Family Forever- H.S. (Teen Pregnancy)

Another Baby Girl for the Styles

Harry: 25

Camryn: 25
Darcy: 8
Lennon: 6
Auggie: 5
Bowie: 3 1/2
Calum: 19 months

❤️thank you so much to for Nienke_TPWK requesting this chapter ❤️
💕and thank you so much to SofttZ for helping me come up with the idea of how they tell Darcy💕

It'd a year since they started trying again.

It all started when Calum's was 6 months old. It was the first time the conversation had been brought up.

It started with them laying in bed after Calum had eaten his first spoonful of baby food, the first actual food he had ever eaten other than breastmilk. Harry didn't know why, but it made him get quite nostalgic as he laid here thinking about it. It was quite emotional, their last baby was growing up before their eyes. It was hard to accept. Especially for Harry.

He loved having babies in the house and with their youngest now growing more and more by the minute, he realized they wouldn't have that for long. It had been 8 years of always having tiny little toes to munch on or little warm bodies to snuggle and listen to hiccups. But, not anymore.

"Do you...do you think you'd want to try for one more,"Harry quietly asked, squeezing his arm that was placed around Camryn's waist tighter. Camryn was sat up against the headboard of the bed with her laptop in her lap, editing a new episode of her podcast that she had to have posted by the morning. Harry was trying to sleep, laying on his stomach next to her, but he couldn't. His thoughts were running wild. Their family needed another baby. And he needed to convince Camryn of it.

"What?"she quietly asked, peeking over at him to try and see if his face would give away the joke he was playing on her. They had been pretty sure that Calum was their last. Five kids was already a lot.

She wasn't opposed to the idea at all, it was just a lot to take in at once and she was fairly certain he was playing a joke on her just to see how she'd react

"Would you?"Harry asked again, peeking up at her as the light of her laptop combatted with the darkness of the room and lit up her face slightly.

"Well, I dunno, maybe,"Camryn shrugged, putting her hand in his hair and running her fingers through the curls. "I think it's something we should talk about more first."

"So that's not a no?"Harry clarified with a cheesy smirk, he knew he'd be able to convince her eventually. She loved having little babies in the house as much as he did.

"Well, no, it's not a no,"Camryn conceded with a chuckle, putting her palms on Harry's cheek as he gazed back up with her. "It's a maybe."

"A maybe is better than a no,"Harry replied, completely content with the knowledge that he could definitely convince her. He had no doubt in his mind about that fact.

He was going to be a dad again.

Even after 5 kids, that feeling never got old.

***

It was quite an odd and new experience for them. They had only ever actively tried to get pregnant once before, with the baby they miscarried. Darcy, Auggie, and Calum were just complete and utter accidents and Bowie and Lennon were technically surprise babies, but they really weren't being safe with those two either, so they weren't that big of a surprise, it was bound to happen.

It all started two nights later after much discussing about the best way to go about this. There were so many factors to think about when trying for a baby that they'd never really had to think about before.

How old did they want Calum to be when the baby was born?

Was this the best decision for all of the kids?

Could they handle six kids?

Could Camryn's body tolerate another pregnancy okay? Her body had never been the best with pregnancy.

Should they wait until the kids were a bit older?

It was a completely new experience for them, planning all of these things out. They'd only ever been thrown surprise babies that they had to fit into their lives whether it was ideal or not. And most of the time, because of how lucky Harry and Camryn both are, the timing was the absolute worst possible time they could think of. All of the kids were fairly close in age with the biggest gap being Darcy and Lennon who are 2 1/2 years apart.

Eventually they decided they were going to try now. After a lot of conversations and weighing the options, they decided that their family wouldn't be complete unless there was one more.

The thrill of trying was fun at first. It was exciting. They were making a baby! They'd never really had that thrill before of actively trying and knowing that at any point they could be making a baby. Their baby.

"Let's make a baby, Mrs. Styles,"Harry whispered huskily as he threw her down on the bed as she giggled, pulling on his cross necklace to pull his face closer to her.

"Let's do it, sweet boy,"Camryn whispered breathlessly, pressing her lips against his.

They were expecting to get pregnant quite fast considering their other babies. All it took for Darcy was one night of unprotected sex when they were careless teenagers. With Lennon it was the first time they had sex after the miscarriage. For Auggie, it was the second time they had sex after Lennon's birth. They had only been not being careful for a month before they got pregnant with Bowie, and Calum was the result of unprotected fun in the shower one time after Camryn had been adamant about not giving birth again after Bowie's traumatic birth.

So basically, what they had realized throughout the years was that Camryn gets pregnant extremely easily, which should've made them be more careful in the past, but obviously they didn't learn their lesson. The five kids are a good proof of that.

"I think we made a baby,"Camryn whispered, panting heavily as Harry rested his cheek on her chest, his fingers drawing circles on her bare lower stomach as his leg rested lazily on hers.

"Oh did we?"Harry asked, panting himself and humming in bliss as Camryn rubbed back the sweaty curls from his forehead.

"Mhmm,"Camryn hummed, closing her eyes in utter joy as she continued to drag her finger through Harry's damp curls, feeling his tummy rising and falling rapidly against her hip.

"Do you feel different?"Harry checked, pressing gentle kisses against her bare breasts.

Camryn hummed as she thought for a second, trying to pay extra attention to her body. Did she feel different? She could feel little flutters in her stomach but she knew that it was only in reaction to Harry gently sucking on her right breast. "Yeah,"she decided, and smiled as Harry placed his palm over her belly button.

"Hi baby,"Harry whispered, rubbing his hand gently over her stomach. "I can't wait to meet you. It's mummy and daddy."

Camryn giggled and placed her hand on top of Harry's. Sure, they didn't know whether or not they made a baby, but it was still fun to pretend they did. "Hi little one. I hope you're there listening to us."

***

4 weeks later (August 2018)

"You ready for this?"Camryn bubbled excitedly, looking at the pregnancy test covered by a small square of toilet paper on their bathroom counter. The older kids were already at school and her and Harry had just gotten the younger kids down for a nap.

"I'm so ready!"Harry smiled widely, hugging his arms around Camryn's waist and resting his chin on her shoulder.

"I'm so nervous,"Camryn giggled, putting her hands on Harry's that were interlocked over her stomach. "I can't even remember the last time we've wanted a pregnancy test to be positive."

Harry chuckled and nodded, pressing kisses to Camryn's shoulder. "It is quite a different experience not being sick to our stomachs as we take it."

"I think it's positive,"Camryn smiled cheekily, turning her face to gently kiss Harry's cheek. "I really think it will be."

"I really hope so,"Harry whispered, giving her belly another rub with his fingers.

"Alright,"Camryn sighed, pressing one more kiss to Harry's cheek. "Let's do this! Three...two...one!"

Camryn quickly reached towards the pregnancy test, taking the toilet paper off of it and brought it close to their faces, both of their eyes widening as they looked at the test.

"I don't think..."Camryn trailed off, bringing the test closer to her eyes to try her very best to find a second line on the test.

She sighed and set It back down on the bathroom with a slight frown pulling at the corner of her lips. "It's negative."

"Hey, that's okay,"Harry quickly whispered, turning Camryn around in his arms and hugging her tightly. He pressed soft kisses to her head as she covered her face with her palms, tears leaking onto the skin. "We can keep trying, bug. It was just our first month of trying."

Camryn nodded into Harry's chest and pulled away slightly from him, wiping away a few tears that fell from her watery eyes. "Sorry, I don't know why I'm crying."

"It's okay,"Harry assured her, cupping her face with his palms and kissing her forehead gently. "You can cry, babe. This is emotional stuff."

"I just...I don't know, I was so excited to think that I was pregnant again,"Camryn tearfully explained. "I just though I would be."

"I know,"Harry nodded, tucking a blonde strand of hair behind her ear. "I'm sorry, baby. But we'll keep trying, okay?"

***

September 2018 (2 months of trying)

"Ahh okay, I'm too nervous you look,"Camryn squeals, covering her hands with her eyes and smiling widely as Harry chuckles and looks at the pregnancy test that's flipped over on the counter.

"You're not gonna have a look with me, silly girl,"Harry chuckles, wrapping his arms around her from behind which makes her yelp in surprise since her eyes are still covered with her palms.

"No, I want you to look first! I always get to look first,"Camryn smiles widely, feeling his arms tighten around her waist as he gives her a little squeeze and then kisses her temple.

"I'm so nervous,"Harry chuckles, purposely procrastinating looking at the test. He wants to drag this blissful moment out for a few minutes longer because he knows if the test in front of him is negative he won't see a happy Camryn for the rest of the day. "This whole 'trying to get pregnant' thing is going to give me a heart attack."

"Stop procrastinating and do it,"Camryn giggles, bringing one of her hands down to playfully slap Harry's wrists that are around her waist. "All of this waiting is not good for our hearts."

"You know we're crazy, right?"Harry asks with a chuckle, looking at his cute wife as she continues to cover her eyes with her palms and smile giddily like a little child on Christmas.

"Why are we crazy?"Camryn asks, turning her face to look at him with her palms still across her face which makes him giggle slightly.

"Because we're like the only people on this earth with five kids, the youngest of which is only 8 months old, who are trying for another baby,"Harry explains with a chuckle, nuzzling his face into Camryn's neck.

"You can never have too many babies,"Camryn simply responds, turning her cheek to kiss Harry's face that's still nuzzled against her neck and then nudging his face gently with her own. "Now c'mon! I can't wait any longer!"

"Okay, okay, I'm goin',"Harry smirks, pressing one more kiss to Camryn's cheek before letting go of her waist and walking to the counter.

He takes a few deep breaths before he picks the test up. He decides that he doesn't like this way of finding out. He doesn't like him getting to see first, he likes when either she tells him first or they look at the same time. He doesn't want to break the news to her if it's bad news.

He flips the test over in his palm to read it, his heart beating at an unhealthy speed as he does.

Not pregnant

He silently swears and then looks up at Camryn who still has her hands over her eyes and a huge smile on her face. She's taking his silence as a positive, maybe he's trying to figure out a cute way to tell her? She's practically bouncing up and down in anticipation and his heart hurts. He doesn't want to tell her. He can't break her like this. He runs a hand through his hair as he continues to stare down at the two words, silently begging the first word to disappear and just leave the second. He bites his lip as he looks back up at her.

"Bug..."

"What?! What?"Camryn exclaims happily, bouncing up and down a few times. She's too in her head with excitement to realize that Harry's tone of voice was not a happy one. "Is it positive?!" She uncovers her eyes and sees him biting on his lip nervously as he eyes her. "Ohh..."

The way her face falls makes his stomach churn. "Baby, I'm so—"

"No, it's okay,"Camryn assures him with a fake confident smile, trying her best to not get discouraged. She feels silly for getting discouraged. They've only been trying for 2 months for heaven's sake. "It's okay, we'll just keep trying."

Harry watches her with a cautious gaze and nods. He's practically waiting for her to just breakdown. She's unusually calm and it's scaring him a bit. She seems like a ticking time bomb to him. "Yeah, of course. We'll keep trying. It's all good. Can I have a hug?" He holds his arms out towards her and she nods, walking into his arms.

He hods her for a few seconds before it happens. She explodes. Her trembling shoulders are the first thing to give it away. "Oh hey, bug, it's okay. I know, sweetheart. I know. I'm sorry."

"I just—I don't know,"Camryn sniffles, tightening her arms around Harry's neck.

"It will happen, Cam, I promise,"Harry whispers, pressing his lips against the top of her head as they sway gently next to the sink with the discarded pregnancy test on it. "It will happen."

***

October 2018 (3 months of trying)

"What're you doing mummy?"

Her heart about drops out of her body as she hears her little girl's voice enter the bathroom. Shoot, she forgot to lock it.

She quickly hides the untaken test, dropping it in the sink before turning around to look at Darcy with a big smile. "What are you doing, little miss?" She holds out her arms towards Darcy as the little 7 year old smiles and walks into them. Camryn hugs her tightly as her little arms go around her mumma's waist, nuzzling her ear into the bottom of Camryn's stomach. Carmyn's fingers trail through her curls while her other hand rubs up and down Darcy's back. "You were supposed to be doing your homework!"

"I finished,"Darcy simply says, raising her head to look up at Camryn with a proud smirk. "But Lennon's still working on his tracing."

"Oh, okay, got it,"Camryn nods with a smile, leaning down to press a kiss against Darcy's forehead. "I love you. Your hair looks so pretty like that." She touches the two braids that Camryn did in her hair this morning that have fallen out a bit now because of her busy day that consisted of a lot of playing tag at recess.

"What's that?"Darcy asks, her eyes falling to the bright pink plastic package on the counter that Camryn had discarded there as she was holding the test.

