After our kulitan and asaran, Aiden and I became much closer.
He is a nice person. Masipag siya at laging nagsusumikap para sa pangarap. And that's one thing I love about him, he is not rich but he always does his best sa kahit anong bagay na ginagawa niya.
He fed and sheltered me kahit pinagkakasya na lang niya ang budget niya sa pang-araw araw.
I admire his determination to succeed in life. Siguro ay inspirasyon niya rin ang kanyang pamilya.
I haven't met his family yet, hindi rin naman siya pala kwento tungkol sa kanila. Ni hindi ko alam kung alam ba nila na magkakaroon na siya ng baby?
Hinahayaan ko na lang siya, kung kailan niya gustong sabihin sa kanila.
I'm three months pregnant now. Malaki na rin ang aking tiyan, next month ay malalaman na namin ang gender ni baby.
Kahit ano naman ay tatanggapin ko, tatanggapin namin.
Ngayong malapit na ako maging ina ay mas nadadagdagan ang aking kaba. I wish someone was here for me to guide me in this pregnancy.
I know Aiden is here and he has knowledge on how this all works pero iba pa rin kung galing mismo sa isang ina.
But I know my mother would not even lay her eyes on me ever again. I am dead to them.
And that fucking hurts me.
Kasi kahit anong sakit at paghihirap ang ipinadama nila sa akin, hindi ko maikakailang mahal na mahal ko sila. I can't deny the fact that I am still yearning for their love and affections.
Pero hindi na mangyayari iyon. Impossible ng makasama ko sila.
But as they say, kapag may nawala, may darating na bago.
I lost my parents, but I gained Aiden and our baby.
Sa ngayon ay mas pinagtutuunan ko ng pansin ang kung anong meron ako. I promise to be a good and loving mother, and a housewife too.
While cleaning the sala ay narinig ko ang pagtunog ng doorbell. Aiden was taking a bath kaya't ako na ang nagbukas.
Bumungad sa akin ang isang matangkad na babaeng balingkinitan ang katawan.
"Uhm, sino po sila?" I asked.
"Who are you? Where's Javier?" she asked back. "What are you doing in my house?" dagdag niya.
Nalaglag ang panga ko dahil sa sinabi niya.
House?
Is this Aiden's good friend who let him borrow her unit?
"He's in the toilet, pasok ka." she immediately went in at bingga pa ako.
What the fuck bitch? Pasalamat ka at bahay mo ito.
"Javier!" she shouted. "It's Tiff."
"Upo ka muna, mamaya ay matatapos na iyon." saad ko.
She scanned me from head to toe. Nagtigil ang kanyang mata sa malaki kong tiyan.
"Who are you? His maid?"
"Uhm..I..." I don't know what to say. Hindi naman kami ni Aiden, so hindi pwedeng girlfriend. Fuck buddy ba? Live in fuck buddy?
"No need to answer, of course you're the maid. Get me some juice."
"What?"
"Are you deaf? I want juice. Bilisan mo or else you're fired!" she shouted.
What the fuck? This bitch!
Anong akala niya katulong ako?
Susugurin at sasagutin ko na sana siya ng pabalang kung hindi lang lumabas si Aiden.
Halata sa mukha nito ang pagmamadali.
"Tiffany!" he uttered.
"Javier! Oh, I miss you so damn much." sabay takbo at yakap ng babae kay Aiden.
"Tiff, nakauwi ka na pala?" gulat na mutawi ni Aiden.
"Yup, kahapon lang. And I decided to visit you. How are you here? Comfortable ka ba? Sabi ko sayo tanggapin mo na iyong mas malaking unit na offer ko eh." nagbago ang tono ng kanyang boses. Kung kanina ay maldita, ngayon ay ipit and matinis.
"I'm fine, no worries Tiff." sabay yakap niya pabalik sa babae.
Really? In front of my pregnant belly?
Tumikhim ako kaya naman binitawan niya ang tinatawag niyang 'Tiff'
"And where's my juice?" tanong nito sa akin.
