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Reyansh pov:
Fuck, the slap mark is visible.
Right now am in my bedroom viewing my face. I didn't inform that what happened for ishaan to jeevika, Or else she will started to worry more. And good thing, he didn't got much wound.
I asked ishaan too not to say his mum regarding today accident. And I know, He won't open this, if at all he opened this matter to his mom. Then he knows the consequences, as he will be beaten for running like this.
That rowdy girl, fuck its paining like hell.
I gone to kitchen to have some water. There jeevika is preparing dinner.
"Anna do you need anything" she asked me. I nodded my head as no.
I will never trust the female gender not now not never. Only betrayal is all I faced.
After drinking water, I started to walk towards my room.
"Reyansh" I heard that lady voice. Who is none other than my step mom. A bitter truth.
I stopped in my track. I turned towards her. There my dad is sitting beside her. And even my step sister were also sitting in other sofa.
"Yes" I curtly replied.
"Spend some time with us beta" she replied.
"What you want. Just say it" I replied.
"Don't speak with your mom like this" dad shouted.
"She is not my mom. I don't have one. And I don't want one. I hate the word mom. " I shouted.
"It's okay Reyansh. Your step mom didn't do anything to hate her right" dad said. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone.
"What you want to speak. Just say it fastly" I said.
"Regarding your marriage only beta" she asked me.
"I don't want to get married. I will never marry anyone. That's it. Don't interfere in my life" I shouted at them.
"Don't shout Reyansh. You have to get married that's it. If not for you. Atleast for our family." dad said.
"I can't. I won't. I will never say yes to it" I calmly said this time.
"You have to beta" she said.
"Your age is going to be 33. You are not getting any younger. And you know right, am your step mom. So everyone in the society will think that I didn't doing anything to get you married. But thats not the case. No one will believe me. You have to get married not only for this reason. After you your sister were standing. Without marrying you, we can't marry her too. Think about it " that lady said.
" Am not objecting you guys to make her marry. "I said.
" Thats not how it will work" dad said.
"See I don't want to get married. That's it" I said and moved away from them.
Once I reached my room, I just sat in my bed. And my past comes in a row of flash.
I don't have trust regarding females. All they did to me is betrayal. Only betrayal.
Then I just laid in my bed, Thinking that tomorrow I have so much of work to deal with.
Who will get married.
Not me
Ilankodi pov:
"Yes say" my dad said.
I heaved a sigh.
There my aunty is sitting in the sofa and speaking with my dad.
" I came with a marriage proposal for our Ilankodi" she said at my dad. My mom served her tea and stood beside my dad chair's.
"What it is anni" my mom asked her.
My aunt took the tea cup and started to sip it. After sipping for one time, she placed her cup over the tea table.
And opened her bag and took one paper from it.
"This is the bio data if one boy whom I know. You see it. I hope this will perfectly suit for our Ilankodi." aunt said.
Myself, mom and dad only were present in the home, as chaaru and gaytahiri gone out. Chaaru to meet her boyfriend and for gayu she gone out for meet her school friends.
Dad took the paper from aunty and started to read it.
" Horoscope will match I guess " Mom said after seeing the bio data.
" Name is vasudevan. Occupation is own business" dad started to read out the content in the printed paper.
In anyway that groom is going to reject me.
"Age:39" dad read it.
Oh nice, now am going to get married to someone who is very aged one.
'As if you were being your young age' my mind mocked me.
'Only a pretty girl get young groom. An girl like you will always have to get married to aged person only. And age is just a number.' my mind replied.
"What is this devi, he looks very aged" dad asked. Wow what a miracle.
"Even our ilankodi is also aged only right. In just 15 days she is going to be 29, not getting younger any." aunt replied. Dad nodded his head as no. And again started to read the content. Okay which means they get convinced.
'Atlast you will be married it seems ilankodi' my mind mocked me.
" Already married " my dad shouted.
