(Zainiel's Official portrayer above ^ But feel free to imagine kung anong mukha nya ( ◜‿◝ )♡ )
Blair Zainiel Santiago
"Im sorry if haven't been here babyy." Sabay yakap ko kay Gianna. It's been long since I've hugged her.
"Tita Zain you look good in your outfit po! One day I will wear that too po!" She said looking at my outfit.
Im only wearing my casual outfit tapos di pa ako mukhang mayaman and i feel comfortable like this.
"Aww baby gusto mo bang matching tayo?" Tanong ko kay Gia. And she jumped of happiness.
"Yes po tita! basta kasama po natin si mama na mag matching!" Sabi nya habang tinuturo nya si Miss Athena.
"No need Gia-" I didn't let her finnish instead I agree with the little one.
"How about we buy one now? We'll have so much fun!" Sinabi ko at kinarga sya papunta sa balikat ko. "Yay! Let's go na po mommy!!" Di' ko ba alam kung ako yung tinatawag nyang mommy eh pero basta it melted my heart.
"I'm really sorry Santiago she just loves being around you." paliwanag nito sa'akin at syempre me being me napa hagikgik ako sa tawa, at nang napatingin ako sa kanya ay parang gusto nya na ako patayin or kaininng buhay....
Kainin ng buhay? smirk smirk
Di' pa man ako naka pag salita ay hinampas ako nito sa braso. "Aray ko naman po, sakit nun ah." Sinabi ko habang minamasahe ang braso na hinampas nya, para ba naman sya boxer na mang hapas akala mo di ako nasaktan.
"It's your own fault Santiago let's just go." Singhal nito sakit at wala akong magawa kungdi sumunod sakanya.
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Ilang oras naman ay natapos na kami mag shopping at makakapag pahinga na din ako. Nag lakad kami papunta sa kotse ko at nilagay ko na ang mga pinamili sa trunk ng kotse ko, nang may biglang sumulpot.
"uhm excuse me miss, uhm i wanna ask if you're uhm singl-" DI' napatapos nung lalake yung sasabihin nya ng biglang lumabas si Gianna sa kotse sumunod naman si miss-ma'am.
"Momma why are you taking so long po?" Sinabi nito at sabay yakap sa hita ko. "Mommy keeps waiting on you po." Dagdag pa nito. Ano ba gagawin ko dito sa sitwasyong ito.
Tumingin ako kay miss-ma'am at naka sandal lamang sya sa gilid nang kotse ko parang wala syang pake. Bigla itong lumapit samin at pinapasok si Gia sa kotse, "Love are you done flirting with him? We need to go." Sabay pasok sa loob ng kotse.
"Sorry dude but i'm married." He looked disappointed but i just left him and went inside the car. "What the hell Zain?!" She whisper yell habang pinag sasapak ang aking braso.
"A-aray ko naman po, I didn't even flirt whit him what the- I even told him we're married." Trinay ko masabi sakanya habang nag bibigay ako ng explanation ko habang nang hahampas sya.
Harder my love, mhhh...
What the hell i'm I thinking what the hell lumalabas pag ka harot ko pero basta si miss-ma'am haharot talaga ako syempre sya na yan pero bakit ngayon parang ang sungit nya.
"Did you give him your number Santiago?!! Answer me!" Sigaw nya at nagulat ako sa pag sigaw nya. Ramdam ko na papalabas na ang luha na kailangan kong pigilan.
"Mommy why did you shout at momma?" Rinig kong tanong ni Gia pero di ko na pinatuloy ang usapan nila at lumabas ako ng kotse para ilabas ang mga luha na kailangan ilabas, naalala ko nanaman ang mga sigaw nang nakaraan, parang hindi ko na kakayanin di' na ako makahinga ng maayos, Naninikip na ang dibdiban ko ng may naramdaman akong kamay na hinawakan ang kamay ko,nagulat ako at lumayo ako dito.
"Calm down dear, breath.... Do it with me come one. Inhale.... exhale...." She said massaging my back.
Nag pa-panic attack ako? I tried to keep my calm like she said naramdaman ko din na nag tighten ang pag hawak nya sa kamay ko at naramdaman ko din ang kanyang kamay sa aking pisngi. "Shhh.... love I didn't know." Sinabi nya while she caress my face.
"Y-You shou- Shouted at me.... *sniff* Y-You hat-e me na? I-im s-o- sorry." Sinabi ko habang trinatry na hindi ma-utal. I took a large breath.
"I... I explained everything naman b-but you... you shouted at me.... di' mo... naman yun kailangan ga-gawin...." I tried my best para sabihin sakanya iyon.
"I know and im sorry na okay, I love you." Sinabi nya at niyakap ako nito.
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Ilang buwan na ang naka raan simula nang nangyari iyong pang yayari na yon.
Di na masyadong busy ang schedule ko kaya nakaka pasok na ako ng maayos, and last week na rinig ko ang news na binili daw ni dad itong university, I don't know why he needs to do that pero it's stupid.
Wala sa mga student dito alam na s'ya ang father ko dahil hindi iba ang ginagamit nyang last name.
