Hello everyone! It's gonna be a long chapter because it will be covering events from different days.
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Karan was out for some work and while returning to the academy late at night. It suddenly started raining and he got completely drenched in it. Due to which he started sneezing badly. He knocked the door of his room.
Aree janab ji aap toh poore bheeg gaye hai! Faizi said after opening the door.
Karan sneezed 2 times back to back.
F-Offoo,poore hi nhi buri tarah se bheeg gaye hai.
Haaan yaaar, ye bin mausam barish bhi na * he again sneezes* bahut buri hoti hai. He sneezed again while entering in the room.
F-Karan tum ek kaam kro ,jaake shower leke aao tab tak hum tumhare liye coffee leke aate hai.
Faizi rukk *sneezed* coffee..tu banayega? Karan asked him with wide eyes.
Janaab ji hum khaane peene ke shaukeen hai, khana peena banane ke nahi. Hum bnane jayenge toh pata nahi kya ban jayega! Faizi grinned.
Exactly wahi mai sochu tu coffee banayega toh... before karan could complete his sentence, a towel landed on his face.
Tum na zyada hamara mazzak mat udao. Jaake fresh ho, hum aate hai.
Saying this faizi left for Dilbagh ji's room.
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Dilbagh ji aap yahi hai abhi tak hame toh laga....
Faizi while going to Dilbagh ji's room found the lights of mess onn ,so he thought that it must be dilbagh ji or chotu (another staff of mess) in the mess at this time but when he went inside and reached the cooking area he found Monami near the gas.
Aree Monami tsunami tum? Yahan iss waqt? He questioned before glancing at the utensil kept on gas .
Monami wasn't expecting him in the mess at this time. She thought she would make a cup of ginger tea for karan and would send him through chotu.
M- Umm..Woh..
F- Tum chai bana rahi thi iss waqt? Faizi asked her while sliding the plate kept on the utensil to see what it had.
M- Actually main paani lene aayi thi apne room se toh karan ko dekha tha apne room me jaate huye. He was totally drenched in rain plus sneeze bhi kar raha tha toh...
Toh tumne uske liye adrak kaali mirch ki chai bana di!? Sahi keh rahe haina hum?
Faizi stood against the platform.
She nodded.
Magar tum dilbagh ji ya chotu se keh deti, woh bana dete. Khud kyun bana rahi ho? He asked while crossong his arms on his chest.
Main gayi thi unke pass magar dilbagh aaj kaafi tired the toh soo gaye the aur chotu ka kal exam hai so he was studying. Maine socha usko disturb karne se better hai ki main khud hi bana leti hoon aur chotu se bhejwa dungi. I'm really sorry agar ye rules ke against hai. Main dubara nhi karungi aese.
Monami blurted out everything in one go.
Relax Monami relax! It's okay. Hum sambhal lenge sab tum tension mat lo. hmm? Faizi tilted his head,slightly and blinked his eyes reassuring her.
Thank you so much. She said and smiled while turning off the gas and pouring the tea in the mug.
F-Laao hame do. Hum le jaate hai.
M-Umm okay and yeah! Ye medicine bhi le lo karan ko khila dena. Issey uski tabiyat kharab nahi hogi aur agar cold ho jayega toh ginger tea aur garam paani toh hai. She said handing him few tablets.
Monami, ye sab toh theek hai lekin tum janti hi hogi ki ulti khopdi bandook ki goli khaa sakta hai magar dawai ki nahi.
Both of them chuckled. Monami remembered how he was trying to avoid the medicines when he had the arm injury after organ trafficking mission.
Haaan ussey medicines nhi pasand but health ke liye toh khaane padega na.
Agar wo medicine nahi khayega ya excuses dega toh ussey ye de dena.
Faizi looked at her hand and then at her.
Yeh? He asked while laughing a little.
Haaan yeh. She grinned too.
Faizi took everything and placed it in a tray and thanked her . He started to leave when Monami stopped him.
M-Faizi ek request thi..
Faizi turned back to her.
Don't worry Monami, hum karan ko nahi batayenge ki ye tumne banaya hai aur bheja hai.
M- Ah thank you so much faizi. Warna tumhara ulti..
Hmm? He raised his eyebrows.
I mean tumhare janab ji Jisse TUM ulti khopdi Kehte ho wo firse guilt trip pe chale jaate ki main monami ke sath aese nahi kr skta waise nhi kr skta. She imitated karan and then chuckled.
