Baby Ellie Meets Her Daddies

Ch 2 Caroline's Plan

"Ellie, you can't keep this up.  You know I'm not a Big nor do I have a little, but I am a Dom and I know several Bigs.  There's going to be an event this weekend in the community.  It's an adoption of sorts.  I can help get you in since you don't know anyone and hopefully we can get you adopted by a caregiver."  Caroline says.  

I look at the ground, feeling my pull up become damp.  Geez.  I had no idea I even needed to potty.  Maybe she's right.  Maybe I'm in over my head here and do need a caregiver.  Or maybe I'm crazy and just need therapy.  Or both.  Who knows. 

I feel Caroline pull my sucky fingers out of my mouth again not realizing I'd even put them back.  

"I... I... I no know Carowine.  Scawey.  Ewie (Ellie) no wike swangers".  Feeling myself get smaller at the prospect of such a big decision I stare at the ground.  "Ewie wet Carowine". 

Caroline sighs at the sudden shift in my behavior.  "Ellie, I'm going to change you in just a second.  But I need BIG Ellie's consent to take little Ellie to this event.  Can you stay Big long enough to give consent?  I won't take you without it."  

"Y-Yes, Caroline. I need help" I hear myself say.  

"Okay great," Caroline says grabbing my hand and giving me a big smile.   "Let's get this pretty princess changed and then we can sing the clean up song while we undo the damage Baby Ellie did these last few days."

Suddenly I felt at peace and felt myself let go.  Carowine was here.  She would help Ellie.  Ellie's bottom would be better and she might even find a caregiver!  

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I spent most of the day in little space.  Caroline feeding me, changing me, and making sense of my apartment.  When I awoke the next morning to a wet dipee and a string of slobber coming from my sucky fingers, I was big Ellie again.  I changed my dipee to a pull up, brushed my teeth and hair, and walked out of my bedroom to find Caroline having coffee.  

"Do you need a change Ellie?" she asked.  

"No," I said with a blush.  "I'm big Ellie today." 

"Good." she said, "I want to make sure to get your consent again to go to the event tomorrow.  

"I want to go.  I just have some questions."  I went to the fridge and made myself a sippy of chocolate milk.  "How does this work?  With the stress of strangers and new people, I'm likely to go straight to little space and I want to make sure this happens the right way."

"Well," Caroline says, "First of all, I plan to be with you the whole day.  I wouldn't leave you in the care of anyone who I felt was unsafe or not a good fit.  Luckily, the community is very tight and there is a lot of screening that takes place.  And no one would be allowed to adopt without previous experiences and references.  But, before we go, there's paperwork for you to fill out and you need to think about what you want in a caregiver." 

"What do you mean?" I ask. 

"Do you want a mommy or a daddy or both?  Do you want the relationship to be strictly caregiver/little or would you like there to be a sexual aspect?  I want to help advocate on your part Ellie.  One, because you don't know the scene and two, because you will go straight to little space.  We need to figure all of this out now." 

Caroline and I spent the rest of the day detailing what I did and did not want until the list was so specific I was pretty sure my caregiver did not exist!  When we were finished, Caroline had be write the list down carefully and then let me decorate it with stickers and glitter pens!

Baby Ellie's Caregiver List:

- A daddy 

-Strictly caregiver/little (no sexual contact unless discussed and consented to at a later date) 

- Majority of time spent in little space, but respect for big girl time when asked for. 

- Come to Ellie's house (negotiable based on home visit from Caroline)

- must be willing to change dipees (both kinds)

- no extreme punishments 

"Now Ellie, about the punishments" Caroline began.  "You have been here in this apartment basically living as a feral child.  You do what you want, eat what you want, watch what you want, etc.  As a Dom, it truly drives me crazy to see you be so reckless and careless.  Caregivers have rules for health and safety purposes, and honestly, I think you need them.  I'm not sure what your caregiver will expect, but it's likely you will be punished.  We need to discuss your hardlimits for punishments."

Having never been punished, I had no clue what Caroline was even talking about.  She must have been able to tell because she started explaining.  

"Okay, so most caregivers use a basic set of punishments given the infraction.  Verbal warnings, no screen time, corner time, writing lines, early bedtimes, spanking, etc.  I think we should talk to the caregiver and find out what their punishments are before we decide to proceed.  Also, they will give you your rules to follow as well and that's another point we can discuss punishments."  

I nodded my head agreeing with her.  My nerves were definitely getting the better of me.  I did not feel competent to make these decisions.  

"Caroline, I'm trusting you.  I need to you help me with this.  One of the reasons I enjoy little space so much is not having to think.  Not having to decide.  Just make sure I go to someone nice."  

"I will sweetheart, I will" Caroline said giving me a big hug.