bambi
baby
yes?
where are you? it's so early
out getting breakfast
keep your pretty ass in bed
you think my ass is pretty?🥺
don't call me
don't come by my house
we're done
fine
my pretty ass is getting out of bed
fuck you
no kisses for you then
no kissy wissies?
😐
no I sowwy
BILLIE I SWEAR TO FUCK
can I call you daddy?
you can call me whatever you want
as long as you stop talking like THAT
HAHA
bet
I'll be back soon, talk to me like
this again and I'll post this on twitter
they'll come running
you wouldn't
I wouldn't?
you know what
I'm breaking up with you
when you're single and
she still breaks up with you😍
why did you bring a vibrator?
BILLIE GET OUT OF MY SUITCASE
a dildo too?
you're a freak huh?
ok I'm never coming back
HAHAAAAA
you think they're freaky?
bestie do I have some news for you
ok I'm down for anything but
please don't tell me you have a piss
kink or some shit
billie I can, hand on heart, promise you
that I do not have a piss kink
thank FUCK
but don't hate on piss kinks
I'm NOT
I just don't wanna get pissed on
I'm not gonna piss on you Jesus
you can sit on me though
my face
billie
baby
we both know who's the bottom here
I am NOT a bottom
you're definitely a submissive
doesn't mean I'm a bottom!
whatever you say
anyways
where are you
the bed is cold and I'm hungry
I'm almost here
be patient
I don't wanna be patient
I wanna be eating my girl
WITH
EATING WITH
FUCK
HAHAHAAAAA
I walk back to our room after leaving to get some breakfast, texting Louis to see if they wanted any but apparently they've eaten.
probably each other. ew.
using the card I open the door and walk in, seeing billie laid on her side away from me, her ass in full view.
it is a pretty ass.
"good morning bil" I smile and hand her some fruit juice, taking her smoothie bowl out the bag. we've been sat breakfasts so I thought I'd get us some actual good good.
"fuck this looks so good, thank you baby"
"you're welcome" I slide my sweatpants off so I'm just in my long shirt and sit beside her on the bed, eating the smoothie bowl.
my phone pings and I pick it up, furrowing my brows when I see it's Katie.
we've been friends since we were four and although we don't talk often, she's one of the only friends I have left in the uk.
Katie
hi, are you free to talk?
always, what's up?
I have something to tell you
but before I do, I just wanna say
thank you for being my best friend
through everything and uh
yeah I love you and i'll
understand if you decide you don't
wanna be friends with me
you're scaring me
yeah uh I'm scared too
I'm just gonna spit it out
take your time
I've always felt weird? like uncomfortable
in my own skin.
I've been doing a lot of thinking
and I'm not happy with my identity.
so yeah, I'm non binary
I feel comfortable with
they/them pronouns
do you have a preferred name?
kai
I support and love you Kai. I am so
proud of you and thank you
for telling me but also fuck you
for thinking i wouldn't support my best
friend
thank you so much gabby, I told
my sister last night and she cried
and we had a long talk because I've
just never felt comfortable with
my old name and pronouns.
she's been my rock.
I'm so fucking happy for you
I can't even explain it, I'm going to
try my hardest to use the right
pronouns/name but just know it might take
a while to getting used to
I get that, and it's okay love,
thank you from the bottom of my
heart. thank you for supporting me
how's america been treating you?
it's been good!
I've met someone actually
OH MY GOD
FINALLY!!
HAVE YOU FUCKED YET??
no lmao still a fat virgin
we're taking it slowly
but yeah she's amazing
you care about other people too much
I'm so glad you're happy.
we have a lot to catch
up on, FaceTime soon?
of course! just lemme know :)
it's still super early in the morning so billie has time to eat and get ready before her radio interview. I know she's tired but I'd rather made sure she had some breakfast.
"are you okay?" I realise a test has fallen down my cheek and billie looks concerned. "yeah, my best friend has just come out as non binary to me and I'm just so proud of them"
"I'm happy for them, are they from the uk?"
"yeah I've been best friends with Katie, sorry, kai since we were like four, we don't talk all the time but we're still close"
"do they know you're angel?"
"no, I'm thinking of going home the second week we have off and seeing my dad and stuff"
"good idea, you'll probably want a break away from me anyways"
"hell fucking yes annoying ass" I roll my eyes with a grin "I do uh, want to take you back to my house one day though, show you around where I used to live and stuff" I shrug and look down sheepishly, fiddling with the string on my shorts.
"I'd love that" billie stands up and grabs her clothes from her suitcase. "I'm gonna have to go soon but we'll be on the same bus so you can go to the bed in the back and take a nap while I get back or whatever"
billie literally strips down to her underwear in-front of me and I'm still in shock from last night.
"what are you gonna do about harry?" I flop back onto the bed and stare at the ceiling, avoiding looking at billies perfect body. "uh, ignore him for a couple of days or something, I'll be less angry then"
"this bus ride is gonna be so fun"
"hell yes, we have a bed to ourselves, I'm planning on cuddling the fuck outta you"
"just cuddle?"