Waise Maan na padega Mohtarma aapko. Ulti khopdi bol ke bhi nahi bola aapne😉
Chalo ab jaao monami tum bhi rest karo , kal drills aur classes bhi hai.
Yeah, going! replied Monami and they bid bye to eachother and left for their rooms.
Faizi smelled the aroma of chai. Aahhhaa kya chai banayi hai monami ne! Khushboo itni behtareen aa rahi hai toh swad kitna aacha hoga. Wahhh !
After praising the chai Faizi's expression changed all of sudden.
Karan ko chai aur medicine deke soo jaunga Warna janaab ji 50 tarah ke sawal puchenge . Ye itni aachi khushboo kaise aa rahi hai chai se,kisne banai, chotu toh itni aachi chai nahi bana sakta wagerah wagerah. Ya Allah , iss admi ka dimag kabhi kam nhi chal sakta? Ham bata bhi nahi sakte ki monami ne banaya hai. He made yeh-kahan-fass-gaye face.
Ye dono pyaar ke panchiyon ne watt laga di hai hamari. Ek ko apni feelings realize nahi ho rahi hai aur dusara? Huh! He sighed and entered in his room.
Kahan Marr gaya tha tu? Kabse wait kar raha hoon main! LAA coffee de! *sneezed again* he stood up and took the mug from the tray.
Faizi shook his head in disbelief while placing the tray at the study table.
Ye chai kyun le aaya? Coffee laane gaya tha na. He asked him being confused.
Abb...woh.. faizi stuttered.
Faizi? Aese kyun bol raha hai . Kya hua? Karan questioned him.
Karan dekh ,hame bahut neend aa rhi hai tu Ye chai pii. adark kaali mirch wali hai aur ye dawai khaa ke sooja! Beemar nahi padna hai toh chupchap khaa lena medicine. Ham chale soone Kal drills pe hame late hone ka koi mann nahi hai.
Faizi said without letting karan interrupt him and went to his bed.
Karan stood there being suspicious of his bestfriend's behavior but shrugged it off when he sneezed again.
Abhi Ye chai pii leta hun phle Warna chheenkh chheenkh ke halat kharab ho jayegi meri aahhh!
He sat on his bed and sipped the chai.
Aahhaa! Faizi Ye chai kisne banai hai. Taste ekdm naya hai mere liye aur kaafi aacha bhi.
Faizi didn't reply to him.
Oh saand! Bata bhi! Mujhe pata hai tu jagg raha hai. Karan again asked him while sipping chai.
Faizi facepalmed himself under the blanket. Marr gaye faizi miyaan. Ab ye janaab investigation shuru kar denge! Ya Allah Madad kar hamari.
Karan yaaar soone de na! Tujhe chai se mtlb haina tu chai pii aur dawai khaa! Hame soone de! He replied with fake anger.
Aachaa theek haina. Itna natak kya kar raha hai sooja! Huh! He frowned and then turned to look at medicine.
Ye kadwi dawai kaun khayega. Main aese hi theek ho jaunga.
Karan baat sun! Faizi called him and as soon as karan looked up at him. He threw a small packet.
K-Ab ye kya hai?
F-One bite chocolate hai. Dawai khana zaruri hai toh tu wo khaake turant ye khaa lena. Muhh ka swaad badal jayega. Magar khaa lena! Tumhe hamari kasam hai.
K-Serials dekhna chhod de faizi. Ek medicine ke liye kasam kaun deta hai .
F-Jab samne wala tumhare jaisa ho toh sab paitare azmaane padhte hai.
Ab hm soo rhe hai tum khaa lena dawai.
Shabbakhair Faizuddin Siddique Sahab.
Karan wished him sarcastically.
He stood up and placed empty mug on the table and took the water bottle and medicine. But before he could have it something striked his mind.
"Monami yeh chocolate kyun?
Aree tumhe hi toh medicine kadwi lagti haina. Toh medicine khaane ke bad taste ke liye ye choti si bite khaa skte ho tum chocolate ki. Medicine lena important hai aur fir tumhe kadwa bhi nhi lagega.
Main koi chota baccha hun jo tum ye trick use kr rhi? He frowned.
Aacha toh theek hai wapas kardo chocolate aur medicine aese hi khaa lo! Laao do!?
Nahi..I mean ab tum le hi aayi ho toh mai khaa lunga.
Monami chuckled on his antics.