Camryn looks behind her shoulder and immediately sees what Darcy was referring to. She weighs her options as she looks down at her little girl who's looking up at her with curious big blue eyes. She could tell her, but that would just get her hopes up because she's still too young to really understand the concept that you have to "try" for a baby, they don't just magically fall in your lap. But, she knows Darcy's a tad bit too smart and knows Camryn a tad bit too well, allowing her to always. She sighs and looks down at her little girl who's eyes just completely melt her and make her give in. They always do. Harry and her call it the magic power of Darcy. "This is a pregnancy test."

She watches as Darcy's eyes immediately widen and a huge excited smile crosses her face. "You're pregnant?"

Her heart sinks further. This is exactly what she didn't want to happen.

"No, no,"Camryn shakes her head, combing her fingers through Darcy's hair again as she continues to look down at her. "Well...I dunno. That's why I have to take the test."

Darcy nods, seeming to understand what Camryn's meaning. "Can I take it with you?"
"Um, sure...but baby, it will probably say that I'm not pregnant, okay?"Camryn carefully warns Darcy as she takes the plastic stick out of the sink and sits down on the toilet. "So I don't want you to get sad if it isn't positive, okay?"

"I won't mummy,"Darcy smiles softly, resting her hand on Camryn's knee. "I promise."

Camryn quickly takes the test and then sets it on the counter for 3 minutes,
"You pee on it?!"Darcy exclaims, her eyes going wide as she realizes what's happening.

"I do pee on it,"Camryn chuckles, wrapping the used test in toilet paper as she sets it on the counter.

"That's so yucky,"Darcy crumples her face as Camryn continues to laugh at her reaction. "I don't want to have babies, mummy."

Camryn shakes her head with a laugh and pulls up her pants, buttoning them and then putting the toilet seat down and sitting on top of it as her knee bounces wildly. "You don't have to have babies if you don't want to, little miss. You can do whatever you want to do."

"I want to have babies,"Darcy decides thoughtfully, looking at the toilet paper covering the test. "I just don't want to pee on that."

Camryn smiles and nods, her eyes still trained on the test as her knees reach a speed that would make anyone anxious just by looking at them.

"Do you need cuddles, mumma?"Darcy asks, watching Camryn's knee go wild as she looks over at the test and fiddles with her fingers that are interlocked. Maybe it's innate, or maybe it's just because they love their mumma so much, but all of the Styles kids have this ability to be able to tell right away when their mumma is getting anxious. A few times, they've even been able to prevent Camryn from having a panic attack when Harry hasn't been home.

"Yeah,"Camryn nods, snapping herself out of her thoughts and changing her gaze from looking at the test to looking at Darcy. She holds her arms out and motions for Darcy to come closer. She helps Darcy climb onto her lap, sitting chest to chest with Darcy's little legs straddling Camryn's hips. "Thank you baby,"Camryn whispers as she wraps her arms around Camryn's back and rests her cheek on the top of Darcy's head.

"Do you feel better?"Darcy innocently asks, snuggling her cheek closer to Camryn's heart so that she can hear the speed at which it's beating which is quite fast.

"I do feel better,"Camryn smiles softly, pressing gentle kisses to the top of Darcy's head. "Thank you sweet girl. You're just the best thing ever, did you know that?"

"Yeah,"Darcy slyly responds with a coy smirk.

Camryn chuckles and presses more kisses to the top of her head as she sways their bodies side to side. The timer on Camryn's phone goes off after three minutes and the two girls both hop off of the toilet and rush over.

"Okay, you ready, Squish?"Camryn asks, holding the covered test in her hand. Darcy nods her head with an excited smile, practically jumping up and down as she refuses to take her eyes off of the test.

Camryn's never wanted it to be positive more than she does right now because the absolute last thing she wants is to disappoint Darcy. There's so much added pressure now that Darcy's involved because she's been asking Harry and Cam for another little sibling practically since Calum was born—and they know the reason she wants more is because she so desperately wants a little sister.

Camryn unravels the toilet paper from around the test and looks down at it with hopeful eyes, feeling her heart sink as tears spring up in her eyes.

"It says'...not...pregnant',"Darcy sounds out the words, peeking over to look at the test. She changes her gaze to look up at her mummy with confused eyes and a pinch in her brow. "So there's not a baby in your tummy?"

Camryn sniffles and nods, keeping her gaze on the test and trying desperately to not cry in front of Darcy, "that's right, yeah. There's not a baby in my belly."

"That's okay, right?"Darcy asks, watching as her mum's eyes well up and she bites her lower lip. She desperately wants to make her mum feel better because there's nothing that breaks her little heart more than seeing her mum cry. "You can just take another test sometime."

Camryn sniffles and nods. "Yeah, you're right, baby." She looks up from the test and smiles gratefully at her little girl. "Can I have a cuddle?"

"Yeah mummy,"Darcy immediately nods, climbing onto her lap as Camryn sits on the lid of the toilet again. She positions Darcy sideways on her lap so that one of her little cheeks can fall against her chest, almost cradling her.

Darcy quickly peeks up at Camryn who's staring straight ahead, biting down on her lip extremely hard as she tries desperately to keep her tears down until Darcy leaves the room. She really doesn't like to cry in front of her kids because she knows it scares them a bit.

"You can cry mummy,"Darcy whispers, her little voice making Camryn snap out of her haze and look down into her baby girl's big blue eyes. "It's okay. I won't mind."

Camryn nods with a shaky and grateful grin as she blinks and finally allows a few tears to run down her cheeks.

"Hey sweetheart?"She asks after a few minutes of cuddling her cheek into the top of Darcy's head as they sway side to side.

"Yeah mummy?"Darcy quietly responds, continuing to hold onto one of her mum's hands gently.
"Can we keep this our little girl secret?"Camryn asks, rolling her lip against her teeth. "Like no telling your brothers and no telling dad?"

"Yeah, mummy,"Darcy nods immediately, snuggling her cheek deeper into Camryn's chest so that she knows she means it. "I'll keep it a secret."

***

November 2018 (4 months of trying)

"So tell me what's new with the kids!"Anne gushes, sitting across the small circular table from Camryn as Gemma sits in the seat next to her. "I feel like I haven't seen them in ages."

"You saw them last week, mum,"Gemma laughs, shaking her head at her mother as Camryn giggles a bit.

Camryn, Gemma, Anne and Camryn have a Girl's Day once a month and usually they try to plan it on a day where Darcy can join also, but this month that didn't work out, so they had to go while Darcy was at school.

"They're good! They're all so good!"Camryn smiles, pushing her straw around in her water. "I sent you that video of Calum stumbling around last week, right? So yeah, he's taking his first steps and he's gotten way better at it! Lennon has gotten way better with his separation anxiety and going to school everyday which is a relief."

"The poor thing,"Anne frowns as a waiter comes over to ask for their drink order. Anne and Gemma give their orders to the waiter and then she turns to Camryn with a notepad and a pen in her hand.

"I'll have the decaf chai, please,"Camryn orders with a smile. The waiter nods and smiles as she leaves to go give their orders to the kitchen which allows Camryn to look back at Gemma and Anne who are eyeing her suspiciously.

Gemma's eyes bug out as she looks at her little sister, her brows furrowed a bit. "Are you pregnant?"

"What? No!"Camryn quickly exclaims, waving her hands in the air to motion that she's definitely not.

"BULL!"Gemma exclaims back, leaning a bit over the table to look at Camryn with a big smile and point her finger at her. "You only get decaf when you're pregnant!"

"No, no,"Camryn quickly defends again. "Well, I mean maybe."

"What do you mean maybe?"Gemma laughs, sitting back in her chair with her arms folded across her chest as she shakes her head at Camryn in disbelief with a huge smile crossing her face. 6 kids?! That's insanity. "Have you been trying??"

"Yeah we have for a few months now,"Camryn nods as the waiter comes back and places their drinks in front of them. Camryn brings the mug up to her lips and sips it thoughtfully before she responds. "I just...I haven't taken a test yet this month, so I'm not sure."

"Oh that's so exciting!"Anne bubbles, clapping her hands together and looking at Camryn with the most warm mum smile.

"It is!"Camryn agrees with a nod and a little chuckle. "It's kind of stressful, though too. We've never really had to like try before."

"Yeah because you're freakin Fertile Myrtle over here,"Gemma snickers, looking over at her little sister who practically spits out her drink in surprise at Gemma's comment.

"Gemma!"Anne warns, playfully slapping Gemma's bicep.

"What?!"Gemma exclaims in a voice that reminds Camryn exactly of Harry. "This girl has popped out 5 kids in 7 years."

"It's one of my many talents,"Camryn jokes back, winking at Gemma.

"Well congratulations, honey,"Anne says sincerely with the best mum smile ever, reaching over the table to put her hand on Camryn's forearm soothingly. "I am so excited to be a grandma again."

***

December 2018 (5 months of trying)

"Ow oh shoot,"Camryn hisses quietly as she sits against the headboard of the bed with an 11 month old drowsy Calum cradled in her arm and latching onto her boob. He looks up at her with a bit of worry in his eyes as he continues to cautiously suck on her boob.

"Oh, it's okay, sweetheart,"Camryn whispers, trailing gentle fingertips along Calum's chubby cheek as it continues to fill with milk. "It's okay. Mummy's boobs are just sore, it's not you."

It's only once she says it out loud that she realizes what is happening.

"Oh my gosh,"she whispers excitedly, her jaw dropping in awe as she stares down at little Calum who's just enjoying his meal with one tiny palm gently against Calum's boob. "My boobs are sore! Do you know what that means, bubby?" She nuzzles her nose against Calum's with a big smile. "Mummy and daddy might have made you a little brother or sister!"

It's the first time in their 5 months of trying that she's ever had a symptom and it seems almost too good to be true. This has to be a sign, right?

"I'm so excited! Are you so excited?"Camryn coos, bending her knees to be closer to her chest as she lays Calum on them a bit, his little cheeks still filling hungrily. She grabs one of his tiny palms, massaging her thumb into it gently as he continues to look up at her.

"Your whole world is potentially about to be turned upside down, little man,"Camryn giggles, pressing kisses along his forehead where a few messy blonde curls are laying.

She decides to call Harry even though he's at the studio because she just can't help it, she's so freakin' excited because it's happening! She's having symptoms! It's gonna happen! She's pregnant!

"Hi bug,"Harry answers the FaceTime after only two rings, a guitar resting on his lap as he rests his arm on it and places his chin on top of his arm, smiling as he looks at Camryn's face. "What're you doing?"

"Just feeding your child,"Camryn giggles quietly, pulling the phone away from her face so that he can get a full view of the back of Calum's body and head as he eats.

"He's so cute,"Harry gushes, leaning closer to the phone to try and take in everything about is baby boy. The sleep messed blonde curls that are tangled in the back of his head, the way his little back rises and falls as he eats, the way his palm is placed gently against Camryn's boob, and his favorite little thing: the way his little feet are playing with each other, his little toes tapping against each other.

"Hi buddy,"Harry whispers, as Calum immediately unlatches at the sound of his dad's voice and turns his head over his shoulder to look at the phone that has his dad's face on it.

"Hi mister!"Harry chuckles as Calum gives him a gummy smile as soon as he realizes that it's his dad's face on the phone. "Look at you, mate! Are you eating! Hi, bubba, I miss you. I'll see you in a few hours okay."

"Can you blow kisses to dada?"Camryn asks, watching as their little boy does his new trick, pressing his palm against his full lips that are coated in breastmilk and then throwing his palm outward.

"Oh thank you for the kisses,"Harry chuckles, watching as his little boy's full cheeks jiggle with a proud smile. He brings his own hand to his lips and then throws it towards the phone with a loud "mwah!"

"Oh daddy blew you a kiss!"Camryn coos as Calum giggles with the cutest hearty baby giggle ever.

She practically forgets why she was calling Harry, but soon remembers as she looks down at her swollen boob that's a bit red.

"Okay, now stop distracting him, he needs to finish eating and go down for his nap,"Camryn giggles, winking at Harry who rolls his eyes playfully with a sigh.

"Or he can just stay up and wait for dada to get home,"Harry offers, raising his eyebrows teasingly.

"Don't give him any ideas,"Camryn jokes as she smiles and watches Harry continue to make faces at their little boy who smiles widely at his daddy. "And if he does that, you're the one who gets to deal with his temper tantrums tonight."

"Oooo I don't really want to do that, so mama's right, you better go to sleep, mate,"Harry coos, blowing another kiss to his baby boy. "I love you, bubba. Go to sleep good for mummy, okay?"