Santiago, Benedict Zackjie Veneracion. Thats his whole name, di isang beses ko narinig yang pangalan na yan dahil palagi kong naririnig sa mga TV interviews.
"Zain! Lika dito, may papakita ako." Rinig kong sinabi ni Jane kaya lumapit ako.
It was a school news paper.
Mr. Veneracion the new President of UCLE will Announce his great four kids and make his one and biggest surprise.
Tonight 7:15 pm
September 16
I was surprised by the news, Di ko naman gusto nang public appearance I hate this, I need to talk to my stupid father.
"Sa tingin mo may pogi sa mag kakapatid?" Tanong ni Jane, ako na yan charz. Sympre si Chyper na yan.
Chyper took Business and Engineering.
(A/N: Grabe ka na Cyph.)
Napilitan lang naman syang kumuha ng Business dahil kay dad. At syempre pressured sya dahil doon parin sya nakatira sa bahay ni dad. And i can't do anything about it dahil it was his choice.
Later that night......
Nagbihis ako nang pormal dahil sa "Event" na sinasabi ni dad.
Naka suot lang ako ng black long sleeve polo and all white suit kasi estetik ako.
"Mama sama na po kayo please?" Pilit ni kuya kay mama as always my mother is stubborn, she has her reasons naman. She doesn't want to see my father.
"Ayaw ko Vince kayo nalang nang kapatid mo." Sagot ni mama kaya nag interfere nalang ako.
"Kasama dun si ate Vienna at si Ziljan." Sinabi ko at syempre nabuhayan si mama kaya sya napa oo ko sya.
Galing ko talagang anak.
"Zain grabe ka na kay mama. Basta anak nyang hindi pa nakikita pupuntahan nya parang di tayo anak eh noh." Reklamo ni kuya.
"Reklamador ka naman." Pang asar ko sakanya.
At tinignan nya ako nang masama.
Eugh creepy shi.
NASA event na kami. Kasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko with my big brother, I know he's supposed to be with the business people pero he found them too old fashioned people and boring.
"Pogi naman ng kuya mo Zain." Rinig kong bulong ni Jane. Anong pogi dyan? mukha syang tubol.
"Baliw ka na ba Jane? Anong pogi dyan mukha naman syang tae?" Singhal ko sakanya.
"Rinig ko yun Zain." Tinignan naman ako ni kuya.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, Were here tonight for the grand and out new beloved President of the school! Let's welcome Mr. Benedict Zackjie Veneracion Santiago!" Excited na sinabi ng Host.
Nag buga nang madaming palakpak ang mga tao dito sa gymnasium. At ako naman nag papanic na sinabi pa nya yung last name ni dad.
"Wait father nyo yung president netong univ?" Sabay na tanong nilang tatlo.
Nagsitinginan naman kami ni kuya at nag oo nalang sakanila. At bago pa sila makapag salita ay syempre nah salita na si dad.
"Good evening everyone Thank you for this wonderful night and for welcoming me but before we head straight to the main event lets first eat up and drink to serve as my celebration." Sinabi nya sa mga tao at nairita naman ako sa pag ka peke nyang pagka tao.
"Zain kalma ka lang." Naramdaman ko ang kamay ni kuya sa kamay ko.
Iniiwasan ko nalang lahat ng mga pang yayari at di ko namanlayan ay tinawag ako ng ama ko para kumanta sa stage.
"Let's give it up for Zainiel Flores!" Thank god he didn't use my last name.
He handed me the mic and told me to be good.
"Good evening everyone, I will uhm... dedicate this to my life. Let's play it!"
On queue:
Family Line By Conan Gray
[instumental]
My father never talked a lot
He just took a walk around the block
'Til all his anger took a hold of him
And then he'd hit
My mother never cried a lot
She took the punches, but she never fought
'Til she said, "I'm leaving, and I'll take the kids"
So she did
Na alala ko mga panahong nag aaway sila ni mama every single day na uuwi sa dad afterwork or after na uminom sya. Palagi syang sigaw ng sigaw at palagi nya kaming nasasaktan ni mama.
I say they're just the ones who gave me life
But I truly am my parents' child
Scattered 'cross my family line
I'm so good at telling lies
That came from my mother's side
Told a million to survive
Scattered 'cross my family line
God, I have my father's eyes
But my sister's when I cry
I can run, but I can't hide
From my family line
I hate how ate changed nung kinuha sya ni dad, she never wanted to be with him pero na brain wash sya ni dad, he manipulated ate Vienna. Lagi ako nag rarant sakanya noon pero wala na sya nung nasa senior year na ako ng highschool, Na manipulate na sya ni dad at na complete brain wash na sya ni dad no'n.
It's hard to put it into words
How the holidays will always hurt
I watch the fathers with their little girls
And wonder what I did to deserve this
How could you hurt a little kid?