Kya hai? Hass kyun rahi ho?
Nahi kuch nhi. Tum khaao ab ye"
Ye chocolate,medicine monami ne bheja hai?
Aur ye chai? Ye chai bhi usne banai hai?
Karan looked at the empty mug , medicine and then at chocolate.
Haaan ye Monami ka hi kaam hai warna iss saand ke pass itna dimag itne saal me nhi aaya wo aaj aa jayega? Impossible.
Karan chuckled and took the medicine and chocolate too. He then went to sleep.
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Monami tum yahan? Iss waqt? Asked Karan who was surprised to see Monami in the gym area at the odd time for cadets to be here.
Monami who was practicing boxing held the punching bag and tried to catch her breath.
Ohh hii ! Actually aajkal hand to hand combat training chal rahi haina toh aaj subah sanju ne kaha I need to do extra strength training for better results. Toh bas wahi kar rahi hun! What about you?
Karan-Main apni regular training?!
Aachha! She was still taking long breaths. Tum morning me training nahi krte apni?
Karan started wrapping the humpur around his wrist.
Haan karta hoon but aaj thoda extra gym karne ka mann tha so aa gaya.
Saying this Karan looked up to find Monami drinking water.
He was already impressed with her by watching her dedication towards her training but in this moment he was getting attracted to her. She was looking steamy hot drenched in sweat. A perfect physique and Hairs tied up into bun, water drops coming down through her neck with every sip she was taking. She wiped her forehead with back of her hands thats when
Karan who was lost in his Rani Sahiba Sahiba suddenly he realized what he was doing. He immediately bent down to take another humpur which he dropped in order to check out this lady in front of him. He closed his eyes and left a breath he was holding unknowingly.
Kya karta hai Karan! Dekh leti toh kitna weird lagta.
Umm..Waise tumhari practice complete ho gayi ya bachi hai? Karan sat down to change his shoes.
Nahi abhi bachi hai thodi. Replied monami while placing her water bottle beside him.
Chale fir sath me training karte hai Rani Sahiba? He said absentmindedly.
Umm.. sorry Monami. Monami looked at him, surprised.
Its okay karan. Tum bula sakte ho Rani Sahiba. Turning to go back to the battle rope. She was struggling with her hand wraps. Karan saw that.
Umm may I?
She shook her head. He helped her with the bands and held her hand with both of his hands. She was just looking what he was doing.
I'm sorry Monami. He said looking into her eyes. Before she could say anything,
Monami mujhe nahi malum kisi baat ka sahi waqt kab aata hai. But mai tumse ye bahut time se kehna chahta tha. I'm really very sorry for judging you in the start. For questioning you and your dedication for this training. Maine kabhi bhi tumse uss baat ke liye theek se maafi nhi maangi. Lekin aaj main tumse apologize karna chahta hun. I'm... I'm really sorry. He took a pause. Mere ek bad experience ke wajah se maine sabhi rich kids ko ek hi nazar se dekha. Tum aur Siddharth waise nhi ho. Mujhe...mujhe Siddharth se bhi sorry bolna hai. Tum dono bahut alag aur bahut aache ho. Life ki, struggles ki importance jante ho. Mujhe tum dono ko judge nhi krna chahie tha. I'm sorry? And thank you so much also.
Monu- Thank you kyun?
Karan- Thank you isliye kyuki meri itni badi Galti hone ke bad bhi tumne mere career ke bare mein socha. Tumhari jaan jaa sakti thi Monami meri wajah se fir bhi tumne mujhe blame nhi kiya aur apne papa se fight ki.. Yahan tak ki apne dream tak sacrifice kar diye the almost.
Im sorry for that too.
Monu- Karaannn.. mere dream ko tumne protect kiya na! Mujhe strength di na ki mai apne liye stand le sakun. Toh fir Thank you kaisa? Hmm?
He nodded.
But tumhe judge krne ke liye aur bahut kuch aesa kehne ke liye jo nahi kehna chahie, unn sabhi baatoin ke liye again am really sorry.
He completed.
Monami took deep breath and said It's okay karan. To be honest main toh kabka ye sab bhool chuki thi but I'm very glad ki tumne ye socha ki main aur sid ek apology deserve krte hai. I was very hurt by your behavior and taunts. Kyuki tum mujhe aur mere struggles ko nahi jante the fir bhi mujhe judge kiya but jab mujhe pata chala tumhare uss behavior ka reason toh mujhe laga misunderstanding hai aur hm clear kar lenge but situation was not in our favor at that time.
