Vertigo

Remembered How To Smile

It's been a few months since I've remembered how to smile.
It's been a few months since I know who's number to dial
It's been a few months since I started walking miles
For someone who'd do the same for me
You and I were always meant to be
Please stay with me, this is a plea
You're not a want, you're a need
On my dependancy I hope you don't feed
The evil that lurks around the corner waiting for us to bleed
I want to memorize every detail of you, I want to read
Everything that crosses that wicked mind, I'm full of greed
Whenever it comes to you, I can't seem to get enough
I'd write you a letter so that you feel better
Or I may pay a visit because I know how you're so exquisite
You're my heaven on earth, my bliss
And when you're gone for too long I start to miss
Your arms wrapping around my slender waist
My lips begging for your sweet and tender taste
Every minute that I'm without you goes to waste
Devil's work is associated with haste
But we're fallen stars making up for lost time
The feeling so foreign yet so sublime
Sweet as cinnamon, sour as lime
You're so dangerous, you're my most atrocious crime
But when I look into those eyes, I drown
Satan cries me a river with a frown
Hold my hand and let me take you somewhere sweet
Where we can lie in each other's arms and drink whiskey neat
I'll tell you about everything that haunts me, take a seat
And once I'm finished, I'll fall asleep to the melody of your heartbeat
For you I'd put everything at stake, everything I'd forfeit
Calm and serenity is what you bring
You sound like a Nightingale when you sing
My guardian angel protecting me under his wing
And in desperation I cling
To every part of you
Only you can color me blue
Fix me with a little bit of love and glue
I'm your porcelain doll and the world doesn't have a single clue
For bonds as sacred as these are supposed to be hidden
In the gloominess of the night the things we do are forbidden
Even when we're happy, we're guilt ridden
But when I lie in your arms I tend to forget
My tongue laced with poison and regret
If only I could've found you before
The aftermath of my naivety wouldn't have left me this sore
For years a broken smile is what I wore.
They made me afraid to fly when I was someone who was meant to soar
The repercussions had me reeling, they shook me to my core
A sinister grin overtook my features as I let this blood pour
Inflicting wounds in hopes to sew the ones they bore
Anger and resentment, they sowed the seed
The evil that lurked around the corner was watching me bleed
I've been killed and brought back to life
The only thing I'm scared of now is being stabbed in the back with a knife
It's been years since I've been living in reverie, in constant denial
All the pain just to get to you so it was worthwhile
It's been a few months since I've remembered how to smile
And I won't forget even if they put me up for trial.