Smoke // castano

𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟯𝟭.

"i need to buy some new cologne" he said grabbing my hand and walking into another store

"didn't you just buy a new one?" i asked

"i mean yeah, but you can never but enough"

we went into a few more stores after and bought some clothing and jewelry. i didn't want to spend all of the money because i felt bad. but part of me was thinking that he gives me the money to cover up something that he's doing. i don't know, maybe i'm just overthinking.

me and ale decided to go eat at the food court since we were getting hungry;

"i know this is suppose to be a no boyfriend thing BUTTT tell me about him" he smirked laughing

"uhm he's a really nice guy, actually, i feel like i can open up to him about anything really" i smiled

i could always talk to ale about anything, he always understood but he never tried to tell me what to do with my life.

"do you think he's anything like vinnie?" he asked

"yes. i think there a lot a like he just chooses not to realize it" i admitted "there both controlling and overly protective"

i never actually admitted to myself how much they were alike. they both were rounded the same way. just vinnie accepts who he is and embraces it.

"BUT enough of boys, let's go ride the carousel" i said after a few minutes

"OUUUU BET i'm coming" he yelled as we both ran over to the carousel

we choose the spinny cup so we could sit next to each other;

"i really missed this y/n, you made life better, but than you just disappeared" he frowned

"but i'm back now, so no need to talk about that" i forced a smile

"and i couldn't be happier that you are" he hugged me

it wasn't just any hug. a hug like this reminds me of when everything was perfect. he hugged me like this on our first date. he hugged me like this at prom. he hugged me like this after we rode the biggest ride at the fair. it was the type of hugs someone gives you when the genially are happy to be with you. not just one were there meaningless, you could tell how much that person wanted to be around you.

i die for these types of moments. they make me feel so special that i decide to stay. i stay in the world for theese types of moments.

"im happy I'm here too" i said hugging him back right before the ride started

"shit, im gonna be so dizzy" he groaned

"you're gonna be fine" i laughed, memorizing the moment

as the carousel started it's rotations, the world went slower and slower in motion. there was nothing wrong in the moment; here with one of my best friends, no boy drama, no worries, just happiness.

'WOOOOOOOOOO" ale screamed throwing his hands in the air

"it's not even going that fast dumbo" i laughed hitting his chest

"owww that shit hurt" he whined

we kept laughing as the simple kid ride brought us so much joy. i think mainly it was the memories coming back that made us so much happier. but maybe, just maybe, the smiles came from new memories that were currently making.

"THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN" he screamed as we got off

"chill" i laughed

"IT WAS THOUGH, I SHOUDLV'E TAKEN VIDEOS" he pouted

"yeah yeah your an idiot we get it" i laughed

"well this IdIoT wants cinnabon"

we walked over to cinnabon and we both ordered the same thing;

"i forgot how good this stuff was" i said taking another bite

"for real though, ima throw up" he laughed putting icing on my nose

"you mhm" i laughed putting some on his nose

"look over there, they look like fans, should we go take a picture with them?" he asked

"naw, let them come over don't frighten them" i replied

"i really had fun today y/n, i miss us i mean this" he chuckled

"yeah me to" i gently smiled

something felt weird, well not weird just off kinda. we were just staring into each others eyes. i could fell him move closer as his breath got warmer. the next thing i know,

his lips are on mine. i didn't know how to react so i just sat there. i think he was waiting for me to kiss back but i didn't. eventually he put his hand on the side of my face. i know what he's trying to do, unlock the feelings i once had.

"ale-" i started but he cut me off

"no no that was my fault, im so sorry" he backed away

"trust me i did like it but mariano, i really like him" i gave a sympathetic smile

"oh yeah mar, of course" he weakly smiled and stood up "we should get going, don't want your boyfriend to be worried"

i just fucked up another friendship, didn't i?

"wait ale?" i said before he walked away "i think those people are live"

"i know that dress is karma, perfume regret"

"you got me thinking bout when you were
mine oh, and now i'm all up on ya, what you
expect?"

"you just want attention, you don't want my
heart, maybe you just hate the thought of me
with someone new"

𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻: 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗽𝘂𝘁𝗵