back and forth (damien haas)

25 | ian?

hi! i just read through the lat couple chapters bc i forgot what happened lmao. anyways im not gonna change anything but i'll try my best to go off whatever storyline i had in mind. be aware my writing style has changed. i really ahwt this story so idk why you guys like it, if you think this story is fine i bet you'll like my ither stories better. pls check them out im actually proud of them. ill stop with the rambling.. here is part 25 of this stupid book<3 OH AND WES ISNT APART OF THIS STORY, THAT WAS JOVEN. JUST REPLACE WES WITH JOVEN IN UR MIND. TY.
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sam's pov - one year later.
ever since winter games we all were fine. i had become really close with boze and joven even more. they were my two best friends. and damien.. better then ever. we had been actually dating for around 1 year now. of course we had our hiccups here and there. and it is really rough not being able to do anything in public or even the office. it really sucked. but we did our best and thats all that matters.
"hey sam?" ian walks into the smosh games room. i spin my chair to face him.
"hey, whats up?" i ask.
"i- i have to talk to you," he says, using his hand motioning to come with him. i nod and hesitatly get up.
"take a seat," he says as he sits in his office chair.
"now.. let me tell you.. you aren't in trouble. i- i see how close you've gotten with damien. um- i don't to be rude but this walls are thin, my office's wall is right mext to the bathroom." he goes on but i get his point. immediately. he has heard all our conversations and um- i'd rather not say. shit.
"ian? i am sorry we didn't tell you," i say.
"guess what?" he asks.
"what?" i ask cautiously.
"you guys can date and do whatever you want as long as you pretend i know nothing." he says
"what?" i ask confused.
"lets say defy found out some how. if they knew that i knew about this and just didn't tell them? i'd be in way deeper shit then you guys," he explains.
"know what?" i ask and laugh.
"exactly.. keep it up," he says. i smile and get up, right as i put my hand on the door knob he speaks up.
"oh and sam.. pick the other bathroom next time.. okay?" he laughs. i stifle a laugh and shut the door behind me, sighing.
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the end of this book is soon btw. i dont have anymore ideas and its a chore to write this- it sucks. i dont enjoy writing this bokk like i used too.
vent ahead lol.
i just- i havent watched smosh in two weeks and i think im not enjoying it as much. i mean, the new videos look funny and stuff i just can't bring myself to watch them. and they gave me my start on most of the things i have!! like my editing page was originally a smosh fan page and most of my ibfs are only smosh fans. without those ppl, i wouldnt be where i am today- one of them is ( syasyafirdausso) love you bb❤️ anyways yeah i feel like a pit in my stomach if i think abt it too much. like when i sleep, for example, i listen to yt, comfort videos to calm my anxiety, and all those comfort videos were smosh videos. but now i don't use those to sleep anymore. of course its been a tradition for me to watch smosh by the holiday. like those smosh christmas vids on sp and sg or those halloween videos. it makes me feel at home. im not sure exactly why but christmas music, chrsitmas movies, christmas smosh vids, and like snow fall or lights make me feel less depressed. anyways no one cares so sory for not updating, love you guys, ty for being so supportive, it means the world to me.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️