Her Diary

Bestfriends

A/N:

Hello sa mga nagbabasa nito..kung meron man. The next chapters will never be a diary type. This time, like another story, is makikilala nyo na ng lubusan ang bawat character. This is a pure imagination. Characters were living in my imagination only. Wala po akong pinaggayahan nang mga ito. Thanks. Enjoy Reading!
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Raid's POV

Inasahan ko na ang hindi pagsipot ni babe kanina nung narinig ko yung balita na wala na si Shen at Tristan. Ganun pa man, hinintay ko pa din sya at umasang kahit papano.. ako naman ang pipiliin ni Yam. Pero, mali ako. Biguan akong umuwi dito sa bahay and yeah.. binabasa ko ang entry nya. Gusto kong malaman kung bakit.. bakit di nya ko nagawang mahalin man lang. Sa mga nagtataka pano ko nababasa ang entry nya, well, its because my sister have an account on this so-called Wattpad at minsan syang nanghiram ng phone ko. And I found out that Yam is writing a story-- a real-life story. Siguro, wala lang talaga syang mapagsabihan kaya nya nagawa to. I opened my phone and sad to say pero wala ni isang message galing sa girlfriend ko.

Hays. Let's read Her Diary na nga lang.. for sure she will update.

Bawat salitang nababasa ko ay parang patalim na tumutusok sakin.

I don't deserve him because he deserve someone better.. someone who is bettet than me. Someone that can love him truly. Someone that will say 'iloveyoutoo' instead of saying 'ilikeyou.' A girl that never needed him to forget the one she loved, but a woman who needed him because she loves him.

The f*ck!? Who the hell sayin' that she doesn't deserve me?

I smile again and that 's because of Raid but still, I can't love him.

Woah. Yeah. She can't still love me. At least I made her smile. I guess, that's enough for me-- to see her smile.

Sorry. Sorry babe. I'm sorry Raid. I don't deserve you. I hope one day you found someone who deserves you. Please. Please stop reading my diary after this entry. I know that you've been reading this. Stop. I don't want you read this and be hurt all over again. So, please stop. I'm sorry. And, thank you. Thank you for loving me and being my diary and bestfriend at the same time. Let your love for me fade away.

Let my love for her fade away? Huh. So, I guess she's breaking up with me?

"*tok tok tok* Tol, si Tristan to."

Tristan? The reason why Yam can't loved me back. Pinatay ko na yung cp tyaka sya sinagot.

"Pasok, pre."

Tristan's POV

Pumasok na 'ko dala-dala ang mga alak na iinumin namin. Gusto kong makalimot, kaya sya ang pinuntahan ko. I wanted to be drunk.

Nag-high give kami tyaka inumpisahan ang pag-iinom. Matagal na kaming magkaibigan ni Vince kaya okay lang sa mga magulang nya na andito kami.

"I heard you and Shen break up? Bakit daw?"

"Di nya daw talaga ko kayang mahalin eh. Haha. Eh kayo ni bes kamusta first monthsary?"

Ayoko nang maalala pa yun break up namin ni Shen kaya ibinalik ko sa kanya ang tanong at lumagok muli ng alak. Ganun din ang ginawa nya bago muling nagsalita.

"Wala na kami eh."

Nagulat ako sa nalaman ko. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ko bang tanungin o hindi. I had this feeling that I dont wanna know the reason so I didn't ask.

"Haha. Parehas pala tayong sawi ngayon. Cheers!"

At uminom nga kami hanggang sa kahit sandali wala kaming maramdamang sakit.. kahit sandali, maging manhid ang puso't utak namin. Nang nakakarami na kami ay tinext ko si bes.

Ako:

Why you broke someones heart bes?

Bes:

Nasan ka, Tristan? Kanina pa kita hinahanap.

Ako:

At Vinces'.

Bes:

Alright. I'm coming.

Yam's POV

Kanina pa ako ikot nang ikot sa kakahanap kung nasan si bes at nang malaman kong nandun sya kila Raid kahit na parang ang kapal nang mukha ko kung pupunta ko dun ay pumunta pa din ako. Sinalubong ako ng isa sa mga katulong nila at sinabing nasa music room nga daw ang dalawa. Palapit ako ng palapit nang maribig kong tumutugtog ang dalawa kaya hindi agad ako nakapasok.

"My shattered dreams and broken heart are mending on the shelf. I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else."

Damang-dama ko ang lungkot sa bawat pagbigkas ni Tristan sa lyrics ng kanta.

"Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feelings were gone. I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do.."

I don't know what I have to do. Nasasaktan ako, madadama mo ang tunay na kalungkutan sa pagkanta nya.

"But have one last cry, one last cry. Before I leave it all behind. I'm gonna put you out of my mind this time, been live a lie. I guess I'm down to my last cry, cry..."

Kasabay din muli ng pagkanta nya ay amg muling pagtulo ng luha. Namalayan ko na lang din na may tumutulo nang luha mula sa aking mga mata. I can't stop it. I just wanna cry. I bet whoever heard this song would surely cry.

"I was here, you were there.
I guess we never could agree.
While the sun shines on you,
I need some love to rain in me."

This time mas lalo akong napahagulgol ng iyak. Nakakapanghina. Si Raid na ang kumakanta at kitang-kita ko kung gaano syang nasasaktan ngayon. Fck! What I have done?

"Still I sit all alone wishing all my feeling were gone.
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do."

Yeah. You two must move on. Please let Raid fall inlove with the right girl. Gusto ko nang tumayo't umalis pero hindi ko kaya, ni hindi ako makatayo.

"But have one last cry, one last cry. Before I leave it all behind. I'm gonna put you out of my mind this time, been live a lie.."

I'm sorry. Im sorry, Raid. I felt sorry for Tristan too. Ngayon sabay na silang kumakanta. At mas lalong nakakapanlumo.

"I know I've gotta be strong cause my life goes on and on and on and onnnn..

I'm gonna dry my eyes right after I have my..

one last cry, one last cry before I leave it all behind. I've gotta put you out of my mind for the very last time, been live a lie..

I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down..

To my last cry."

I can feel it. I know they're broken. Tinapos nila ang kanta at tanging mga hikbi na lamang nila ang maririnig. Ayoko malaman nila na nawitness ko yun. Tumayo ako at dahan-dahang bumaba bago tumakbo, tumakbo ng napakabilis.