A delicious smell filled your nose and you opened your eyes. You were still in Felix's bed and the light was already shining through the blinds of the windows.
This delicious smell seemed to be calling out to you and you recognised it instantly. Excitedly, you got up, only to realise your bottom part was still naked. You gulped as the memories of last night came flooding back to you, your cheeks instantly heating up. God, it had felt so good. But deep down you secretly wished it hadn't stopped. That Felix hadn't been content with just eating you out. Sex had always seemed kinda scary to you, but now that you'd had a taste...
'Smells good, Lixie!' Changbin said cheerfully as he walked into the room at the same time as you did. The entire house seemed to be smelling strongly of Felix's brownies that he had just gotten out of the oven. 'Good morning, y/n,' Changbin greeted you, wrapping his arm around your neck and pulling you in a headlock so he could kiss your head.
'Binnie! My hair is still wet!' you giggled as you tried to get away from him without any real effort.
'Oh, are we wrestling again?' Chan said as he walked in. You instantly spotted the dark circles under his eyes, but he seemed cheerful enough.
'Yeah, you wanna have a go?' Changbin replied, releasing you. Chan bent his knees and made grabby hands at you as he growled. You squealed as you tried to get away from him but he had already pounced, catching you before you could reach the door to the balcony. He pulled you from the ground and lifted you up, throwing you over his shoulder like it was nothing.
'Channie!' you squealed, pounding your fist on his broad back but unable to hold in your laughter.
'I'm sorry Changbin, did you say anything?' Chan acted, turning around and facing Changbin, you still over his shoulder as he held your legs securely.
'I didn't say anything? Did you say something?' Changbin played along.
'Channie!' you repeated, still hammering your fist on his back but he took it like it was nothing.
'There it is again! I could swear I heard something. Maybe I'm being haunted,' Chan said, faking thoughtfulness.
'Got yourself a new bag?' Hyunjin asked as he walked into the room. You couldn't see his face but you had spotted his pink fluffy slippers entering the room.
'Oh, yeah, it's the latest design,' Chan said, feigning seriousness. He turned like he was modelling for Hyunjin. 'Do you think it suits me?'
'Looks good, can I borrow it sometime?' Hyunjin chuckled.
'Sure!' Chan said, 'But be careful, it's one of a kind.'
'CHANNIE!' you squealed from the top of your lungs. You stretched out your arms and slapped him straight on his butt.
'Oof, spanking first thing in the morning. Good start of the day,' Minho said as he entered the room together with Han. Laughing, Chan finally put you down on your feet again carefully.
'You alright?' he asked quietly as he saw you blinking a few times. You could feel the blood rushing back from your head after being upside down for so long.
You blew a raspberry at him and he laughed before he let go of you, confident that you could stand on your own two feet now.
'What did I miss?' Jeongin asked with a yawn, as he came walking into the room.
'Not much, I think the brownies have cooled down enough now,' Felix replied with a smile as he put the brownies on the table. 'Don't forget to leave some for Seungmin guys,' he added quickly as everyone attacked the large oven rack at once.
'Should've been here,' Minho said, his mouth already filled up with brownies.
'Where is he?' Jeongin asked, looking around the room like he could pop out of nowhere.
'Dunno, but it's nice to finally have some peace for a bit. God, I've developed a nervous tick since he's gotten that new ability. I keep grabbing my phone and I keep waiting for the radio to start blasting again,' Changbin said with a shiver.
'I believe he had a night shift last night,' Chan said informatively. Han nodded, agreeing.
'Sleeping in on a Saturday tho. Such a shame,' Han commented, clicking his tongue, judging.
'What will you do today?' you asked him out of curiosity.
'Grading papers,' he replied bitterly. 'Twenty-five of them. Not that I expect them to be any good since they're all from my tutoring class.'
'Sucks to be you,' Hyunjin said, slapping him on the back with a grin.
'Didn't you have a client meeting to attend or something?' Han bit back.
'Yeah, I do,' Hyunjin said, his face dropping instantly. 'I'll have to go all the way to Busan, so I won't be back until Sunday night, you guys.'
Changbin and Felix looked at him compassionately.
'What will you be doing this weekend y/n? I was thinking maybe we can go to the fun fair?' Jeongin proposed.
'I would've loved that but I have a massive essay I have to write and it is due next week, so I better finish it this weekend,' you said, pulling a face. Jeongin looked slightly disappointed but he nodded understandingly.
'And I'll be in the gym since you're all so interested in me,' Changbin said jokingly.
'I think I'll join you, I've been slacking off lately,' Chan said, pressing his lips together.
'You have,' Changbin agreed with a straight face. Chan pulled a face at him which made you giggle.
Back in your room, working on your essay went better than expected. It helped that the subject was one you liked and already knew quite a lot about, making the writing easier. You didn't even mind that you had to look up some stuff for it, and before you knew it you had already finished half of it.
