once again ꕤ haechan nct

thirty one

still unable to sort out my thoughts i decide to call seulgi, she's probably the best person to talk to in this situation. i don't want to tell naeun incase she brings it up with jeno and then haechan finds out, i still don't think i want him to know yet

seulgi
"yo ambrosia what's up? you never call me"

ambrosia
"are you busy right now?"

seulgi
"not really, i'm just with my girlfriend"

ambrosia
"oh my bad i didn't realise you had company i'll-"

seulgi
"it's fine, you never call me so this must be important. anyways she likes you so she's not gunna be annoyed or anything"

ambrosia
"are you sure?"

seulgi
"ambrosia... what's wrong?"

ambrosia
"okay well i'm not sure how to even start but i think haechan might have accidentally confessed?"

seulgi
"WHAT?!"

ambrosia
"i know! he just came over to my place drunk and started saying random things but then said 'this is why i had the biggest crush on you back then'"

seulgi
"oh my god, what are you gunna do?

ambrosia
"i don't know! i'll wait to see if he mentions it and if he doesn't i'll assume he's forgotten and i'll just never mention it"

seulgi
"you have to mention this ambrosia!"

ambrosia
"i don't want to! this is crazy i don't even know if this means anything because it was in the past oh i'm so confused"

seulgi
"don't stress about this too much, okay? i need to go now but whatever you do you have to tell him at some point, you have to"

ambrosia
"... i'll think about it"

seulgi
"you better"

ambrosia
"bye seulgi, thanks for listening. tell rosé i said hi!"

seulgi
"will do, love you ambrosia"

i chuck my phone to the end of the bed and curl up into my duvet, i called seulgi to try get things off my mind to help me fall asleep but it just seemed to make things worse. do i really have to tell haechan? i mean it's not even a big deal, he only liked me in the past. but if it isn't a big deal, why is it making me feel this way?

ꕤ ꕤauthors noteꕤ ꕤ

i literally have all the good parts and the ending written out in my drafts it's making it such a drag to write all these filler chapters bc i just wanna get to to good bits hhh