"Yeah, his wife died before 5 years" aunt replied.
'Wow second marraige for him but for you it will be first marriage' my mind said.
I think my family really get me married off to anyone. So yes.
"And having a boy who is 10 year" dad again read out loud.
"Yes Anna, I think this will be the perfect match. As we have searched for ilankodi in many ways. But we didn't getting any good proposal. I think it is a good proposal so why not we proceed" aunt said.
My eyes turned glossy.
It is not wrong to marry a widow. But but i don't know what to think about here.
"No no I won't accept this proposal" my dad said.
"But think about ilankodi Anna. She is already getting old. Still in one year she will reach 30. Already no one is accepting here, but here that is not the case. This groom side, is okay with ilankodi. As I showed them our ilankodi profile." aunt said.
But being mom to 11 year son is something I couldn't able to imagine.
" Shut the fuck up and get out from the house right now, right this instant " we all heard an voice from back. I turned and seen who it is. It is gayathiri, who is really looking very mad. Really mad.
Oh god.
"Gayathiri" Mom shouted her name.
"What mom, are you really our parents mom. Do you just want your first daughter to get married. That's it. He can be either a old man too." she again argued with mom.
"Gayu" I called her. She just glared at me.
"Akka stop okay. Just stop." she shouted a t me.
"Akka it's your life. You are going to live akka. You have to stand up for yourself akka. Why are you being silent here, rather than making this witch aunty to get out of our house" she just spitted out.
"Gayithiri don't speak like that" dad shouted at her.
"What dad, now you are coming to advice over me. When you were thinking of marrying off my akka to some old man who is having a son who is just 6 year less than me" she shouted at dad.
"Gayathiri" Mom really shouted very much this time.
"Don't shout mumma. Am just fedup with you mumma. I don't have words to describe this family. Keep this is in mind mumma, not everything is regarding the marraige" Gayu shouted.
My tears were flowing miserably.
"Don't raise your voice against elder ones" Mom Shouted at gayathiri. And followed by an slap.
"Mom" I just shouted at her and grabbed my lil sis to my chest.
"Don't you dare to slap her" I shouted at her. And took Gayu inside our room.
Once we are inside, I just locked the door and made Gayu to sit in the normal bed. I took the water from the study table.
"Gayu have this first" I said at her.
"Akka, why are you not standing up for yourself akka. Am fedup with you" she said at me.
"I know. I can't Gayu. Whatever might be, this one thing. I can't. I couldn't able to. I think everyone made me like this. I stopped voicing out. I stopped gayu." I slowly said at her and kneel down on the floor with water bottle in my hand.
She just sat beside me and hugged me.
" Don't cry akka. " she started to cool me down.
" Don't akka"she again said.
"Atleast for today you could have stand up for yourself right akka." she again said.
"How I can be, gayu. How. Everyone made me like this. How I can stand up for myself. How. Everyone made sure that, a girl like me have a no say in marriage. Not just in marriage, even in everything. I hate it. I hate myself......"i stopped as I started to hiccups.
" Akka drink first " she said.
I nodded my head and dranked some water and showed the water bottle before gayu.
" You know right.... You know right. Did anyone is asking my opinion atleast for one time in my life for this marriage. No right. At my 22, they started the groom hunting process. Not for the first one they asked me, and not now too...... Everytime.... Everytime I will only se... See their eyes which will only have the disappointment. Alwaye, because everyone I mea.. Mean... Every boy rejected me. Not even one member accepted me. Not even one member. Everytime, everytime when a boy said no. Mom woul. Would turn to my side and dispointedly look at.. Me.. As if I asked them to reject me...... Still now many members have been seen me. You know... Right.... Around 48 or something... But no one accepted me. No one. You don't know how it will be feeled.... You Don... Don't know... Everyone mocked me... Everyone. There is no one is not mocked me..... Its my mistake only gayu, for not being a fair girl. For not being a lean one like a society standard beauty. Am ugly. Am ugly. See no.... Now I got the proposal.... Now I got... Our parents just wanted to marry me off. If this gives them a happiness, I wi.. Will say yes........ " before I finish gayathiri just slapped me.
