Be My Peace

Chapter 1:Runnin

"Can I ask why you're fidgety?"

"I'm nervous....nervous."

nerv·ous
/ˈnərvəs/
adjective
1.
easily agitated or alarmed; tending to be anxious; highly strung.

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Sasha's Chicken and Waffles

Monica

"Monica are you okay boo?!"I heard Shay say as I snapped back into reality

"Y-yeah I'm fine....sorry." I say while looking down and trying to gather my thoughts

"Mo no you're not you literally went into shock.....and why are you so fidgety?"Shay asked me while a now concerned Malcom brought me another water

"Nervous that's all. I don't know why."

"Sorry if I frightened you with what I said"Malcom says as he put his hands into his pockets

"No its..."I stopped myself from continuing and sighed "I don't wanna talk about it right now, let's eat so we can hit up the outlet later." I say trying to make the situation go back normal

"Monica are you sure you're okay?" Malcom asked me with concern in his voice

"Yes I promise...thank you Malcom for the water."I say with a slight smile

"Hey can we get our food to go if that's okay?"Shay asked Des

"Absolutely I'll go do that now!"she says as she did a light jog to the back

"I'm here Monica I promise."Shay says as she leaned over and hugged me
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As we headed to the outlet I went into a deep thought.

What was I nervous of. Was it the fact that the man whom I once loved and I would be under 24/7 is the same person I now see as a controlling and disgusting monster.

To know I once called myself a "daddy's girl" makes me sick to my stomach

Flashback-July 2010 ~Manhattan~

"Monica Noelle McKoy! Don't you dare walk out that door!" My father yells as I held my bags walking to the door

"And why should I not! You lied daddy! Our whole life is a lie. I saw you as my hero,a good guy and growing up all my life I looked to you as my knight and shiny armor. Who would protect his princess from anything."I screamed with tears coming down my face

"Monica baby I'm still the good man that you know I promise babygirl I did not do that!" He says as he moved towards me trying to hug me

"No don't you dare touch me you monster!" I yelled as I moved back a little from him

"So those girls are lying?! They're lying?! Dad you always told me if I'm telling the truth to look someone in the eye....you couldn't even look me in the eye and say that!"

"You're a disgusting monster. I hope you rot in hell." I say while rolling my suitcase to the door and my mother was standing by the door

"Noelle if you walk out that door and leave this home....don't come back or even call for nothing! You hear me?!"He says while pointing his finger at me with a few tears coming out of his eyes

"Oh trust me I won't! I'll literally jump off into the deep end before I ever do that."I say as I opened the door and walked out and never looked back

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Miami outlets 2016~now~

"Hey Mo we're here."Shay says she nudged me a little