Jennie pov
My ex wife is coming to Jisoo gathering. I still love her. It's really hard seeing her happy with someone else. We've been divorced for a year. It hurts more as time goes on.
The way she looks at me, the way she greets me, the way she hugs me, the way she's so gentle with me, it all feels the same. She's dating someone new since last month and I feel hurt. Was she with her while we were married. Me and Lisa were married for 5 years. We got married young.
She was the love of my life and I guess she still is. We decided to stay friends but can you be friends with someone who you were married to. I just agreed because it was something Lisa wanted. She didn't want to lose touch with me so we stayed friends.
Lisa new girlfriend however doesn't know about our history. Jisoo told me that Lisa hasn't told her girlfriend that she was married to me. She just thinks me and Lisa are friends. I've met Lisa's girlfriend once or twice before.
It's hard that me and Lisa have the same friends. It's Jisoo engagement party. I have to attend.
I was at the mall. Alone. Stopping for Jisoo and Haeins gift. I was to busy in my own world I bumped into someone.
Jennie: sorry. I'm so sorry.
I look up at the person I bumped into and it was Bambam.
Bambam: Jen are you ok?
I nod
Jennie: what are you doing here?
I smile, Lisa's friend, the way he speak to me hasn't changed. He always treats me with respect and like his sister. All of Lisa's friends still treat me like family. It's just that Lisa doesn't talk to me much if it's just me and her alone.
Bambam: Minnie dropped me off here.
Minnie is another one of Lisa's close friends.
Jennie: shopping for anything particular?
Bambam shakes her head.
Bambam: no I just wanted to get away from Lisa and the devil she's dating.
I pout and he laughs. His laughter dies down as he saw my expression.
Bambam: I'm sorry Jennie.
He places his hand on my shoulder.
Jennie: well if you don't like her then something must be wrong.
Bambam chuckles
Bambam: Jennie she's a bitch, I love you for Lisa more than that witch.
I laugh.
Jennie: thank you, why don't accompany me, help me find a gift for Jisoos engagement party.
Bambam nods.
Bambam: oh shoot, I need to get a gift too, I forgot that was tonight.
I chuckle.
Jennie: let's grab something to eat first, I've been here for hours and I couldn't find anything.
Me and Bambam head to a food place. It wasn't fancy it was a friendly environment.
Bambam orders some burgers and fries with some coke for us.
Our orders were served to our tables and we start eating. It didn't take long only 15 minutes tops.
Bambam: how's work been?
I nod
Jennie: it's been great, it's just been really lonely since you know.
Bambam sigh
Bambam: hey Jen, don't give up ok, I know I should stick up for Lisa but she made a big mistake and she still talks about you. You guys were married for a long time and she still loves you.
I drink my coke and shake my head.
Jennie: if she still loved me she wouldn't have gotten a new girlfriend so quickly.
Our divorce... well it came to a surprise to everyone even me. I just remember I was crying a lot and arguing with Lisa a lot but what couples don't fight?
Bambam: all I know Jennie is that Lisa only met this girl 2 months ago and they're dating now, she's nothing compared to you, Lisa still dreams about you, you know how she sleep talks.
I chuckle
Jennie: I guess she cares about me but I can't do anything, she's already moved on.
Bambam sigh
Bambam: her girlfriend literally looks like you Jen. Look
Bambam shows me a picture.
( her @ on instagram is Jee622 )
I shake my head
Jennie: I don't see it but she is pretty, of course Lisa is fallen in love with someone like that.
Bambam puts his phone away.
Bambam: I mean the difference is she's had work done and you haven't you're a natural.
I chuckle
Jennie: thank you but this isn't making me feel better, she's super sexy, Lisa isn't into me if she's with her.
Bambam eats his fries.
Bambam: s-she... moved on... on the outside... but not on the... inside.
He says with his mouth full.
Jennie: Bam, don't speak with your full.
I say in a serious tone and he gulps
Bambam: sorry ma'am.
We finished eating...
Waiter: here's the check... are you paying together?
I nod
Jennie: I've got this...
I was cut off by Bambam.
Bambam: don't be silly.
Bambam pays for the food and I glare at him. We get up and walk out of the food place.
Jennie: I could of paid for that.
Bambam shakes his head.
Bambam: you're still my sister in law Jen, I've got this.
I smile. I loop my arm with Bambams
Jennie: it's on me next time brother.
Bambam shakes his head
Bambam: let's continue... SHOPPINNNNGGG.
Bambam sequels making me laugh.
Lisa pov.
The way she smiles, the way her eyes stared into my soul, the way her body moved against mine, the her hands fit perfectly into mine. I miss her.
I still love Jennie. I've moved on because I thought it was right. I was wrong. I was completely wrong. My girlfriend is great but I couldn't get Jennie out of my head. I wonder if she's ok.
