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Rindou handed the lighter to his brother. After they fought back when you were still in the rehabilitation centre, both of them didn't talk about it anymore, yet they still have their back to each other. Just at what their father said.
"Fighting is just normal at siblings but remember to act like the older brother and to act as the younger brother because none in this world will help you willingly but the two of you."
Though they didn't ignore the words. They still act what they usually do but Rindou already warns his brother about you.
Rindou looks at the Izana.
"Just don't rush things, our plan will soon be done. Hanma and Kisaki will handle my sister. We'll take Mikey's weakness."
Silently listening, the phrase was just so wrong. He didn't have a sister just like Izana, but aren't they family? He can't even see Ran getting beaten badly that's why they both help each other.
"How about the other girl? The one that can't walk?" Kisaki asked. The cold purple eyes of the two owners gaze up to Kisaki.
"You mean Y/n? You should just leave her alone. She's not Mikey's sister."
Hanma chuckled and throw the finished cigarette on the dirty ground. He just honestly don't what to get you to involve. Can't even do the plan without Kisaki's hand.
A grin appeared on Kisaki's face and pushed his glass that eventually lead Rindou to stand up from the wood he used to be seated on.
"My fists are willingly to smash your face."
Rindou left those words before he went out and wondered.
He doesn't really care about the upcoming conflict. He just thought that you'll hate him if ever you find out. That can't be helped, he's not friends with any of your friends. He sits on his motor and remembers the time when Ran stole a kiss from your unconsciousness. That got his blood boil. Between the two of them, he's more impatient and a hot-tempered person.
A punch met Ran's face after Rindou saw how his brother didn't hesitate to steal a kiss from you. Knuckles are turning white, popping veins to his neck and forehead, he once again punch his brother.
"Why did you do it, Ran?!"
Ran wiped the blood that came out from his lips. The image of him didn't feel guilty, making Rindou want to kill his brother. The nurses saw the ruckus between the siblings.
"Not because Y/n's you had proposed with that doesn't mean you can do it! Are you blind! I'm her boyfriend!"
He grabbed Ran's collar and wanna punch him again but Ran stopped his fist.
"What are you so mad about? You've just learned earlier that she's the girl I've talked with you back then."
"Bullshit! Your past doesn't determine what's happening right now! Don't give me that action that you wanted to steal her from me. In the first place, weren't it's your fault that the girl you've been talking with me ages ago is mine now? Because you're only good at your words but not your actions!"
Ran punched Rindou on his abdomen. A groan went out from him.
"I know it's my fault! If I told you that she's that girl you keep pestering would you stop?! Of course not! You already got interested in her! I know it's my fault but even you're my brother... Rindou I can't trust you being with her!"
Rindou shook his head clenching his fest that got his knuckles white.
"Shut up!! You shouldn't have done it from the firs-"
"Achiko is back! What can you do about it? We both knew that even you wanted to be with Y/n, you're still gonna end with Achiko."
Brows furrowing. Rindou angrily punches him again.
"Leave me alone! Don't decide about who I end up with! Achiko is no longer part of me!"
Ran stared at him coldly.
"Stop lying to me. I knew you more than anyone else. But remember this, once you hurt Y/n, I will punch you."
That's was the last time they talk for at least 2 weeks. Rindou got pissed and hurt you about the time when he wiped your lips harshly and lied about the dream that someone kissed you which is true.
He can't help but get jealous. You find out about Ran and he's part of your childhood. Aside from that, you're the girl who made his heart once again fluttered.
"Rindou, let's go," Ran approaches his brother with a timid smile.
"Y/n will going to the US before Christmas and coming back in January," Rindou started.
"And?"
"Nothing."
Ran stared at his brother for a moment before patting his shoulder.
"Let's meet Mom today. I got a message that she's in her penthouse."
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After packing your stuff you visited your friends to have time with them because you're leaving after three days. Crossing her arms, Yuzuha gazed at you.
"You better buy me something abroad and I'm expecting it when you come back."
You smile at her. "Yeah. I'll consider it as a gift to all of you."
Emma chuckled and put down the cupcakes. You glance at the chocolate frosting. You quickly averted your eyes and silently felt weird.
"We'll wait for you, Y/n. The time you get there we should face time okay?" Hinata said and smiled at you. You bobbed your head. While the three of you continued chatting inside Emma's room. The door was opened by Mikey. All of you look at him.
"Is it true that you're leaving for Christmas? Chifuyu might be telling lies," Mikey inquired. Emma stood up and put her hand to her waist.
"I told you many times to knock on the door. When will you listen!"
"But this is my house too," he nonchalantly said.
Mikey approached you while hands on his pockets.
"We should celebrate Christmas and New Year together, Y/n!"
You closed your eyes as you sigh. "Maybe next year. Mom will just scold me if I don't come."
"Is that so..."
"..."
"Tss. Mikey get out! We're having girly talks right now!"
You watched Emma pushing Mikey out of the door. Placing your hands on the throw pillow on your lap, you notice that Yuzuha's looking at your necklace.
"Where'd you get that?" She asked. You look and touch the pendant. "It's pretty."
"Ahh, I got it from Rindou," you replied. Yuzuha put her chin on her palm.
"I see...Y/n I just wonder, what if you didn't meet Rindou? Nor he didn't become your boyfriend, what would else should you do?"
Your lips protruded. That questions also run in your head back then. Shrugging your shoulder, you lean on the backrest of the chair.
"Who knows..."
"Just thinking about it. You never really date and accept MU's but except to Hanma and the current boy right now. You really know how to catch hot guys. I envy you."
