Seungmin seemed to have gotten an attachment to my white beanie. The way his eyes sparkled when he saw his reflection for the first time wearing it made it clear.
He looked absolutely adorable. I couldn't help smiling at the innocent giggles such a small thing was producing from him. It made my heart warm.
"You can keep it. It looks better on you."
I let him wear the beanie all day and when he tried to return it before departing, it just didn't feel right to take it away from him.
"Ah no, Minho hyung! I can't do that. It's yours after all."
"It's fine. I'm loving to see it on you." I softly said as I ruffled his hair before putting the beanie on him again.
Seungmin blushed and quickly nodded his head. We then bid goodbyes for the day and headed towards our home.
While on my way back, I couldn't take Seungmin's adorable giggles out of my head. Smiles were prominent on my face.
This feeling wasn't foreign to me. If anything it was way familiar than any other feeling. After all, it hadn't been long since I last felt this sort of warm feeling for someone.
The feeling of falling.
The feeling I thought I had forbidden myself to feel.
But maybe. Maybe I could start all over again?
Third person's POV
It had been two months since Minho and Seungmin crossed paths. Slowly the time Minho dreaded the most had come around.
The time to say goodbye.
It was the last day of winter vacation, meaning the last day of their special classes. Minho came in earlier hoping to spot the blob of blond hair sitting in one of the sits.
Minho sneakily went behind the blond boy and leaned towards his ears,
"Missed me, baby?"
Seungmin was startled by the low voice Minho used to whisper in his ear. He flinched but soon relaxed and broke into a wide smile seeing Minho giggle beside him.
"Hyung, don't scare me like that!" Seungmin softly said as the older took a sit beside him.
Minho noticed immediately how Seungmin wasn't in his usual bubbly self, rather it looked like all the strength the younger male held had been drenched by something.
Eye bags were visible under his tired eyes. It was the first time Minho saw Seungmin like that.
"Hey Seungmo, are you alright?" Minho carefully asked in a soft voice.
Seungmin looked up from his book to meet Minho's eyes. As soon as he saw the older's comforting gaze, a soft sigh left his mouth. "I'm okay."
"Don't lie to me, Seungmin. I can clearly see you're not okay. You know you can tell me anything right? It's fine if you're not comfortable though."
"No.. it's just.. I'm not doing very well. You see I have some mental health issues and it has been working up lately. I'll be going to my psychiatrist today after class to see if they can help."
Seungmin sighed again as he explained his situation. Minho was kinda taken aback. He never thought Seungmin was going through so much and what amazed him more was how he could talk about his mental health so easily.
He could never open up that easily to anyone. Nevertheless, he slowly approached Seungmin's right hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze implying he could continue.
"Hyung I feel so messed up.."
Minho listened to Seungmin's worries till the teacher came and started the class. He tried his best to comfort the younger but mostly he just listened attentively.
He knew too well how in times like these, an attentive listener is what you need the most, not some primitive advices.
He also kept holding the younger's hand, giving Seungmin a sense of reassurance that the older was there with him and he was gonna be alright.
Sometimes little gestures and comforting smiles work better than any words spoken.
"So... is this the last time I'm seeing you?" Minho was smiling sadly as him and his little crush made their way out of the class that just ended.
Sadly, they couldn't meet thrice every week in a scheduled manner anymore.
"We can always hang out hyung." Seungmin tried to cheer him up noticing the sadness in the older male's voice.
"We can't. I'm not supposed to hang out with friends outside campus according to my parents." Minho sighed taking a sit on one of the stairs that lead to the rooftop.
"Wait what- that's messed up."
"I know right."
Minho patted the concrete floor beside him, gesturing for the other to take a sit as well. "Minho hyung, don't worry. We're gonna stay connected through texts anyways."
"Yeah"
They stayed there for a while catching up on life. None of them brought up the topic of saying goodbye after that but the heavy feeling of gloominess was prominent in the air and both of them felt it too well.
"Seungmo... I wanna hear you sing."
Minho mumbled his words, close to a whisper. The little bond between the two boys had been building for a while and all this time Minho was very curious about Seungmin's singing voice.
Music had always been a special attraction to him and anyone he connected through the strings of music would forever have a special place in his heart.
Seungmin on the other hand had been waiting for this chance. He had always wanted to sing for the older.
It was indeed his own special way of showing his feelings for the male who had been making him so happy.
"Sure.."
Minho leaned his head on the wall of the staircase as he interlocked his fingers with Seungmin's, waiting for the younger to start.
Seungmin flashed a small smile at the cute gesture. It felt nice to be in each other's touch.
"Can I call you baby
Will you be my friend
Will you be my lover up until the very end
Let me show you love
Oh I don't pretend
Stay by my side even when the world is giving in...."
Seungmin's angelic voice echoed throughout the staircase. As he continued to sing more Minho closed his eyes trying to feel every word of the song being sang beside him.
Seungmin definitely had one of the best voices he had ever heard.
"I need somebody who can love me at my worst
No I'm not perfect but I hope you see my worth
Since only you nobody new
I put you first
If it's you girl I swear I'd do the worst"
Someone who could love me at my worst huh..
Minho's mind wandered about. With each verse of the song he could feel his heart clenching and a rush of sad feelings flowing through him.
In his head, what appeared was a picture of a high school student panicking in the corner of the halls, eyes lost and scared, looking at him as though he came in as his knight in shining armour. And that smile.. the oh so beautiful gummy smile.
Minho's thoughts got interrupted as Seungmin finished the song and lightly squeezed the older's hand to see if he had fallen asleep or not.
Minho looked up to meet Seungmin's smiling face fondly looking at him.
Wh-why did he appear in my head again... I thought I had gotten over. No! I have gotten over that.
"Minho hyung?"
Minho blinked a few times to stabilize himself mentally and finally smiled at the boy beside him. "You sing really well, Seungmo. I felt touched." He genuinely complimented the younger.
Seungmin's smile grew wider.
Why is it so hard to understand myself?
A/N
The italic lines are thoughts of Minho.
Hope you enjoyed this chapter <3