Chap 43 - Guilt

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Two months later.

Third person's POV

Rudra was supposed to go to Manali for business purpose and Moni and Dadaji decided that Rudra should take Hetal along with him as he has not gone on his honeymoon till yet. It has been 8 months of their marriage. A lot has changed in these eight months. Rudra uses to cuddle with her, kiss her on her forehead, cheeks, and a passionate soft kiss on her lips, hug her, but was still not allowed by Hetal for the intimacy and to complete each other with his love. Little did they knew that this trip would bring tremendous change in their life.

Rudra's POV

Yesterday was our third day in Manali. I wanted to buy a 7-star hotel over here. But the owner said he wants to meet me personally and then only he will sign the deal and that was the reason why my employee who was assigned for this could not do his job and I had to come. We were staying in the same hotel which was the best 7-star hotel over here and which I wanted to buy. So technically I was the owner of it after completing all the formalities. I had booked the best suite for us. I took this trip as a business trip along with the honeymoon. I wanted Hetal to be completely mine. The mere distance which was left in our relationship I wanted to complete that on this trip but with her permission. Though a lot has changed in our relationship as she has become more bold compare to earlier. But still, I was not allowed for intimacy with her, and I used to hate that, but I respected her decision and followed as she said because for me her happiness was the first priority 

 But still, I was not allowed for intimacy with her, and I used to hate that, but I respected her decision and followed as she said because for me her happiness was the first priority 

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Today I was free so we decided to explore Manali tourism spots. I took a personal car from the manager of the hotel who was now my employee. I never wanted any driver though he suggested one for me I refuse. I took the driver seat and made Hetal sit in the passenger seat as I wanted to cherish these lovely romantic moments with her. We decided to visit Rohtang Pass as it will take one full day to return. So I started the engine and headed towards Rohtang Pass along with the route map. As it was December we were enjoying this climate a lot. As Rohtang Pass was a Snow point so we enjoyed various kinds of adventure activities such as sled ride, mountain biking, snow scooter, tyre drop, and skiing. The Equipment was available on rent. I and Hetal also enjoyed making a snowman and playing with snowballs.

As the weather was changing we decided to go back to the hotel. But our bad luck due to snowfall your car stuck on the road. I and Hetal tried our best to move but the engine got cold and the car was not moving at all. It also started getting dark so I and Hetal decided to walk to the nearby winter cabin and we found one which was a bit far on the small sloppy mountain from where we were standing. Hetal was shivering because of cold weather as snowfall started and so we spaced up quickly. I was ahead of Hetal holding her hand but while walking I lost my balance and tumble a bit in front so my and Hetal's hand got separated. I told her to hold it back but she said she will follow me as I was making way for her to walk in the deep snow path. But then suddenly she yelled "RUDRA HELP"

As soon as I turn around I saw her struggling in the snow hole which was covered by snow

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As soon as I turn around I saw her struggling in the snow hole which was covered by snow. She was trying to come out as her entire body was buried, in only her face and hands were out. I quickly ran back towards her and tried to pull her out with all the strength I had, but it was difficult. I continued pulling her out and succeeded but as soon as she came out from that snow hole she started shivering a lot, I quickly hug her but what I notice was her shallow breathing, stumbling, trembling on one side of the body, and a weak pulse. I quickly carried her in my arms in bridal style but soon she fainted.

I entered the winter cabin and made her lye on the single bed which was place there. I quickly check her pulse rate and found them to be weak, her muscles got stiff, breathing became slow and shallow, and the heartbeat only faintly and irregularly to the point where it can be undetectable her body temperature was falling rapidly. Due to these difficulties, death can easily occur. She was still unconscious. I tapped on her cheeks so many time but still, there was no response. A tear rolls down my check seeing my life my love in this condition. I knew that this is 'hypothermia.'

(Hypothermia is a condition in which body temperature falls drastically as a result of the exposure to the cold. The average temperature of the human body is 37 degrees Celsius. If the body temperature drops a few degrees above or below the person is at serious risk, if it drops below it is called hypothermia.)

I quickly check my mobile but there was no network coverage. And I needed to do something otherwise I would lose her. And to keep her safe in this condition there was only one way out and that was rewarming her.

I quickly search in the cabin if I could get a blanket or something and I found one. There was a light switch that I turn on but it was a small dim bulb. I covered Hetal with the blanket and started changing her clothes as they were wet. I knew if I want her safe and alive I have to rewarm her.

(The basic principles of rewarming victims of hypothermia are to conserve the heat they have, and replace the heat that they have already lost. The best method to determine the extent of core temperature loss is the measurement of rectal temperature. In cases of hypothermia, the victim requires immediate medical attention. They can be treated by covering the body's "hot-spots" (where a great deal of heat is lost). These "hot-spots" are the head, neck, sides, and groin.)

I undress and enter the blanket and kissed her forehead. The guilt of intimacy was too much as I wanted her with her permission, but today what I was doing after that she might hate me or punish me. But I will accept that as I cannot allow her to die. She is my life, my love, my world. I want her. I can accept her hatred but losing her brought tears to my eyes. I close my eyes one last time and then open it and started kissing her. I always dream of this moment with her, I wanted her to chant my name and groan and wanted to hear her moan. But there was no sound from here. I made space between her legs and thrust into her but then I suddenly stopped as there was something on my way. I was shocked to see that I took her virginity without her permission. This guilt brought tears in my eyes once again which I allowed to roll down on my cheeks. Still, she was lifeless so I continued. After this intense lovemaking when I feel her breathing became normal I freed my body weight from her.

I laid beside her and covered us with the blanket and soon I could feel her soft breaths on my chest. She was sleeping now and I was left alone to think that what I did? How will she react? I snuggled her soft body closer to me and kissed the crown of her head and fell asleep. 

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Tere Bina Tutkar Bikhar Jayenge,
Tum Mil Gaye To Gulshan Ki Tarah Khil Jayenge,
Tum Na Mile To Jite Ji Mar Jayenge,
Tumhe Paa Liya To Markar Bhi Jee Jayenge.

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