Vertigo

Finding Solace

He said "Will you be here when I wake up?"
Froze to the ground while I was taking off my makeup.
Looking back at him, I could see right through.
I loved him to death but he didn't have a single clue.
He was broken and battered. Oh how I wish I could fix him with glue.
My mouth sealed shut so he said "If you go take my heart and soul with you."

I used to stay away. I didn't want to cut myself on his sharp broken edges.
But one look at him and I'd break all my promises and pledges.
I've always admired his style.
The way he wore pain with a smile.
How he only cried in the rain.
So no one could see him breaking down again.
Trying his hardest to stay sane.
On the highway he's swerving from lane to lane.
Happiness and joy are two things my baby can't feign.
Finding solace in drugs but it all goes to vain.

His soft brown eyes remind me of when he was hurt
And wanted nothing more but just to end up in the dirt.
His lips are as pink as the petals of a rose
My baby took a sharp breath as he injected another dose.
Red was the color of his cheeks and nose.
They thought it was because of the cold.
I knew it was because of the snow.
He has a habit of going with the flow.
Never rush it, take it excruciatingly slow
I live for the pain and he for the control
That he has over my mind and soul

My love is as sweet as soft ice cream.
He has nightmares, he doesn't dream.
I should stop finding comfort in ripping the seams.
I hope one day we'll build our house near that crystal clear stream.
The only crystals there, will be on our phone screens.
Gazing at the blue sky as we comprehend what love truly means.
Put my hand on your chest as I say.
Stay with me, don't stray.
Lay with me, we'll play.
My demons only you can keep at bay.
And for that I'll never be able to pay
you with mere words or my infinite love.
Give him a soft peck as I brush my fingers through his hair.
And to whoever might be listening I send a silent prayer.
To have you always by my side, in my care.
Because I know how nothing is fair in love and war.
My baby used to find solace in drugs but it all went in vain.
He had me by his side, there was nothing left to gain.