Slowly Sehun's little fingers moved. His brows furrowed. His breath was still tight, but he felt a breathing apparatus attached to his nose. Help him to breathe easier.
His eyelids opened slowly. At that time, what he saw was Kyuhyun samchon who looked at him worriedly. His uncle's lips moved, but everything was ringing. Sehun didn't catch the words of his uncle who had a worried expression on him.
He looked the other way. Staring out the window in the dark night. He closed his eyes. And again lost consciousness that night.
Kris did not dare to enter Sehun's treatment room. Apart from the fact that his cousins and his mother forbade him, he also did not dare to meet Sehun after the bad words he had said.
He just looked down. Regret everything. He almost lost Sehun. Big luck for him that Sehun is strong and able to survive. If only Sehun failed to survive—
Kris didn't dare imagine it. How devastated would he be if he lost Sehun from his world.
Meanwhile Luna sat in front of Kris. The woman seemed to think seriously before finally standing up and walking towards Kris.
"Guixian is right, we don't deserve to be Sehun's parents"
Kris raised his head. Finding Luna's face pale white, just as sorry as him.
“I agree if Guixian Ge wants to take care of Sehun. I will give the guardian letter tomorrow” said the woman and then walked away leaving Kris who was increasingly feeling cornered.
Mama and Tao would definitely agree if Sehun was cared for by Guixian, especially if they knew Luna also agreed. But Kris couldn't.
However he loved his son very much.
The next day, Sehun regained his senses, this time in a better state. Guixian his uncle immediately grabbed his hand and kissed the back of his hand. He smiled faintly.
"Hi Hunnie"
Sehun didn't respond. He saw the adults there. There is grandma, uncle Tao, but where are papa and mama?
He looked at Guixian, “Papa?” he asked quietly. His brows furrowed when he saw Guixian's face look annoyed for a few seconds.
"Don't worry about your papa. Hunnie must be healthy first, okay?”
Sehun was confused, but he nodded. He thought, his father was busy at work. Because basically papa and mama are two very workaholics.
Not long after, the door to his room opened. Sehun found his father standing in front of him staring at him in silence. When the doctor entered the room, his father remained silent there. And when the doctors and nurses had all entered, the door to the room was closed, his father remained motionless outside.
“Shixun, are you feeling anything? Does it still hurt too much to breathe?”
Sehun shook his head in response. His eyes stared at the closed door.
"You'll be fine," said the doctor after running several checks on Sehun. He rubbed the little boy's head then smiled and walked out.
Sehun looked at Kyuhyun, his breathing apparatus was removed, he could talk freely now.
He remembers, he fell in the swimming pool in his father's backyard. He fell because he walked with his back to the pool and was busy staring—
“C-Chanyeol's photo?” Sehun asked Kyuhyun who frowned.
"What photos?"
“Hunnie was holding Chanyeol's photo when hunnie fell!”
Sehun sat up. Panicked. He looked at Tao, “Uncle, did you keep the photo? Give it to Hunnie please… Hunnie really likes that photo… please…” he begged Tao who was now looking down.
Then Tao lifted his face and smiled regretfully, “Sorry Hunnie, that photo is made of paper that will automatically shatter when hit—
"No.. No way." Sehun pressed the right side of his head. "Chanyeol.., there's only one photo of Chanyeol here—, now it's gone—, what should hunnie do?— hiks.."
Sehun sobbed. He covered his face and wept bitterly. Kyuhyun looked at Tao who shook his head regretfully at him.
Kyuhyun then walked out, "You still have Chanyeol's photo?" he asked Kris to which Kris shook his head.
Kyuhyun sighed then stepped inside and hugged Sehun. He grabbed Sehun's wrist, preventing him from hitting his own head.
“hiks.. Chanyeol—hiks, Chanyeol…”
Kyuhyun rubbed Sehun's head and kissed the top of his head. "Uncle will help Hunnie look for him, okay?"
Sehun raised his head. "How?" he asked desperately. His watery eyes looked at Kyuhyun pitifully.
