TW: Blood will be mentioned in this chapter and also something will happen that might trigger other readers. I'm not going to tell what it was so that I wouldn't spoil this chapter.
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-Y/n's POV-
I woke up in a field of flowers, dandelions, as they all danced with the wind and some seedling flew up high.
All I see in my surroundings was a mountain from afar. There is not a single tree anywhere.
The skies are blue, but everything seems to be dim, and the clouds were not pure as white, but dull as grey.
Then, a mirror with a golden luxurious frame appeared 4 meters away from me. It was the same mirror where I have to witness my darkest fear. Fear of losing my Parents.
In a blink of an eye, the mirror was suddenly in front of me and I was already standing. My bare feet pressed against the grassy grounds.
I was wearing a white nightgown with its length reaching my knees.
I stared at the mirror, waiting for it to happen again even if I didn't want to see it, but it was like destined to happen.
To my surprise, it wasn't my parents who appeared in the mirror. It was no other than me, and only me.
I pressed my hand on the mirror same as my reflection. I think it was just a usual mirror this time.
But...
It wasn't until I noticed bloodstains in the middle, in the part where my legs are.
Then, my eyes caught my knees as blood started to stream over like the rivers in the forest.
I placed my hand on the blood as it stained on it, and I lifted my hand which is now trembling as I look at the blood.
Sweat was already all over me when I suddenly got up, breathing heavily like I had just run a mile or even further.
I felt a slight cramp inside my stomach like I feel like throwing up.
My feet swept off the bed, pressed them on the floor and ran to the bathroom, then kneeled in front of the toilet as I wait for myself to throw up, but nothing came out and the cramp suddenly vanished.
I slipped off my pants and checked if there's blood, thinking that my period has come, but there was none.
My stomach must be cramping, for maybe my period is coming. I have been waiting for it since I missed it last week.
I got up and just took a shower instead since I'm already here.
Although, I am curious about how did I get here in the first place. I knew I was at the library last night. I do not recall myself coming back here.
Or maybe Michael had come back and taken me back here. Might be...
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"Have you finished your homework?" Asked Luna, who is sitting with us at the Slytherin table for breakfast, as she took bread on the basket in front of us.
"Yes, I did." Then, the cramp appeared again, causing me to let out a faint groan.
"Are you alright?" Asked Daphne, placing her hand on my back.
"Just cramps. I might be expecting my period anytime soon." I sighed.
"Are you sure it's nothing?"
I nodded, assuring Daphne that I'm alright even though the pain was a bit different from the ones I usually get. This one feels like I got pinched really hard by someone or got stabbed with the sharpest knife.
"Alright then, I'll head to my class now." She told me and Luna. "I'll see you guys later, bye." She waved goodbye and went out of her seat, exiting the Great Hall.
"We should finish up too so that we could go to our classes." Luna smiled.
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"Are you sure that you'll be alright alone in your class?" Luna is worried that I might get thrown nasty looks and ill words again, especially when cramps kept on coming back in my stomach. "Why don't you rest for just today and rest at the hospital wing?"
"It's alright, Luna. I'm fine." I assured, smiling at her. "It's just a normal cramp."
"You sure?"
I nodded in reply.
"I'll come back for you later then, once my class has ended. Wait for me, alright?"
"Sure," I smiled, allowing her to come back for me.
Usually, I wouldn't allow them, Daphne and Luna, to come and get me after class ever since the secret of me and Draco, being married, was revealed.
"I'll be back then. Bye, Y/n." She bid and went to the right hallway.
I smiled and opened the door to the classroom.
My smile soon faded as I entered the classroom, meeting a lot of eyes.
I knew instantly that this day would just be the same.
Unpleasant and cruel. Those are the words I describe my days where everyone would just throw ill words and nasty stares at me.
"It's the slut." I heard someone on my side say, eyeing me up and down like they're disgusted.
"How's your married life, whore?!" Shouted the boy, who is from the group of Hufflepuff.
"Auclair- I mean, Malfoy! How did you manipulate HIS parents?!" Laughed the two girls on the front seat, who from the House of Ravenclaw and Gryffindor.
It's difficult, but I have to endure it.
Enduring it was the only choice. It is the only way to get out of this until the end of the school year.
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The clock struck 10 for the class to end.
I was putting all my books in my bag when suddenly, someone threw a book and it hit the back of my head.
