Moon' pov
There's someone outside the house.
I can hear them loud and clear, there are people outside of the house, and they're trying to come in and hurt us.
They're going to come in.
And Lucy isn't here, she's not sleeping next to me like she's supposed to. She's not in our bedroom right now.
What if she's in danger ?
What if they took her ?
I jump off my bed so quickly it gives me whiplash and makes my head spin, my eyes still feeling heavy from sleep. I don't even bother putting on clothes, staying in only my bra and the shorts I slept in.
I grab my gun on my nightstand and run out of my bedroom so fast I'm surprised I don't trip and fall face first on the ground, but when I get into the hallway I realized that everything is quiet.
There are people outside why is everyone sleeping ?
I punch and kick at every single door in the hallway, waking up everyone and making sure they know we're in danger.
"Wake up, wake up !! There are people outside the house !!" I shout, running down the stairs with my gun raised.
I stop abruptly when I reach the living room, very carefully walking to the front door, and not making any sound to make sure the people outside don't hear me coming, and I don't turn the lights on.
But then I see something moving in the hallway, someone hidden in the shadows and I shoot without even blinking.
Nobody is going to hurt my family.
"Moon !!" I hear Zayn scream at the top of his lungs from behind me and I turn my head around, letting my arm fall down by my side when I see the fear in his eyes, but he's not looking at me.
He runs past me and goes to the hallway.
Why is he going to the hallway ?
I just shot someone that was trying to hurt us, he shouldn't be going there, it's dangerous.
"Hey, hey Moon put the gun down please." I look at Louis as he walks closer to me with his hands raised next to his head and I frown at the look of fear he also has in his eyes.
What did I do ?.
"Moon, give me the gun." he repeats, a little more firmly this time and my eyebrows furrow even more but I hand him the gun, watching as he exhales in what looks like relief and puts the safety back on.
Why are they all so calm and why is no one else carrying their gun ?
There are people trying to hurt us.
"Lucy ?" my heart leaps into my throat when I see Lucy and Zayn walking out of the shadows, both looking terrified and Lucy hugging herself with her arms around her chest and this.. this is when I realized what I've just done.
No.
No, no no this didn't happen.
It can't happen.
Not again.
I take a few steps back and almost trip on my own feet, my body starting to tremble wildly and my throat feeling dry.
Lucy looks at me with eyes full of pain and I shake my head, not stopping to walk until I end up bumping into someone's chest.
I flinch at the contact and push Louis away from me with my hands on his chest. I press my back against the wall and keep my hands raised in front of me in hope that everyone in the room stays away.
I don't want to hurt them.
I need Jade.
I watch as Niall and Harry also come down the stairs and arrive into the living room, both looking still half asleep and extremely confused about everything going on.
They look around a bit frantically while I just stay where I am, my ears ringing and my eyes burning.
"Moon, come on why don't we go sit down for a minute yeah ?" Jules asks quietly, holding their hand out for me but I don't take it. "It's okay, you don't have to be scared, I'm not scared of you."
They should be.
I'm scared of myself.
"They were people, outside." I murmur a bit breathlessly, my mouth feeling a bit numb as I swallow harshly. My eyes glance at everyone in the room, all of my friends staring back at me like I'm insane.
They're right.
"I'm sorry." I turn my head to Lucy, who's just standing there with Zayn close to her, his arm draped around her shoulders and her eyes soften a bit at my words.
She unwraps her arms from around her body. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you."
"You didn't hurt me," she says, holding her arms out and looking down at her herself, like she's trying to show me that I didn't hit her anywhere. "See ? I'm not hurt, I'm okay."
"Moon, please come sit down for a minute." Liam says this time and I give him a short nod, walking to the sofa the furthest away from everyone and making sure I don't get too close to them on the way.
"Can you please tell us what happened ?" he asks, crouching down in front of me but keeping his hands to himself.
I wish they weren't all staring at me.