“Hunnie, Uncle Kyuhyun wants Hunnie to live with him—
"Dad Mama dumped me? Hiks.. papa mama hate me?”
"No, it's not like that—
"Hiks.. Hiks..."
Even though his grandmother explained, Sehun first caught the sentence that living with Kyuhyun meant his parents didn't want to live with him anymore. He is been thrown away. Her father's work is more important than him.
“Hiks…”
Kris in the outside who couldn't stand to hear Sehun's sobs rushed into Sehun's treatment room and hugged him tightly.
"Papa.. hiks.. Sorry Hunnie,—hiks, hunnie promise not to be naughty again, hiks.. Papa—"
“Ssshh”
Kris cupped Sehun's face and kissed his forehead. His big thumb brushed Sehun's eyelids and he flashed his best smile.
“Let's do what Hunnie wants, hm? Who would Hunnie want to live with, honey?” Kris asked in his soft voice.
Sehun looked at his father with his watery eyes. He was still sobbing, the sound of his crying disappeared but his body still jerked several times because he was holding back his tears.
"Papa will accept everything..."
Sehun looked at Tao and Kyuhyun his uncle alternately. He then looked deeply into Kris' eyes. He took a deep breath and blinked his eyes until the tears fell.
"Hunnie wants to live with Papa—" he said quietly. Kris smiled and nodded. He hugged his little son tightly.
“ㅡIn Korea”
Kyuhyun looked at Sehun in a little surprised, he looked at Kris who put some distance between his body and Sehun's body. He looked at his son who was now smiling slightly.
"Hunnie wants to live with papa in South Korea," he said with a faint smile but teary eyes.
Kris nodded and hugged his little Sehun back tightly. "After you are very healthy, we will go there" he said while rubbing his son's small back.
"Papa has promised, papa can't break it"
"Yes, honey.. Yes. I promise you”
Sehun smiled happily. That little boy hugged his father tightly in return.
Tao looked at him then chuckled. He looked at Kyuhyun who also nodded and smiled. Both of them know, the matter of intelligence, there is no need to doubt Wu Shixun.
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Joohyuk looked at Chanyeol who was praying in front of a candle in the church. He looked so serious in praying. They had just returned from the hospital, after one night they had spent there.
"You don't pray?" Chanyeol asked Joohyuk who had only been looking at him praying.
Joohyuk shook his head in response. The 'why' question was so obvious on Chanyeol's face even though Chanyeol didn't say anything.
Joohyuk sat beside Chanyeol and clasped his hands together. He kissed the back of Chanyeol's hand.
"You are my heaven, only you are my obsession. You are my hope, and the peace of my soul. I don't care about the others. The reason I don't pray? Because of Chanyeol, I see God in you."
Chanyeol was surprised, he looked at Joohyuk in disbelief but Joohyuk just smiled. He repeated his words once again,
“I see God in you, Chanyeol…”
Chanyeol couldn't respond when Joohyuk asked him to stand up and walk out of the church. The two of them headed for Joohyuk's car together.
Joohyuk drove his car to their house. The car is silent until their Hyundai Car ab
rrived at the mansion,
Chanyeol went first, “I'm going to take a shower first. I'm tired, I want to sleep early” he said then Chanyeol walked straight to their room and entered the bathroom to clean his body.
Seeing the spacious bath up, he moved into it and sat in it. He looked at the locked bathroom door and sighed and closed his eyes.
He leaned on the dry bath up and controlled his breath, which was still a little difficult. His eyes closed tiredly, and he fell asleep in the dry bath up that felt warm.
"Chanyeol"
Chanyeol gasped. He woke up on the bed. His eyes crinkled, not recognizing where he was lying right now.
He turned and his eyes widened to find himself sitting on the bed hugging his own knees. His eyes are puffy. His hands were clenched into fists, and his body was still shaking from holding back the sobs.
"Chanyeol"
Chanyeol looked at the closed door. The voice that called out to him came from behind, and it wasn't Joohyuk's voice.
It was the voice of the young man telling him to come to the airport and prevent him from leaving. The voice of a man fondling him. A voice he recognized but faces and names he couldn't remember.
