Ally's P.O.V.
It surprises me how fast time can pass in a month and how much things can change. This past month has been very stressful for me, but it was also filled with lots of good company.
Luckily, Jimin and I have been able to hang out and spend some time together. Since we both have somewhat stressful schedules, we've been meeting up to go have some fun and just take a breather from life.
Spending time with Jimin has also helped us become a lot closer making me finally feel comfortable with someone. I didn't have to worry about anything when I was around him because I knew that I could trust him as a friend.
Currently, I was in the middle of washing out color from Jimin's hair since he personally asked me to do his hair for the Grammys. Obviously, I couldn't say no since my hands were itching to touch some hair.
After rinsing out all the color, I give Jimin a towel to dry his hair while we walk back to my station. Once he is seated, I take the towel and start drying his hair a little more.
"You have such a gentle touch when dealing with my hair. I like it." I could see from the mirror how Jimin was smiling at me and I couldn't help but smile as well.
"Well, I am a hairstylist after all." Deciding to play with him a bit, I answer him sarcastically, but in the end we both end up laughing.
"It's been such a long time since I've seen you like this. Do you miss it?"
"I do, a lot. I honestly don't think there's a day that I don't miss it. It's what I love doing."
"But now you have something that you love doing even more, right?"
"I guess you could say that."
"You don't love it?"
"Don't get me wrong. I do, but I don't know. Lately things have been pretty stressful, but I'm getting through it, one day at a time."
Once I dried his hair a bit, I took a seat in a chair next to him and relaxed a bit. Jimin, on the other hand, just looks at me with so much attention.
"Why are you stressed?"
"Just the usual. Training." I looked down at my hands and started fidgeting around with them.
"Are you sure that's the only thing that's stressing you out? You know you can tell me anything."
I look up at Jimin and see how genuinely concerned he is for me. It's been a while since I had someone care and worry over me the way that he does. It felt really nice and in a way it made me feel comforted and safe like I could tell him anything.
"I guess there's other things, but it's mainly just that."
"And how are you dealing with it? How are you holding up?"
I had to think about this question for a while since no one has ever asked me this. I wasn't sure how I was dealing with it. I just try to get through everyday in hopes that everything will get better, but recently I've felt like things are just getting worse.
I started to fidget with my hands even more and all I did was remain silent. I was anxious.
"Ally." Jimin puts his hands over mine to stop me from playing with them, making me turn my attention to him. "You can trust me."
I'm not sure why, but hearing those words come out of his mouth triggered something in me. Suddenly a wave of emotions started taking over me and I could feel my vision start to get blurry.
"I'm not sure. I just feel like... I don't know what to do anymore..."
My voice was wanting to give up on me towards the end of my sentence, but I forced myself to not let it show. I was also trying really hard to hold back my tears.
I've only been a trainee for a couple of months, but I was already starting to feel so stressed out from all the practice, classes, and weekly evaluations. I also had to go into a strict diet since I wasn't fitting the ideal weight and beauty standards of this industry.
I've been restraining myself from food for a little over a month now and all I've managed to consume are liquids and once in a while some meat.
The long and constant hours of practice, working out, studying for exams were now taking a toll on me and I just feel just physically and mentally exhausted.
I was starting to miss my family from back home since I'm not able to visit them due to how much practice I would miss. I didn't even have time to call or even text them, especially with the time difference that there is between us.
Every night, I get home from a very long and tiring day of practice and only get a few hours of sleep in, so I can wake up early to do it all again. Who knew how long I was going to be doing this. It would be weeks, months, or even years...
"Everything is just so stressful now. I knew this was going to be hard, but I didn't know that it was going to be this hard."
Jimin gave my hands a light squeeze which was enough to really comfort me.
"I haven't been able to sleep, eat, or think properly for a while and I'm just so tired now."
While letting out a big sigh, I looked up to the ceiling since my tears were now threatening to fall down.
At this point, I wasn't sure if I was talking about training or about Jungkook. I've never talked to anyone about what happened between us and how I felt after the breakup. I've just been bottling it up inside me far away from the world, scared of what might happen if I ever tell anyone.