"Say 'I love you too, dada!'"Camryn smiles, waving at the phone so that Calum will copy her and do one of his other tricks.

"Here, bubby,"Camryn whispers, nudging her boob more towards Calum. "Finish eating, lovey." The little baby latches again which makes Camryn cringe in pain, and when she opens her eyes again and looks at the phone, she realizes that Harry has definitely caught on to what just happened.

"You okay?"Harry asks, leaning closer to the phone with a bit of a pinch in his eyebrows as he tries to inspect Camryn with worried eyes.

"Yeah, that's actually why I called,"Camryn says, motioning her head towards her boobs. "Are you alone?"

Harry quickly nods, "yeah, everyone left for lunch, but I stayed back to finish a song."

"Okay, perfect,"Camryn nods and then takes a big breath before smiling widely at the phone. "I think I'm pregnant!"

"What? What?!"Harry exclaims, nearly dropping the guitar in his haste to position the phone closer to his face. "Did you take a test??"

"No, no,"Camryn giggles at his reaction, shaking her head. "But my boobs hurt so so bad, even when Calum's not breastfeeding, and remember, that's how we found out I was pregnant with Cal!"

"I've never heard you be so excited about your boobs hurting!"Harry chuckles with a huge dimple popping smile crossing his face. He's so excited! A symptom! They've been praying for a symptom for months now!

"Just come home as soon as we can so we can take the test together, okay?"Camryn instructs him with a huge smile.

"Okay, okay, I will, I'll just finish up with this song really quickly and then I'll be right home, okay?"Harry quickly says, repositioning his guitar on his lap and waving at her. "I love you, I love you, I love you!"

"I love you more,"Camryn blushes, tilting the phone down so that Harry can see Calum once more who's eyes are barely staying awake, and his sucking has slowed dramatically as he begins to doze off. "And so does Cal, we'll see you in a bit."

It takes another 3 minutes for Calum to fall asleep, but it seems like the longest three minutes of her life because she really has to pee (and a weak bladder was always another symptom of her pregnancies, yay!).

She quickly lays him down on the bed and rushes into the bathroom and she can't pull her pants down fast enough.

And then, when she sits down she hears a splash and her heart sinks. She's heard that splash before so many times.

She peeks down into the toilet and sees that the water is bright red.

She got her period. That's why her boobs were sore. It knocks the wind right out of her as she folds over on the toilet, hugging her arms around her stomach and lets a few sobs escape her mouth, covering her wobbly lips with her hand to try and not wake Calum up.

After a few minutes she realizes that she has to call Harry because she doesn't want him to come home early from work if he doesn't have to, and now it's very apparent that he no longer needs to.

"Hey, sweetheart,"Harry bubbles as soon as he answers the call. "I was thinking, I can just stay an extra few minutes at the studio and pick up Darcy from school on my way home so that you don't have to, and then we can take the test right after and—"

"Harry,"Camryn sniffles, wiping at her swollen eyes as her lips wobble again.

His heart immediately sinks as he hears the tightness in her voice that's easy to recognize, even over the phone. "Bug, what's wrong?"

"I—I got my period,"Camryn chokes out. "So you don't have to come home early anymore. I'm sorry. That's why my boobs were sore. I'm really sorry."

"Baby, don't be sorry,"Harry frowns at her small voice that's cracking every few syllables. "That's okay. I'm still going to come home from work, okay? I'll get Darcy and then I'll come home and we can all have a lazy day, okay? We'll just snuggle for the rest of the day to feel better, 'kay?"

"Okay,"Camryn hiccups, sniffling a few times.

"I love you, sweet girl,"Harry promises. "I love you so much. I'll be home in just a bit, okay? Everything's okay. We're okay. It's gonna happen, Cam. It will."

***

January 2019 (6 months of trying)

"I'm just gonna brush my teeth and then I'll help you edit the episode, 'kay?"Harry announces as he hops off of the bed where he was cuddling Carmyn as she worked on her podcast with her laptop on her lap.

"Sounds good, thanks baby,"Camryn nods, not taking her eyes off of the screen as she bites on her thumbnail in concentration. Her long blonde hair is pulled into a messy bun on the top of her head and she's only sporting one of Harry's sweatshirts to bed tonight.

He walks into the bathroom, humming a bit as he does so, and grabs his toothbrush, putting the toothpaste on it and then wetting it quickly under the tap as he rubs his eyes with his free hand and looks in the mirror.

He quickly finishes brushing his teeth and spits into the sink, quickly washing it down the drain with some water before running a hand through his hair. When he does so, a piece of hair comes out into his hand and he quickly leans over to throw it in the small metal trash bin that's placed by the side of the bathroom counter right next to the toilet.

His eye catches on something bright white that's trying to be masked with a few squares of toilet paper, but the wind of the door opening brushed them away slightly to allow the plastic test to peek out from underneath the paper.

He quickly bends down and takes the test out of the trash.

They weren't going to test this month.

They'd made a promise that they weren't going to test until March because it was hurting Camryn too bad. She must've taken it while he was at the studio and just continentally didn't tell him and then tried to hide it from him.

His heart skips a beat for a second thinking that maybe the reason she didn't tell him is because it was positive and she wanted to surprise him. For a second, while that idea is running through his head, he tells himself that he shouldn't look at it because if she was wanting to surprise him, he wants to let her, but his curiosity ultimately gets the best of him and he flips it around in his hand.

Not Pregnant

"Sh**,"he mumbles, running a hand through his hair and sighing deeply as his palm rubs down his face. Another month. Another defeat.

He wants to keep a positive attitude for Camryn because she's getting extremely discouraged, but he has to admit that his positivity is running low too.

He carries it out in his palm, gripping it tightly as he opens the bathroom door and leans against the doorway with his shoulder. "Did you take one without me?"

Camryn looks up at from her computer and turns her head to look at him, furrowing her brow until her gaze drops to his hand by his side and sees the tiny white plastic peeking out from it.

She sighs and nods, closing her laptop. "I'm sorry, my curiosity just got the best of me...and I was going to tell you I was taking it I just...I just didn't want to disappoint you."

His heart drops as she says the final few words. Disappoint him? She could never disappoint him, especially about this. This is a two person deal.

"Sweetheart, you're not disappointing me,"Harry whispers, dropping the test on the floor and walking over to the bed, climbing under the covers and throwing an arm around her hip. "C'mere. Let me hold you."

She carefully turns her body on its side and scoots closer to Harry so that they're facing each other. He pushes his leg in between hers so that they're interlocked and brings his hand up to comb through the hair at her hairline, looking into her blue eyes that are slightly watery.

"Bug, you're not disappointing me, do you hear me?"he whispers gently, keeping eye contact with her the entire time to make sure that she's hearing him loud and clear. "You could never disappoint me."

"Even when I say I don't like sushi?"Camryn checks, raising an eyebrow at Harry and finding it within herself to joke a bit.

Harry chuckles breathily and kisses the tip of her nose. "Even when you say you don't like sushi...even though you're wrong because it's the best food ever."

Camryn giggles and kisses his lips gently, cupping his slightly scruffy cheek in her palm and rubbing her thumb against the skin there. "I love you, cute boy."

"I love you more,"Harry whispers, tilting his head up to be able to press a few kisses to her forehead. "Now come closer so I can really cuddle you. I think we both need it." 

***

February 2019 (7 months of trying)

"What's that,"Harry chuckles, eyeing the piece of plastic in Camryn's hand suspiciously as she grips it tightly and walks out of the bathroom.

"A little birthday present,"Camryn slyly responds, climbing onto the bed and on top of Harry, capturing his soft lips into a kiss as he hums and puts his hands on her waist.

"Have you looked at it yet?"Harry asks, keeping his lips on Camryn's as he asks.

"No,"Camryn shakes her head, "I was thinking we could look at it together. I know you've been wanting me to take one for the past couple of days, so this is my birthday present to you."

"Ooooo, I like that,"Harry murmurs against her lips, giving her hips a little squeeze as he drops his lips to right where her jaw and neck meet, sucking a little love bite right there. "You already got me a birthday present, though."

"That was from me and the kids,"Camryn chuckles, gasping a bit as he sucks even harder. She reaches up to put her hand in his curls his palms gently rub over her stomach. "This one is just from me."

"I thought us having fun tonight was just from you,"Harry snarkily replies, motioning his head towards the little wrapped present on the corner of the bed. It's a tradition of theirs, Harry gets to unwrap a new pair of lingerie that Camryn bought for his birthday, then she goes to the bathroom to put it on, and then of course he gets to take it off of her.

"I got you multiple presents,"Camryn huskily whispers, her fingers playing with the hem of his waistband to try and get his breathing to pick up, which it does. "Because I love you so much."

"'Kay, we can look at the test on one basis,"Harry whispers, cupping Camryn's chin in his hand so that she'll look at him. She nods to tell him to continue. "Neither of us get sad if it's negative, okay? I still want us to be able to have a fun night."

"Deal,"Camryn nods, bringing her hand that's still gripping the test up between their faces. "Here goes nothing." She unravels her palm and looks down.

One line.

Not even a smidge or inkling of another one.

Camryn frowns slightly and looks up at Harry who's looking at her cautiously, seeing if she's going to keep her end of the deal.

"I'm really sorry,"Camryn whispers sheepishly, bowing her head in embarrassment. She really thought she was and that this was going to be the best birthday present ever for Harry. "I wanted it to be a good birthday present for you."

"Hey, I have you,"Harry whispers, nudging his face against hers so that she'll look at him. "That's all I need. Besides, we can make one right now, what do you say?"

Camryn bites down on her lip with a smile forming and looks over at the present on the corner of the bed. She crawls over there and grabs the present, handing it over to Harry to begin unwrapping.

"I have a good feeling about tonight, Mrs. Styles."

***

March 2019 (8 months of trying)

"Mummy! Mummy!"Lennon's little voice carries through the bedroom as the door swings open. "Mummy Calum woke up from his nap! He's crying!"

She quickly looks up from her palms where her face was buried with snot and tears pooling down her face in just enough time for her baby boy to open up the unlocked bathroom door.

His face drops immediately, his tiny hand still on the doorknob as he looks at Camryn. "Are you okay, mummy?"

"Yeah, sweetheart,"Camryn quickly nods, trying to put a brave smile on her face and wiping away a few tears before discarding the plastic test in her hands into the trash bin in between the toilet and sink. "I'm okay."

"Why are you sad?"Lennon asks in his 5 year old innocence, walking closer to his mum who sitting on top of the toilet lid.

"Mummy's just having a bad day,"Camryn whispers shakily, her lips trying to form a smile but failing drastically.

"I'm sorry mummy,"Lennon frowns sympathetically, gently walking closer towards Camryn. Like the true mumma's boy that he's always been, he's always very in tune with his mum's emotions and hates to see her cry. He almost always begins to cry too when she cries.

"I love you,"he whispers gently, standing in front of her while she continues to sit so that they're the same height. He puts his little hands on her shoulders and looks into her blue eyes as she begins to silently cry more.

He's so sweet and it makes her so emotional, it always has. She's never felt worthy of the love he has for her, and his little ways of showing it make her heart burst.

"Don't cry mummy,"Lennon quickly frets, putting both of his little palms on Camryn's cheeks and smushing them together slightly as he looks over her with the most worried eyes. "Don't cry."

"I'm okay, baby,"Camryn assures him with a shaky smile, putting her hands on his little hips and squeezing them gently. "You've always been my little protector, huh?"

Lennon's eyes dart across his mum's face, taking in her splotchy and swollen eyes and cheeks. He leans in and presses his lips against her cheek, blowing on it gently.

"What're you doin'?"Camryn giggles, holding onto the little boy's sides as he continues to blow spit filled raspberries against her cheek.

"It's what daddy does to make me feel better when I'm crying,"Lennon simply responds with a proud smirk when he realizes that his mum's tears have now been replaced with a smile.

"You're silly,"Camryn giggles as he blows another raspberry onto her cheek.

"Is it working?"Lennon giggles, blowing another spitty raspberry onto his mum's damp cheek as he continues to hold her jaw in his hands.

"It is working,"Camryn chuckles at both her little boy's innocence and the ticklish feeling of his lips. "You're so silly, Lennon Louis."

***

April 2019 (9 months of trying)

"I hate this,"Camryn cries, resting her forearms against the bathroom counter as she bends at the hips, her forehead buried against her arms. There's a new negative pregnancy test discarded across the bathroom, the result of Camryn throwing it there in anger after looking at it. "We've been trying for so long."

"Honey, it will happen,"Harry assures her, rubbing a soothing palm down her trembling back as he stands next to her. Those words are beginning to feel thick on his tongue, however. It's all he's known how to say for the past 9 months and it's quickly loosing its meaning. "I promise."