It hurts badly, but I don't want to pick up a fight. The situation will just get worse. This happens usually.
Sometimes, it was worst. They would throw water at me or place a dead rat or bird on my table.
Then, someone approached me. A Slytherin Student.
I lifted my eyes up and saw Pansy Parkinson in front of me.
"Can we talk?" She asked, her lips has a tiny frown.
I nodded.
She turned her back to me and walked to the door, letting me know to follow her, and so I did, following her outside the room.
We stopped at an entrance to a spiral staircase that leads to a tower.
She went up and I followed.
I don't know what to expect, but deep inside, behind this emotionless face of mine, I was terrified of what she'll do or what will happen.
We stopped by at the top tower and she turned around to face me. But I kept my head low to avoid looking into her eyes.
And yes, I feel guilty and embarrassed about everything, especially now that she knew.
"Is it true?" She asked, there was pain, laced in her voice.
I lifted my head up, meeting eyes with her.
"Is it true? That you're married....with him?" She asked once again, her eyes wanting to tell me that it wasn't true.
I don't know what to say or how to explain it, but the only word that came of my mouth was, "Yes." And my eyes met the floor again.
I could feel how devastated she was. I know how she feels. If I were in her shoes, I would feel the same way.
She is his girlfriend, and I am his wife who has been forced to marry him. She spent the longest time with him while I didn't.
"Don't worry," I tried to fight my tears from streaming down while looking at her. "I'll divorce him a year after."
She looks a bit stunned by my words and she doesn't know what words to utter.
"He'll be yours, and always will be. I never intended to take him from you. It was our grandfather's decision why we have come to this life." I explained. A faint smile appeared on my lips.
It really hurts when I said that word. Divorce.
She kept silent, and I think now is the best time to leave, for the cramps in my stomach appeared again.
"I'll leave you right now," I told, turning my back to her and making my way down even though I heard her call my name, but I chose to ignore, which I knew that it'll hurt me more.
I reached back into the hallway and I felt the cramp getting worse than before. I feel like I got stabbed deeply by a knife and I couldn't even stand properly.
But then, I felt something streaming down my legs.
I pressed my hand on my leg and lifted it up, only to see blood. A lot of blood on my hand.
My hand began to tremble, the cramp just got even worse like it could literally kill me.
I lifted my eyes and saw Michael, who had just lost his smile upon seeing me in this situation.
"Michael," My voice was weak and trembling.
My visions started to get blurry, noticing Michael was running to me until darkness took my sight and last hearing Michael calling my name.
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My eyes slowly opened and a bright light was coming into my sight.
I hear words. I hear people talking, but it was muffled until I hear someone say,
"She has awoken," It was the voice of Professor Snape.
I sat up from the bed, clearing my visions with the back of my hands and looked around, noticing that I was at the hospital wing.
The cramp was still there, but it doesn't hurt like it used to.
Michael, Luna, Daphne and William are on each side of the bed. Worry was drawn to their faces.
Aside from them, Professor McGonagall was right beside Professor Snape, standing only half a meter away from the bed, while Madam Pomfrey was talking to them, saying that the both of them should talk to me.
Then Professor McGonagall walked closer to me and asked, "Ms Auclair, are you aware of your situation?"
"W...wha...what situation, Professor? I think I do not follow what you mean?" I told.
"Ms Auclair, you just had a miscarriage." She exclaimed.
Upon hearing those, I couldn't fathom her.
Was I hearing right? I had a miscarriage at an early age? Or was it just a misunderstanding?
"Professor, am I hearing you wrong?" I asked again, asking for confirmation.
"No, Ms Auclair. You didn't hear me wrong. You just had a miscarriage."
Miscarriage? Does that mean I was pregnant the whole time...? And from....him...? Is that why I have been feeling tired for the past few weeks?
"It's best to write your parents about this," Told Professor Snape.
"No...please..." I rejected it even though he wasn't asking.
"Y/n, Mama and Papa should know about this," William stated.
"Yes, but...I wanted to be the one to tell them. I just...I just want to find the right time to tell them." I reasoned.
"Very well then," said Professor McGonagall. "We'll all leave you now." Then she turned to William. "William, make sure your sister is well-rested. She shall have a week to rest."
"Yes, Professor," William responded.
I couldn't even form any more words from my mouth. I was stunned by everything that had just happened this day.
And now.....
I now knew I have lost someone vulnerable that I didn't know I was carrying.