THE MAFIA'S BEAUTY

Chapter 59

"No problem, anything for Rosewood, I see you have a child?" It felt like a question than a statement as he looked shocked yet soon covered it up. He was sitting in a leather chair where you could see that he was in his office with a large painting behind him.

"Yes, this is Red, my daughter who we will talk about later. Let us start on the trust fund then Red and we will finish with the issue of my will."

Three hours later I was cutting the call while cooing the baby who was not having it anymore. I sighed thanking the lord for Mr Sullivan, things could not have gone even better, in a day the adoption papers would be mailed and the trust fund was going to be transferred to the named account in a week. The smile on my face was a sad one though, this was all because it may happen that one of us may die or even both of us and everything had to be left in order. Life was so unfair though, things were just good and everything would be taken away from me, everything I had dreamed of for years upon years taken in a matter of hours. Fear gripped me, fear in my every waking hour of what tomorrow carried. My eyes flickered to the baby who had wrapped her red fingers around my thumb with her glassy eyes on me. She was truly a beauty and how could my heart survive when she stared at me so? My mind drifted off to Alex, worry having me wondering where he was wasting away at this time yet I cleared my mind. I don't know why but there was just something that had me drawn to him, he was like the little brother I never had this making me make it a point to ask for his age. He looked young adding to his scary aura.

I was too tired to work yet not too tired to sleep during the day and the cravings were killing me. This was the time where I wished I had a professional chef who would just whip anything asked in a matter of an hour. I opened the laptop again, going to iTunes and playing a song before sitting back on the chair. Every inch of my body was sore and of course it was Rafael's fault, he left me sore every time he took me and I could not help but roll my eyes and laugh. I missed him and wondered if he was on his way back. My mind drifted off to the day we met. He had been so scary, and the day I had vomited my lungs out. It had been so embarrassing yet I could not help but giggle and swing around with the chair. I felt like dancing and I was soon up with the baby held up in the air, dancing to Troye Sivan and Ariana Grande- dance to this. Red was looking at me like 'lady have you gone crazy'. I could not help but laugh as I turned around, moving my body and head not caring that it probably looked like I was having a stroke. I threw Red in the air only to catch her and it seemed to brighten her day for a minute as she smiled then turned up giggling as I continued having me laugh myself.

She was so adorable and I was in love. I quickly grabbed my phone, putting the song on repeat. The camera was switched on as I took the selfie video. We danced and danced this being the funniest times of the day, I was spending time with this angel and what could make it even better was a moist chocolate cake with chocolate sauce dripping from the sides. I closed my eyes, already seeing it just on a plate ready for devouring. My eyes flickered open as the song began again.

"This is one of moms favourite songs, could never get tired of it." I said to no one in particular as the door open and there he was. My heart stopped beating as he walked in, his hoodie was thrown back to show his face. I caught my breath, blushing and going insane. My man was walking in, every part of me tingling and I was losing it. Was it crazy that I felt like I loved him more and more every day and it was getting insane? I wanted to say hi, wanted to say something but the cat had caught my tongue and there I was acting like a love sick puppy.

"Hi," He simply said and my knees were all wobbly and I was ready to collapse on the floor and never get up. I was not getting chocolate cake but why would I need it when he was here now.

"Hi," I said staring at him, dazed while moving my body a little to the beat. It was all going unnoticed that red was literally scratching half of my face off.

Rafael stopped in his tracks, turning to look at me with suspicious eyes.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" He asked.

"Like what?" I asked, laughing, not being able to control it as I blushed.

"Its weird." He said shaking his head. I walked up to him, wiggling my eye brows at him as he froze where he was. My hand went around his shoulder as I brought him in the hug, squeezing him tight and taking a big whiff of his scent.

"I missed you." I shamelessly said with my face turning as red as Red herself. He did not say anything yet his arms going around my waist and bringing me closer. My heart could not take such, my whole body was quivering with my blood rushing so fast with the heart working overtime. My world was complete. It was so amazing as I stood in his arms, him giving me a little tug up. His arms were so strong and they just held me so tight. He was just the devil sent to steal my heart and I was throwing it at him willingly.

The baby was in between us, probably asking herself why she was being squashed. It was a while before he let go and I slipped my arms from him and took a step back.

"Hi," I said again, dazed in a way. He placed a kiss on my forehead, my eyes closing before he pulled back. His eyes then went to the baby, staying there for a second as his face changed and he looked away.

"I got your milk, wipes and diapers." He said with his mood suddenly changed. I took a deep breath, cutting the video and watching as he made his way to his desk, pulling the chair back and sitting down. My heart ached as I saw him look down and flip through his papers. I nodded my head, bringing my hand to Red who was quick to wrap her tiny fingers around my thumb, pulling it with the intent of sucking. I smiled, not knowing what to say or do, maybe I was wrong and was bullying Rafael.

I walked up to his chair, pulling it back which was hard as he weighed a tone yet he pushed it back for me after my third try.

"Thank you." I said feeling silly as he looked up to me. I walked around the chair, sitting on him with my legs hanging on the side. I shifted until I was comfortable, hearing him sigh as he rolled his eyes yet if I did not do this then who would, I was the fiancé and I was totally invading his personal space. I paused on what I was doing, taken back for a second. When the hell did Rafael start rolling his eyes? I was shocked, chuckling, seeing a new side of him each and every day. He was really unfolding, my chest swelling at the thought of that.

"The adoption papers will arrive tomorrow and all we have to do is sign." I said watching as his jaw moved around seeing that he was really not wanting to hear this.

"Talk to me Rafael, I see you don't want this." I spoke up with my heart hammering from my throat. I really wanted Red, really wanted her but if he really did not then I don't know what. She was cute and so small, she was my person and I just fell in love with her and wanted to see her grown, be there when she took her first step or said her first word. It was crazy but I really wanted to be her mommy like my mom was to me.

"Lethu I don't want a baby, adopted or not. Don't want this, I just don't...."He trailed off, shaking his head with my heart breaking. I did not know what to say, should have just bullied him to it and stopped feeling guilty.

"I am sorry, I already have a daughter and I don't want another one."

Being hurt was not even close to describe what I felt. I held on to Red, as if she could understand what was being said. My mind could not help but go on to wonder on what he would have said if I had been pregnant, would he have told me to do an abortion? I did not know what to say or even do as I felt this emotion hit me like a brick on the face with the tears burning in my eyes.

"Okay then..." I swallowed. "I will adopt her myself and raise her all by myself, you can go and die all you want." I shot out, feeling so hurt as I stood up and walked away with the tears finally falling.