Tinaasan ko lang siya ng kilay at hindi kumibo.
"Your maid here is annoying, Javier. I don't like her. I want my juice please." pabebe niyang asta.
"Oh, she's not my maid Tiff." saad ni Aiden na nagpatigil sa babae.
"No Javier, don't tell me? And she's pregnant!" sigaw nito.
"How dare you let your woman live in my house, at talagang buntis pa ito? Really Javier?" himutok niya.
Serves you right bitch.
Akma akong lalapit kay Aiden upang angkinin ang kung anong akin, but I stop when I heard him talk.
"You got it wrong Tiff, she's my sister, and yes she's pregnant." saad niya na nagpalaglag ng aking panga.
What the fuck?
"Your younger sister you always talk about? Siya na iyon?" bumalik ang sigla sa boses ng babae.
"Oh my! I am very sorry." she went to me and held my hand.
"Sorry love, I mistook you as his maid. Hindi ko alam nakauwi ka na pala. It's nice to finally meet you. I'm Tiffany, Javier's friend." she introduced.
I looked at Aiden, he looked at me and eyed me to just go along. Fuck him!
How dare he deny me.
"It's Roshan." binitawan ko ang kamay ng babae.
"The beautiful Roshan Salvatore! I am so glad to see you. Palagi kang ikinuwento ni Javier sa akin. And now you're pregnant pa, congrats!"
I looked at her emotionless at umalis sa harap niya.
I'm pissed, fucking pissed!
"Oh, Roshan dear wai-"
"Sorry Tiff, moody siya these past few days. Upo ka muna doon, I'll catch up with you later. Hatid ko lang muna siya sa room." paalam niya at sumunod sa akin sa kwarto.
"Roshan..heyy." sabay higit niya ng braso.
"What the fuck is that Aiden? A fucking sister? Really? You effing denied me, and your child! How dare you!" pinagpapalo ko ang kanyang dibdib.
"Shh..Roshan. Baka marinig ka sa labas." pigil niya sa akin.
"Eh ano naman kung marinig niya? That's the truth. Bakit mo kami tiantanggi? Is she your girlfriend?" sigaw ko habang unti unting bumabagsak ang luha.
"No Roshan. Please, I'll explain later. Stay here for a while." pakiusap niya.
"Ayoko nga! You're a fucking liar! I thought you're a good person, pakitang tao ka lang pala." at ipinagpatuloy ko ang pananakit sa kanya.
"Javier?" narinig naming tanong sa labas.
"Stay put here Roshan. Mamaya na tayo mag-usap." akma siyang lalabas kaya hinarang ko.
"Ah! So pipiliin mo siya kesa samin ni baby?" mapungay kong tanong.
"Roshan..please. Huwag ng matigas ang ulo mo. We'll talk later."
"Pag lumabas ka, aalis na ako dito. Bahala na kung saan pulitin." pananakot ko. Kinakabahan dahil baka hayaan niya lang akong umalis.
"Bakit ba ang tigas ng ulo mo?" he patiently remarked. "Pwede ba for once, fix your attitude. She's my friend and you're just..."
"I'm just what?" fuck that hurts. "Ah, just a stranger na nabuntis mo. Okay, go ahead. Puntahan mo na siya."
"No Roshan..I.." he said, halata ang takot sa boses. He tried to hold me pero umiwas ako.
"It's fine Aiden. Sorry if I crossed the line. I now know where I stand in your life." and my tears won't stop falling.
Humiga ako sa kama at nagtalukbong.
Damn! Parang pinipiga ang puso ko.
She's a friend while I'm just? Anong katuloy noong sasabihin niya? Stanger? Nobody?
Fuck!
It hurts!
Kasi kahit saan pala ako mapadpad, walang tatanggap sa akin ng buong buo.
I only have my friends!
Damn! Sila na lang ang meron ako, at ang batang ito.
What a fucking good life!