Feeling like it would be okay to finish the rest tomorrow, you stopped and decided to take a break. All of the guys were probably out of the house right now or busy, and besides, you didn't want to bother them with anything. You drummed your fingers on the keyboard of your laptop, thinking of what to do.
A picture on the wall caught your eye and you looked at it. It was of Felix and Hyunjin, the two of them a mess of limbs as they had fallen asleep on top of each other after a very intense game of Just Dance. You grinned at the picture.
You had wanted to thank Felix for last night but it had felt slightly awkward to do so with everyone there this morning. Your mind drifted off to the memories of last night. It had just felt so good...
You bit your lip. So far everything that had happened with all of them had gone so well, better than expected. You had decided to take charge, be true to your feelings and what you wanted, and it had turned out well. Even when you had had no idea what you had been doing, Han had guided you through it, teaching you in a way that hadn't felt awkward at all.
You were happy it turned out well, but with the way things had been going, and the way you had been feeling lately, you knew more would happen. And you looked forward to it. A lot.
But there was just one little thing...
You had seen those movies and tv shows with bombshell leading ladies who were confident in their sexuality. Not afraid of what anyone might think and just living in the moment, enjoying every bit of it. You wanted to be like that. You strived to be like that.
But the thing was...
Those women always seemed like they knew what they were doing. Like they had experience, knowledge...
You didn't have either except for the sex-ed you had gotten in high school, the conversations you had overheard between giggling girlfriends and some very spicy movies and shows.
So far you had been winging it, and it had worked.
But chances were, that if you wanted to take things a step further, it'd probably be good to know a little more... Maybe do a little research...
Your heart was pounding in your chest and you could feel your ears getting hot. It wouldn't hurt, right? Doing a little digging? You swallowed and looked at the door of your room. Maybe you'd lock it just to be sure. You quickly got up and locked the door before sprinting back to your laptop again. With your heart beating loudly in your chest, you opened your browser and let your finger hover above the "P" button. You took a deep breath and pressed it, before typing the rest of the word.
The rest of the day you spent locked up in your room. You knew no one would bother you for food as they all would be busy anyway and they would all eat something quick separately at a time that was convenient for them.
Research was... interesting, to say the least. You knew very well that porn wasn't at all an accurate representation of real sex, but you still wanted to try it out and watch some. You tried out different genres, some you enjoyed, others you quickly shut off as you realised it was not for your tastes. You also discovered that there was a whole world of writings and webtoons that had explicit details in them. These also sometimes seemed to be far removed from reality but some were actually quite interesting and resourceful. Every now and then you made a mental note about stuff whenever you felt that familiar ticking feeling between your legs when you read something you liked. With every character, or every visual, you couldn't help but imagine one of the guys, and it made your heart pound and your thighs clench together. You also found some honest blogs, talking about real sex and what it was like, explaining experiences that were good but also bad in an educative way.
However educational it was, by the end of the night, your panties were absolutely soaked. You had read somewhere that it was quite important to be able to satisfy yourself too, for how else could you show others what you wanted if you did not know what you liked yourself?
Feeling slightly nervous, you looked up a fiction that contained tags you liked and started reading. Slowly, you let your hand drift off between your legs, and without even realising it you started playing with yourself, teasing yourself slightly by rubbing circles just above your sensitive spot, as Felix had done.
It wasn't too hard to imagine all the things you had read. You remembered Changbin's thigh between your legs vividly, and the friction it had given you... The way Felix had eaten you out so good, it made you like putty in his hands... The way Minho had curled his finger inside of you, making you want to scream his name...
It didn't take long for you to come undone by your own hands.
It felt great, amazing, addictive, but...
It wasn't the same as when you had been with the guys.
It simply wasn't as good...
It was slightly harder to focus on your essay on Sunday. Your mind kept skipping back to all your other "research" you had done the previous day, and you were still curious to learn more.
You forced yourself to work on school for as long as you could, until you realised you had been stuck on a blank page for the last five minutes while staring at a picture on your wall of Changbin winking at you and showing off his biceps playfully. At the time you had taken that picture of him, it had just been a silly fun thing to do. But now, that same innocent silly picture suddenly made you feel all kinds of things... Imagine all kinds of things...
You decided to abandon your studies for the day, feeling like you'd done enough and realising your focus was already lost anyway.
Instead, you locked the door of your room once more with pink cheeks and returned to your laptop, heart beating fast...
-xxx-
'Oh, y/n, haven't seen you all day,' Han said, surprised when you pulled out a chair at the kitchen table before dinner.
'Oh, yeah,' you replied, trying to keep a straight face, 'I've been... studying.'
It wasn't really a lie.
'Why does it smell burnt?' Hyunjin asked from the hallway. Apparently, he had just gotten home.
