a patchwork quilt of maybes and almosts ✓

i wish

*daily dose of depression has been delivered*

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i wish i could

let it out

i wish i had

other ways

to express

everything

i wish i didn't

hide

because i'm too

afraid

i wish that i was

braver

than i am

i have

so many wishes

and yet

here i am

you have to

take action

but i refuse to

and i'm not sure

why

i lie

to peoples' faces

so much

every day

without even

trying

i'm good at

faking smiles

hiding tears

telling people

i'm okay

when i'm not

and i've told

people

that i'm

not okay

and they don't

care

or they're

scared

or they

don't know what

to make

of the information

they don't know

what to make

of a happy girl

being sad

i wouldn't

either

i guess

even though i

could

because

i am

i don't know

everything is

so hard

keeping my

head up

is so hard

i cried so much

that i'm out

of tears

i've smiled

so much

that i'm out

of smiles

i'm out of

anger