That night I didn't get much sleep. I spent the night staring at Dwaekki and thinking about my feelings for Hyunjin.
I was hoping that if I thought about it long enough I'd realize that I didn't actually have romantic feelings for him, that it was just the closeness that we're force to have. I'd realize that I was crazy for even thinking for a second that I could actually like him and I would laugh about once our contracts we're over and show is done.
Of course, that wasn't the case. In fact it was the exact opposite. The more I thought about my feelings the more real they became. I mentally cursed myself every time I remembered a new memory of when he made my heart flutter or my face blush.
I was eventually able to settle down enough to get some sleep. I kept Dwaekki close to me as I snuggled under the blankets that we're starting to feel a lot warmer than they did when I first got here.
When we got to the venue that day Soeun met us in our dressing room. I look around for Mr. Wang but he wasn't there.
"Where's Mr. Wang?" I asked.
She frowned, "He's dealing with a situation,"
"What happened?" I said.
"Some group of crazy fans tried to break in here before the panel," She said rolling her eyes, "Apparently they really hate the fact that you're with Hyunjin. But it's nothing to worry about. There's no way they're getting in now."
I'd be lying if I told you that didn't scare me. I couldn't help but think of what might've happened if they would've succeeded with they're plan. What even was they're plan? What did they plan on doing to me?
"Anyway that's not important right now. I have to talk to you about the event," She started and we all took a seat, "Not to worry you both but this is going to take a lot of acting. I need you to work with each other here. You will be mostly improvising but I want you to pay close attention to what each other says so that you don't contradict each other. They'll mostly ask you questions about your relationship. So things like favorite date spots, You're favorite song to listen to together, you're plans for the future. Just try to give the audience what they want."
I nodded. This is one of the times our acting is really tested. That's why we were hired. Because we're actors, not just because people think we look good together. I was actually kind of excited. I tried to think of it as less of lying and more of putting on a performance. It made me feel better and I was excited to act.
Neither of us had any questions so we went straight to hair and make up. About 5 minutes into getting my make up done I heard the door opened. When I look over I was surprised to see that it wasn't Mr. Wang but two of the other couples on the show, Mark and Haechan and Felix and Changbin.
my eyes widened as I stubbled and greeting and they smiled at me.
"Hello, we wanted to come say hi," Said Felix.
I had of course talked to the other couples in passing but we're not the closest. It's not because of anything bad I was just nervous. I had always wondered if they even liked me because I'm part of the only couple on the show that's faking it.
Felix and Haechan took a seat next to me Mark stood in the doorway while Changbin went to greet Hyunjin.
"How have you been?" Haechan asked.
I smiled, "I've been good, what about you two?" I said.
"We've been good. We came by because we usually visit the other couples all the time but we realized we never come see you and Hyunjin," Haechan explained.
I nodded in understanding.
"Are you excited for the panel?" Haechan asked.
"I'm a little nervous actually," I admitted.
"Why?" Haechan asked and Felix elbowed him.
I laughed.
Haechan's eye went wide, "Oh I'm sorry, I completely forgot about that. You two are such good actors."
"Thank you," I said, "and it's fine, it's not like it's a secret- Well actually it is a secret."
Felix and Haechan laughed and I did to. It was fun to finally have a full blown conversation with the other people on the show.
"would it be okay if we exchanged numbers?" Felix's asked.
"Of course," I said, Pulling my phone from my back pocket.
I gave my phone To Felix so that they could put their numbers in.
I looked over to see Changbin and Hyunjin having a conversation, Mark at at some point joined in and was sitting on the couch with Hyunjin. I couldn't help but wonder what they were talking about.
"Okay well we should let you finish up, I'll add you to our group chat okay?" Haechan said.
"Yeah sounds great, see you later," I said and waved good bye as they all left.
I got my hair and makeup finished and Hyunjin's was done quickly as well. We still had about thirty more minutes before we have to get on stage. I sat down next to Hyunjin which made him look up. I decided I'll take this time to learn more about him.
"If the fan's ask simple questions like you're favorite things. I at least want to give them the correct answer. What about you're favorite color?" I asked.
"I don't have one just pick a color," He said, finding his phone more interest than me.
It's seems like since the trip to the amusement park, he's been trying to distance himself from me. But despite my better judgement, I decided to fight it. I wasn't going to let him push me away like he always does. Call me crazy if you want to, because I can't even explain why I'm doing this.
"Come on, you have to have a favorite color," I pestered.
"No I don't," He said coldly.
"Mine is yellow, it makes me feel happy," I said.
Hyunjin sighed and looked at me again. I gave him a pleading look.
"grey," He said.
"Grey? why grey?" I asked, just happy that he was finally responding.
"It's calming," He said, sitting back on the couch.
I nodded and smiled.
"Is that all?" He said.
I Ignored the rude comment that I would've gotten pissed over before and answered his clearly rhetorical question.
"No, I still don't know much about you. What about you're favorite food. Or you're favorite movie. What about y-"
"Jeongin," He cut me off.
"What has gotten into you, this isn't important," He said.
"Yes it is," I protested.
"How is any of this relevant in anyway," He said with a mean glare.
I was started to angry at this point. Why does always have to be such a jerk. Just when I thought we could get along.
"Oh I don't know, maybe you get to know you better," I shot back.
My voiced raise slightly which made Hyunjin more annoyed.
"Exactly my point, you don't have to do that. Why are you wasting my time?" he said.
He had also at this point raised his voice. I stood up and wanted to let him have it.
"Well maybe I li-"I stopped dead in my tracks.
I was so lucky to have caught myself. I don't want to know what would happened if I hadn't. I was still extremely shook up from almost shouting my confession to him in front of him and the rest of the staff in the room who were pretending not to listen to out argument.
I had completely lost all of my anger and looked at Hyunjin. He has sporting a confused look.
"You know what, it doesn't matter, I apologize," I said and bowed to him and the staff before leaving the room and going to the bathroom.
I ran inside and began to finally catch my breath. I wanted to splash my face with cold water but I didn't want to ruin my makeup. instead, I quietly reprimanded myself in the mirror.
"Yang Jeongin you must be crazy," I whispered, "Pull yourself together!"
Eventually I reentered the room where Hyunjin was sitting with legs crossed laying back on the couch. He was writing something in a small notebook. I sat down in a chair on the opposite side of him and going through my gallery to look at pictures of me and Seungmin.
I hadn't seen him in a while and I miss being around him, as crazy as he is.
"Here," I heard Hyunjin say.
I look up from my phone to see him holding out piece of paper from notebook he was writing in. I took it from him and look at it.
It was a list. A list of his favorite things.
I read it diligently.
color: Grey
food: I don't have one
movie: Train to Busan
Animal: I don't like animals
music: Classical
place: My office
clothing: formal attire
movie genre: action
drink: Black coffee
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I could help but snicker at myself as the list was just as serious as he was. What psychopath writes down classical music as a favorite genre. still it was nice to know.
I noticed that the last one had been crossed off but I could still read it. It said person. His favorite...Person? I was dying to know, but it was clear he didn't want to write it down once I had finished I looked at Hyunjin, who had been watching me read.
"Thank you," I said with a small smile.
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A/N: Hey lovely readers back from another hiatus. Either way I hope you enjoyed this chapter and as always have a lovely day. Oh and happy new year!