"Chanyeol-
“JUST LEAVE!!”
"I can't. Baby please… you are my life, how can I leave you?”
“I hate you—hiks.. you—hiks.. why did you lie to me?”
"Not. Baby please don't cry…”
"I hate you-
BRAK!
Chanyeol looked at himself who was surprised when the door was knocked down from the outside. Again an unreal face appeared before him.
He hugged himself who was crying on the bed. Hold him tightly. So tightly and warmly embraced Chanyeol who actually cried even more in his arms.
“I feel so weak—hiks, I feel weak because of loving you, Sunbae…hiks”
The man put some distance between himself and Chanyeol. Chanyeol looked at the man's face and rubbed his face.
“I love you, Sunbaenim”
"I love you so much that I feel so weak because of this love... I love you that much, that much"
The man nodded. He rubbed Chanyeol's face and wiped the traces of tears from his face.
"I'm sorry, I was wrong," he said in a soft voice.
"I was wrong for doubting you, I was wrong in thinking to test your love, I was wrong for being jealous of him. I should have believed you, I was wrong—
“Hiks.. Hiks…”
“Chanyeol, baby, why else? I already admitted my mistake—
"I'm also wrong—hiks, because I always make excuses—hiks, because of my attitude that makes you doubt me—sob, because I put other people first, hiks.. it's natural for you to be angry with me—hiks, but I—hiks, I don't want to be like this —hiks, just seeing you with him makes me sickㅡ hiks, I'm angry and upset but I know that it was my fault that you felt comfortable with him and chose to be with him, canceling our appointmentsㅡ hiks, I also often cancel our appointmentsㅡ hiks, I often leave you for other people —hiks, you've only replied to me once but I've been sulking like this—hiks, I'm sorry—hiks, don't leave me—"
The man cupped Chanyeol's lips and grabbed the nape of his neck to kiss him deeper. He bit Chanyeol's lower lip and took a soft sip.
Their lips parted. He looked at Chanyeol looking at him with his watery eyes. The man cracked a smile.
"It's not your fault," he said hoarsely. He was holding back his emotions that were also overflowing ever since.
“Chanyeol, you are my world. You are more than sunshine or oxygen to me. Chanyeol, you are me, I am you. If you cry and are sad, I feel the same way as you.”
Chanyeol looked into the eyes of the man who was staring at him deeply. He started crying again and hugged him tightly.
"Don't leave me, forever"
“Baby, you are my other half. Where else could I go without you, hm?”
Chanyeol looked at the sharp eyes that looked at him deeply. "You see God in me, right?" Chanyeol asked and the man nodded.
“That's why I can't live without you, baby… You are more than everything to me”
Chanyeol chuckled and hugged him tightly. "If we separate and you live happily without me, I will kill you"
“Believe me, if it were without you, my world would collapse. And if you find me looking fine without you, believe me, who you meet isn't me."
"Hmm?"
"Because I died in the day you left, I died in the day you decided to leave me"
Chanyeol massaged his temples hearing a loud knock on the door. He opened his eyes and walked to the bathroom door and pulled it open.
"Are you okay?"
Chanyeol looked at Joohyuk then nodded. "Sorry I fell asleep in the bath up" he said quietly. He turned towards the sink but Joohyuk first picked him up and carried him in a bridal sling and carried him to their room.
"Only I love you this much, hyung" Joohyuk said as he laid Chanyeol's body on the bed and hugged him.
"God. Why do you always make me fall in love every time I meet him?”
"Hmm? What did you say?"
“Many people love you, maybe more than I love you, but Chanyeol—”
"Yes Sunbae?"
“All of me loves all of you”
Chanyeol was silent. Yes. That man was different from Joohyuk. The man with sad eyes staring deeply at him, soft voice and big warm hands embracing him was not Joohyuk.
The way that man treated him was so sweet, that when Chanyeol couldn't even remember his face and even his name,
The man who appeared in the fragments of his memory, the man who became part of a large part of the memory that was erased from his head,
Chanyeol fell in love with him.