"its like I'm drowning but i cant stop breathing"
seventeen year old Elliana Browden is starting junior year with her bestfriend, she is not a nerd but she isn't popular. She is known as the positive, funny and caring friend but on the inside her p...
I shut my car door lightly and start walking down the trail
When I get there, I see him, and I walk over to him and sit next to him like last time
"I need you to tell me if you're okay" I say as his head is still down between his bent legs
"I am" he whispers
"be honest with me.." I say in a quiet voice
"I'm not okay ella.." he says as he still doesn't look at me "I'm broken, and nothing can change that, he even said it himself I'm just a weak kid right"
"don't say that about yourself" I say
He looks up at me as his eyes are filled with tears and he blinks and lets them fall before whipping them away
"I don't cry ella, I try hard to be good or whatever but I can't do anything I want a good relationship with you and I wish I could have a good relationship with both of my..parents but I cant do this to you" he says before finishing "I need to do this alone" he voice cracks
"you're not doing this" "w- we just.."
Is he really trying to break up with me we haven't even been dating for that long and..
"I can't do this to you ella, I need to get through this by myself I can't bring you down with me its not fair at all" he says
"well I'm not leaving"
"elliana, go" he says
"no."
"I don't want you here" he says
"stop lying to yourself you haven't talked to anyone in days and you haven't even-"
"stop" he says "I'm not the good person that you want me to be"
"chase I don't want to change you, I lik..i love who you are" I tell him
"its not...healthy for me to do this with you with me right now"
"it doesn't have to be that way, I will call the police right now and they could come, arrest your dad?" I cry out
"it shouldn't be this hard Ellie" he whispers
"you know what chase"
"loving is a losing game! All that happens is you break me because you don't believe in yourself, if you could try it wouldn't have to be this hard" I tell him as he just stays silent
"if that's what you want, I'll go" I say as I wipe my eyes and get up and start to walk but then I feel him grab my wrist and pull me around to face him as he holds the small of my back and the other hand is on my cheek whipping away me tears
"I didn't mean it" he says
"why did you say it?" I ask
"I'm used to doing it on purpose" he tells me
"I'm sorry, I try to be good for you and I try to not break but you shouldn't love me every time I do this so you wouldn't fall in love with me too"
"why?"
"so, I don't hurt you."
"you already did" I say
"I know..' he drifts off
"kiss me"
"right now?" he asks
"yes, right now"
"your crying" he says before wiping away the other tears and placing his lips on mine for a forgiving kiss
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