" Stop it akka. Stop it "she shouted at me.
" Am disappointed with you akka"she said
"Am disappointed. You were a teacher, I don't have words akka. This is not your problem. You are not ugly. You are not ugly akka" she said.
"Is this how you will teach your students. Do you also inculcate in every students, that you are ugly. Say akka" she asked me.
I nodded my head as no.
"just sleep akka" she said at me. She made me to lie in her lap. And started to tap my shoulder to make me to sleep.
"Love you gayathiri" I said at her in my sleepy voice.
"Love you too akka." I heard her voice followed by a kiss in my side head.
"Your life will change akka. Will definitely change. You will get a best husband who will take your every inch of your insecurity from you" she said.
I just slept by hugging her stomach.
'I don't hope so' this is the last thought before I close my eyes.
Reyansh pov:
I stood up from my bed and started to my daily activities. Once I done with everything my jogging, exercise, 3tc..
I started to get ready for work. After wearing my uniform, I gone out of my room to the hall.
"Anna" I heard jeevika voice. Other than her no one mostly speak with me. Or should I say I won't speak with anyone. As I don't normally speak with my step sister.
I turned towards jeevika. And I raised my eyebrow at her as if am asking her what is it.
"T.. That... Anna can we speak just for few mins" she stuteringly aksed me.
"Regarding?" I asked her.
"Anna, we are standing in the hall and speaking. Can we move to that side" she asked me.
I just nodded my head and she then started to move ahead and took me near outside of her room.
"Say now" I asked her curtly.
"Anna, tha.. That I happened to hear your conversation with your parents. I... I... Don't know whether I have the rights to say my comments. But I just want to ask you that. Why are you not saying yes to marraige" she asked me.
"Please anna, thi.. Think...
You have to get married. You are going to turn 33. Am not saying that you were old. But what am trying to say is, get marry Anna. May... Maybe you can find happiness after that" she said at me.
"No jeevika, am not interested in marriage. And I hate woman." I said at her.
"Anna, dont let your past ruin your present and future Anna. Now you may be okay without any support. But in future you will feel Anna." she again said slowly.
"Thats not happening" I replied at her and started to move out.
"Not every woman is bad Anna" I heard her voice. I just nodded my head as no.
Because I only know, because I had felt the pain of betrayal. An pure betrayal is all I felt.
While am leaving out of the home, again dad stopped me and asked about my decision.
"No dad." this is all my replies
"You have to get marry beta. Please think about it" that lady said. I don't like her. As she is also an woman.
"No is all I will say" I replied to them and turned to go.
Ilankodi pov:
Time skipped:
Its been 15 days, today is my cousin marriage function which is actually gelding in Trichy only. And we all somehow reached here.
I got ready in saree. And helped my lil sis. She is stunning in her saree.
"Akka you look pretty" gayathiri said. Which I know is not true.
How can I be pretty. That's funny to hear.
"Speaking lie is not good gayu you know it right" I said at her by correcting her pleats.
"Am not lieing" she argued with me.
I smiled at her.
After that day, my dad and mom didn't speaking well with us both. When chaaru came to know regarding that alliance. She just started to scold gayu for making aunt to go away. As she desperately wants me to go away from this home. So that she can get married easily. As my dad friend is also pressurising our families esclpecially chaaru.
"Advance happy birthday akka" I heard her voice.
That dreading day.
Getting older.
29
Still not married.
Not married.
My eyeslids started to fill with water.
But I just blinked my eyes rapidly to make those tears go back.
"Th.. Thank you" I stuttered at her.
"If alone am not your sister. If alone am not a straight. I would have ended up marrying you akka" she said at me.