"We got pregnant so many times on accident and now the one time we actually are planning it we can't,"Camryn cries in desperation, raising her wet and snotty face just slightly only to push it back down on her arms again. Out of the 6 times Camryn has been pregnant, 4 of them were complete accidents.

"Sweetheart, it's going to be okay,"Harry promises, leaning down to press a kiss to the back of her shoulder as she whimpers.

"You know what I realized today?"Camryn shakily asks, her voice cracking a few times. 
"What?"Harry cautiously asks, not really knowing if he wants to know.

Camryn turns straightens up and turns around to look at Harry as she crosses her arms over her chest and sniffles. "If we can't get pregnant for the rest of this year it will be the first year since 2009 that I'm not pregnant."

"Okay, well then maybe it's a good thing that we're not getting pregnant,"Harry chuckles lightly, trying to lighten the mood. He never did the math, but he realizes she's right. She was pregnant with Darcy in the years 2010 and 2011, Lennon was the end of 2012 to 2013, Auggie was 2013 to 2014, Bowie was 2015 to 2016 and Calum was 2017 to 2018. "Maybe this is your body telling us that you need a break."

"I don't want ta break, though!"Camryn exclaims, more tears falling down her cheeks in disparity. "I want a baby!"

"And we're going to get a baby,"Harry promises calmly, his heart cracking at Camryn's outburst. This is destroying her. Absolutely destroying her and he feels so guilty because he's the one who mentioned the idea that they should start trying in the first place. He patters closer to Camryn and wraps his arms around her shoulders as she cries into his chest. "We will. We've just gotta stay patient and not let it get in our heads."

But it's too late. It's already in their heads. It's been in their heads since they got the first negative test. The pressure is on.

***

May 2019 (10 months of trying)

"Have I gained weight?"

He looks up to see Camryn looking at herself in the full length mirror against their wall, just her bra and panties.

He feels his entire body clench. This conversation never ends well. There's no winners because even if he says no, she gets mad at him for "lying" and then feels terrible about herself for the next couple of days.

"No, I don't think so,"Harry replies honestly. She really hasn't, as far as he could tell, and even if she had, he wouldn't have minded. He loves her no matter what and will always think that she's the most beautiful person to walk this earth, inside and out.

"Look at my stomach,"Camryn whimpers, grabbing at the slight amount of loose skin that hangs at the bottom of her belly, telling the story of her carrying five healthy babies, including an almost 11 pound one that she has stretch marks hugging her hips to thank for. She pinches it between her hands and frowns, eyeing herself viciously in the mirror.

"It looks beautiful,"Harry truthfully replies, looking up from across the room as he hops around, trying to get his black skinny jeans up his left leg. She'd never believe him no matter how much he tells her, but her stomach is his favorite part of her body. The fact that it could hold 5 of his babies is just purely incredible to him and he thinks it's stunning every time he looks at it, loose skin and stretch marks or not because it's a constant reminder of 5 of his greatest blessings and how much Cam had to sacrifice for them to get to this earth.

"Can you not?"Camryn sighs, turning around from the mirror and facing Harry with an exasperated face, reaching for her t-shirt that's laying on the bed.

"Can I not what?"Harry asks, pulling on his own t-shirt as he watches Camryn slide hers over her head.

"I just need you to tell me the truth for once,"Camryn sighs, straightening out her purple t-shirt on her body and looking up at him with a serious face. "No sugarcoating 'you always look beautiful' crap. Tell me the truth, do I look fatter?"

"No, you don't look fatter at all,"Harry truthfully replies, looking across the room into her eyes so that he knows she's listening and so that she knows he's serious. "And the 'you look beautiful' is not crap because it's true. I always think you're beautiful."

She sighs and decides to believe him, conceding to end the conversation with a mere nod. She reaches for her ripped skinny jeans that were laying on the bed and begins to attempt to shimmy them on as Harry sits on the corner of the bed with his back turned away from her so that he can put on his checkered Vans.

She successfully gets the jeans to go up her legs, but the real hard part comes when she tries to button them. She bites on her bottom lip as she tries to suck in as much as possible, trying with all of her strength to get the two sides to intertwine. She lets a grunt escape her lips before she can stop it and then it's followed by a frustrated whimper as she gives up on buttoning the pants and covers her face with her hands.

"Hey, okay, what's wrong?"Harry asks, looking over his shoulder and seeing Cam in near tears with her jeans wide opens and half pulled up her wait.

"My pants don't fit!"Camryn whines, trying again to button the waistline, but it's no use.

"Okay, okay, that's okay!"Harry tries to calm the situation, knowing how quickly this can escalate into something that resembles a nuclear bomb going off. He's dealt with a lot of these in his day. "That's okay, we'll just wear a different pair. What about your black jean skirt? I love that skirt on you."

She bows her head with a small frown and nods, beginning to pull the pants down and praying that getting them off will be easier than trying to put them on.

She stops her movement and gasps as she looks up at Harry, her pants down to her knees. "We should take a test!"

Harry's eyes widen as a huge smile crosses their face. Of course! It was so obvious and they were both being so stupid! It was practically dangling in front of their faces! "Yeah, c'mere, let's go quick before we have to go to mum's."

Camryn waddles through the bedroom into the bathroom, not bothering to pull her pants back up as she quickly sits down on to the toilet as Harry squats down to pull out a box of pregnancy tests stashed away in the cabinet below the sink. He quickly hands her one and she pees on it before placing it down on the counter again.

They wait for the assigned 3 minutes before looking at each other with nervous glances.
"Are you ready? Do you want to look first?"Harry asks, looking at Camryn as the timer on his phone goes off.

"I've never been this convinced that I am pregnant which scares me,"Camryn whispers, eyeing the covered test like it's going to bite her.

After two minutes of going back and forth, they finally settle on Harry picking up the test, but both of them looking at the same time.

"Alright, I'm just gonna rip the bandaid off,"Harry sighs, deciding to just go for it as he picks up the test and holds it in front of both of their faces, Camryn's arms around his middle.

And there they are. Those two dreaded words.

He barely has time to process the words before Camryn's sobbing beside him, gasping for air as she covers her face in her hands, her shoulders trembling.

"Cami,"Harry whispers with a sympathetic frown, his eyes watering too, as he pulls her into a tight hug to try and squeeze the hurt away.

"So now I'm not pregnant and I'm fat,"she sobs into Harry's chest. She's a pretty sadly pathetic sight with her jeans pulled down to her knees and her shirt on sideways and twisted.

"Sweetheart, you're not fat,"Harry whispers, rubbing his palm down her blonde hair that's a bit wavy from the French braids she had it in yesterday. "And it's okay that we're not pregnant yet. It's gotta happen at some point."

"What if it doesn't, though?"Camryn sobs earnestly as Harry's arms tighten around her, "what if we're just too old."

"Bug, we're 25,"Harry says, trying his best not to chuckle at her dramatic statement. "Most people haven't even had one baby by our age, let alone 5. Don't worry, we're still completely young enough to make a baby. We've got at least another 15 years in us."

"It's never gonna happen,"Camryn sobs, completely defeated and just honestly fed up with trying. Her defeat is making her second guess if she even wants another baby or not.

"It will happen, bug,"Harry whispers with his lips against the top of her head. "We just gotta keep trying."

***

June 2019 (11 months of trying)

Another negative test.

They don't even get excited about taking them anymore, it's more of a dread now. She takes one almost every two weeks and it's negative every time which sends her into a spiral that takes at least 24 for her to get out of.

Harry's began to think that trying for a 6th is doing more harm than good. They've become so focused on trying to get pregnant that they don't even enjoy sex anymore.

It's not even really sex to them anymore, it's just trying to have a baby. There's rarely any passion or love in it anymore, it's just fast and forceful and...purposeful. It's not fun anymore.

"I don't know if I want to try anymore."

Her voice is so feeble and tiny when it leaves her throat that it takes Harry a second to understand and process what she just said. He lays the book that he was reading down on his chest and turns his head against the headboard to look at Camryn who's anxiously fiddling with her fingers, awaiting his reaction.

"That's totally okay, baby,"Harry nods, holding his arms out for her to walk into. He's a bit relieved, honestly. He'd been thinking about asking Camryn if she thought they should take a break from trying recently. It's destroying both of them, and Harry hates to see Camryn go in her day long depressions that every pregnancy test brings along with it.

He opens the covers and pats his chest, removing the book to allow room for Camryn to lay on top of him. She climbs onto the bed and lays right on top of him with her cheek on his bare chest, right below the birds tattooed there as his fingers trail by the hair by her ear.

"I just...can we stop for a bit?"Camryn whispers, looking straight out the window that shows their backyard as her throat gets a bit tight. It hits her in that moment that their dreams of having a 6th baby are hastily fleeting. "Maybe we can try again in a couple of months?"

"Of course,"Harry agrees, kissing the top of Camryn's head while rubbing his palms down her back. "You just tell me when you're ready, 'kay?"

"I just...I feel so guilty for getting like this,"Camryn tearfully explains, sniffling against Harry's chest. "We have 5 healthy babies and we got pregnant with them so easily which I'm so grateful for but...I just want another one."

"Sweetheart, you're allowed to be disappointed that we've had a hard time getting pregnant this time around,"Harry calmly assures her, massaging her shoulder blades gently. "Just because we have other kids doesn't mean you're not allowed to want more."

"What if we're too old?"Camryn innocently asks, her sadness masking her proper judgement. Of course they're not too old.

"Camryn we're 25,"Harry states with a bit of chuckle, trying not to laugh too much because he knows the fear is real to her and he doesn't want to discredit her fears.

"That's a lot older than 16,"Camryn murmurs pitifully, completely content with wallowing in despair for the night.

"Most people aren't having babies at 16, sweetheart,"Harry chuckles, slipping his fingertips into the neck of her t-shirt to massage the tops of her shoulders while pressing soft kisses to the top of her head. "We're one of the few. And besides, most people haven't even had one kid by our age, let alone 5."

"I just want another baby,"Camryn mumbles sadly, tracing her fingers along the tattoos on Harry's chest.

"I know you do, babe,"Harry whispers back, feeling his throat get a bit tight with emotion. "I do too."

***

August 2019 (1 year and 1 month of trying)

"I just...I dunno, I don't feel good,"Camryn groans with her arm thrown across her eyes as she lays flat on her back on the bed.

"Yeah? Like nauseous? Or crampy?"Harry asks, resting his palms down on his side of the bed as he bends over it at the hips and looks at Camryn with caring eyes as she runs a hand over her stomach, trying to soothe the churning.

"Like nauseous,"Camryn breathily replies, pinching her forehead between her fingers as her face crumples up. "Really nauseous."

He bites his lip and thinks for a second about whether or not the idea he has in his mind is a good one or not. They haven't taken a pregnancy test in almost 11 weeks, and he's seen Camryn grow a lot happier in those 11 weeks now that she doesn't have the knowledge that her tests are showing up negative looming above her head constantly.

However, he decides he needs to suggest it as he continues to look over her with his eyes. He can't help but see the way her t-shirt is mounting just slightly. Maybe it's just his eyes playing tricks on him, or maybe she's just bloated, but maybe, just maybe...."Maybe we should just take a test?"

Camryn frowns and turns her head on the pillow to look at Harry, nervously biting down on her lip. "I dunno..."

"Well baby, we should know if you are,"Harry gently explains, smiling softly at her to try and encourage her as he continues to lean over the bed. "This could be morning sickness. You always get so sick with your pregnancies."

"I know..."Camryn murmurs, rubbing her eyes with the heels of her palms as another wave of nausea flows over her, but this time she feels like the sick feeling is more from her nerves playing up. "I just...I don't want to know. I don't want to be disappointed again."

"Let's just take one more, okay?"Harry quickly suggests, straightening up and walking to Camryn's side of the bed, holding his hand out towards her to help her up. "Just quickly before we need to get the kids breakfast. Then we'll know. I just feel like we should."

Camryn groans dramatically, but eventually concedes and uses Harry's hand to help pull her off of the bed, folding her arms against her chest as they walk into the bathroom.

They go through the same routine as always that's become very mundane. He squats down at the cabinet below the sink and grabs a test, she sits on the toilet and then takes the test, they look at the test and Camryn cries in disappointment.

"I really don't want to do this,"Camryn whimpers as she covers her face with her hands as Harry sets the test down on the counter. He kneels down in front of her as she sits on the lid of the toilet and puts his hands on her knees.

"I know you don't, I'm sorry,"Harry whispers, rubbing her knees soothingly. "C'mere." He hugs her tight to his chest as she continues to cover her face with her palms, burring her face into his neck to breathe in his familiar and comforting scent. "We'll just feel better once we have an answer."