My friends like Jennie more, they always have, it's just that my new girlfriend doesn't want my friends hanging around much which isn't right, I've told her that they're like my family but I guess she wants me all to herself.
I haven't seen Jennie in a while. We only see each other when we go out with our friends or at our friends parties.
We've been separated for a year. Out of the year I've probably seen each other 16 times all together. I still talk to Rosé who is my friend and also Jennie friend. She said Jennie is doing well and she's still single. Maybe she's with a guy right now, making her happy.
I hurt Jennie, I divorced her because we spend our time in our careers and I felt like I didn't see her even though we lived in the same house. It was like we're just roommates. It was hard but I was selfish for divorcing her and then starting to date straight away. I was lonely.
Me and Jennie used to fight like cats and dogs, it was either me feeling lonely or her. My only mistake was not trying hard enough to fix our marriage which wasn't even broken and giving up so easily.
We only fought because either I was lonely and jealous or if I was working late at the office, Jennie didn't like it. Nothing was wrong with our love, we love each other we were planning on having kids but we didn't have time, we were to busy.
I still love her, I just hope she loves me too.
I was interrupt from my thoughts by the door opening and closing.
Jee: babe I saw Bambam at the small but I didn't say hi because he's on a date.
I raise my eyebrow at my girlfriend sat on my lap. I peck her lips. Bambam always tells me if he's dating someone.
Lisa: with who baby?
Jee wraps her arms around my shoulders.
Jee: that Jennie girl... the one Rosé is friends with, they seem pretty close, they're arms were looped and everything.
My heart beats fast when I heard her name. What the heck? Bambam never told me he's meeting Jennie today. Why would he meet her and why would Jennie say yes? What if they like each other? What if they fall in love? How could they do this to me? So much questions are going on in my head right now.
Lisa; really?
How could he. He's on a date with my ex wife. It must be a date if he didn't tell me.
Jee: baby what's wrong? You're spacing out.
I shake my head.
Lisa: nothing Babe, let's get ready, we need to go to Jisoo engagement party soon.
Jee places a kiss on my lips. When I kiss her it reminds me of Jennie. Why can't I get the girl out of my head. I'm the one who divorced her yet I can't stop thinking about her. It's wrong, Jee is a great girlfriend but she's not Jennie. I've never stopped loving Jennie maybe that's why I can't stop thinking about her. We broke our kiss.
Jee: I love you honey.
I give a small smile.
Lisa: love you too.
Jennie pov
Me and Bambam decided to arrive at Jisoo engagement party after we picked out a gift.
Loads of guest were already here, as soon as we walk in Lisa and her girlfriend see us. Lisa didn't look so happy. Is her girlfriend annoying her or is it me?
Jisoo: hey guys.
Jisoo greets us with her fiancé Haein.
Haein: we're glad you guys made it.
Bambam hands Jisoo the gift.
Jennie: it's from both of us.
Jisoo nods
Jisoo: does Lisa know you guys went shopping together?
I frown
Jennie: I don't need to tell her anything, she has a girlfriend.
Bambam gulps
Bambam: it wasn't planned we bumped into each other at the mall.
Jisoo nods
Jisoo: I'll put your gift with the other gifts. Have fun guys.
Jisoo and Haein leave us.
Jennie: think you should talk to Lisa she's glaring at you.
I whisper to Bambam and Bambam nods.
Bambam: I'll see you around Jen.
I watch him walk to Lisa and her girlfriend. Her girlfriend is dressed with a black mini dress showing her cleavage, while I look like a 5 year old. Why did she have to find someone who's 10x hotter than me?
I walk to Rosé, Seulgi and Irene, I gave each of them a hug.
Seulgi: Lisa didn't look happy with you guys.
I shrug, I glare over and it seems Lisa is arguing with Bambam. I was going to go over there but Rosé stops me.
Rosé: don't do it Jennie. Let Bambam talk to Lisa, he can calm her down.
I turn to Rosé
Jennie: why? Why is she even mad at bam? He hasn't done anything.
Irene drinks her wine.
Irene: because Jee has been telling everyone that you guys were on a date.
I widen my eyes. She what? She's seriously crazy. Why would she spread rumours like that?
Jennie: and Lisa is mad? Why? Hasn't she got that big boobed bimbo with her. Her girlfriend should even be talking about me, if only she knew how me and Lisa are really involved.
They laugh
Rosé: Jen she has a name and if she knew I think she wouldn't be all friendly with you,
I roll my eyes.
Seulgi: we know it's not true because Bambam wouldn't date you and we talked to Minnie and she said she dropped Bambam off at the mall so you guys probably bumped into each other.
I nod
Jennie: we did, it's no big deal, we're friends can't we hang out.
They nod in agreement.
Rosé: you're so right, doesn't she kind of look like you.
Why is everyone saying that. I glance at them.
Jennie: I don't see it.