'Oh, hey Hyunjin,' Minho greeted him as he just came from the basement, carrying a basket full of clean laundry. 'Yeah, Changbin and Jeongin are cooking.'
'Ugh, I should've gotten take-out instead.' Hyunjin scowled as he kicked off his shoes and followed Minho into the living room.
'Oh, you're back,' Seungmin said as he came walking down the stairs into the living room and spotted Hyunjin. The two greeted each other as Minho quickly ran up the stairs to put away the clean laundry before dinner.
'God, what's that smell?' Seungmin asked as he moved to sit next to you and Han. Han simply nodded at the two men that were standing in the kitchen, their voices frantic whispers as they seemed to be quite stressed about something. Seungmin pulled a face and you laughed.
'Hey, sweetie,' Hyunjin greeted you as he walked into the kitchen as well after dropping his bag on the couch. He kissed you on your head before going to sit next to Seungmin.
'Food almost ready yet?' Felix asked as he walked into the room. You and Han both shrugged and Felix looked at the stove to see who was cooking. His mouth made a silent "oh" before he quietly sat down next to Hyunjin.
'No, I think it should be fine, right?' Changbin whispered a little too loudly to Jeongin.
'Need some help, guys?' you asked, unsure, praying to god you wouldn't have to starve tonight.
'Nope!' Changbin said cheerfully.
'We're fine!' Jeongin shouted.
There was a loud noise coming from the stairs as Minho and Chan were chasing each other downstairs. Chan was giggling and Minho had a playful grin on his face.
'I swear-' Chan threatened with a laugh.
'Ha! I'd like to see you try,' Minho taunted him before running across the room and beckoning Chan challengingly.
Chan grinned widely and made a few feints, before storming towards Minho to grab him. It was a very close call and Minho escaped him only just, laughing as his chaser chuckled, running after him.
'What's with them?' you asked Han as the five of you looked at the two guys playing.
'Oh, you never know with them,' he shrugged with a smile. After a minute or so the game they were playing seemed to change, and suddenly Minho was chasing Chan as he shouted all kinds of taunts at him. You couldn't really make sense of it, but it wasn't an unusual thing for them. It often happened that some of the guys were playing with each other some type of game you didn't at all understand. You didn't mind though. It was maybe even one of your favourite moments with them. Them just acting silly, you not understanding but seeing the joy on their faces and hearing their laughter, it was the most precious thing in the world.
Eventually, the two were both out of breath and decided to call, whatever it was, a truce before they sat down at the kitchen table as well, still panting and smirking at each other.
'Next time, I swear-' Chan chuckled but Minho laughed and he shook his head.
'No way,' he said, panting slightly but grinning.
'Food's ready!' Jeongin called from the kitchen.
'Oh god, who's cooking?' Minho asked, suddenly realising.
'Who do you think?' Hyujin said dryly. Minho scowled and Chan pressed his lips together, trying not to laugh.
Jeongin came rushing over to the table with a large pan of something that looked very brown. Changbin followed him quickly, carrying some side dishes, most of which you had no idea what it was.
'So, we tried something new,' Jeongi said proudly, Changbin nodding happily next to him. You could feel the tension at the table rise instantly.
'Erm, it didn't go quite according to recipe, though,' Jeongin continued, scratching himself behind his ear sheepishly.
'We wanted to try this European dish, but then we realised we were missing some ingredients... Well, most of them, so we had to swap some stuff out for other stuff. I guess it's kind of an experiment. But I bet it will taste fine!' Changbin added quickly when he saw your concerned faces.
The two of them sat down and started loading their plates with all kinds of stuff. The others lingered slightly, taking an unusual amount of time to fill up their plates and looking questioningly at every single dish, however not daring to ask what it was as they didn't want to insult the two cooks, nor were they sure if they actually wanted to know.
Changbin was already eating when everyone had finally filled up their plates. He chewed it away easily, seeming to enjoy it quite a lot. However, Changbin was never a good measurement to test whether the food was good or not since he ate almost everything.
All of you looked at Chan who seemed to be the first who dared take a bite. He carefully popped the food into his mouth and chewed. You held your breath as you looked at him. Chan swallowed, looked at his plate and then looked at Changbin.
'This is actually pretty good Binnie,' he said genuinely surprised.
'Twod yew,' Changbin said with a full mouth and a grin. All of you sighed, relieved, and started eating as well. Chan was right. It was actually pretty good. You had no idea what you were eating and it probably wouldn't make it to your top five favourites, but still, it was nice.
'Who's turn is it to pick a movie?' Chan asked after all the dishes had been done away with and you were getting ready for movie night.
'Mine!' Hyunjin said happily. Minho groaned and Hyunjin gave him a death stare.
As usual, you lingered a little, waiting for everyone to find their seats first so there wouldn't be a fight over where you'd go to sit.
