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𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟬𝟮𝟬.

𝗽𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟬𝟮𝟬: 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿
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𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 𝘀𝗼𝗻𝗴
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"dont raise your fucking voice at me"

"sorry- yeah sorry my bad"

i sat back down on the bed and pulled the coverers over me. i felt tears wanting to come down, but i didn't let them.

"no, i'm sorry" i felt him rub my back "can you just block him please"

he handed me the phone and i texted vinnie;

"dont come over, i have someone here already"

and than i blocked him. i handed the phone back to mariano;

"thank you" he smiled weakly

"mhm" i smiled trembling

"look, i'm really sorry y/n, i'm not trying to be controlling or anything. i just didn't like that he was texting you" he reassured me, but i was still scared

he reached forward to hold my hand but i flinched back;

"no no no" he said weakly, like he was about to cry "i'm sorry, i would never hurt you"

"i know i know, just trauma" i said getting vivid flash backs

"can you tell me what happened so im more careful? i don't wanna trigger anything"

~⚠️ 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗲, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝗲𝘅𝘂𝗮𝗹 𝗮𝘀𝘀𝘂𝗮𝗹𝘁. 𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗼𝗻𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝘀𝗼 𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗲𝗱. 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 ⚠️~

"o uhm, i.. it's okay. i know you won't hurt me" i started shaking

"y/n.. tell me please" he put his hand in mine

"uhm so my mom had me when she was 16 and my dad was 19. everything went really well until i turned about four. so my dad at the time was 23 and he started to act really weird, he wouldn't hang out with my mom as much but he would try to get closer to me. he never actually raped me but he touched me like really weird, and when i was younger i never understood what was happening but i knew i didn't like it. this went on untill i was about six almost seven, and all i remember is one day he just wasn't home, he had packed all his things and left"

i had started crying but it felt good to get it out;

"so he uhm never came back and it was really hard for my mom, she started working extra jobs so she was never really home. but fast-forward to high school i started becoming more independent. that's when i met mattia and the boys and cynthia and katie and they really helped too. and troy and jora but now i hate them because of vinnie. but i met vinnie a little later that year and we started hanging out. one thing led to the next and a year and a half later we bought a house together."

i looked over at my dresser and saw the house keys hanging, brining back memories;

"that's when he started to become more violent tpwards me i guess. at first i didn't think much of it cause he started working topay off the house so i thought he was just stressed. but as another year went by i couldn't take it anymore so i left. and than i met you"

i smiled at him with tears in my eyes;

~⚠️𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿: 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲, 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝗮𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗲, 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗶𝘁. 𝗻𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗴𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝗮𝗳𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗿 𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆~⚠️

"so when did mattia and you get so close if you started dating vinnie early?" he asked me

"uhm when i first came we would hang out alot and because we were close friends when i was with vinnie he would help me through alot of things. like everytime me and vinnie would fight he would comfort me" i smiled

"did anything ever happen happen between you guys" he gave me THAT look

i debated with myself if i should actually tell him;

"uhm, alejandros first house party actually. one thing led to the next and uhm yeah. we weren't drunk or high, it was completely my choice" i explained for the first time, i never actually told anybody

"you lost your virginity to MATTIA POLIBIO?" he asked shocked 

"uhm yeah" i rubbed my neck

"would you take it back if you could?" he asked lying back in bed

"no, i wouldn't" i said confidently laying my head on his chest

"what about alejandro and kairi? anything happen with them?"

"uhm ale and me have always been closer i guess, i would stay at his house alot and i'm really close with his mom. we kissed a few times but nothing else. and than kairi uhm that's the defintion of "she gave me top at the red light" haha, but nothing else" i gasped, i really was a hoe

"oh my.. well now your all mines" he kissed me forhead

"i really thought we had it, but at the time was
more than i could manage so, if we could leave it
all behind us"

"i wanna be high all the time, would you come
with me?"

"i wish i never told you, but i had to let you
know"

"used to stick together, your my best
friend, i'll love you forever"

𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗺𝗲 𝘀𝗼 𝗵𝗶𝗴𝗵: 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝗶𝗴𝗵𝗯𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗱