Never Give Up {MewGulf}

✒ Cherished Memory

Gulf's POV

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Since we got engaged I felt that we got really close, they were no limits between us, like we've become a real couple which is not right, we are getting confused by this closeness and are getting so confused since we've been together every single day for about 9 months and if this gets longer we may really fall too deep in this fake life we created.

I was trying to find a plan to make us both stop this acting like this, to at least return to how we used to be at the very beginning then my friend Panit came asking me to help him courting a girl but she was being stuck by her best friend, at first I did what he asked me to, eating dinner and talking with the girl while Panit was flirting with his now girlfriend but then I found this as a chance.

What if I truly fall in love with her? Then everything will clear up and this confusion between me and Mew will clear up, he will also start seriously thinking about finding a lover and we can call off our engagement much earlier, if he do find someone... he find someone... Mew falling in love with someone else... when that thought suddenly came to me I felt my chest tighten and feeling extremely sad, the thought itself is hurting me but I know it's because of the confusion we are having.

I started seriously trying to get to know that girl, she is cute, has a dark green eyes and long light brown hair, fashionable, she is pretty smart from the medical department studying to be a nurse, I also understood why she was sticking to her friend, it seem some accident happened before and Panit's girlfriend got kidnapped before because of her father's job that's why she wants to protect her.

We even went on double date after exams and we had fun shopping and going to all kind of places, I was enjoying myself being with her and she knows how to make me interested in the topics that she starts, however, no matter how much I tried, no matter how much I concentrate, Mew's face keeps popping up in my mind, I accidently touched her silky long hair yet all I could think of was Mew's messy funny hair and how I brush it when he lays on my lap.

She ones cooked me lunch and it was tasty yet it was nothing compared to Mew's cooking, the way he cuts the vegetables, add the spices, call for me and let me taste the food, how he even feed me... yes, my mind always travels to the same direction, the times I had with my professor.

Today too we met, had some fun then I walked her back, once I got in, Mew stood up looking so furious and angry, smth must happened, did I get seen by his parents with her? He then started yelling about me seeing the girl, he looked shocked for a minute, I tried to make him understand that we should both think of our future

"... it's you who need to understand Gulf" he said with a calm yet serious tone making me look up at him, his demeanor completely changed so suddenly making me confused but also worried, I followed him stepping closer to me, he gazed into my eyes as if he just realized smth, he slowly reached his hands gently trapping my face between his palms, his touch send a shiver throughout my whole body, a tender grin appeared

"I love you Gulf, not as my fake lover, not as a friend, but as someone I really want to stay with for the rest of my life" without noticing I held my breath, did he just say that he loves me? No, it can't be, I must be wrong, yet once my mind finished working and I understood him I quickly stepped back

"please don't say that" I desperately shook my head not wanting to hear it again, he stood watching my reaction not saying anything so I continued

"you are just confused P' Mew just like me, there is nothing romantic between us, you just think it's love because we got so close to each other" he sighed walking toward me while I kept moving back until I fell tripping by the dining table, he knelt down coming face to face