"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."
Aprielle Castellano was determined to commit suicide by jumping off the bridge, letting herself drown, and die with her lungs filled with water━well, not until this blue-haired gu...
“distorted, exhausted curled up in this bed is it possible to have a nightmare while awake?”
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02 |what's your name?
ANXIETY CLOUDED my mind as we slowly exit the long bridge filled with blacked out streetlights. And it only heightened as we entered the empty highways that leads to somewhere unknown to me.
When I finally mustered up my courage, I moved a bit to catch his attention.
“Where . . . are we going?” I muttered a question, voice thinly whispering.
“I don't know, kahit saan,” he replied. From my peripheral vision, I saw his lips lifted, forming an innocent smile. I stayed silent and decided to just look through the window. The moon is at its brightest now, the stars already showed up as the clouds were vanishing.
Hinigpitan ko ang kapit sa jacket na nakapalibot sa katawan ko. I shivered a bit, now feeling the breeze of the midnight wind.
“By the way, what's your name?” I felt him stare at me for a second. The sudden conversation made me uncomfortable. Kahit na sumama ako sa kaniya ay kailangan pa ring mag-ingat ako.
Actions speak louder than words. So, when I moved to the very edge of my seat, he already got what I meant. Narinig ko ang pagbuntong-hininga niya ngunit hindi ko na iyon pinansin.
Sinubukan kong ipikit ang mga mata para matulog, pero hindi yata ako papatulugin ng mga naranasan ko. Everything rolled like a film in my mind. It was too vivid, and albeit I own my mind and body, I obviously can't control both. Because as it plays through my head, my body started trembling in fear and anxiety.
No . . .
Itinaas ko ang paa ko sa may upuan at niyakap ang mga tuhod ko. I lowered my head.
Everything . . . is starting to kill me again.
“Hey, okay ka lang?” Charcoal asked. I can't see him but judging by his voice, I can feel that he's worried. Nang mapansin niyang nanginginig na ako ay mabilis niyang itinigil ang sasakyan sa gilid ng kalsada.
