homecoming

biological clock is ticking

Lena's: POV
Last night was everything how my Godmother's surprise me by showing up at the house. I couldn't help but noticed how Stef was playing with Maya Alex and Olivia's little girl
I've been thinking a lot about expanding our family
Since I had the twins ten years ago, Stef never tried to have a baby. We decided since I was younger l would have our first child, l think we revisit the conversation again
Stef is in the shower l'm not sure how to approach the conversation. She comes out the bathroom looking sexy as hell, l can't help but have these naughty thoughts that rolled around in my head. Babe you look enough to eat
Lena licked her lips, l said to Stef she drops her towel
And l look at her naked tone body. She walks over towards me, and slides in the bed next to me and begins kissing every inch of my body, love slow down l say to her
As she wraps her lips around my nipple and sucks gently
I run my fingers through all her long blonde hair. Honey l been thinking lately, seeing you with Maya tonight melted my heart. Lena States, baby what were you thinking about
Stef looks up at me with those bluest eyes of hers, you know how we harvest the remainder of my eggs l want us to have another baby the kids are older now but I think you should carry this time Lena said. Stef stares into my eyes, baby l don't know but we can try to get me pregnant
I don't wanna get your hopes up in case things don't rule in our favor. Let's finish this discussion tomorrow and let me make love to you right now can I do that Stef asks me
I pulled the cover down, we rarely use toys during our sexual activities. We're not lacking in the bedroom our sex life is mind-blowing, l can't begin to put into words it's something I don't know how to describe. Stef always makes me feel wanted and desirable, she makes sure l'm comfortable with everything we do in our martial bed
Oh God she took my clit and bite down on it. I cry out in pleasure, mmm just like that baby l'm so close don't stop Lena feels cumming long and hard. She had to catch her breath, Stef was so good at oral sex. Now Addy was something else I didn't cum this much when I loss my virginity to her at sixteen years old. I was inexperienced at the time, l guess she was the fact she a lot older than me
She was in college and I was in high school. Addy made my first time memorable, she taught me a lot about making love to a woman back then. When she was told she had non hoskins lymphoma, l watch Addy go through thirty two rounds of chemotherapy. Until one day she stopped her treatments cause she was tired, three months later l received a letter from her parents telling me that she had died. It literally scattered my world upside down
We had plans to go to Paris on my eighteen birthday
I went to London and stayed for two months. Something l felt she wanted me to experience on her behalf, l saw a lot during my time there. Losing was extremely hard for me to process, l closed up my heart to loving anybody who l would come into contact with, l was cold towards people it wasn't until I graduated college from medical school and one of my friend Abby introduced me to this woman named Stephanie Foster. She was beautiful attractive with a smile that made my heart beat faster, l was still grieving Addy's passing. I don't think I was in love with her
It was probably puppy love l felt. Stef it was a different feeling, it took me a long time to let her in. She was patient and kind towards me and she never allowed me to give up, Stef taught me the true meaning of the word love
Of course life took us on emotional journey of self discovery. I was scared to love her the way she deserves
Because I kept feeling what we were doing was wrong
I talked to my Godmother's about how I was feeling
They reassure me l shouldn't be ashamed of loving someone of the same gender. No matter how many times l pushed her away, we broke up for a whole year
That's when I realized I pushed to far, subconsciously l didn't understand that's what I was doing. We got back together again and l took that time apart to work on myself, l even went on a spiritual journey. No many how many times l prayed and cried out to God. to be help me to be normal, l couldn't run and hide from my sexuality
I grew up hearing about in church it was a sin to be gay
My own mother couldn't accept this new me. So I finally gave up trying to please everyone around me and focus on me and my feelings alone, when I got that moment of clarity. I accepted everything about myself old and new
It wasn't my job to get others to approve of the new me