Aur sorry toh mujhe bhi kehna chahie. Maine kayi baar tumhe galat samjha aur pata nhi kya kya keh diya tha.
Oh yeah! Neuroendocrine cancer! Like seriously? Both of them laughed.
Monu- I'm sorry karan.
It's okay doc! I hope ab purane saare hisab clear ho gaye honge hamare beech!?
Monu-Yeah! Equals.
Both of them smiled and Monami looked at their hands and Karan followed her too and both of them pulled back their hands.
K-Umm.. chale fir training start kre?
Yeah! Replied Monami.
They started training, in which Karan would tell her tips and correct her at her wrong positions while doing his own exercises. Monami would steal glances of him whenever she gets the chance and same was with karan also. They knew they had something different between them but one was not able to realize it and other one was just trying to live every moment she gets with him.
After finishing their training session. They both were drenched in sweat. For Monami it was little extra and tough but she wanted to do it so karan helped her too in pushing her limits. They both walked to the corridor together and when Finally they were set to depart to their dorms. Karan said
Tomorrow same time same place?
Haan? Ohhkay. Monami agreed with a smile.
Bol toh aese raha hai jaise date ke liye puch raha ho! Huh! She said to herself. While turning to the direction of room.
But karan tumhare liye extra nhi ho jayega zyada? I mean tumhari khudki training then hame training dena fir meri extra training? She asked him turning back .
Tum agar seekhna chahti ho toh main zarur time aur apna schedule manage kr lunga Monami. Tum uski tension mat lo. Okay?
She shook her head and wished him goodnight.
Karan too replied with a smile .
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After a tiring day karan was finally able to come back to his room after getting fresh and up.
As soon as he sat on his bed his phone rang. Caller ID flashed.
*bhabhi*
-Hello karan kaise ho?
Main theek hoon bhabhi. Aap aur baby kaise hai?
-Hum dono bhi bilcul theek hai.
Umm maine disturb toh nahi kiya na tumhe?
Nahi bhabhi, boliye kuch kaam tha?
- Karan woh..
Kya hua bhabhi sab.. sab theek haina? Baby? Baby theek hai?
- Haan karan. Hum dono theek hai. Darasal baat ye hai ki ashish? Param ke bestfriend ? Unka call aaya tha aaj.
Karan closed his eyes. He somehow knew what's coming on his way.
He didn't utter a single word after that.
-Karan, Param ki poori team bahut saal baad eksath hui hai. Woh log sunday ko yahan ghar aake ek get together karna chahte hai unki memory mein. They want you to come too.
After not getting any response from his side. Bhabhi left a heavy sigh.
- Karan bacche tum kabtak khud ko Blame karoge? Kabtak khudko uss Galti ki saza doge jo tumne ki hi nhi hai.
Bhabhi main nhi aa paunga mujhe kaam hai kuch.
- Karan bas ek din ki baat hai. Tum kabtak khudko aese shell me band krke rakhoge?
Bhabhi, I'm sorry. Aap apna aur baby ka khayal rakhna. Main next week new year pe aa jaunga baby se milne.
- Aachha theek hai. Apna dhyaan rakhna. Bye.
Ji bhabhi. Bye.
Karan threw his phone on the bed and laid-back. All those unpleasant memories were started coming in front of his eyes. He shouted aloud to stop them and then stood up with the jerk. He took out his gym kit and walked out of the room. His defense mechanism was engaging himself in physical exercise and channeling his anger into something productive.
It was a night time and there shouldn't be anyone present in the gym at this moment. He was in a very bad mood and sweating too. Just a wrong thing and he would blast. He just wanted to be alone as always. But he forgot about Monami. Whom he himself called for extra training today.
As soon as he entered into the gym area, Monami stood up from the mat and greeted him with a smile.
Monami tum yahan?
Karan tumne hi toh kal kaha tha same time pe aane ko. Tum kuch aur tips doge improvement ke liye? Confused by his question, Monami told him.
Oh yeah! I'm really sorry. Mere dimag se hi nikal gaya tha ekdm. He said while putting his bag on the mat and avoiding eye contact with her.
Karan are you okay? She asked him in a concerned tone.
Yeah! I'm fine! Chalo ab start kare? Mujhe time waste nhi krna! Come on!
