Barren

➢7*

"Omg so so so good" Zayn moaned while bouncing up and down on Liam's cock "you are so huge," Zayn said very out of breath feeling like Liam was about to split him in half. Zayn had been fucked and has ridden Liam many times but he'll never get used to the feeling of Liam inside of him he loved he loves him

"You feel so good, baby you're hole is so tight feels so good all around my big cock" Liam moaned panting slightly as he lifted his hips to meet with Zayn's arse Liam's dirty talk just turned Zayn on even more if that was possible and he grabbed his cock but Liam was quick to swat his hand away to replace it with his own

Liam knew exactly how to satisfy Zayn as they have been together since high school but he decides to tease him a little bit by just rubbing the pad of his thumb over the top of the head but Zayn's whimpering and begging makes Liam forget about whatever he was doing

he leans forward and up like he was doing a sit up and it is one of the many reasons Zayn appreciates the amount of time Liam spends working out as Liam uses his elbows to prop himself up before wrapping his lips around Zayn and slowly sliding down all the way down to his balls which he takes a hand out from underneath himself to play with Zayn's balls knowing Zayn likes it

"Ughhhh I'm so close Li, so so" but he was so close that he came right into Liam's mouth before he could finish his sentence Liam just pulled off his penis with a pop swallowing all of his come before thrusting into Zayn hard a few times before letting go into Zayn arsehole he slowly pulled out and pulled the blanket down and then tucking Zayn in and then getting in bed next to him

As soon as Liam was in bed Zayn turned around and buried his head into his husband's chest
"I love you, Liam, more than anything and we will have a baby no matter which way we have t have one" Zayn mumbles into Liam

"yes we will my baby boy there is no doubt in my mind" Liam smiled Zayn's after sex mood was one of his favourite moods that Zayn had he was high on love is how Liam would describe it to anyone asking he doesn't know what he's saying he just mumbles off about how much he loves Liam or how much he wants a baby and how much he will love there, baby even when they were in high school he would talk about how he wanted to marry Liam and that he knew he was the one but then he would wake up in the morning and not remember a word of what he said

After rocking Zayn back and forth like a toddler he finally fell asleep and shortly after so did Liam

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The next day Liam woke up first and decided to make Zayn something for breakfast he planned on spending the day together he knows how Zayn doesn't like Niall and he didn't complain or even ask him to stay and Liam feels bad about leaving him alone all-day

and he felt even worse when he opens the art room door knowing that is where Zayn spent most of his time yesterday and sees his axel standing up with the big book that Liam had bought him on their first wedding anniversary and Liam almost starts to cry when he sees the picture its a grey lead sketch of them both like a lot of sketches in Zayn's book he always says he likes to draw the most important things or the most beautiful things which to him was their relationship or Liam in general

but this sketch was different this one had both of the boys holding baby's Liam had a toddler on his hip while Zayn was holding what Liam assumed to be a newborn and Liam started to cry when he noticed the tear stains on the paper and the dream written on the bottom in some pretty cursive that Zayn had been practising recently

as he walks over the notices some writing on the notepad next to his axel and painting it's not too small but it's small enough not to see from just looking at the picture he notices a poem reads he reads it

"I sit on the edge of the tub
Staring
Fingers crossed

Two minutes pass
Now's the time

Tears flow down
Sobs seep out into the world
"Negative"

time after time

Same routine
Waiting, wishing and hoping
A different outcome?
Never

"negative"

time after time

What's wrong with me?
Is it him?
Is it me?

One more try
Two minutes pass

..."negative "

Sobs so loud the walls rattle and shake like my body
Shrieks of despair
Self-hate

time after time

Dread, fear
... I hate this feeling

Two more minutes
Could it be?

A faint line!
A smudge!

Two more tests just to be sure
"Negative"
"Negative "

time after time

I can't anymore
Trying to be hopeful is futile

I don't even want to look
But I do

"Negative"

No tears fall
No sobs can be heard

I'm broken

time after time

I want it so badly
I want what everyone else has

"It happened by accident," they say
Lucky you

"We weren't even trying" they joke
Good for you

"This is our 4th " they shout happily
All I want is one
Just one

Why God!
Why can't it just be me for once!

time after time

We don't even try anymore
I'm tired
I'm sad but try to hide it

He sees I'm in pain
He can't fix it

He wants me to be happy
He wants to give me what I want
but can't

time after time

I love the idea of a child

Raven hair
hazel eyes
Long toes like their daddy
Short fingers like their papa

What will we name them?

But I know it won't happen...

time after time.
"Negative"

Liam just stares at the poem before breaking down in tears he doesn't know how to feel after reading that he knew Zayn was very upset about not being able to have a baby he also knew that news of Harry and Louis's second child that they had by accident but Zayn has a bad way of expressing his emotions and Liam knew that and yet he still believed that he was ok

Liam feels like ripping himself apart he couldn't see that his own husband was struggling so much he left him alone yesterday is all that replays in Liams head

(A/N I really love this poem 😭, also tried to write some smut dunno how it turned out though)
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