"Will we?"Camryn fights back, not believing a word he's saying.

And she's right. If this is negative they're both just going to feel worse than they already do.

The timer goes off and Harry doesn't move from squatting in front of Camryn as he reaches up and takes the test in his hands.

"I love you no matter what this test says,"he quickly whispers, making his green eyes stare into her blue ones so that she knows he's serious. She quickly nods her head and looks back down at the test as he unravels his fingers from making a fist over it, revealing it in his palm.

One line.

There's only one line, not two. Not even a faint one where they could argue that maybe just maybe it's there.

Camryn lets a sob escape immediately as she stands up from the toilet, walking right past Harry who's quickly trying to hug her to calm her down, but she doesn't want him. She doesn't want to be touched. She's so angry at him for making her take this test. She knew it wasn't going to be positive.

"I'm so fu**ing done with this,"Camryn exclaims through tears as she opens the bathroom door and slams it, leaving Harry standing in the middle of the bathroom with the test still gripped into his hand, a few lonely tears rolling down his cheeks.

She quickly rushes down the stairs, brushing off the tears from her cheeks angrily as she walks into the living room where all of the kids are piled on the couch in their pajamas, lazily watching some cartoons as they wait for their breakfast.

"Hi mummy,"Bowie exclaims sleepily, a big drowsy smile immediately forming on his lips as he reaches his hands out towards Camryn, his head placed gently against Calum's shoulder who's sucking on a pacifier.

"Hi babies,"Camryn whispers with a tired smile from both her lack of sleep and her emotional exhaustion. "Is there enough room for me?"

"Yeah,"Bowie nods as Camryn picks him up into her arms and settles herself into the spot that he was sitting in, in between Calum and Auggie.

"H-H-Hi m-m-mummy,"Auggie greets, sipping some orange juice through a sippy cup as he looks up at Camryn with drooping blue eyes.

"Hi my sweet boy,"Camryn smiles, kissing the top of his white blonde hair.

"Mumma, blankey,"Bowie mumbles, holding up his pale green blanket in front of Camryn's face.

"You have your blankey, hmmm?"Camryn hums, cradling her little 3 year old boy in her arms and rocking him gently as he begins to doze peacefully against her chest.

"Hey baby, can I talk to you for a sec?"Harry asks, rushing down the stairs with a light in his eyes that Camryn hasn't seen in a long time. She cautiously eyes him as he holds out his hand towards her.

She decides to agree and carefully sets Bowie back down on the couch, promising the kids that they'll be right back to start making breakfast before she takes Harry's hand and follows him as they rush up the stairs.

"What are we doing?"Camryn asks as Harry pushes open the door to their bedroom in a haste and drags her into the bathroom.  

"Maybe we should've waited longer to look at the test,"Harry smirks as he points to the test that Camryn took as it lays on the white granite bathroom counter.

2 lines.

2 bright red lines.

Unmistakeable lines.

"No,"Camryn gasps in awe, letting go of Harry's hand as she leans her head down to inspect the test closer, not believing that this is possible. "You're kidding! Is this a joke?" She turns back to look at Harry who has tears in his eyes that matches the tears that are quickly filling her eyes.

"I wouldn't joke about that that would be cruel,"Harry chuckles wetly, nodding his head at Camryn as his lips wobble. "We're pregnant baby. You're pregnant. We did it."

"Oh my gosh,"Camryn gasps, rushing towards Harry and throwing her arms around his neck as he tightly squeezes his arms around her middle.

"I'm pregnant!"Camryn exclaims in pure euphoria, sobbing into Harry's neck.

"You're pregnant,"Harry confirms with a laugh, "we're gonna have another baby!"

"I can't believe it!"Camryn squeals as Harry picks her up into his arms, twirling their bodies a few times as they both continue to cry into each other's necks.

"How did you find out?"Camryn asks in complete disbelief as Harry continues to hold her in his arms. She presses her forehead against his as he looks up at her and her hands cradle his wet cheeks. "What did you do?"

"I just stood in here and kept looking at it,"Harry tearfully explains, still in a lot of disbelief himself. "And I was looking at it on the counter and a line slowly started to appear and I was like no way! And then it kept getting darker and I just thought I was going crazy, but I wasn't it's there!"

"It's there,"Camryn confirms with a chuckle, pressing her lips against Harry's.

"You have a baby in you,"Harry says, looking over Camryn's face as she continues to cradle his, his arms around her waist.

"I have our baby in me,"Camryn replies, rubbing her thumb over his cheek bones.

"Let's see the bump, pretty girl,"Harry smiles widely, his dimples popping as he gently lets Camryn back down onto the floor and watches as she pulls up the t-shirt of his that she was wearing until it reaches just below her breasts to expose her entire belly.

"How did we not notice?"Camryn asks with a laugh as they now realize how blatantly obvious it was that she had a mini baby bump. "That's huge!"

"That is really big,"Harry chuckles, shaking his head as he realizes that he should've known. He stands behind her and wraps his arms around her, putting his big palms on her stomach. His hands cover it almost completely, but not for long.

"Look at what we did,"Camryn whispers, leaning her head against Harry's as he rests his chin on her shoulder, rubbing his thumbs softly against her stomach.

"There's a baby in there,"Harry whispers, his hands gently holding her bloated belly that they now know is bloated with pregnancy weight.

"We made another baby,"Camryn murmurs in pure awe, putting her hands over Harry.

"We did,"Harry nods, tilting his head down to kiss her shoulder. "We've still got it, babe."

Camryn giggles and turns her head to kiss his temple. "I was doubting us for a second there, but we did it."

"Where do you think they are, mumma?"Harry asks, rubbing his right palm against her entire stomach.

"I think they're right there,"Camryn smirks as she pokes the spot right beneath her belly button.

"You think so?"Harry asks, rubbing his fingers over that spot. "I think that's a good spot." He kisses her shoulder one more time before he unravels his arms from around her and kneels down in front of her, taking the sides of her belly into his hands and pressing a kiss against the spot she pointed to.

"Hi sweet baby,"Harry whispers, his lips tickling her skin there. "It's daddy. It's so nice to meet you."

"Mummy and daddy can't wait to see you, babe,"Camryn whispers, looking down lovingly at Harry as she puts her hands into Harry's curls as he continues to press his lips against her belly and talk to it.

"We love you so much already, sweetheart. We waited a long time for you,"Harry whispers, giving one more kiss to Camryn's skin. "Thanks for joining our family. Your siblings are going to love you."

***

One day later

"Alright guys! Are you ready for the scavenger hunt?!"Harry asks, holding a pale green note card in his hand as Camryn stands right next to him with a drowsy Calum on her hip as he sucks lazily on his pacifier, still waking up from his afternoon nap.

"YES!"the kids all exclaim as they stand in a half circle around Harry and Camryn, looking up at their parents with anxious eyes.

"Okay, so, for the scavenger hunt there will be one clue at each of the places around the house that you go to, and then Darcy will read the clues when you find them, okay?"Harry asks, watching as all of the kids nod and smile widely.

"Okay, here, DD, this is the first clue." He hands the pale green paper to Darcy who stands with a proud smile and reads off the first clue.

The Styles' house has lots of kids, everyone knows...You'll find the next clue where the youngest person in the house keeps his clothes!

"What does that mean guys?"Camryn asks, swaying Calum gently on her hip as he rests his cheek on her shoulder.

"I dunno,"Lennon shrugs, completely not catching onto the riddle. Maybe they should've simplified this a bit for the kids.

Harry chuckles and looks over at Camryn with a this is gonna be a long day look and then looks back at the kids. "Who's the youngest person in the house?"

"Cal!"Morgan exclaims, standing next to Bowie and holding his hand as he holds his blanket in his other hand.

"That's right, MoMo! Good job babe,"Harry smiles proudly, holding his hand up for a high five that the three year old proudly accepts. "And where does Calum keep his clothes?"

"I-I-In h-h-his r-r-room,"Auggie answers, looking up at Harry through his big glasses that magnify his eyes.

"That's right!"Harry chuckles, holding his hand out so that the five year old can give him a high five and then pointing up the staircase, "go to Cal's room! The next clue is in there!"

The kids all rush up the stairs and Calum's head pops off of Camryn's shoulder as soon as he watches all the commotion.

"Do you want to run too?"Camryn asks, setting his naked, besides a diaper, body down onto the floor and watches as he waddles as fast as he can after his siblings, crawling up the stairs on his knees at a speed Camryn has never seen before.

"Go diaper bum, go!"Camryn cheers with a giggle as Harry wraps his arm around her waist and kisses her temple. They both slowly follow the little blonde headed curly boy and walk into his nursery where all of the kids are tearing through his drawers trying to find the next clue.

"MoMo, look,"Bowie chuckles with one of Calum's shirts covering his head. He puts his arms out in front of him to try and feel around to where he's standing and giggles.

"You silly,"Morgan giggles back, pushing him to the side a bit so that he blindly falls onto the floor with another round of giggles.

"You two always find a way to get sidetracked, dontcha?"Harry laughs, standing at the back of the room with his arm around Camryn's shoulders as he watches the two little best friends interact.

"This is gonna be fun to clean up,"Camryn remarks with a smile as she watches Darcy and Lennon destroy the drawer, throwing clothes over their shoulders with no remorse.

"Maybe we should've just put it on top of the clothes and not buried it,"Harry smiles, rubbing Camryn's shoulder as he peeks down at her bump that's masked with one of his sweatshirts because she was afraid that Darcy would catch on.

"Next time,"Camryn jokes, winking at Harry.

"I FOUND IT!"Lennon yells, holding the light blue note card up in the air. "AND THERE'S JAMMIE DODGERS!"

"Mine!"Calum whines, reaching his arms up high as Lennon holds them above his own head so that Calum can't reach them. "Mama mineee!"

"Okay, okay, no teasing,"Camryn gently chastises, walking over to her two boys and taking the package of cookies out of Lennon's hands and kneeling down in front of all of the kids. "We can all share, okay?"

The kids all nod and look with wide eyes as their mum hands them each on cookie.

"DD what does the next clue say?"Harry asks, kneeling next to Camryn and wiping a crum off of the side of Morgan's lip as the kids continue to eat their cookies.

I hope you're listening to what mummy and daddy said...look for the next clue where we keep the bread!

"Where do we keep the bread, guys?"Camryn asks, watching as the kids' eyes light up in realization.

"The fridge!"Lennon exclaims, already bolting out of the door with his younger siblings and Darcy quickly following him.

"Calum, slower mate!"Harry calls as Calum crawls down the stairs backwards, trying to go as fast as he can to catch up with his older siblings. "You're gonna hurt—"

The little 18 month old toddler slips down a stair, banging his forehead against the hard stair, making him wail out immediately.

"Yourself,"Harry finishes with sigh, immediately running towards his littlest boy who's halfway down the stairs and picking him up in his arms.

"Oh my goodness,"Harry drawls, sitting down on the stair and setting Calum down on his lap, hugging his little boy tightly as all of the other kids watch curiously from the bottom of the stairs, wanting to make sure their little brother is okay.

"You're okay, sweet boy, you're okay,"Harry coos, as Calum's legs straddle his daddy's hips, crying into his chest pitifully.

"Oh I know,"Harry whispers, running his fingers through Calum's hair. "I know. You were going a bit too fast, huh? Got a bit ahead of yourself?" He kisses the top of Calum's head gently. "Can daddy see your ouchie?"

Calum whimpers and pulls away from Harry's chest, looking up at his dad with big green wet eyes.

"Oh look at that ouchie,"Harry frowns, rubbing a gentle fingertip over the red raised skin on the right side of Calum's forehead that will probably bruise pretty badly. "You're okay, though. You're strong, huh? Is Calum such a big boy?"

"Big,"Calum nods with a pitiful sniffle, looking up at his dad.

"Yeah, you're a big boy,"Harry coos, pressing a few more kisses to Calum's forehead. "Okay, sweetheart, are you ready to keep playing the game?" Calum nods and allows Harry to carry him to the bottom of the stairs until they get to the kitchen where Auggie opens the fridge and pulls out the loaf of bread with a light pink note attached to it.

"Good job Auggie Bear!"Camryn encourages, "read the clue DD!"

The next clue will take you far...to find it you'll have to look in the seat where we drive the car!

"TO THE CAR!"Darcy exclaims, shooing all of the little kids to run in front of her as they run to the door that leads them to the garage.

"Let Bowie find this one,"Harry calls, holding Camryn's hand as they hold hands, wanting all of the kids to get a fair chance at finding a clue because he knows if he doesn't there will be a temper tantrum.