Monami was still not convinced with his reply but observing his different behavior she chose to stay silent for a while and decided that she would ask him later.
They did their training like yesterday where Karan told her weak points and how she can improve, which area is strong and how can she perform more efficiently. Meanwhile he did his exercises too.
After 60mins session. They both were tired . Karan was feeling much better as he vent out all of his feelings in the form of strength training. Monami noticed everything but she didn't ask anything. They both settled themselves on the mat facing each other. Karan passed her the towel while she gave him the energy drink.
Aaj ka session kaafi tiring tha! But bahut kuch seekha maine. Thank you Karan.
Ye toh mera farz tha Monami. No worries. Replied karan with a smile.
Waise iss weekend pe tum ghar jaoge na apne? Baby se milne?
His face dropped as soon she asked him. All the things he wanted to forget started coming into his head again. Bhabhi's call, ashish and other teammates get together. Bhaiya's memory.
Karan? Kya hua? Ghar jaoge na? She asked him again.
Nahi. New year pe jaunga! He replied in a cold voice trying to avoid eye contact.
Monu- But last weekend bhi tum nhi jaa paye the na? Humlog ko Batra sir ke yahan jana tha? Toh-
Before she could complete her sentence he interrupted.
Ek bar bola na nahi jana hai mujhe. Kyun sablog mere peeche pade huye hai. Free nhi hun main. Nahi jana mujhe ghar.
Shouting at her and collected all his belongings and left from there.
Monami was looking at his disappearing figure with tension.
Zarur kuch baat hui hogi. Jab aaya tha tab bhi aache mood me nhi tha karan. Oh god monu kya zarurat thi ek hi baat bar bar puchne ki. She said to herself and took her bag and left.
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Sleep was far away from his eyes and he was done with writing in his diary too.
Karan looked at faizi who was fast asleep and then at his watch. 3 am.
He sighed and reached to the water bottle and found it empty. Faizi's bottle was empty too. So he stood up with his bottle and tip toed outside the room. When he reached to the water filling area and looked around. He found a familiar figure sitting while wrapping arms around tree. He knew exactly who was the person. Monami. But what's she doing at this time here? He remembered about his anger outburst few hours back. He needs to apologize for his mistakes also. Was she so upset? Because of him? Thinking about all the possibilities he finally decided to check upon her and went into the garden.
Ummm hiii!
Monami who was sitting on the cemented boundary around the tree while hugging it opened her eyes after hearing to a familiar voice.
Ohh hii karan. Tum yahan iss waqt? She was surprised to see at this time that too here.
May I? Karan asked permission to sit beside her to which monami nodded in agreement. Karan sat beside her and leaned his back to tree trunk.
Ye sawal mujhe tumse puchna chahie. Aadhi raat ko tum yahan ped ke hug karke baithi ho. Sab theek haina?
Haaan bas maine bahut time se apne iss friend ke sath time nahi spend kiya tha toh aa gayi.
Tum batao tum kaise iss time wo bhi yahan? She asked him.
Main actually paani lene aaya tha aur dekha ki 2 bestfriends midnight me quality time spend kr rhe the toh maine socha aachi company milegi join kar leta hoon. Karan replied with a serious face.
Both of them looked at eachother and burst out laughing.
"Neend nahi aa rahi thi" both of them said at the same time.
They both chuckled together.
Winter ki nights kitni shant hoti haina karan. Hamare idhar toh itni thand nhi hoti. But fir bhi kitna aacha lagta hai. She said while wrapping her arms around herself.
K-Hmmm aacha toh lagta hai. Pata hai jab main Himachal me posted tha toh waha pe snow fall me pahadon ki khoobsurati aur badh jati thi. It looks surreal.
M- I know right! I love hill stations. Though I love beaches but thoda extra love hai mountains ke liye! Trek karke top of the hill pe jana aur fir fresh air me breath karna ! Uff. I just love that!
Tumhe kya pasand hai karan?
K-Umm I'm both. Mountain and beach person. Pahadon me challenges hote hai aur beaches pe sukoon. Mujhe challenges poore krne ke bad milne wala satisfaction bhi aacha lagta hai aur beach pe samudra ki lehrein jab paero ko bheegoti hai toh wo bhi simple sa sukoon aur khushi bhi pasand hai mujhe.
Wow! Impressive I must say!
Saying so Monami leaned against the tree and closed her eyes. Karan looked at her angelic face. Which had so much calmness with a small smile on it.
