T/W: implied self harm/hate, implied suicidal thoughts, slight cursing
Hermit(s): Grian, Mumbo
Type:songfic, angst, h/c
POV: third person
She's a fixer with no one to fix her
Grian was the person everyone came to if they needed to talk, to get help, to get medicine. But what no one knew was that he had those same problems.
She's a lover who won't love herself
He didn't eat nearly enough, he knew. He loved the hermits, like family. But he couldn't muster love for himself.
She's a heartbreak away from a horrible place
One more hardship, he knew he'd dive even deeper into his self hatred.
'Cause fixers never fix themselves
'Cause he helped everyone around him, except himself. He saw the best in everyone, except himself.
She's a fighter with no one beside her
He fought his uphill battles, alone, thinking he deserved it.
In a corner alone on the ropes
Trapped in a corner, standing on a thin wire.
She's a let down away from a terrible place
One more disappointment, and he knew he might not ever pull out.
She'll fix every scar but her own
He heals every wound, but his own.
Oh, she fixes the lonely, fixes the broke
He gives advice and he gives friendship,
But tends to forget who needs fixin' the most
But he forces himself to forget who needs advise and friendship the most.
Buried in bandages, hiding the hell
Hiding his cuts and bruises and blood with bandages, and sweaters, and a fake smile.
'Cause fixers never fix themselves
'Cause he needs someone else to help him, when he can not help himself.
She's a liar, a calm to the fire
He lies, says he's happy, content, full.
Shamed when we all follow suit
And yet he tells the hermits to change, and improve.
She's a whisper away from a dangerous place
One more thought in his head, that's not his, and he might just leave.
'Cause lies aren't a fix for the truth
'Cause he needs a friend to see through his lies.
Oh, she fixes the lonely, fixes the broke
He gives advice and he gives friendship,
But tends to forget who need fixin' the most
But forces himself to forget who needs advice and friendship the most.
Packed with prescriptions, disguisin' the hell
Stuffed to the brim with medication and facades, disgusting the hell.
'Cause fixers never fix themselves
'Cause he needs someone to pull of the disguise.
She's a handful
He's a handful,
A whole lot to handle
A whole lot to handle,
But worth every thorn in my side
But it's worth every thorn in my side.
She's a sunset away from the darkest of days
One more light gone, and he'll forever be in darkness.
No fix for the fixer tonight
No help for the Helper, tonight.
She's a sunset away from the darkest of days
One more light gone, and he'll forever be in darkness.
No fix for the fixer tonight
No help for the Helper, tonight.
Mumbo, if it was the last thing he did, would help Grian, the helper who couldn't help himself.
453 words. This would also work with Xisuma, but this book is Grian centric
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