"I got it!"Bowie calls, his little feet tapping against the garage floor as he drags Morgan along, holding her hand as they climb into the black Range Rover.

"Look at daddy's seat!"Camryn calls, as Bowie stops trying to climb into the back seats of the car and change to go to the driver side door.

Bowie climbs onto the seat, sitting on his knees as he accidentally falls against the steering wheel and blares the horn. The noise is just magnified by the fact that they're in a closed garage that echos.

"Gosh dang it, Bow,"Harry chuckles, holding his hands over his ears as all of the kids scream.

"This is a mess,"Camryn laughs, bending at her waist and putting her hands on her knees as she continues to loose her resolve completely. This whole thing is a complete disaster. Not much goes right when you're trying to work with 6 kids under the age of 8.

"Dada it's loud,"Morgan whines, her palms covering her little ears as she kneels next to Bowie on the car seat and looks over at Harry with wobbly lips.

"Oh was that real loud?"Harry chuckles lightly, making grabby hands towards his little girl and picking her up into his arms as she drops her cheek to Harry's shoulder and Camryn picks up a crying Calum.

"DD, read the clue before anything worse happens,"Harry jokes as Bowie cautiously hands the paper to Darcy.

"Maybe we should just tell them,"Camryn jokes, looking up over at Harry with a smile as she continues to cradle the back of Calum's head to her chest as he continues to wail.

There are lots of colors in the rainbow, but only one is Lennon's favorite color: blue! Now go and find the next clue hiding in daddy's shoe!

"GET DADDY'S SHOE!"Lennon yells, darting towards Harry who's still cooing softly to Morgan.

"Aye aye aye!"Harry chuckles as Auggie immediately begins to untie Harry's white vans, kneeling in front of him. "Wrong shoe! Wrong shoe!"

"Daddy's shoes inside,"Camryn clarifies with a laugh, watching as all of the kids bolt back inside.

"Are you okay, my love?"Camryn whispers, walking over to little Morgan who's still cuddling her cheek to Harry's shoulder. She tickles her fingers along the black hair that's nestled above Morgan's ear and kisses her cheek gently.

"Do you want to go find the clue with BowBow?"Harry whispers into the little girl's, watching as Lennon looks behind his shoulder and sees that the rest of the kids left Morgan behind.

"C'mon MoMo,"Lennon says, holding his hand up towards Morgan who gently reaches his hand out towards her.

"Go with Lennie,"Harry encourages, setting Morgan down on the floor and watching and Lennon takes her hand and drags her through the door to meet the other kids who are going through Harry's shoes on the shoe rack by the front door.

"I-I f-f-f-found i-it!"Auggie exclaims, holding up one of Harry's checked vans and plucking out a pale yellow card. "O-O-O-Oh t-t-t-there's b-b-bracelets i-i-in i-i-it t-t-too!"

"Yep! There's one for everyone,"Camryn nods, setting Calum down on the floor so that he can run with his little diaper jiggling towards his siblings.

Auggie hands each of the bead bracelets to the little kids as they slide them onto their wrists.

"Mamamama!"Calum babbles, toddling over to Camryn and holding up his bracelet towards her.

"Do you want mumma to help you put it on?"Camryn asks, kneeling down in front of Calum and sliding the bracelet onto his wrist.

"Daddy, there's an extra one,"Darcy says, holding up the one extra bead bracelet towards Harry.

"Mmmm, maybe there's a reason there's an extra one!"Harry hints, watching as all of the kids furrow their brows in complete confusion. They really have no idea what any of this means, even Darcy who's usually able to understand these kinds of things.

"Just read the next clue, you guys will figure it out,"Camryn promises, watching as Darcy begins to say the next clue.

You're almost there...don't give up! If Swedish fishes are part of your wishes...find your final next clue where we clean the dishes!

"SWEDISH FISH?"Darcy exclaims, running towards the sink, looking for her favorite candy that Harry always brings back from America when he goes on tour.

"I've never seen her run so fast,"Camryn laughs, watching Darcy turn the corner from the hallway and into the kitchen at an insane speed.

"Maybe we should tell her that there's Swedish Fish at the end of every chore she does,"Harry jokes, following the kids into the kitchen.

"FOUND IT!"Lennon exclaims, standing on the small plastic step stool in front of the sink and holding up a pale green card that was inside a clean white bowl.

You found the last clue! There's no math...just look and you'll find it where you take a bath!"

"Oh my goodness guys!"Camryn exclaims watching all of the kids squeal with excitement. "It's the last clue, go go go!"

The kids all chase each other up the stairs and into the kids' bathroom, dropping stumbling over each other to climb into the bathtub.

"Don't crush Calum!"Camryn calls fearfully as she watches all of the kids pile into the white bathtub.

"What is that guys?!"Harry asks, watching all of the kids sit in the empty bathtub and curiously look at the little object in the middle of it.

"A binki!"Bowie exclaims, holding up the pacifier in his hand.

"That's right!"Harry nods with a huge smile, wrapping his arm around Camryn's shoulder and feeling his heart begin to pick up in speed as he realizes that the kids are about to figure out what's going on. "And who uses binkis!"

"Calum!"Morgan exclaims, looking proudly up at Harry and Camryn.

"Well...yeah,"Harry chuckles as Camryn bursts out into giggles at the fact that the kids aren't catching on at all. "But other than Calum who uses binkis?"

"B-B-Babies!"Auggie exclaims, looking up at his parents as he sits on his knees in the bathtub.

"That's right!"Harry nods with a smile. "So we better save that for a few months since mummy's having another baby!"

"WHAT?"Darcy exclaims, jaw dropping as she looks at Camryn. "You're having a baby?!"

"I am!"Camryn nods with a huge smile, her eyes watering as she watches all of the kids squeal in excitement as they climb out of the tub and rush over to Camryn. "There's a baby in my belly!"

"Mumma, I'm so excited!"Darcy shrieks, wrapping her arms around Camryn's waist and resting her cheek against her stomach.

"I'm so glad you are, baby,"Camryn smiles tearfully as she picks Morgan up in her arms and hugs her tightly. "I'm so excited too!"

"Mama there's a baby?"Morgan asks, looking at Camryn.

"There is a baby!"Camryn nods, looking down at her little stomach. "There's a baby in my belly! You're gonna be a big sister again!"

"Mama, more babies!"Bowie asks excitedly, reaching her arms up towards Camryn who puts him on her other hip.

"Hopefully just a baby and not babies,"Camryn chuckles, nuzzling her nose with her little boy. They're prepared for one newborn with 5 other children, but they're not sure they're prepared for 2 newborns with 5 children.

"Mama is it a girl?!"Darcy asks, looking up at Camryn with big blue eyes.

"We don't know yet,"Camryn shrugs with a smile. "We're going to have to wait and see!"

"Mama, can we see the baby?"Lennon asks, looking at Camryn's stomach.

"Of course,"Camryn nods, setting down Bowie and Morgan onto the floor and then rolling her shirt up a bit to show the kids.

"O-O-Oh t-t-the b-b-baby,"Auggie coos, batting his eyelashes as he puts a little palm against his mum's slightly protruding belly.

"Is that your baby, Augs?"Harry smiles, watching as all of the kids gather around Camryn and put their hands on her belly.

"Can you give the baby kisses, Bow?"Camryn asks, rubbing her little boys straight brown hair as he leans his sticky lips against her belly.

"CalCal! Don't suck on the pacifier!"Harry chuckles, walking over to the bathtub and picking up the little baby on his hip and plucking the pacifier out of his lips. "That's for the baby!"

"Mumma's having a baby!"Harry cheers, raising his fist in the air as the kids copy him and cheer with their little fists in the air.

***

September 2019, 13 weeks pregnant

"Are you excited for ice cream, little miss?"Harry asks as he peeks at Darcy through the rearview mirror. She's sitting her booster seat with her little hands folded in her lap politely as her little legs kick against the seat and she peers out of the window.

"Yeah daddy,"she smiles softly, looking at her dad's eyes through the rearview mirror. "I like going on dates."

"Mummy and daddy like going on dates with you too, Squishy,"Camryn smiles, turning her cheek back to look at Darcy. She kisses the air gently in Darcy's direction and the little girl smile, pretending to catch the kiss in the air.

"Alrighty, we're here,"Harry announces as he pulls into a parking lot that Darcy's never been too which confuses her a bit. Maybe they're going to a new ice cream store? "Where are we?"Darcy asks curiously, tucking a strand of her curly brown hair behind her ear and leaning closer to the window to try and get a better look at the big building in from to her.

"Let's put your awesome reading skills to the test, missy,"Harry smiles widely, pointing to a big sign outside of the building. "Read what that sign says."

Darcy squints her eyes and leans forward in her booster seat to try and get a better look at the sign. "Mother...Baby...midwifery...clinic." She sits back proudly as Harry and Camryn excitedly nod at her, both of them turned sideways in their seats so that they can see their little girl better.

"Yep! Do you know what those words mean?"Camryn asks, watching as Darcy squishes her fingers in her lips and thoughtfully raises her eyes to the roof of the car.

"It's where people go to have babies...?"Darcy guesses, trying to put the clues together in her head. She knows her mumma is pregnant and she knows a bit of what the sign meant.

"Uh huh, it is,"Harry nods encouragingly with a dimple popping smile as he waits with anticipation for Darcy to figure out what's going on. "It's also were people go to check up on their babies and make sure everything is okay. Remember how mummy got ultrasounds when she was pregnant with your younger brothers?"

"Those black and white photos of the babies,"Camryn quickly clarifies when she sees the confusion written across Darcy's features.

"Oh yeah, I do,"Darcy nods. She looks at the sign again with puckered features. "Why are we here? I thought we were getting ice cream."

"We thought this might be better than ice cream,"Harry chuckles at her innocent statement, fearing for a second that she truly is going to be disappointed that they're doing this instead of getting ice cream. "Would you like to see your baby brother or sister, Squish?"

Darcy's eyes widen and light up as she rapidly nods her head and gasps. "YES!"

"Well c'mon then,"Harry chuckles motioning for Darcy to follow him as he quickly gets out of the drivers seat and Darcy fumbles with her seat belt.

They hurriedly climb out of the car with Darcy in the middle of Harry and Camryn as she holds one of each of their hands.

They wait patiently in the waiting room for 8 minutes, but for Darcy it feels like an eternity. She can't remember a time where she was ever this excited, well actually, she can. It was last week when her mum and dad told her that she was getting another little sibling.

She skips down the hall, swinging her hands that are interlocked with Harry and Camryn's as they walk down to the last door on the right.

"And are you big sister, sweetheart?"the midwife asks as Camryn gets set up on the examination table, laying back and rolling up her t-shirt to expose her little baby bump.

"Yeah!"Darcy excitedly nods as Harry pats his lap to motion for her to sit on it as he sits on the stool next to the examination table.

"Alright, sweetheart, are you ready to see your little baby?"the midwife asks, looking at Darcy who eagerly nods, her hands interlocked by her face as she gives a huge gapped tooth smile. "And is this your first appointment,"she looks at Harry and Camryn, "I checked my papers and it said it was...?"

"It is,"Camryn nods, "we just found out we were pregnant last week.

"Oh congratulations, this is so exciting,"the midwife bubbles, holding the tube of jelly in her hands. "Alright Miss Darcy, I'm going to explain to you everything that's going on so you become extra smart, okay?" Darcy eagerly nods as Harry gently bounces her on his lap with his knees.

Darcy gently reaches out to hold Camryn's hand and Camryn accepts it gratefully, giving Darcy a little squeeze and a wink that makes the little girl giggle quietly.

"Alright, so this is a jelly that I put on your mummy's tummy,"the midwife explains, holding up the tub of jelly and squirting it onto Camryn's belly, "and this is called a Doppler. It lets me listen to the baby's heart beat and see that baby on that computer screen." She presses the doppler against Camryn's stomach gently and moves it around. "And don't you worry one bit, this doesn't hurt your mumma at all, right mumma?" The midwife looks up at Camryn with a gentle smile.

"Right,"Camryn agrees, squeezing Darcy's hand and bringing her knuckles gently to her lips while raising her eyebrows with a smile.

"Alright, so now we look for the heartbeat,"the midwife continues to babble with a smile, moving the doppler all around Camryn's stomach. "Sometimes when the baby is so little it can be hard to find the heartbeat, so it might take us an extra little while."

Camryn feels her heart quicken as the silence fills the room. It's always nerve wracking, this first appointment as you wait to make sure your baby has a heartbeat. The nerves have only increased now that she has her baby girl sitting next to her. She doesn't even want to begin to think about how tragic it would be for Darcy to have to hear that her little sibling doesn't have a heartbeat.

