Love and Respect

Chap 49 - Respect Beyond Words

 Moni said "bhai where is Isha di I want to talk to you both together and please keep your phone on the speaker", we could hear bhai was waking up Isha.

"Hello Moni what happened" came Isha's voice. And here our drama queen started again.

"Bhai, di there is something I want to tell you. Please listen carefully and don't jump from the bed and hold each other tightly if you want you can side hug also to each other for support." And then Isha asked in her tensed voice, "please say Moni what happened you are scaring us please say my best friend is alright. Where are you all?"

"Isha di she is already but no she is not already. There is a lot we all have to go through." I quickly glare at Moni to stop but she just ignored me and continue, "Isha di bhabhi needs all of us. She will become fat and throw tantrums at us. And bhai is whipped now." I never left my eyes from my wifey. I was observing her every move. She had a smile on her face up also there was fear in her eyes.

This time Abhi bhai got irritated and asked Moni to please say, "What happened to my sister please speak up rather than forming these puzzles otherwise we are coming right now at Oberoi Mansion." I kept my hand on Moni's shoulder and mouthed her to say as it was already 2 at midnight.

And then she finally broke the news to them, "Bhabhi is pregnant and Abhi bhai you are going to be a Mama (children call Mama to their mother's brother) and Isha di Mami (Children call Mami to mother's brother's wife)"  and what we all heard was a voice full of shock saying, "WHAT" in unison

I took the phone from Moni and said bhai and Isha we are going to be parents. I saw my wifey's face her one hand was still on her flat stomach I guess she was feeling the baby and was zone out as always. I shook her a little as Abhi bhai and Isha wanted to congratulate her she spoke to them and then we greeted good night to all and finally Moni left the room. 

I got up and lock the door and went to the bed and hold wifey's hands. She saw your fingers interlock and tear roll out of her eye. I don't know what was bothering her. So I went close to her to hug her but she stopped me. And kept her head down and was caressing her flat stomach. I was waiting for her reaction and words but only tears were flowing down her eyes. 

I could not take it more so I lift her chin with my thumb and finger so that she could see me. I was trying to read her eyes which had so many emotions in them which was difficult to figure out what she wants and what she is thinking. I knew what I did in Manali was to save her and she confessed that she loves me in Manali but I can't force her for this pregnancy. 

We did not expect this and when it's there I was very happy but still, I will respect her decision because I took her virginity without her concern but I don't want her to force for motherhood. I don't want my child to be felt unwanted by her mother. I will respect her decision so I had to decide for it and said to her which was the most difficult thing to utter for me in my life.

"Wifey I know what happened in Manali between us and if you..." I paused and close my eyes and took a deep breath relaxing while my heart was crying to utter those words still I did. I open my eyes and said, "wifey if you are not comfortable with this child then you can do abo.." 

I took a deep breath again and said "abo... abortion I will not stop you."

Hetal's POV

As soon as I heard I am pregnant I was on cloud nine. It was our love sign. It was our baby bug in my stomach. A happy tear roll down my eye when I kept my hand on my flat stomach feeling the baby. I saw Rudra became numb for few seconds but Dadaji's hug made his move. 

After everyone left he hold my hand it was the best feeling, but when I heard Abhi bhai addressing me as my sister and Isha addressing me as my best friend and not my name Hetal a realization hit me that I am still leaving a lie I am still Mittali for the Oberoi's. I was brought out from my trance by Rudra as Abhi bhai and Isha wanted to talk to me after keeping the call and Moni leaving us I saw Rudra coming and sitting on the bed he interlocks our fingers and tears roll out of my eyes. 

I have to tell him the truth today because I cannot live this lie anymore after getting the news of pregnancy I wanted to be selfish I want him. I want my child's father with me throughout this pregnancy and my life. I want to grow old with him. 

But my mind questioned me what if he rejects me and curse me for not telling him the truth before and that ached my pain and tears flowed out of my eyes more. He lifts my chin and I could see only concern and fear in his eyes. 

I was gathering the courage to tell him the truth. But after what Rudra said I was shocked. It felt like somebody took my soul from my body. He told me to do an abortion and I knew why he said this it was only because of my tears. He took my happy tears in the wrong manner.

So I quickly wiped my tears and hugged him as my life depends on it. He got stiff for a second but slowly wrap his hand around my waist. I sob in his chest and mumbled sorry for nth no of times. 

He slowly moved me back and asked, "wifey why are you saying sorry?"' I slowly look up at him and then again down at our fingers which were still interlock, and said, "Rudra I am not Mittali Mehra but I am Hetal Mehra. Mittali left before marrying you and I became your substitute bride. 

I am sorry I never got the courage to tell you this before. But trust me I love you. And if you are angry with me and want me to leave this house after knowing the truth I will leave. But please don't tell me about abortion. 

I love you. I love my child. Please. Don't tell me to do this I beg of you." But when I got no answer I slowly look up to meet the most beautiful million-dollar smile of my life. Rudra was smiling and here I was getting nervous. I looked in his eyes and he quickly hugged me and then kiss on my head then pulling me a bit away he kissed my forehead then eyes, nose, cheeks, and then slams his lips on mine. This kiss was like a promise, deep and soft but later it turned out to be wild,  demanding and passionate.

We broke the kiss when we felt the need to breathe. He kept his forehead connected to me and said, "I know this wifey that you are Hetal." I slowly look up at him and the smile said he was not lying. 

I was shocked to hear this but let it go and said again, "I'm sorry hubby" and he said "it's ok wifey. I am happy that finally, you said this because I knew how stress and tense you were with this matter."

I kissed his cheeks again and said, "what will Dadaji and Moni say when they will know the truth" and he just laughs out loud making me confuse. I asked him, "why are laughing I am getting nervous." And he said "even they know" and I was shocked would be an understatement. "For how long?" I asked and the answer brought the eyes out of my socket I can say, "almost 6 months." Rudra replied And I gasped at it.

"Even Abhi bhai and Isha know that we know the truth." Rudra said and trust me I had no word to say except, "WHAT" in shock.

Then he told me everything that how he framed me for cooking, how he investigated about me and told Dadaji about my truth and how red-handed I was caught at Moni's fashion house at first time by Moni and still, she pretended. 

Then the accident and Abhi bhai and him talking at the hospital. I was just listing to him. It was the best thing in my life. My burden of a lie was removed from my shoulder. When we notice the time it was almost 4 in the morning so Rudra said we should sleep now. 

We both lied down on the bed and Rudra kissed me on my forehead and then on my stomach by saying, "You are welcome our baby bug." I just kept creasing his hair and then finally he lied down beside me but not before wrapping his arms to my waist and my head on his chest where I could hear his heartbeats. 

It was the best feeling in this world I never wanted anything except this love and respect in my life.    

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मेरा आज मेरा कल आप हो,
मेरी हाथों की मेहँदी हाथों की लकीर आप हो,
हर पल आपका ही रहता है ख्याल हमको,
कुछ इतना दिल के करीब आप हो.

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कबूल हो गई हर दुआ हमारी,
मिल जो गई हमें चाहत तुम्हारी,
अब नही चाहत है दिल में हमारे कुछ,
जब से मिल गई है मोहब्बत तुम्हारी.