"well I would repeat last night but you literally can't turn around in the shower, it's small as fuck"
"oh so you don't wanna kiss me?" I sit up and billie turns around, tying her hair into space buns. "I wanna kiss you all the fucking time, what you mean?"
"oh nothing" I drop back onto the bed with a dramatic sign and billie climbs up ontop of me, half of her hair still not done. "billie you need to finish getting ready"
"one kiss"
"it's never one kiss with you" I roll my eyes, pulling her down to capture her lips with mine anyways.
-
sitting on the tour bus without billie is horrible. it's too long before she gets back and Louis and Harry are out somewhere, getting food before we have to set off.
we're gonna be on the road for almost two days and I'm not fucking excited whatsoever.
might just sleep the whole time.
so far I've ripped off what I had left of my butterfly nails I got for my birthday, plaited my hair five different times and left it in a messy bun, scrolled through all of my socials, spoke to my dad, even went through my emails.
I am so bored.
there are a ton of productive things I could be doing but do people really get practical shit done when they're bored? no.
I've made six new playlists and a few Pinterest boards, one dedicated to baby clothes for the baby I'm probably never gonna have.
I've even bought more shoes online which are getting shipped to my apartment in New York.
I've got a shit ton of mail to open when I get home that's for sure.
I also may or may not have bought some lingerie......anyways
I decide to go into the back bedroom and retrieve my laptop, sitting in the back on the bed and waiting for billie.
an hour later I hear voices of people and the familiar laugh of my favourite person in the world.
"angel!" I stand up and walk through to the front of the bus where finneas, claudia and billie are walking in.
"hi"
"listen to this" finneas pulled out his phone, and played a recording of billie singing some lyrics, something they must've come up with while they were out. "I have the chords too but my guitar is here so we couldn't record it"
"we'll record it later, I wanna be out the way before harry gets here" billie grabs my arm and pulls me up, out of the room and down the narrow walkway until we get to the bedroom in the back, closing and locking the door behind me.
"does your brother know about harry?"
"yeah" billie pulls her hoodie off and rolls her shoulders, tightening the elastic holding half of her hair up in place.
"you're so beautiful" I breathe, staring at billie. she spins around with a grin "I know I am, but do you know who's prettier?" billie walks towards me and stands in-between my legs, wrapping her arms around my neck. "I don't think theres as anyone as beautiful as you" billie shakes her head and bites her lip, leaning closer. "you're wrong, I mean theres this girl I'm obsessed with, she's the most beautiful girl i've ever seen, both inside and out, but do you wanna know something funny?"
"what?" I ask quietly, grinning back at her.
"'I've really wanted to ask her to be my girlfriend but I'm and pussy and I'm scared she'll say no"
"oh really? maybe you should, she might surprise you"
"hmm" billie looks away for a moment and I'm screaming inside. "Gabrielle Anne Winters, will you be my girlfriend?" billie looks back at me and I bite my lip, looking down at my lap. "no" I look back up at her and see her expression go from a bright smile to the neutral look.
"i'm kidding you idiot, of course I'll be your girlfriend" billie slaps my arm "I hate you" she murmurs, bending down to press her lips with mine, pushing my shoulders back onto the bed and climbing onto of me.
she pulls away, grinning at me, a string of saliva still connecting our lips. "I'm the luckiest girl in the world" she whispers, looking into my eyes.
"I'm luckier"
"not possible" she leans back down to reconnect our lips, slipping her tongue into my mouth.
this time I push on her shoulders, getting on top this time, making sure to keep my weight on my knees and not sit directly on her. I disconnect our lips but I don't pull away, pressing open mouth kisses along her jaw and down her neck.
billie mutters a 'fuck' and moves her head to the side to give me more access to her neck. I don't really know what I'm doing but I kiss around until she inhales sharply and I focus on that point, sucking and nipping until she moans softly.
music to my ears.
billie grasps onto my ass and pushes me down, another hand threading into my hair. and I pull away from her neck, look down at her with her mouth open slightly and eyes closed.
she's so beautiful.
"fuck, kiss me again" billie breathes, her eyes still closed, turning her head back to face me. I kiss her once more, slightly rolling my hips without even thinking about it, more turned on then I ever have been.
our moment doesn't last long when someone knocks on the door, interrupting our heavy make out session. "what?"
"uh, can we talk?" I recognise it's Harrys voice and I climb off billie and wipe my lips, brushing my hair back down.
"one sec"
billie pulls on her hoodie and mouths a 'sorry', opening the door.i smile at harry as he enters the room and slip out, walking to the toilet and leaning against the back of the door, closing my eyes.
billie fucking eilish is my girlfriend.
my girlfriend.
hi. please vote and comment, it means a lot to me.
kai is a new character I'm introducing, they're gonna be good. (I've never had a character go by the pronouns they/them and I thought they'd be a good edition to the story!) you are loves, supported and welcomed here.
thank you for being patient. I'll try and update soon < 3