Luckily, she doesn't have to hear that because just a few seconds later a loud woosh woosh woosh woosh fills the room and quickly drags Camryn out of her thoughts.

"Do you hear that, Squish?!"Harry exclaims, nuzzling his face closer to Darcy's as he tightens his arms around her middle to hug her tighter. "That's the baby's heartbeat!" He puts his hand on Camryn's thigh and squeezes it gently, their watery eyes meeting for a second and exchanging a glance of I can't believe this is happening again. I love you.

"It sounds like a train,"Darcy giggles, squeezing Camryn's hand tighter as she looks at Camryn who has tears of joy in her eyes.

"It kinda does, huh sweetheart?"the midwife chuckles, "alright should we see this sweet little thing?"

All three of the Styles eagerly nod as the computer comes to life and brings up a moving black and white image.

"And there we are,"the midwife smiles, "there's the baby! Look at that little foot, how precious!"

"Oh my gosh, D, look at the baby's nose!"Camryn bubbles excitedly, pointing to the little baby on the screen. "Do you see that?"

"They're so cute,"Darcy gushes, her eyes trained on the screen as Harry continues to whisper in her ear and point out the baby's little features to her.

"Wow, they look big!"Camryn giggles, looking at the little human on the screen. Her little human.

"Yeah, that is a pretty advanced baby,"the midwife agrees, flipping through her notes on her clipboard. "Remind me, how far along did you estimate yourself to be?"

"We thought like 6 weeks, right baby?"Camryn asks looking over at Harry who nods in confirmation.

He knows they were not accurate at all in their estimation because he's been to enough ultrasounds in his lifetime to know that's not what a 6 week old baby looks like.

"Yeah, we are not 6 weeks along, that's for sure,"the midwife giggles, looking back up at the screen and using the computer mouse to take a few measurements. "We are measuring at about....double that, so 12 weeks."

"12 weeks?"Camryn exclaims in disbelief, her eyes bugging out of her head and she looks over at Harry who has the same expression written across his face. "Holy crap, okay! Wow! Darce, you're getting your little sibling a bit sooner than we thought."

"What do you think, DD?"Harry asks, squeezing her tighter and kissing her soft cheek. "This is pretty cool, huh?"

"I think it's a girl,"Darcy decides with a confidence that makes everyone in the room giggle and hope for her sake that she's right.

***

October 2019, 20 weeks pregnant

"Are you scared?"Harry asks, looking over at Camryn as they sit in the waiting room of the midwifery clinic. Camryn's knee is bouncing a mile a minute, so really there's no need to ask her about how she's feeling. He already knows.

"Terrified,"Camryn nods with a nervous breathy laugh as she runs her hand that's not interlocked with Harry's over her growing bump that has already popped out considerably. "I'm afraid Darcy's never gonna talk to us again if it's not a girl."

"She's literally going to be so disappointed,"Harry agrees, anxiously running his hand through his curls as he stares at the front desk, his heart in his throat as he thinks about how big of a moment they're about to have.

They're about to find out the gender of their baby. It's always one of the most exciting times for them.

"We've always been able to tell her like, well maybe if mummy and daddy have another baby it will be a girl,"Camryn murmurs, dropping her forehead to her hand as she rests her elbow on the arm of her chair. "But this is our last chance."

"I really want it to be a girl too,"Harry whispers with a hopefully smile as he looks over at Camryn who's smiling gently over at him with her cheek in her palm.

"You've wanted all of our babies to be girls ever since we found out we were pregnant with Auggie,"Camryn giggles, winking at Harry as he agrees with a laugh. "But, I want this one to be a girl too. We haven't had a newborn baby girl in 8 years."

Harry groans and squeezes Camryn's hand. "Don't say that, you're making me feel old."

"We're having our 6th kid, babe,"Camryn giggles, leaning in her seat to kiss his scruffy cheek. "We are old."

"Camryn Styles?"a midwife with a kind smile calls out as she leans against the doorway with clipboard in her hand, looking around at the few patients that are in the waiting room.

Harry and Camryn share a nervous glance, both of them smiling softly as they stand up and keep their hands interlocked as they walk through the waiting room and down the hallway walking after the midwife.

"Alright, lovelies, you can get all set up in here and we'll do the ultrasound,"the midwife announces, sitting down on a stool by the large computer in the side of the room that will soon show the baby.

Harry gently helps Camryn get up on the examining table and Camryn lays back against the sanitary paper, rolling up her white t-shirt and reaching her hand out towards Harry as he sits down on the stool next to the table and grasps her hand tightly, kissing her knuckles gently.

"Is this your first baby, my loves?"the midwife innocently asks, clicking a few keys on the keyboard before swiveling around in her stool and snapping on a pair of gloves.

"Oh, no no,"Camryn laughs, shaking her head. "It's our 6th."

"Your 6th,"the midwife exclaims, looking at Camryn and then Harry and then back again and taking in how young they both look. "What aging serum are you using because I want some of it!"

Harry chuckles as he squeezes Carmyn's hand and leans forward a bit in the stool, his knee taking over Camryn's trait of bouncing. "We got pregnant with our first baby at 17, so we started pretty young."

"Oh how lovely,"the midwife hums, pulling out the doppler, "I'm just going to squirt some jelly on your stomach and it might be a little cold, alright?"

Camryn nods, completely used to this routine as she smiles widely and squeezes Harry's hand as he gives her an encouraging smile back as the midwife puts the cold jelly on her stomach, making the baby soft hairs purse up.

"So tell me about these other kids of yours,"the midwife politely makes conversation, moving the doppler around on Camryn's stomach.

"Our oldest is Darcy and she's 8, then we have Lennon and he just turned 6 in august, then we have August and he's 5, then Bowie and he's 3, and then we have our little baby boy Calum who's 1 1/2."

"Four boys?!"the midwife exclaims with wide eyes, switching her glance between Harry and Camryn who both quietly chuckle and nod. They're very used to that reaction. "My goodness you must have your hands full!"

"Oh yes,"Camryn giggles, nodding her head as she watches the doppler move around on her stomach. "Our hands are very full and our house is very loud."

the midwife chuckles as she finally finds the heartbeat, keeping the doppler there for a moment as she looks up at Harry and Camryn who are looking at each other with watery tears. "And there we are, there's the heartbeat. You've got a little stubborn one there, they kept wiggling around so that I couldn't find them. Have you been able to feel them move yet?"

"No, not yet,"Camryn shakes her head, "with most of my babies I didn't feel them until about 22 weeks."

"Totally normal,"the midwife nods, switching on the computer to illuminate the baby on the screen. "Oh and there we are! Look at that little cutie!"

"Oh look at their nose!"Harry gushes, bringing Camryn's hand up to his lips and resting it there. "Oh they're so tiny! That's your nose, babe."

"You think so?"Camryn asks with a teary giggle as she continues to look at the little wiggling baby on the screen.

"Oh this little one just does not want to show their face, do they?"the midwife snickers, moving the doppler around a bit on Camryn's stomach to try and get a clear picture of the baby who's moving restlessly. "Get ready for this one, I have a feeling your house is going to get a lot louder. This is a little stubborn one."

"Oh goodness,"Camryn giggles, turning her head to look at Harry and giving him a can you believe this? look.

"Okay, are we wanting to know the gender or...?"the midwife asks, looking up at Harry and Camryn who share a glance and then nod at her.

"We do, yeah,"Camryn confirms with a big smile.

"Okay, are we hoping for anything in specific?"the midwife asks, looking at the screen again and trying to get an accurate picture of the baby.

"Just a healthy baby,"Harry responds with a sly smile, "well okay, and we might be really wanting a girl. Big sister Darcy is in desperate need of a little sister."

"Oh I hope it is,"the midwife gushes, moving the doppler around a bit. "C'mon you little stubborn thing...they are moving around so much, wow!...oh, there we go...good job, little one, stay right there..."

She clicks a photo and smiles widely as she looks at Harry and Camryn who are practically shaking with nerves. Their interlocked hands have turned white. "Are we ready?" Harry and Camryn both nod at the midwife's question.

"You two are having a..."she drawls out, loving to watch as they hang on to every single word she says. "A BABY GIRL!"

"NO!"Camryn immediately loudly gasps before she contain herself, looking over at Harry who's jaw is dropped and squeezing her hand hard enough to break it.

"Oh my gosh!"Harry exclaims, jumping out of his chair to lean over the examination table and hug Camryn tightly as a few tears escape his cheeks. "Another girl!"

"Finally! We did it!"Camryn jokingly raises a fist in victory, smiling as Harry presses his lips against hers.

"Oh my gosh, I can't believe it,"Harry whispers, sitting back down in his stool because he's afraid he'll faint if he doesn't. "Another baby girl."

"Another little daddy's girl for you, sweetheart,"Camryn smiles widely, squeezing Harry's hand who still looks like he's in absolute shock.

"I'm so excited,"Harry wetly chuckles, wiping at his eyes with his thumb as he kisses Camryn's knuckles again. "We're having another baby girl! A little baby girl!"

"I love you,"Camryn smiles widely as a few tears roll down her cheeks.

Harry immediately rolls his stool over to her so that he can press his lips against hers, smiling into the kiss. "I love you so freakin much."

***

Later that day

"Alright my sweet girl,"Camryn smiles widely, holding a box of a "funfetti" cake mix in her hand. "Are you ready to see if you're having a little brother or a little sister?"

"Yes!"Darcy exclaims, bouncing up and down in her seat at the counter as she waits for Harry and Camryn to bring her the ingredients.

"You're so special, little miss,"Harry smirks, handing the mix of cake power to Darcy to pour into the bowl. "You get to figure out first what the baby is!"

"I think it's a girl,"Darcy bubbles, pouring the powder into the bowl. "I really hope it's a girl!"

"We'll have to see,"Harry smirks, standing behind Darcy and smiling at Camryn who's already feeling her heart speed up at the thought of her baby girl's excited reaction.

"Alright, now two eggs,"Camryn says, holding out the eggs towards Darcy.

She bites on her little tongue as she focuses ooo cracking the eggs, trying her best to do it as cleanly as possible.

"You're a good little baker, Miss Darcy Loo,"Harry coos, resting his hands on the top of Darcy's shoulders and resting his chin on top of her head.

"I like to bake, daddy,"Darcy proudly smiles, pouring the water and oil into the bowl.

"You're like your daddy,"Camryn winks, resting her forearms on the counter and bending at her hips to try and relieve some of the pressure off of her hips that are already feeling a ton of pressure in between her hips.

"You wanna see a trick I learned at the bakery, DD?"Harry asks, picking up three eggs out of the carton as Darcy nods. He flicks his eyes over to Camryn who's watching him warily. "You ready mumma?"

"If I think I know what you're doing, then no, I'm not,"Camryn laughs, continuing to look at Harry as he takes a dramatic deep breath and begins to juggle the eggs in his hands.

"Daddy be careful!"Darcy exclaims with a giggle, smiling widely with her dimple popping as Harry takes a few steps forward and a few steps backwards, juggling the three eggs in his hands.

"You're cleaning the floor when this fails,"Camryn jokes, shaking her head as Harry continues to throw the eggs up higher than his head.

"Such little faith in me,"Harry chuckles, winking at Camryn as he almost drops an egg but successfully catches it.

"Daddy, careful!"Darcy warns again, squeaking in fear as Harry drops an egg on the floor almost immediately after the words left her mouth.

"Harold,"Camryn groans with a playful eye roll, resting her forehead down on her forearms.

"Wasn't me,"Harry shrugs innocently as he points at Darcy. "It was the little one."

"Daddy!"Darcy exclaims in offense with a giggle as she sticks her tongue out at her dad.

Harry quickly grabs a washcloth and begins to clean the floor, scrubbing at the hardwood flooring.

"Get it good, Styles,"Camryn jokes, watching as Harry cleans on his hands and knees.

"You wanna help me?"Harry asks with a smirk, looking up at Camryn and scrunching his nose at her.

"You'd make your poor pregnant wife get on the floor to help you clean up your mess?"Camryn says in a mock-shocked voice, throwing a hand over her heart. "That's not very gentlemanly of you." She winks over at Darcy who continues to giggle at her parents' interaction as she stirs the ingredients in the bowl.

"Your tummy's getting big, mummy,"Darcy says, looking at the Camryn's growing belly bump.

"I know, huh?"Camryn laughs, putting a hand on the side of her bump. "We've got a growing little baby in there, huh?"

"Are we ready to put that in the over, Squish?"Harry asks, motioning his head towards the bowl. Darcy nods and helps Harry pour the cake batter mix into small cupcake cartons and then Harry puts it into the oven.

"How long do they have to bake?"Darcy asks as Harry picks her up to set her on the counter, kissing her cheek gently.