Felix, Hyunjin and Changbin huddled up together. Jeongin and Minho sat together, talking about something, and Han and Seungmin were discussing the latest game they had played together.
'Oh, sorry,' Chan said as he re-entered the living room after coming back from the toilet. He noticed you standing behind the couch, holding your phone, pretending to be texting. He raised his eyebrows at you with a soft smile, his way of asking whether you wanted to sit with him. You smiled and nodded at him.
Together, you cuddled up at the edge of the couch, Chan with his legs stretched out as his back leaned against the backrest, his arm around you with you beside him, knees pulled up as your head rested on his arm, a blanket covering you both. You could feel the eyes of the others boring into the back of your head for a moment, but you didn't mind it.
'Everyone ready?' Hyunjin asked. They all hummed their agreements simultaneously and Hyunjin pressed play.
As expected, it was another nineties romance movie and you were impressed that he had managed to once again find one you all hadn't seen yet. The story was sappy, sweet and predictable, but still cute.
However, after about half an hour into the movie, the theme seemed to shift slightly, and the scenes became spicier and more explicit. Before, you had never really cared about watching those kinds of scenes with them, but now...
You looked up at Chan who seemed to be unbothered by the scene as he stared calmly at the screen. You couldn't help but wonder how he'd react if it was him in the scene instead, together with you...
You felt heat creep up between your legs, and you quickly lowered them, stretching them out like Chan.
The scenes returned to normal again and you just started to feel like you had it under control when another hot scene started playing.
You gulped silently.
Very slowly, hoping that no one would notice, you turned your head, trying to see the others. They too seemed quite unbothered by it. Their positions had changed though. Changbin, Hyunjin and Felix were huddled really closely together, their blanket barely able to cover all of their legs, and even Jeongin, Han, Minho and Seungmin were now sitting closely, leaning against each other, or their arms wrapped around each other's shoulders.
You quietly turned your head back to Chan again, looking up at him.
His jaw was relaxed and his face neutral.
You pulled your gaze from him and tried to focus on the movie, but the heat between your thighs was getting worse as the only thing you could do right now was imagine it was Chan on top of you and not the two Hollywood actors on the screen.
Biting your lip, your heart pounding in your chest, and feeling slightly cheeky, you moved your outer leg slowly over his, turning your body more towards him. He didn't react too much to it, other than his hand moving away so you could adjust your position.
It felt better to have his thigh between your legs, the pressure against your core already enough to calm you down. You looked up at him curiously. Had he really not noticed?
You remembered something you had read about something called "agoraphilia", a term used for people who enjoyed having sex in public. Your face felt hot. No, you didn't think you were ready for such a thing, just yet. Especially not with them. Especially not in this setting.
You had to admit, you were open to trying quite a few things in the future, curious to explore more as your experiences so far had all been more than amazing and you were sure that nothing the boys would ever do would be something you wouldn't enjoy.
But those were plans for the future.
The Hollywood actor on the tv was moaning loudly as he railed his partner on the bed.
You tried hard not to clench your thighs.
Sex.
God, how much you wanted to try it. Not just because of curiosity, nor because you were quite sure it would feel great, but because you felt you were ready.
Ever since Minho had turned you down, telling you he had no condoms, you had been thinking about it. It had called your name, tempting you, taunting you but never truly happening, always just slightly out of reach, cutting you off.
But you were sure now. You were ready. And you hoped to god the guys would be too, would accept you.
You looked up at Chan again, his handsome features lit by the tv screen. He was definitely an angel.
And you couldn't help but long for him.
Without really thinking about it, you moved your arm, putting it on his toned stomach and softly stroking the lines of his abs through his shirt. You noticed his chest stopped mid-rise, and could see him swallow, before he continued breathing, slower and deeper this time. Your fingers continued tracing him, your eyes in awe of his beautiful face.
Your hand dropped slightly lower and you felt that his shirt had hiked up, exposing a slither of his skin. Your fingers touched his bare skin and instantly a muscle in his jaw pulled. It was as if your mind wasn't really working right anymore, but you didn't really care. You let your hand continue tracing his abs underneath his shirt, going up and sideways, your fingertips on his soft skin. Every now and then Chan's jaw would clench and his blinking would seem almost in slow motion.
Accidentally, your hand dipped too far down, and you realised your finger had just brushed underneath the edge of his boxers. Chan's eyes closed and his lips parted for a moment before he bent over to you, kissing your forehead and whispering into your ear softly
'I don't think this is a good idea, baby girl.'
His voice was quite low, and not more than a breathy whisper, but you had heard him. You swallowed, and only now realising truly what you had been doing, you withdrew your hand quickly, feeling ashamed. Unexpectedly though, Chan caught your hand as you withdrew it. You looked up at him, slightly startled, but he smiled softly at you before intertwining his fingers with yours and looking back at the tv screen.