I can't forget, I can't forgive you
'Cause now I'm scared that everyone I love will leave me
The first time na nag pasko kami ni mama at ni kuya na wala si dad at ate, is always the most hurtful event that happened to us dahil nasanay kami na palaging masaya ang pasko at palaging kasama si ate at dad di ko man lang na enjoy ang pasko na yun dahil i was only 15 years old he took ate from us.
Scattered 'cross my family line
I'm so good at telling lies
That came from my mother's side
Told a million to survive
Scattered 'cross my family line
God, I have my father's eyes
But my sister's when I cry
I can run, but I can't hide
From my family line
From my family line
Oh, all that I did to try to undo it
All of my pain and all your excuses
I was a kid but i wasn't clueless
(Someone who loves you wouldn't do this.)
All of my past, I tried to erase it
But now I see, would I even change it?
Might share a face and share a last name, but
(We are not the same.)
Naiiyak na ako pero hindi pu-pwedeng umiyak dahil mahahalata ni dad na tungkol sakanya ito, everytime i reminisce the time na kaming tatlong mag kakapatid palang na palaging pinapagalitan at inaabuso ni dad palagi namin iniisip what if hindi nalang sya ang naging ama namin. People say me and ate look alike probably because i hot most of dad's facials like eyes, lips, nose. Same with ate, we tried to remove our last name dahil di namin matanggap si dad no'n pero mahal namin sya.
Scattered 'cross my family line
I'm so good at telling lies
That came from my mother's side
Told a million to survive
Scattered across my family line
God, I have my father's eyes
But my sister's when I cry
I can run, but I can't hide
From my family line
From my family line
Natapos ang kanta at nagsipalakpakan naman ang mga tao na umatend ng event ni dad. I hate this public performance.
"Thank you miss Flores. Now let me Announce my four wonderful kids." Excited na sinabi ni dad pero wala akong emosyon na tinignan ito.
Sa tingin mo maganda at pogi anak nya?
Sana akin nalang anak nyang babae
i can't wait
Yun ang mga narinig ko sa mga tabi ko pero di ko nalamang pinansin dahil alam kong wala namang silbi yan sa buhay ko.
"Let's welcome my greatest and eldest son, Vincent Zander Flores-Santiago!" He announced his name with confidence and power as always.
"Now lets give her a round of applause, the youngest CEO, Zyphrel Vienna Santiago!" Sana naman hindi halata na favorite child noh? nakaka irita.
"And oh my lovely daughter, the one who keeps giving me hope each day my loving daughter, the successor of two businesses. Blair Zainiel Flores-Santiago!!" Ang lakas ng sigaw ni dad na napa takip ako nang tenga at tinignan ako neto habang umaakyat ako ulit sa stage at tinignan ako with full of inspiration.
Napaka peke mo dad.
"And my one and lovingful son! Cypher Ziljan Williams-Santiago."
Maka lipas na din ang ilang minuto ay may ia-announce pa daw si dad. inaproach nya din kami ni kuya at syempre ako di ko sya kinausap, marami din lumapit sakin at nag tanong ng number ko at kung totoo ba sinabi ni dad. Nakita ko din si mama na kasama nya si ate Vienna halata na tumitingin si ate habang nag sisign ako ng kung ano ano ng mga taga ibang department.
"May i have everyone's attention? I would just love to say that my 2 children are getting married!" Narinig kong pag kuha ng attention ni dad.
"Vincent is getting married with Athena Thalia Lorenzo! And Blaire is getting married to Samantha Reagan Gonzalez!" Nahulog ko ang baso na hawak ko at same din si kuya.
"Zain... i.. i di-"
"Kuya...." Di ko pinatapos ang sasabihin nya at lumayas na dun.
Sumakay ako ng kotse ko at di ko tinignan o di ko manlanb inisip kung saan ako pupunta, napansin ko din na may sumusunod sakin nat nakita kong si miss-ma'am iyon. Pero wala akong pake at lumayas na ako dun.
Di' ko alam kung paano ako nakakapag drive ng maayos sa dami ng luha at pag labo ng mata ko, pupunta ako sa safe haven ko duon ako mag sstay ng ilang araw, buwan, taon who knows.
Palabo ng palabo ang mata ko at mabilis rin ang pag takbo ng kotse ko. Ni daan di ko mapansin pansin kong may dumadaan va o wala pero wala na akong pake, kung anong mang yari ay mang yayari.
Di ko namalayan na na lose control ko ang manibela dahil may napa daan na motor at napa dausdos ako sa kalsada, Natamaan ko ang isang poste na ilaw ang nilalaman. Nangiyak ako sa sakit ng ulo at katawan ko, naramdaman ko din na may tumusok sa braso ko.
Nakita ko rin ang rider ng motor tinanong nya kung ayos lang ba ko. Baliw ba tong hayop na to?
Nandidilim na ang paningin ko hanggang sa nawalan ako ng malay.
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A/N
Hi loviess! sarap talagang mag chill dito naawa ako kay zainiel kaya pinatay ko na, jokeee, pari sa school nag susulat ako ng chapter kasi why not diba. 2576 words yung na consume pero sulit pag susulat pabawi na din sa mga short chaps. Love you guys and good night 😘