Monami woh.. woh, i'm sorry. Mujhe shaam me tumse se waise baat karke nahi jana chahie tha. Karan apologized hesitantly.
It's okay karan. I understand. Tumne wo jaanbhujhkar nahi kiya tha. She replied while slowly opening her eyes and smiling Slightly.
Karan blinked his eyes and took a pause ,
Thank you Monami. Mujhe...mujhe hamesha samjhne ke liye. He said in a soft voice.
They both were again sitting in silence. A comfortable silence. He liked being with her. Without even having a conversation. Just the of them.
She was the calm in his chaotic life. Only her mere presence can bring so much or peace to him. The lost peace.
After sometime,
Karan ek baat bolun? Monami asked him still looking at the night sky.
Hmmm bolo? He replied turning his face to her.
You need to move on.
What? Confused with her statement he asked her.
Karan stop me whenever you want okay?
She took a deep breath.
Karan see Param bhaiya ki death mein tumhari koi Galti nahi thi. She looked at him to see changes on his face. Was he comfortable with this topic or not. She didn't get any negative sign so she continued.
I know tum ussi guilt ke saath aaj bhi jee rahe ho.
Karan, apne bhaiya ki death ka pain hona is okay, it's completely normal but tum guilt aur trauma me rehna deserve nahi karte ho. Tumhe itne years se nightmares aate hai karan. Only you and God knows how many sleepless nights you have had till now.
Monami, main apne bhai ko bacha nahi paya! Ye koi choti baat nhi hai Jisse mai move on kar jaun. It's not easy! Meri wajah se Wo choti bacchi apne papa se dur ho gayi. Meri bhabhi ne apna husband kho diyaa! Monami mere bhai ki apni family thi. Meri wajah se Wo family bikhar gayi. Param bhaiya ko zinda hona chahie tha kyuki wo deserve karte the lekin hua kya?inn sabka main hi zimmedar hun! Aur ye nightmares,trauma main ye sab deserve karta hoon kyuki kisi ne mujhe mere bhai ki jaan na bacha paane ki koi saza nahi di. Karan completed his sentence and was shivering a bit and sweat too started coming on his forehead.
Karan look at me. She took his hand Into hers and started rubbing it gently . Karan,Deep breathing karo mere saath. Chalo, Inhale ...pause , exhale... again, Inhale pause, exhale. After a while when he was okay, Monami handed him water bottle. Karan took few sips from it and she asked him now if he is okay? To which he shook his head.
After few moments of complete silence Monami noticed that Karan was holding her hand all this while.
Karan you know there are many people who genuinely loves you and care for you.
Tum..tum ek step toh lo karan hum sab tumhare saath hai. Tum apni bhabhi se nahi baat kar sakte ,it's okay. Faizi se share karo. He is your bestfriend karan.
I'm not forcing you to talk to them but at least try kar sakto ho tum.
Mat karna hamesha baat unse. Necessary nahi hai. Ekdm nahi hai. But kabhi kabhi help li jaa sakti hai.
She took a pause before starting again.
Karan tumhe pata hai wo kabhi khudse shayad tumhe approach nahi karenge kyuki unhe darr hai. Unhe darr hai ki woh tumhare wounds firse fresh kar denge.
I know feelings share karna is not easy for you Karan, take your time but please kabhi kabhi khudko push kiya karo.
She completed while putting her hand on his.
Tumne abhi kaha tha na karan tum ye sab pain deserve karte ho?
Karan nodded.
Main batati hoon karan tum kya deserve karte ho! Tum khul ke hassna ,smile karna deserve karte ho karan. Tum ek healthy lifestyle deserve karte ho, tum sukoon se soona deserve karte ho tum khushiyaan deserve karte ho karan. Tum apne bhaiya ki yaadoin ko smile karke dubara jeena deserve karte ho karan. Tum pyaar aur happy life deserve karte ho.
Both of them were having tears in their eyes.
Main tumhe aese nahi dekh sakti karan, Tumhari bhabhi ,tumhare friends, ustaad ji, even Batra sir aur Batra ma'am bhi tumhe aese nhi dekh skte karan.
A lone tear escaped his eyes. Monami turned her face to wipe her own tears. She can't cry at this moment. She need to be strong now. For her karan. She knew very well that it's high time for karan to be in this state. She was constantly in touch with Faizi about karan's mental health and issues from past few days. All she knows that he was not fine in these days. He didn't even slept for two days in this week and having anger outburst very frequently.
