Yawning I turn my body to the side to see that it's nine am. Reaching out to grab my phone I see an array of messages from Katie. They're all really corny videos that I know she's been holding onto for the past couple days. Not being able to stop smiling I'm so happy that we're friends again. It wasn't even a full week that she hated me but I missed her so much it's not even funny.
About to put my phone down I freeze when I remember that I need to call Damon. I promised him that I would do it so I scroll through my contacts and click his number. Calling him I place the phone down on the pillow besides mine so I can pull my blanket up for protection. I'm not really sure why I'm so nervous, calling him has to be the most innocent interaction we've had.
Finally picking up the call I'm silent for a few seconds since I don't know what to say.
'Hello?' He groans.
Feeling a shiver down my spine from the obvious exhaustion straining his voice, I can tell he just woke up. Maybe I'll start calling him early in the morning because I'd be lying if I said I didn't like the way it sounds.
'Hey,' I respond sheepishly.
'Oh shit.' He immediately responds which makes it clear that the didn't know it was me who called. 'I was so sure that I was dreaming when you came over and I sent you home? Fuck.'
Laughing under my breath I can't help but smile, 'you would've gotten bored of me anyways...you where tired,' I swear but he just groans in frustration.
'I didn't even sleep that good anyways so you should've stayed.' He seems genuinely disappointed in his own actions.
'Maybe you should get that checked...you might have insomnia,' I laugh but I'm being completely serious with my suggestion. He really isn't sleeping.
'Nah it's because I'm always thinking of you and it's stressing me out,' he sighs. 'I've never really had a romantic crush before so I think I'm just not used to feeling like this so my body is retaliating or whatever.'
'What do you think about?' I ask.
'Um.' He laughs awkwardly.
'Tell me!' I laugh back. 'Please? You can't just say 'yeah I think about you alot' then refuse to give any further information,'
'I don't know...just stuff.' He's still reluctant so I keep asking but he keeps giving me vague answers.
'What? Is it like explicit?' I state more than I ask.
'Yeah.' He admits which startles me. I didn't really expect him to actually give me an answer let alone agree.
Not answering after that I'm thinking about what to ask next but he takes the silence in the wrong way. 'I mean no- when I said yes I meant no...they're not.'
''No no! I'm just...what exactly do you think about? Like...what am I doing?' I fidget since I can feel myself getting hot so I pull my blanket down a bit.
'I think of everything. Even the cute stuff but most of the time it's sexual,' He gives in since I quite literally will not stop pestering now that I'm curious, 'and when I say everything I mean everything. I think about it being inside you, you riding me, fingering, blowjobs. Everything about you turns me on.'
'I also think about holding you, kissing you, going for late walks, laughing with you and just doing stupid things just for the fun of it.' He continues. 'The thoughts are always running and it keeps me up at night. It's like having a loud metal concert constantly playing at a deafening volume when you're trying to sleep peacefully. When I'm with you then I notice that I'm able to sleep easier though, which is why I'm not dead from lack of sleep yet,' he laughs to level out what he just confessed.
Feeling an array of flutters in my stomach I've never heard anyone say anything like that about me. 'What did you think about last night?'
'Well most of the time it's sexual,' his voice lowers.
Feeling my heart rate raise like a little kid who got given their favorite toy. I don't think I ever thought that I'd have that effect on anyone. For a while I just assumed I wasn't likable in that way and it became my normal. Always reciprocating but never reciprocated.
Clasping the bottom of my shirt I pull it off when an idea pops in my head. I'm not naked though since I still have my bra on. I usually don't sleep with it on but I snuck back into my house late and I was too tired to changed properly. Reaching my hand out I grab my phone before sliding into the camera. Taking a few photos I look at them for a few seconds as I decide if I should just scratch the idea or not. I promised myself when I was in 7th grade that I wouldn't send anything like this to anyone after watching a movie about this girls nudes getting leaked. Impulsively sending them anyways I throw my phone on the pillow before hiding under the blankets.
Hearing fumbling coming from the other line I can tell he's picking up his phone. He must've seen the notification.
'oh.' His voice comes out shakey. 'Can I...have more photos?' He seems shy to ask. Slipping my hand under my bra strap I slide my bra off before undoing it. Taking better photos I hesitantly send them over to his phone.
He's quiet now. Worried that I fucked up or he didn't like it. 'Fuck.' He whispers.
'Stop it,' I awkwardly try to ignore the feeling that his words are making me feel. 'I just wanted to help I guess,'
'Help with what?' He teases.
