Dear me,
I am so tired.
But I don't know why, I sleep a lot.
I probably sleep to much.
I set myself all these goals but I just can't bring myself to complete them.
I've always wondered if there was someone I could relate to. But I feel like no one understands me. I sit in the school councillors office. I tell her some of my thoughts because I know most of them could get me into trouble so I just keep them to myself.
She starts talking but my ears stop listening and all I can watch is her mouth opening and closing and I think to myself
"Does she ever shut up"
She goes on about parts of the brain and green thoughts and red thoughts.
I nod and just pretend I'm paying attention.
I've become very good at it actually.
But she has a nice voice, very quiet and gentle, I could never imagine her to be angry. She seems delicate, if I poked her she might shatter.
"Ainsley"
"Ainsley"
I look from the floor to her face and notice she noticed I wasn't listening.
"Sorry" I say
"It's okay, where was I? Oh yes the green thoughts...." blah blah blah blah she goes on and on.
I guess I'm not as good at hiding the fact that I'm not paying attention as I thought.
The bell rings and it's time for class.
That's great.
"Looks like we are out of time, sorry it got cut short" she says
"It's fine" I say smiling as I left.
I get a text from Amy
"Where are you!!" It reads
"Chill I'm on my way" I reply
She gets anxious when I'm not in class.
I go to class, get out my pen, connect my music hid the earphones behind my hair walk into the classroom where Amy is sitting, I sit next to her.
"Hey I didn't see you this morning" she says
"Yeah sorry I was late" I reply
"Oh okay" she says.
"Everyone quiet down" the teacher says
He says something about the work but my mind drifts off and I start staring out of the window.
I draw a fair bit.
Amy let's me copy some of the notes, I try to pay attention but it bores me.
I have some strange thoughts like what would everyone do right in this moment of it was a zombie apocalypse. The teacher would grab his chocolate bars that he hides in his draws and attempts to hide the fact that he is eating them during class. I think he's got low blood sugar or something.
Amy would probably record or live stream.
My friends would just freak out.
I would keep my friends alive, because they are abit slow.
"Ainsley"
"Ainsley"
The teacher is standing in front of my desk.
"Sorry, what?" I say a little startled
He shows me the work and explains how to do it. I pretend I'm interested and as soon as he goes to someone else's desk I look out the window again.
After a what seems like forever the bell rings
Recess.
I leave class as soon as I can and I walk to the canteen before it starts filling up. I made it.
I get iced coffee and a meat pie with bacon and cheese.
I make my way to the table, where jack and z are already sitting at, the group starts to come to the table but I get there and sit out my coffee and pie.
I flip the lid off my pie and start eating it while I mix tomato sauce into the meat, I scoop the meat out and eat it then save the best for last...
"Can I have some.." Jess says winking at me.
I pull some pastry apart and pass it to her.
I finish the rest of my pie.
"Its ainsleyyy" says z
"It's zeeee" I say giving him a hug.
Z is one of my bestfriends.
We call him z because well I don't actually know why it's just his name, he doesn't like his full name so not many people know it.
Jack is one of the best people to talk to he's also very confusing, he can be understanding but he can also switch up and be a whole other person, that's just the way he is though.
That is my morning, I'll continue when I have more brain power
Goodnight me