She even went to gym after training hours only for him as she saw him doing excessive physical exercise the other day. Today too she came here in the garden to think about how to persuade karan for therapy. She wiped her tears and took deep breath then took out her handkerchief and forwarded it to him.
Maim tumhara pain samjh sakti hoon karan. Meri mom bhi shaheed hui thi aur main ek doctor hoon. Main bhi kai bar apne patients ki life save nhi kar paayi hun aur fir jab mujhe unke family, unki wife aur chote baccho ko unke demise ki news deni hoti thi toh main bahut weak pad jati thi. I know kisi ko khoone aur na bacha paane ka dard kaisa hota hai karan. Saying this she looked at sky again. Remembering those days she closed her eyes tightly.
Karan looked at her. She turned to face him.
Karan, I'm here ,people who care about are here for you. We are ready to help you.
But it's upon you ki tum move on karna chahte ho , apne bhaiya ki yaadoin ke sath justice karna chahte ho,apne saath justice karna chahte ho ya nahi. apni family aur friends ke sath healthy relationship chahte ho aur khud bhi healthy hona chahte ho ya nahi. Tum mentally healthy rahoge toh tumhari personal life ke sath professional life me bhi improvement aayega karan.
She took his hand on her completely. Karan was observing her while listening and understanding everything she was saying.
He needed this conversation. He knew he had built this wall around himself which no one dare to break. She was slowly breaking all these walls. She was someone whom he ALLOWED to break these walls. He realized all those moments when his people wanted to help him. Bhabhi's reassurance,care and love for her Karan. Faizi's care and tension for his health. Batra sir and ustaad ji's love and care for him. How everyone wanted him to move on and live without guilt. How everyone tried their best to make him understand it wasn't his fault. How much everyone loves him.
M-Karan, tum ek step lo. Bas ek step I promise hum sab tumhara sath denge.
Help lene me koi burai nahi hai. And as a doctor I would really suggest you to get professional help as soon as possible.
Karan looked away. He needs time to sink in everything. He needs to time to take any step. He needs to prepare himself for all these things. It's not easy for him to open up and go for therapy. But he'll try his best.
Monami guessed what could be the possible thoughts going on in his mind.
No need to hurry karan. Take your time. I understand it's not easy for you but you have to do it. Tum soch ke mujhe next weekend se phle bata dena. I have few friends in Mumbai jo psychologist and psychiatrist hai. Main unse baat kar lungi. Okay?
Karan wiped his tears and nodded.
Then he looked at her.
K- Monami?
She hummed in response.
K- Thank you so much. He passed a warm smile.
Monami blinked her eyes in reassurance.
The night was now calm. Winds were cold but they were soothing. Karan and Monami both leaned back to the tree trunk. Just being with eachother and in the moment. Everything felt right. Karan was feeling good. This conversation was much needed for him and Monami? She was having mix emotions. She is someone so empathic. She can never see anyone in pain and in this case ,it's karan. Her love. Who is suffering so much from inside . How she wished to take all his pain and fill his life with happiness. How she wanted him to smile in real as he used to do in her dreams. She tried her best to make him understand that he really needs professional help and he should live a guilt free ,happy life but she also knows how ziddi karan Shergil is. Noone can ever say what will he do. But she was ziddi too! She can never give up on him.
M- Karan, jabtak main yahan hun as a doctor aur *pause* aur as a friend tumhari help kr paungi or else who knows yahan se jaane ke bad hum kabhi mile ya na mile?
Karan looked at her shocked as soon as she completed her last sentence. He was hurt more than being shocked.
Mile na mile? What do you mean Monami? Training khatam hone ke bad You won't be in touch? He questioned clutching her hands.
Monami looked at their hands then at him. Losing the grip Karan left her hand completely but they were still looking into each other's eyes. Monami breaks the eye contact and looked upto the sky.
Karan relax. Ab training ke bad sab apni apni pehli wali life mein wapas chale jayenge na? tumhari posting kahi aur hogi aur mai kahi aur kisi hospital me job kar rahi houngi, toh touch mein kaise rahenge? She completed with a fake smile. Only she knows how badly she wanted to be with him for rest of their lives.
There was a complete silence for next few minutes. Karan felt something painful in his chest. He was clearly not happy with her stating the possibility of not being in his life.
Monami looked at her watch and then karan who was lost in his thoughts.