"About 10 minutes,"Camryn replies, walking over to Harry to hug him from behind, her bump brushing against his back as Harry places his hands on either side of Darcy on the counter.

"That's gonna be forever,"Darcy sighs dramatically, way too excited about whether or not this baby is a boy or a girl to wait and find out.

*

"Alright Squish,"Harry smiles widely, placing a cupcake into her hands as she looks down at it with her blindfold over her eyes. "Mummy put either blue or pink frosting in the middle of the cupcake, so when you take a bite of it you'll figure out if you're having a little brother or sister, okay?"

"Okay,"Darcy nods, "I promise I would still like the baby if it's a boy."

Camryn chuckles and kisses the top of Darcy's head. "I know you would, sweetheart."

Camryn walks over to around to the opposite side of the counter so that she has a straight on view of Darcy's face and runs her hands over her bump. "You ready, babe?"

"Ready,"Darcy nods firmly.

"Okay,"Camryn smiles widely as Harry wraps his arms around Camryn from behind and rests his chin on her shoulder. "Three...two...one! Take a bite!"

Darcy takes a huge bite of the cupcake, chewing it a few times before she reaches for her blindfold with a huge smile and takes it off.

It's like she's in shock for a few seconds when her eyes hit the color.

Pink.

It's pink and she doesn't know what to think at first. It's like all of her thoughts and words leave her brain for a second as she stops chewing and looks down at the cupcake in complete disbelief.

"Its...pink,"Darcy whispers, still not putting two and two together because she just can't believe it. She'd honestly given up hope on ever getting a sister.

"What does that mean, baby?"Camryn asks, her voice already thick with tears.

Darcy looks up at her parents with tears of realization forming in her eyes. "A GIRL?! I'M GETTING A SISTER?"

"You are, baby,"Harry chuckles thickly, nodding his head as Darcy screams at the top of her lungs, dropping the cupcake on the counter and jumping off of the chair.

"I'M GETTING A SISTER?!"she asks again for confirmation. She bolts over to Harry and Camryn and hugs them tightly. "A GIRL! REALLY?!"

"Really, Squish,"Camryn giggles, picking Darcy up and hugging her tightly against her bump as Darcy tightens her grip around Camryn's neck. "You're going to have a little sister!"

"THANK YOU MUMMY, THANK YOU DADDY!"Darcy cries, as if they has a choice.

"Oh sweetheart,"Camryn coos, with the tears finally rolling down her cheeks as she realizes that Darcy's cheeks are covered in tears.

"Baby,"Harry chuckles thickly, wiping at a few of Darcy's tears.

"I'm just happy,"Darcy explains, not wanting her mum and dad to worry and not knowing that they completely understand why she's crying. They've never seen any of their kids cry tears of joy before and it makes both of them break down. "I'm just crying cuz I'm happy."

"I know, babe,"Camryn giggles, nuzzling her nose against Darcy's. "I am too."

"I get to have a little baby sister forever and ever?"Darcy asks with a squeal, looking between her parents.

"Forever and ever,"Harry nods with a big wobbly smile.

"We're going to be best friends,"Darcy says with such a confidence that Harry and Camryn know she's right.

***
"Alright guys, you each have a cupcake, right?"Harry and Camryn ask as all of the kids sit at the kitchen table with a cupcake in their hands.

It's been 2 hours since Darcy had her date alone with Harry and Camryn where she found out that she was having a little sister and now that Gemma and Anne have brought the 5 other kids home from the park, it's time to tell them as well.

"Daddy, Calum's already eating it,"Bowie tattles, pointing over at his little brother in the highchair who's beginning to munch on the cupcake in front of him, white frosting and rainbow sprinkles covering his chubby cheeks.

"Shoot!"Harry exclaims as he realizes that Calum is two seconds away from spoiling the surprise for the kids. "Hurry and bite into your cupcakes before Calum spoils it!"

The kids all follow their dad's instructions and take a huge bite of their cupcakes.

"P-P-PINK!"Auggie exclaims through a mouthful of cupcake.

"Yep!"Camryn nods excitedly, holding her bump in her hands. "And what does pink mean?"

"IT'S A GIRL!"Lennon yells, jumping off of his seat and running towards his mum who's nodding with a huge smile.

"It's a girl!"Harry confirms, smiling as all of the kids squeal and gasp. "You're all getting a little sister!"

"A SISSY?!"Morgan asks in her three year old innocence, still trying to put the pieces together.

Camryn nods at the little girl and holds her arms out for Morgan to run into. "Uh huh! Another little girl to join you and Darcy!"

"I wanted a sissy!"Morgan cheers happily, hugging her arms tight around Camryn's neck.

"I know you did!"Camryn giggles, kissing Morgan's temple and squeezing her tightly as she kneels down on the floor to accept excited hugs from all of the kids.

"What do you think guys?"Camryn asks, looking at the five kids in front of her (Calum is still in his high chair with Harry as he completely destroys the cupcake, deciding that he's having a more fun time playing with the frosting than eating it). "Are you excited?!"

"So excited!"Lennon nods, wrapping his arms around Camryn's neck and squeezing her tight. "She's going to be so cute!"

***

After a few more excited squeals and hungrily finishing their cupcakes, Harry and Camryn clean each of the kids up and gather all 6 of them into the living room for another special surprise.

"Does anyone remember what this is?"Harry asks, pulling out a bag that holds a doppler in it.

"You listen to the baby's heartbeat with it!"Darcy quickly answers, feeling quite proud of herself for knowing that.

"That's right!"Harry nods, kneeling down in front of the couch as Camryn goes to lay down on it on her back. "We use this to hear the baby's heartbeat! We bought this when Darcy was in mummy's tummy because we loved to listen to her."

"I remember listening to Calum,"Darcy says, kneeling next to her dad as all of the kids follow their big sister's lead and kneel beside the couch.

"M-M-Me t-t-too,"Auggie nods in agreement, watching the machine curiously through his big glasses.

"Should we listen to baby sister's heartbeat?"Harry asks the kids as Camryn pulls her shirt up and looks over at all of the kids who are excitedly nodding their heads.

"No ouchies, mummy?"Bowie checks as Harry gently places the machine on Camryn's stomach."

"Nope, no ouchies, I promise,"Camryn assures her sweet little three year old boy as she reaches her hand out to cup his cheek and rub the skin there with her thumb.

"Where are you feeling her most, babe?"Harry asks, moving the doppler around her belly gently.

"Mostly right here,"Camryn points down towards her lower stomach that feels especially full in this pregnancy. She carried really low with Auggie and it's seeming the same with this baby girl too.

"Alright,"Harry hums, moving the doppler down to where Camryn was pointing a few seconds ago and then...woosh woosh woosh woosh.

"Do you guys hear that?"Harry asks, turning to all of the kids who have their jaws slightly agape as they look at Camryn's round belly that's now producing noise. "That's your guys' little sister! It's her heartbeat!"

"T-T-That's b-b-baby s-s-s-s-sister?"Auggie asks in awe, his little hand resting comfortingly on Camryn's thigh.

"That's your baby sister,"Camryn confirms, nodding at her sweet little blonde boy.

"Calum, can you say 'baby'?"Harry asks with a huge smile, raising his eyebrows at his littlest son.

"Baba,"Calum babbles, looking up at Harry with big eyes and a proud smirk.

"Good job, little man,"Harry chuckles, dropping his lips to the top of Calum's head.

"When is baby sister going to come and meet us?"Lennon asks, looking at Camryn's bump with a fascination in his eyes.

"She's going to come and meet us sometime in March!"Camryn responds, wiggling her eyes at Lennon as he smiles widely.

"Tomorrow?"Morgan asks, since she's three and has absolutely no concept of time.

"No, not tomorrow,"Camryn giggles gently and shakes her head. "We want the baby to get a lot bigger before she meets us, so we can meet her tomorrow. But in a couple of months, right after daddy and Bowie's birthday, then we'll meet her."

"Baba 'isses,"Calum babbles, standing on his little legs and leaning forward to press a sticky and slobbery kiss onto Camryn's stomach.

"Oh so nice,"Camryn coos, smiling widely at Calum's little lips against her skin. "Baby sister loves you! She just told mummy!"

"Does baby sister love me?"Lennon asks curiously, looking up at his mum with the same hopeful expression that she's seen Harry wear so many time's before.

"Give her kisses and I'll see what she tells me,"Camryn winks at Lennon as he leans down to press a little peck against Camryn's stomach.

"Oh yep! She just told me that she loves her big brother Lennon!"Camryn nods with her jaw dropped at Lennon as he chuckles.

"Me! Me!"Morgan exclaims, leaning forward to kiss Camryn's stomach softly.

"Oh! She just told me she loves her MoMo!"Camryn smiles widely at the little girl, tucking a strand of black hair behind her ear. "She's so excited for you to be her big sister!"

"MEEE!"Bowie exclaims, practically cannonballing his head into Camryn's stomach.

"Woahhh, carefully with the baby,"Harry warns gently with a small chuckle, catching Bowie's shoulders before he can collide his head with Camryn's stomach. "We've gotta be so gentle with the baby."

"Give her a gentle kiss, baby,"Camryn instructs with a smile, watching her little boy go in much softer this time for a kiss.

"Oh she said she loves her big brother Bowie too!"Camryn winks at Bowie as he smiles proudly.

"I-I w-w-wanna g-g-g-give l-l-loves t-t-t-too!"Auggie excitedly exclaims, pressing his lips against Camryn's stomach.

"Oh she said she can't wait to meet Auggie Bear and that she loves you sooo much!"Camryn giggles as Auggie's face lights up.

"S-S-She k-k-k-knows m-m-m-my n-n-nickname i-i-is A-A-A-Auggie B-B-Bear?"Auggie asks in complete awe as he looks between his mum and his dad.

"Uh huh,"Harry nods with a dimple popping grin. "We told her so." He winks at Auggie who giggles in bliss as he continues to look at his mum's stomach.

"Me next!"Darcy exclaims, kissing Camryn's bump with a little "mwah".

"Oh yes! She loves her big sister Darcy!"Camryn nods exaggeratedly to make Darcy's face light up. "She says she can't wait for you to be her best friend!"

"Alright, me next, me next,"Harry chuckles, leaning down to press a few kisses onto Camryn's stomach, holding the bump in his hands. "Hi sweetheart. I love you. Daddy loves you so much!" He peeks up at Camryn with a sly smirk, "what did she say about me?"

"She said she thinks you seem alright,"Camryn winks, cradling Harry's cheeks in her hands and bringing her face closer to him. "And she said that she can't wait to meet you."

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If you made it this far...you are my idol I freakin love you 😂 you just read 20,000 words so...congratulations you are all my favorite people ever.

Okay also yesterday I hit 80k and like...WHAT EXCUSE ME WHAT?!?! Why are you guys so sweet like seriously what the crap??? I just...you guys are insane. I love you so freakin much and could never thank you enough.

ALSO!! So it's Auggie's birthday on July 7, so I want to dedicate next Sunday's chapter to him! Sooo if you guys have any thoughts of what you'd like to see just let me know!! also let me know if you'd prefer to see baby auggie, or toddler auggie, or like kid auggie, or a bit older (10-12ish) Auggie! LMK!!

we could do a dramatic one where he falls off the jungle gym (briefly mentioned that in the chapter about Bindi's colic) and faints, or a cute little one where him and Camryn and Harry go to an Amusement park to celebrate his birthday with lots of cute fluff!! or something completely different if you have any ideas so just let me know!

ALSO!! So on Auggie's Novella chapter that I posted a few days ago, the comments got kind of messed up?? so I couldn't see all of them?? idk Wattpad was being really weird about the comments (hopefully that doesn't happen to this chapter) but I just wanted to let you know that if I didn't respond to your comment I am SO SORRY!! I really do appreciate all of your guy's comments SO MUCH and I try my absolute best to respond to all of them 💕💕

AND!!! Calum's novella is coming out within the next like 2-3 days!! so keep an eye out for that, ya'll are not gonna want to miss the first chapter cuz it is DRAMATIC!!!!

Okay peeps I need your opinions: for my one year anniversary (it's in August) should I make a better cover for this book? I made this when I first started the book and honestly did not think the book was going to go anywhere, but now that its like...read by more people than just me😂😂😂😂...maybe I should change it to be less cheesy?? Or should I stick to the original? What do we think, loves?

I'm just afraid that it might confuse people if I change it, but idk maybe not?? I need ya'lls opinions!!!

OKAY NOW BACK TO WRITING CALUMS CHAPTER FOR ALL OF MY CALUM LOVERS!!! ;)

have I mentioned that I love you more than anything?? because I do!

MWAH

-Mel❤️