Seven o'clock couldn't come quick enough. I just wanted to know what was going on. As much as Levi has hurt me with all the lies, I just wanted to know the truth.
I want to know if we can ever be together again. I miss him. It may have only been a few days, but being almost inseparable for so long has made this...break up unbearable and I can no longer deny that I just want to believe him. That I just want him back in my arms, and for him to hold me again.
I had headed home straight from work, cleaned myself up and actually made a bit more of an effort for the evening. I wore a pair of black skinny jeans and an oversized black t-shirt with white embellishments all over. My hair had been growing out a lot recently and it was almost shoulder length now so I had tied it back, half up, half down and left a few stray strands of hair to fall down into my face, they made me look more sophisticated, or so I thought. My dutiful converses were also on my feet and I was almost ready to go.
I picked up my phone and wallet and grabbed the first jacket I could find from the coat hook. "Hey, Eren! Where are you going? It's 6 o clock, I'm about to make dinner!" Mikasa said from the couch.
"Uhh..." Do I tell her the truth? "I'm going to meet up with Levi. We're going to talk things through." Again.
"Really, Eren? Is that a good idea?" I sigh and look up at the ceiling.
"Look, Kas. I know you love me and you're just trying to look out for me or whatever, but, I need to do this." I look over at her, putting my hands in my jacket pockets and shrugging. "I need to know where I stand. Where we stand."
"Alright. Well...just call me if you need anything." She says with a sigh.
"Thank you, Kas." I run over to her and peck her on the cheek. "Love you. Oh, and don't wait up! I don't know how long I'm going to be."
"Whatever, love you too." She rolls her eyes and continues to watch the TV.
Well that was easier than I expected. I was totally expecting a full on screaming match with her.
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Now that I'm standing outside his apartment building, the excitement and eagerness to find out has left me and all I can think about is how anxious I am.
What if it was all a big ploy to fuck me over? What if they're in there now fucking eachothers brains out and I walk in on them like the idiot I am? What if everything he said to me today was all just another lie?
I suck back the tears and take a deep breath. Just do it Eren. Just bite the bullet. There's nothing else for you to lose. Nodding to myself I shake my arms loose and roll my neck like I'm prepping for a fight. "Alright. You got this, Eren. You can do it. Just go in there, and take back your man."
I stand stock still. "Wait? Take him back?" I furrow my brows and retrace my thoughts. "Is that what's happening? Shit."
I shake my head at myself again and take another moment to psyche myself up before looking up at the big imposing doors in front of me.
I burly old woman is standing a few steps away from me, raising an eyebrow and looking very concerned. "Are you alright there, young man?" She asks.
I give her a sheepish smile. "Yeah, I'm good. I'm gonna go get my man back." I give her the biggest smile I can muster that she quickly returns and I push myself into the building.
I step up to his front door and knock it. Even though I still have a key to get in, I don't think it's appropriate to use it; especially in our current predicament.
A few moments later, the door opens and Levi is standing there in a fresh polo shirt and khakis, and instantly my breath is taken away by how drop dead gorgeous he is. He gives me a small smile. "Eren, I'm glad you came. You look good."
"Hey, uh, yeah. Me too, and yeah, you look pretty good too." I reply nervously and run a hand through my already messy hair and tug on one of the stray strands.
"Come in, do you still have that key I gave you?" He asks, stepping to the side.
"Oh, uh, yeah. No I still have it. I just wasn't sure, where we stand..." I trail off and he nods his head in reply. I follow him through these well known to me corridors and he takes me towards the lounge.
Memories of us sitting here, all happy and doting toward each other swarm me and I have to look away from Levi before I jump into his arms.
As we step into the room, I notice Eld is sitting in one corner of the sofa and the TV is on in the background as he scrolls through his phone. One of his legs is folded over his knee and he uses one of his hands to hold his ankle in place.
He looks up as he notices us so quickly locks his phone and puts it down whilst also muting the TV. "Oh hey. You're right on time." He says as he gives me a smile.
I look away from him and nod my head as way of greeting. I can't bring myself to talk to him yet. "Right. So, where shall we begin?" He asks, his French accent now standing out. Levi stays standing to the side, leaning his body against the wall.
"From the start. I need to know everything." I reply solemly as I take a seat on the edge of the chair.
He recounts every encounter they've made, reiterating everything Levi told me. Some bits in more detail, others not so much but generally, the story is the same. They haven't physically or emotionally been together since before Levi and I began seeing eachother and Levi had just been his friend, helping him with his failing marriage.
"Like I said, Levi told me that you two were an item on Monday after you left. Which made me feel awful for everything that happened in there. If I had known I'd have never done that." I quickly look over at Levi and he's looking down at the floor, fidgeting with his fingers. Eld leans forward in his seat, addressing me again. "I hope you will forgive me."
I train my eyes on the floor and nod my head, taking it all in, my knee is shaking with how nervous I am. "So...you were telling me the truth then? Today, I mean, does that mean there's no more lies?" I direct my question at Levi, looking up at him.
He pushes himself off of the wall and approaches me. He kneels down in front of me and touches my face with his fingers, his other hand holding mine. "I promise you, everything I told you today was the truth. There is nothing else that you need to know. No more lies. I swear."
I take in a shakey breath. "Okay."
"Uh, I'm just gonna go..." I hear Eld say but I'm too busy staring into Levi's slate grey eyes to care.
I give him a small smile. "I've missed you, Levi."
He raises his eyebrows and they furrow in happiness almost instantly. "I've missed you too, Eren." The hand that was touching my cheek is now fully enveloping my face as I lean into it. "Do you forgive me?"
"Yes Levi, I forgive you." With that I push off of the sofa and practically jump into his arms.
He stumbles slightly but quickly rights himself with a chuckle and wraps his arms around me. "Thank God. I thought I'd never be able to hold you again."
"I'm so sorry for everything. I should've trusted you." I say, not being able to hold back the tears.
"Hush, baby, no. You had every right to not believe me, I'd have been the same if it was the other way around." He pushes me away from him slightly so that he can see my face and look into my eyes.
"I love you, Eren. And nothing and no one will ever change that, do you know that?"
I bite my lip, the tears still flowing and I nod my head earnestly. "I love you too, Levi. More than you know." I gasp out before pulling him back into me tightly and not letting him go.
*A/N - I hope this was a good enough reconciliation chapter for you, because next chapter will not disappoint I promise.
This is going to be the penultimate chapter for this book. I'm sorry, but I have some exciting news for you all that I will be releasing at the end of the final chapter. So please don't be upset any more. I promise you'll love me!
So, I've been going over the demographics of this and over 50% if you are from the USA and there's actually quite a wide range of ages reading. That's crazy!
Also, I am going to be backing this book up (as I'm an idiot and haven't done that yet) just in case it gets taken down. I don't really know where I'll put it if it does, but I'll let you guys know.*