"The only thing that's keeping me together is my sanity and my goal to debut."
Not being able to hold it anymore, I let go. My eyes now have waterfalls coming out from them and my body shaking from anxiety.
"But, I'm fine. It's nothing that I can't handle. I know I'll get through it eventually."
I managed to compose myself a bit and began to wipe my tears away while also giving Jimin a smile, demonstrating to him that I was actually okay.
Or so I wanted him to believe that.
Jimin gets out of his seat and kneels down on one knee. With both of his hands, he wipes my tears away with his thumbs so gently.
"Please don't cry. It hurts me to see you like this..."
Jimin's P.O.V.
As soon as I saw Ally's tears fall from her eyes, I couldn't help but to wipe her tears away. I could tell that she was trying really hard to show me that she was fine, but I more than anyone knew that that smile of hers was just for show.
All I want to do is hold her close to me and take all her pain away.
As I look at her, I notice her start to avoid eye contact with me, probably from her being nervous. Ever so gently, I place my hand under her chin and lift her head up so she would be looking at me.
Our eyes were both now locked with each other and at this moment, my heart started racing. Being this close to her made me forget about everything. The only thing that I could focus my attention on was her.
Without noticing, I slowly start to lean in, getting closer to her. I didn't know if it was in my head or if it was actually happening, but I noticed her leaning in as well.
My heart started to race even more the more I leaned in. My eyes quickly take a glance at her lips and then back at her eyes.
There was only a few inches of space between us before our lips would touch. I was about to close the gap between us until I finally came back to reality.
I stopped and just looked at the girl in front of me and thankfully, she had her eyes closed. I took a good look at her and I started to feel selfish for wanting to act on my own desires.
I didn't want to potentially ruin the relationship that we have going on. For the first time in a long time I was feeling scared. Scared of possibly losing her.
After getting back into my right mind, I softly place a kiss on her forehead.
She soon opens her eyes and smiles at me with that beautiful smile of hers. I couldn't help, but smile back as well.
I don't mind if she only keeps me as a friend for the rest of her life, just as long as I have her by my side and she allows me to be by hers.
A/N
Thank you all so much for the continued support of this book and all your beautiful and funny comments 🥰👀
I'd like to announce a new book that I've been writing for a while now! 🥳
The title of this book will be "The Liars Song." It will be another BTS ff but this time it will be about....
YOONGI!! 👀💜🐱
This book will be completely different from Stay With Me and will have much of a darker and mature vibe. This will take place in a university setting where both the leads are either majoring or minoring in music.
Yoongi, dealing with depression and a piano major, will soon learn what it's like to trust someone and not be afraid to show his true emotions.
Mija, a psychology major and music minor, hides a very dark past that she has never dared to tell anyone.
I'll give more details later on, but here's a little snippet of the first chapter!
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As I open my eyes, I immediately shoot up from my bed and sit up hyperventilating . I try calming myself down since I was shaking and take some deep breaths to get my breathing back to normal. After assuring myself that I've calmed down, I noticed that I was sweating. Wiping the sweat off me, once I reach my face, I notice that my cheeks are wet.
I was crying.
I bring my knees up to my chest and tightly hug myself. Taking a deep sigh, I close my eyes and place my forehead on my knees.
"Not again..."
After being in this position for a few minutes, my alarm finally goes off indicating that it was finally time to start my day.
After finishing getting ready, I take a look in the mirror. I had a huge frown on my face that I was used to only seeing when I was alone. I hated looking at myself in the mirror because it reminded me of my past and the hell that I've been through.
My whole entire face just showed pure sadness and the more I looked at myself, the more I wanted to break down into tears from how disgusted I was.
Looking at myself very carefully, I suddenly put on a smile that I've been forcing on myself for the past years. This smile was what everyone at school was soon going to know me for. A smile so warm that comforts many people, but that hides all my secrets and lies.
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I hope you guys enjoyed this little preview and found interest in this book. 🙂 I will be posting this book VERY SOON so please be on the look out and hope you guys give it lots of love like you have with Stay With Me.
- Ash