"Yuzuha-chan is right. I also thought maybe because you're year older than us that's why you already know about it."
It was Emma and sit next to Hinata.
"I've recently read a novel. It said that there are three types of love." Hinata started. She blushed and hug the throw pillow. "I think you guys knew it too."
"I'm sorry Hina-chan, but we're single!!" Emma and Yuzuha said and they laugh. You just chuckled and thought about the three loves theory. First love, Intense love, and Unconditional love.
"Takemichi-kun is my first love."
"Yeah, we knew about it. You're really in love with each other."
"First love??"
"Yeah, I'm fluttered that I am your first love," Hanma said while caressing your blushing cheek with his knuckles. You look away from him. Just thinking about it makes your eyes get wet.
"Y-you're not sure about it!" You stuttered. His horse chuckles filled your ears. The sun was setting on the edge of the ocean. The sky was left in pink and orange portions which makes the situation like a fairy tale. Heart beating so fast while two small hands holding the tattooed one.
"I've been liking you from afar and saw you going out with guys but I never saw you dating them..."
"But still. You're not my first love..." You sucked your lips. Even how many times you deny it, he's indeed your first love. Crying on the phone and confessing to him on the night before the day rise, you felt embarrassed especially that he's teasing you. It took at least three months before you felt your heart-melting with his presence and silly jokes. It took you three months before you know that you fell in love with him.
You hate delinquents but one of them caught your heart.
"Man, I didn't even think that you'll gonna be my girlfriend because you're always with Mikey and Draken. I thought one of them is your secret boyfriend or something."
"What! They're my friends. It's weird to have that kind of relationship with any of them!"
Hanma laugh and kissed your forehead which makes your cheeks turn beet red.
"I really like you, Y/n."
Both of you became silent. The sound of the waves and the air was natural to be heard since the two of you are on the shore. Your arms hug his waist. Not that you are small but he's just a big person.
"Stop making my heart flutter!!" You groan and brushes your eyes to his chest to wipe the tears. He hugged you back and laugh once more.
"Hanma, let's hide our relationship first? Is it fine?"
Hanma became silent for a while before he agreed.
"If that's what you want. I also prefer it 'cuz I don't want you to get involved in troubles."
"Thank you, but I can say that we can walk together in other places that none of my friends will see us."
Falling in love was so heartwarming and it feels really good. It feels like you're in a fairy tale. The two of you grow together and are in love with each other. The first three months were fine but then the other months became hard to deal with. Since you were busy with your studies you started to get stressed and get even more stressed when you saw Hanma getting bruises and more active in fights. This will lead to both of you fighting together.
"Why can't you worry about yourself! I'm fucking stressed because of my studies and then here you are! Do you want to die!!" Even you were angry, you were worried about his health and condition. You hate delinquents because they hurt each other and they don't get mature and only think about troubles and getting the number one. Yet you have a boyfriend and friends who are delinquents.
Hanma throw the cigarette and glared at you.
"Then what is it if I'm here!! I'm fucking trying to fetch you even you don't have time for me anymore. I understand your side but I hope you understand my side as well."
Being frustrated leads to misunderstanding. You gulp the lump on your throat.
"You wanna fetch me? I told you that our relationship is n--"
"Okay, I get it! I'm always that fucking secret of yours! Let's talk again some other time." With that Hanma left. There are no people around because you're in the playing area and it's already six in the evening. You slowly sit on the bench and watch him leave as your eyes are forming tears.
"You're just gonna leave me here..." You mumble and wipe the tears. You sobbed silently even it's cold. Your phone rang and saw that Mikey was calling you. For the first time, you decline his call.
"You're so stupid, Hanma. How can I introduce you to my parents if you keep putting bruises on your face!"
And so, after the fight, everything will be back to normal. You introduce him to your parents and they trust Hanma not to lay hands on you. One year had passed and it's your first anniversary. Still, you're still secret to his friends and so he is. Hanma clarifies that It doesn't matter anymore if your friends are not aware of your relationship with him.
Due to that period, Hanma becomes needy and the kisses from the sweet one became wet and hungry. You felt his tongue with yours.
"Moo, aren't we g-going too far??" You innocently said. Hanma parted his lips and kissed your neck.
"I want you."
"B-but...I'm scared. We're home and Mom will be back soon.." You whimper when he suck your neck. He lay you on the bed and he went to the point of touching you.
"Ahh...It hurts. Why are you putting it there?" Tears escape from your eyes when he put his fingers on you. It feels weird and you felt your first orgasm but then Hanma didn't try to scare you that's why he never put his own inside you. You've learned about the reproductive system but you've never really seen it in person. A groan escapes from him as you get suffocated the moment he pressed your head deeper to him.
Everything started with him. Until another year for the second anniversary came. It was fun being with him and you thought that the two of you will last forever. Thinking about it makes you feel happy every time you're alone in your room. Until Hanma started to get aggressive. You hate the way he forces you that's why the two of you will fight together and leave each other for a while. Text and calls were merely answered. Your worries started to grow and decided to make it up for him and surprise him. But fate must have hated your relationship with him. It was the other way around who got surprised. Seeing him naked with someone.
You feel betrayed and get betrayed. Why did he do it? Behind your back! He's doing it as if you're existing is only an imagination. Thus, that one mistake you became blind and try to hide it like you never saw anything. Hanma cheated behind your back and you gave him chances until you had enough. No matter what you do or try you can't give him yourself especially after discovering he's a cheater. You loathed him. He doesn't have a conscience.
That first love of yours ended cruelly and you learn that everything has its end and accept that past.
"Before I reach the unconditional love. I want to be a better person first and look for the better place that I can put in mind and my heart."
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