I laughed at her words.
"No one want to miss the gem" she replied again.
"That's why everyone rejecting me right" I asked her.
"My dear akka. We human have the tendency to leave the gem and go for throw away stones. That's it" she just said and started to do me a light makeup.
"Come on akka. We are good to go." saying this she took me out of our room which is allocated by groom side for our whole family. The groom side, I mean my aunt is somewhat belongs to wealthy family.
Everyone already got readied and gone out except us.
"Let's go the reception area. Tomorrow morning around 6 clock, the marriage will happen" gayu said.
I nodded my head as yes.
I took leave today only. As tomorrow is Sunday for us.
We all gone to the reception area. Where the groom and bride were actually standing over the stage. And giving some poses.
"Always late in getting ready go near the stage and do some productive work' aunt said at us. Gayu glared at aunt.
We both gone to the reception stage where both bride and groom where standing and giving their poses.
" Akka comeon " saying this gayathri took me over the stage.
I gone near the groom and congratulated him and also Bride too.
After giving some poses to the pictures, we both just stood at the end to collect the gifts whichever was giving by the guests.
" Wow, the bride looks very pretty." one aunty said.
"Yes Srimathi is lucky to have her as daughter in law. What a beauty." another aunty said who is waiting to say their congratulations to the pair.
"That's why I choosed her as my daughter in law" we all heard a voice from back.
Gayathiri just looked not interested and started to use her phone.
"Very beautiful" again that first aunty said.
"Yes yes, just in one meet my son said yes to the marriage. As we don't want to miss the beautiful girl to be my daughter in law right" aunty said.
"You are right."anither aunty too piped in.
'See, that's why you still didn't get married. Be ayse you are not pretty. ' my mind mocked me.
I just heaved a sigh.
After 2 hours of standing, photographer asked me and gayu to step down from the stage. As he wants to take the couple photoshoot.
" Shall we have dinner" gayu asked me.
"No gayathiri I don't want to eat. I will go to room. Mom asked for you go and see her. I will go and take rest in our alloted room" I said. But she started to pester me to tag along with her to the food court. But after a lot of arguments. She left me.
When I reached the room, I just removed my ornaments and gone towards the balcony of the room.
Once the closed the balcony door, I just stood in the corner. This hotel looks very expensive one.
Exaggerated marriage.
Wealthy family, so wealthy marriage.
Climate looks very chill, this balcony doesn't have any lights. The only light source is the led designer bulbs.
Every room has the separate balcony. Nice.
I turned my left side, where a man is standing in the balcony which is associated with his room.
His back is all I able to see.
"Yes jeevika, for your persistent alone am attending this marriage." I heard his voice.
"Yeah everything is going fine"
He was kept speaking and I just turned from seeing him. As I don't want to look creepy for seeing him.
"Not again this topic. Am cutting the call" I heard his voice.
I leaned over the rail, and placed my face in between my hands.
And closed my eyes.
'You are ugly.'
'You are still not married'
'No one will marry you'
'You are plump'
'You are fat'
Those words kept swirling in my mind.
An lone tear fell from my eyes.
These days only tears were the things am shedding mostly.
Everyone have different thoughts on getting married. But in my case, I just want to get married, so that this society and my family won't bully me.
Either way I know that no one is going to marry me. Funny right.
But this is the reality.
Now a days, the groom side family were not looking for Bride character. All they searching for beautiful bride. Like a show case. That's it. Do anyone out there who is searching on any other basis.
Everyone, everyone is searching with some criteria for the bride hunting. But those criteria is having one mandatory point which is nothing. But a beautiful bride.
That is the thing which am lacking.
Somehow, being ugly is wrong in this soceity.
So am wrong.
Am wrong.
Am wrong for my own parents.
Am wrong for my own sister.
Am wrong in the eyes of this society.
Am wrong in the eyes of myself.
I hate myself.
Author's note:
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