Tw possible triggering topics I think
Nikkis POV 2 hours later at 5
Ok I've calmed down a little. I've put bandaids on my cuts and a big hoodie on with sweats. I have to give buggy a bath today. And I only have one hand to work and clean her because I can't wet my splint.
Shit
Moods still a little down. Well really down I'm actually really really not feeling good. It's not like I'm sick it's like I just don't feel. Like I feel numb you know
Maybe I'll go live because I haven't in a while. I wash buggy in the kitchen sink by the way. I got everything ready there already. I grab my phone and press the live button on Instagram
Live 64k 👁🔴
"Hi guys. It's been a while like actually a while. If you were wondering which you probably aren't wondering but I've been busy with a lot. So I've been doing a lot of work like photo shoots and Interviews also school. I fucking hate school. Right now I'm almost done 10th grade. I do school in my free time. I just went to Tommy's yesterday which is the studio and like I made music. I haven't been in the studio because like I lost my voice. All I can say is that I'm working on something" I say
User- WE LOVE YOU NIKKI
user- hii
User- can you say hi Hannah
"Ok but today I'm gonna be giving my dog buggy a bath because she smells like shit. Isn't that right buggy. You smell disgusting" I say petting buggy
"Ok but the catch is that I can't use my left hand because I can't get my splint wet. And yes I do still wash my hands I'm not gross. So I'm gonna give buggy a bath. Ok to be honest I've never given her a bath alone there's always someone here to help me." I admit
User- oh this is gonna be fun
User- oh Nicole
User- lets goo
"Ok so like you can ask questions and I'll answer them ok" I say putting buggy in the sink and starting the water and spraying it on buggy and she starts freaking out
"Aye bitch calm your doggie ass down" I say to buggy because she's splashing me with water
User- did you just call your dog a bit-
User- dog abuse
"If you didn't know bitch is another word for female dog. And I dont abuse my dog what the hell. I love my dog more then anyone else. Well besides my family" I say
I just finished washing buggy and she's clean clean I just need to dry her off
"Doggie you look like a little rat. When I washed buggy with charli, charli always calls buggy a rat. Now I just need to dry her off and I actually did it I cleaned her with one hand" I say picking her up and putting her on the counter and starting to blow dry her
After a while I then sat on the counter with my ukulele
Dixiedamelio- NIKKI NIKKI HIII
"Dixie damelio get off of this fucking live before I beat your ass. I'm pissed off at you like dead ass. Like fuck off dixie" I say while looking through my old notebooks from when I was younger
Dixiedamelio- please I'm sorry what can I do for you to forgive me please
"No so like I'm mad at both you and your boyfriend. I want a written out apology like on paper so I have documents of it and yeah that's basically it" I say
Dixiedamelio- Okok got it
"Ooo guys look it's my first full song I ever wrote. When I was younger I think. Want me to sing it for you" I say
User- YESS
user- DO IT PLEASE
user- YES YES YES
"Ok ok I will." I say pulling up the lyrics in my journal
I take a deep breath and start singing
(Song called "8" by Billie eilish)
"Wait a minute, let me finish
I know you don't care
But can you listen?
I came committed, guess I overdid it
Wore my heart out on a chain
Around my neck, but now it's missing, hmm
Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
So I think I better go
I never really know how to please you
You're lookin' at me like I'm see-through
I guess I'm gonna go
I just never know how you feel
Do you even feel anything?
Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
You said, "Don't treat me badly"
But you said it so sadly
So I did the best I could
Not thinking you would have left me gladly
I know you're not sorry
Why should you be?
'Cause who am I to be in love
When your love never is for me?
Me
Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
So I think I better go
I never really know how to please you
You're lookin' at me like I'm see-through
I guess I'm gonna go
I just never know how you feel
Do you even feel anything?"
After I finish singing I question it. Hmm
"So heha that was my first song ever and I actually really really like it" I say
User- the talent-
User- PUBLISH IT
user- are you coming out with all I want
" no I'm not" I say
"Well guys I'm gonna get off live now because I'm tired and I'm gonna do some school before I fall asleep so bye guys" I wave before ending the live
I do some school before falling back asleep
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Ok bad chapter ikik. I had a rough time sleeping last night so yeah fun for me yeah
Anyways since some of you guys are saying there's to much drama and they should just be together already and be happy well you'll see them fucking happy soon
I'm doing a time skip so yeah haha sorry if it's shitty you guys wanted it
Have a good day guyssss
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