I wish I wasn't like this.
"I woke up and there were people outside, I didn't want them to get in and try to hurt us." I whisper, bringing my legs up and holding them against my chest. "Liam where is Jade ?" I murmur and I see his eyes widen at my words.
Why does he look confused ?
I always want Jade.
I always need Jade.
I watch as he stands up and walks up to Jules, whispering something into their ear that I can't hear. Jules gives him a quick nod before they rush out of the room, and then I hear them run up the stairs.
"Liam I need Jade, where is Jade ?" I ask again, and I hear a quiet sniffle coming from somewhere around me.
I look up at Louis, and when his eyes meet mine I see tears falling down his cheeks and I frown even more.
"Why are you sad ?" I ask, and Louis doesn't answer me, only flops down on a chair at the table to my right and wipes his tears away; his leg bouncing on the floor.
"Moon, we're going to call the doctor alright ?" Liam says.
"Why ?" I breathe out, rubbing my hands over my legs to try to warm myself up, I feel so cold.
"I don't need a doctor, I just need Jade." I say again, and Liam walks closer to me with slow careful steps until he's right in front of me again.
He crouches down next to my legs and puts a tentative hand on my knee, and this time I don't flinch away so he keeps it there.
"Honey, you need to see a doctor right now." he repeats.
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Louis' pov
"A mental hospital ??" I almost shout, my eyes wide as they dart between Liam and Moon both sitting on the couch across the room from me. "No, no, why on earth would you go to a mental hospital ??"
It's been over an hour since Moon woke all of us up, screaming bloody murder and trying to break our doors down, and it took her about thirty minutes to come down from her episode.
And when she finally realized what just happened she looked absolutely broken.
She ate a bit and drank a lot of water, smoked a couple cigarettes while she explained to us everything that happened, well everything that she understood.
She was still a bit confused, so it took her a while to even fully grasp what happened in her brain.
Her and Liam went upstairs with Jules for a little while, and now that they're back downstairs they're telling us that she's going to leave to go to a fucking mental hospital.
"Louis, calm down-" Moon starts but I cut her off.
"What the fuck no I'm not gonna calm down, you can't just leave like this !"
"I'm not leaving forever, but I can't stay here right now." she answers and I shake my head, spinning around and taking quick steps towards the table next to us.
I grab the pack of cigarettes there and pull one out, also grabbing the lighter before I move back to my previous spot, resting my back against the wall.
I see Harry moving from where he was standing on the wall to my left, and when I feel his body come close to mine I don't even think. I blindly try to grab his hand, Harry's fingers immediately lacing with mine, and we both stay silent as we stare at Moon and Liam.
"When will you come back ?" Niall asks quietly and I huff, pulling the now lit up cigarettes off my mouth and glaring at him as he sits down on a chair.
"She's not leaving."
"Yes she is." Moon answers, her voice a little more cold than before and I feel my heart sink at how tired and worried she looks at the moment. "Louis I'm sorry, but I'm leaving, I have to."
"No you don't, you can get better here." I answer, feeling myself holding Harry's hand tighter.
A knock on the door makes me jump slightly, and Liam gets off the sofa, sending Moon a gentle look before he walks to the door and lets the guy inside.
"Hey Laura." he tells Moon and I frown.
Why does this doctor know her name.. well a fake name but still.
"Hey Evan, I'm sorry but could you all give Louis and I a moment please ?" Moon answers, and Harry gives my hand a firm squeeze before he and everyone else in the room leaves and walks into the kitchen.
Moon extends her arms as a gesture for me to sit with her, and I climb on the sofa, curling my body into her and Moon engulfs me into her cold arms, both our bodies now covered by a soft blanket.
"I don't understand why you have to leave." I speak quietly, burying my head into her shoulder and feeling my emotions threatening to come out to the surface, but I try to push them down as best as I can.