'Damon! Can you-,' I recognize Katie's voice from a distance. It's coming from his end of the line.
'No fuck off I'm preoccupied!' He answers her which makes me laugh.
'You should probably go to her,' I try to distract myself from the throbbing between my legs. 'She might need something,'
'She's fine...she's just upset that she's late and she wants me to drop her but I don't want to go to school- I want to stay and talk to you for a little bit longer.' I can hear the eagerness in his tone.
'Well I'm already super late for school and it's only the last day so I don't give a fuck but your sister loves her perfect attendance,' I smile. 'You should drop her off- no you will drop her off because I'm going to hang up now,'
'Wow that's how it is?' He gasps sarcastically and I can't help but notice how tired he still sounds. 'You're going to make me go to school on my last day of high school?'
'Bye Damon,' I smile before hanging up.
Realizing I'm shirtless I quickly put on my shirt out of embarrassment. I'm still surprised that I even sent him those photos. Curling my toes I bite my bottom lip, his voice is so fucking hot. I shouldn't have hung up.
Brushing my hair behind my ear I look at my phone when I see a notification pop up. Looking at my phone I laugh at his name. I keep forgetting that he set his contact in my name on his own.
Future father of my children 🤎
You're evil for hanging up.
You
Go drop your sister off at school.
Future father of my children 🤎
She knows how to drive so she get to school on her own 😕 pick up my call so we can talk some more
You
I think I'm going to take a shower actually
Future father of my children 🤎
I feel like you're teasing me and it's hurting my soul
You
How am I teasing you 😶? I'm going to school today...I've had a change of heart
Future father of my children 🤎
Using my own words against me now? But you're going to school? Okay I'll go then...I'll be a later than I already am since you've set me back a few minutes.
You
Wdym?
Waiting for a response to my question, I get nothing so I get up off the bed. If I want to get to school I probably should get ready now. My plan was to bail but I want to spend time with Katie since I already lost so much of it. It''s the last day till I can only see her over summer.
I'm also a little exited to see Damon in school since I won't after today given he's a senior. It's going to be so weird walking though the halls knowing that I'll be apart of the school seniors next year. I don't think I'm ready for it if I'm honest but I'm definitely ready for the summer.
Seeing another notification from my phone I pick it up and my mouth drops. He's rock hard. Touching my pelvis as a natural reflex I'm wondering how the fuck I was able to fit that in my body. Realizing what I'm thinking I move my hand away. I did that too him. Grinning like an idiot this is all relatively new to me. I wonder if this why people love relationships so much, it feels so good to be wanted. Quickly giving Damon a quick response I rush to get ready for school.
***
Walking down the hallway I'm scrolling through my phone. I haven't seen Katie all day today and I've only interacted with other people I know. Katie will always be my favorite though. Now Damon is on that list to favorite people.
Except I won't see him in the hallways anymore and I can't help but think of all the wasted years I could've had with him. Maybe we can try being together after he graduates and see how that works. The conversation will arise when it needs to but right now I like figuring out feelings out together. It's nice.
Feeling someone grab my hand I'm pulled back. Startled, I look over to the owner of the hand to see that it's Damon. Kissing my forehead before I can say anything my smile partially fades when I make eye contact with Jacob. He's standing opposite him and he's watching me, he doesn't display any physical emotion so I can't tell what he's thinking.
Watching him slowly look away it's like he's completely changed personalities when he sticks his tongue out to someone. 'Colton! Hey baby,'
'I told you to stop referring me like that,' He looks over before making his way towards us. Now he's also watching me heavily but he diverts his attention to Damon. 'It's nice to see you actually show your face at school Damon,'
'I'm going to be honest I was just going to sleep all day but I decided to go anyways,' he runs his fingers through my hair.
I'm leaning against his chest since he's holding me there and I feel so out of place. I haven't said anything this whole time yet they're talking like it's normal for me to be here. Besides the weird looks Colton and Jacob give each their which is scaring me. I wonder if they've spoken about me when I wasn't there. Or it's just normal for Damon to have girls in his arms.
Ignoring the thought I look to the side to see a couple girls whispering. They look away when I look in their direction which makes me frown. As much as I love girls sometime they can be so incredibly fake and jealous. Not saying I'm better than the whole population of girls. I have my own flaws.
'I'm going to go and try find Katie,' I lean away from Damon's chest so I can turn to look at him.
Frowning at my statement he sighs. 'Sure but come find me again alright?'
Feeling bad I kiss his cheek before walking away. Looking over to the girls they're now glaring at me.
Jesus Christ.