Umm..I think ab mujhe chalna chahie. You take care and give it a thought. See you at drills karan. She said to him while standing at her place and turned to go to her room when she felt a hold on her hand. Monami looked back only to find Karan holding her hand. They looked at eachother. One could see many emotions in those eyes but both of them didn't utter a single word. Karan left her hand without breaking the eye contact. Monami too turned to go back to her room without saying anything. She her eyes welled up while she held her hand which Karan was holding. You can't define everything in words. Some moments need to be felt only.
Karan was watching the retreating figure of her.
"Who knows yahan se jaane ke baad hum kabhi mile na mile..."
These words were still echoing in his ears, his heart felt pain. Karan left a heavy sigh and leaned back to the tree and closed his eyes.
Hey you!
Meri jaaan, sorry? I mean Meri aur baki sabki jaan bachane ke liye thank you.
Yeh tumhare liye gift. Jo baatein bol nahi sakte woh isme likh liya karna.
Tumhari koi Galti thi hi nhi toh maafi kaisi?
Thank you Karan. Mujhe itni strength dene ke liye.
Karan, please open up. Bahar aake humsabke sath diwali celebrate karo na.
Shopping pe chale?
I trust you,karan.
He got the flashback of all the moments they have spent together. Their hug during mission cuckoo, the store room incident when she managed to make him smile, her performance during various tasks, her strength, courage and dedication all these things which made him get attracted towards her . All those moments when he was mesmerized with her were also started coming in front of his eyes. With each memory coming into his mind ,the smile on his face was getting wider too and suddenly his heart started beating faster and louder.
I love you Karan Shergil.
I get you, main tumhe apne pyaar se azaad karti hoon.
Main tumhara support krungi as a doctor and as a friend.
He kept his hand on his chest,feeling his heartbeats. After so many years he felt his it. Is that mean He found the lost beats of his heart? Monami?
He opened his eyes with jerk and stood up.
Main Monami se pyaar karne laga hoon? He asked to himself.
Main..main Monami se pyaar krta hoon! He accepted the fact that he is in love with her. He kept his hand on his heart. Uske bare mein sochne per meri dhadkanein mehsoos hone lagti hai mujhe. He said smiling widely.
Uske mere zindagi mein na rehne ke khayal se bhi mujhe isliye bura laga kyuki maine aaj se phle aesa socha hi nhi tha ki wo meri zindagi se kahi jaa bhi sakti hai. Jaane unjaane mein hi Karan tune hamesha Monami ke sath rehne ka socha hua tha. He held his hair backwards while smiling and then he looked at the direction where Monami went.
Monami, pata hi nahi chala kab tum meri ek cadet se ,meri dost se meri dil ki dhadkhan ban gayi. I... I love you, Rani Sahiba. He took a deep breath.
Special Agent Karan Shergil aap toh apne dil ke haathon haar hi gaye. He said to himself and his lips curled into a wide smile. He rubbed his neck and blushed on thinking about the new realization he had few minutes back.
Every sunrise offers a new beginning, a new chance to start over, and a new day we learn to appreciate.
This morning was indeed so special for the Agent Karan Shergil. The cold winds and calm atmosphere with dawn chorus adding more beauty to his morning and new realization of love.
He checked the time and went to his room.
Faizi...faizi uth naaaa! Faiiziii! Karan sighed. He was trying to wake his bestfriend up from past 10mins.
Faizi akhiri bar bol raha hun utha jaa Warna tu janta hai main apni pe aa gaya toh kaise uthaunga tujhe! He warned him.
Kya hai karan..soone do naa! Aaj Waise bhi Saturday hai. Hamari class late se hai. Murmured faizi in sleep.
Faizi main monami se pyaar karta hoon! Karan announced in the hope that maybe now his bestfriend would wake up.
Aapko chhod ke sabko pata hai janab ji ki aap monami se pyaar krte hai. Ab hame soone do!
Faizi replied while pulling the blanket over his face.
Karan stood there with hands crossed on his chest and started counting till 5.
Faizi opened his eyes with jerk after realizing what he heard. He threw the blanket and looked at Karan.
Kya kaha tumne abhi? Firse kehna toh!? Faizi raised his eyebrows and asked him to repeat it again.
Abhi tere kaan itne bhi kharab nahi huye hai saand. Sahi suna hai tune. Replied karan and looked away, hiding his blush.
To be continued....
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