Although he was furious that Sailom had made the decision without giving him any chance to negotiate, right now, his rock-solid heart on the issue of homosexuality was pounding furiously. Kanghan had to put his hand on his chest to comfort himself and calm his heart, because he had heard all of Sailom's words. Unlike last time it was simply a like, this time it was like emphasizing over and over that Sailom's feelings for him were much more than that, perhaps so much that he couldn't even imagine.
Over the past few days, Kanghan tried to ignore Sailom's feelings for him, but he couldn't explain his actions either, in fact, Sailom has a huge degree of influence on the feelings his.
But the wind has experienced a lot of suffering, it could have become a hurricane capable of sweeping away all obstacles ahead. But it turned into a gentle wind that slowly blew towards the windmill, never leaving to let the surroundings of the windmill become cool and comfortable. Even though many times the wind will let the windmill continue to move and wait for the opportunity to blow towards the windmill, the wind will also struggle and suffer because of the windmill, but it still does not stop.