I shake my head and grab a drink,
Jennie: I don't even want to be in the same room as them. I'm going to Jisoo tree house. I want to be alone for awhile.
They pout.
Irene: don't you want us to come with you Jennie?
I shake my head.
Jennie: no enjoy the party, I'll be down in a sec once those two stop kissing each other.
I motion to Lisa and Jee, who are currently eating each other's faces.
I head to Jisoo treehouse. It was a small tree house which is far out in her massive back yard. It's really cozy.
I climb up the ladder and went inside the tree house.
It was really cozy. It has a fluffy carpet, a small sofa. And loads of pillows that I normally hug when I'm missing Lisa. Jisoo calls her tree house, "Jenhome" because I'm always in here.
It only can fit 2 people in here because it's quite small.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when the door opened. I look up and it was Lisa.
Jennie: why are you here?
Lisa closes the door and sits next to me.
Lisa: when you disappeared I knew you'll be up here.
I sigh
Jennie: didn't think you'll notice... seen as though you were sucking your girlfriends face off.
Lisa looks down.
Lisa: it hurt when I thought you and Bam were dating but he told me you guys bumped into each other and had some food and continued shopping, it wasn't flirty he said.
I roll my eyes
Jennie: why would that hurt you, you've moved on, you have the perfect girlfriend don't you.
I couldn't help but sounding jealous.
Lisa: she's not you Jen. I can't stop thinking of you. Believe me please.
Tears just roll down my face. I should be Happy, I'm finally a CEO and she should be because she's finally got her own company too and her dream girl.
Jennie: you're the one who divorced me Lisa. You hurt me. Haven't you got what you wanted, someone who's always stuck to you, someone you can boss around and won't fight back with you. Someone who hasn't got a job and can be there whenever you need her.
Lisa tires to hold my hand but I move my hand away.
Jennie: don't Lisa... you left me because I was busy working at the same time trying to show you I care for you but you weren't listening, when you were working I didn't bother you and let you work, it was different when I was busy because then you had a problem, thinking every guy I worked with was flirting when in reality it wasn't like that. You were just making things up in that head of yours.
I wipe my tears trying to calm myself down.
Lisa: I'm sorry I hurt you Jen, I'm sorry I wasn't ready for love, I made a selfish mistake by divorcing you, I shouldn't have done it. But Jen I'm ready for love now, I'm ready to love you.
I shake my head
Jennie: you know over this past year I was busy missing you trying to get you back but instead you were busy finding pussy. Then when you starting dating her all my insecurities came out, maybe I wasn't pretty enough, maybe I need a boob job, maybe I need to dress like a slut so Lisa will love me again.
I shout at her and Lisa shakes her head.
Lisa: Jennie I love you the way you are. I love the way you dress and you certainly don't need any surgery. I was a jerk ok, I admit that, my jealousy, selfishness and paranoia got the best of me and I want another chance.
She's still being selfish but I still love her we were together for so long.
Jennie: another chance Lisa? You have a whole girlfriend. Why are you even saying this to me?
Lisa holds my hands and I let her because I was weak when it comes to her.
Lisa: I miss you Jennie.
Her eyes were telling me the truth but her actions are doing the wrong thing.
Jennie: when I see you at these gatherings with her, it hurts, the way you kiss her, the way you hold her and the way you look at her, I wish it was me, when I see you kiss her my heart breaks all over again, you don't know how hard it is Lisa. You seem like you don't care because you've got it all.
I pull my hands away and Lisa wipes my tears with her thumb.
Lisa: the way I look at her, the way I hold her and kiss her, is because all I can see when I'm with her is you Jen, I was a jerk back then but the more I'm away from you the more I realise how much I love you.
Lisa begins to tear up.
Jennie: if that's so true why are you still with her and not with me. If you wanted to cheat on me Lisa you should of done it, it would be less painful than a divorce.
Lisa shakes her head.
Lisa: I wouldn't have cheated on you Jennie because I care about you...
I cut her off
Jennie: you cared for me that much that you hurt me with the worse thing possible. The divorce papers.
Lisa looks down.
Lisa: I've always loved you Jennie and cared, I just wasn't good at opening up to you, please give me another chance and I'll come clean to Jee and tell her everything. About our history and break up with her.
I chuckle sarcastically.
Jennie: I don't need your words Lisa, I need actions.
Lisa nods at me but suddenly she pulls me close to her and attaches her lips to mine. She kisses me passionately and I kiss her back. Her hands move from my neck to my waist. I couldn't help but moan. Suddenly all the hurt was forgotten when she kissed me.
Jennie what are you doing? Why are you enjoying this?
Lisa lays me on my back and starts to kiss my neck.
Jennie: Lisa..
I moan.
The way she touches me, the way she kisses me, the way she speaks to me, the way she can tell me all the right things, the way I still love her and I think she still loves me, it makes me forget about the way she broke my heart.
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