"I'm not okay Louis, I've been doing bad for weeks now and I know you can see it. I hoped that I was going to get better after a while, but I'm not, it's getting worse. And I can't stay here as long as I'm a danger to you and myself. I could have actually shot Lucy earlier."
"How long will you be gone ?" I ask, my voice barely above a whisper.
"We called Evan earlier while we were upstairs, he was the doctor that treated me a few years ago after I had a bad episode and I almost stabbed Jade, and I ended up in the hospital." she starts, running her fingers over my arm and I try to focus on her voice and her steady heartbeat under my ear.
"The moment I moved into the house all those years ago, I gave his number to Liam, and we agreed that if anything ever happened he had the right to call him even if I didn't want him to."
I nod at Moon's words, getting off her so I can sit facing her, and when Moon's eyes meet mine the only thing I can think about how exhausted she looks. « I'm checking myself in for a month. »
"A month ??" I almost scream and Moon gives me what looks like a compassionate smile before she continues.
"Minimum. I'm checking myself in, which means that I can't leave until the month is over, but there is a big chance that I'll need to stay in there longer. Maybe much longer."
"How long were you there ? Last time ?" I ask.
"Two and a half months." she answers and I sniffle quietly, my throat sighting and my eyes burning as I feel the tears rising to the surface.
"For the first week I am not allowed to get any visitors, and for a while I probably won't be able to call you either."
"I don't want you to go. » I shake my head, Moon reaching her hand to catch a stray tear that fell on my cheek and I lean into her touch. « Who am I gonna go to if I'm sad during the night ?"
"Harry." she answers quietly and I fight against a groan, Moon smiling softly. "Louis you're gonna be fine, I'm sure of that. As soon as you can you'll come see me, and if you really need me for something just ask Liam to call me. He will be in contact with Evan so if there's an emergency he will be able to join me."
"I always need you." I frown and Moon chuckles a quiet laugh. "I'm not joking."
"Honey, I love you, I really love you, but I'm not your fucking mom." she says and this time we both laugh, genuinely laugh.
"You'll be fine. You have Zayn, and if you stop being a dickhead and talk with Harry I'm sure he'll be there for you when you need him. And I'll be back to massage your back and scold you soon, I promise." she says and I exhale a shaky breath and I nod, almost crashing into Moon's chest and wrapping my arms around her.
She hugs me back just as tightly, and right as I'm about to pull away I hear Liam's voice coming from the hallway.
"Moon ? I'm sorry to interrupt but you need to leave soon." he says softly and my stomach turns as I pull her even closer to me.
"Are you going to be safe ?" I whisper into her ear and Moon presses a kiss to my temple before she pulls away.
"It's a few hours away and I'm going there under a fake identity, plus there's an anonymous system so yeah, I'll be more than safe there." she answers, and I give her one last nod before we both stand up from the couch, Moon walking up to Jules and grabbing the sweater they're handing her.
"Thank you." she smiles.
Everyone walks outside of the house, where the doctor's car is and he climbs inside the driver's seat while Moon turns to us.
She hugs every single one of us for a long moment, Lucy crying quietly while the rest of us also have tears in our eyes. She doesn't rush anything, takes her time with everyone, whispering into their ears and rubbing their backs, and then she comes to me.
Once again she engulfs me into a tight hug, and I struggle to keep my composure and not just burst into tears and beg her to stay here.
I know she can't, I know she has to go, but fuck I really, really don't want her to leave.
It may seem a little stupid, being so affected by all of this, but when you spend twenty four hours a day with someone, live with them and do everything with them for years, the idea of them being away for only a week feels like hell.
And this is Moon we're talking about.
I need her.
"Talk to Harry, don't be a dick, spend time with Zayn and everyone else and be the great guy that I know you are alright ?" she speaks quietly into my ear.
"I love you."
"I love you too honey." she presses one last kiss to my forehead and takes a couple steps back, walking towards the car. She sends us one of her beautiful smiles before she climbs into the passenger seat.
And then the car drives away.