MY BILLIONAIRE SURGEON AND MISS CLUMSY NURSE

Part 33

Clara's pov

Ryan rolled to his side and just looked at me.

" sorry Clara

" can i still say I love you even..... when you are married. I shed tears

" Clara don't you trust me? I won't marry anyone Clara listen you were made for me.

" but the world is not meant for us Ryan

" I will make us work I promise just hold on to me don't leave ever..he hugged me tightly "please I beg of you " ...I held him tight too I almost cried out i am about to do what he is begging me not to do. He finally stood up and led me to the shower

" I love you.... I love you so much.

" I love you too but you need to bath. he moved me back into the tub and I laid in the bath. Finally i smiled . . do I have the right to smile at least I deserve to be happy for just today because I know the rest of my years without Ryan will be painful. Anna's Ryan. He said he can make us work but we both know that's not possible so I will surely leave him I can't fight without hope of victory... I hope he won't be too hurt with what I am going to do. He walked into the room and came back with the bed cover he deepened it into the bowl and started washing it. I smiled and my tears streamed down 

" you will always be the man I deserve Ryan" I came out from the bathroom and wore my yellow night gown. I sat down and he plugged in the drier and dried my hair I smiled, this is just what I want everyday of my life ..a man like Ryan I don't know why this is a crime to the world.. soon he was done drying my hair he picked my hair warmer and covered my hair with it .

" do you need anything

" no

" ok.

" don't ever leave me claraI smiled

"I won't.

" Clara I will never leave you againI will make you happy I will make this work just give me time and wait for me.he wrapped his arms around me and held me tight.l love the way you love me but we are truly hopeless , what about Anna she is mean but she deserves love if she wants Ryan so bad who am I to drag him with her... why hold on to him when it's possible that he can never take me to the alter .I know he is making all this promises to make me happy

" Clara as long as you are by my side I will do it ,i will do more , " ," i will do anything it takes to make you happy I don't care anymore but just never leave me please I love you so much I never felt like this before you are my breath clara. I smiled and started crying after a while he slept off I know he is fast asleep he really sleeps a lot. I ran away. I got to my room and locked my door I fell to my bed . i picked my diary and tore a sheet then I left a note for Ryan.

Dear ryan,I really love you very much and I know you love me too.I am glad I consummated my love for you. actually oppa you are the most beautiful thing that life ever gave me , I forgive you for all the wrong you ever did....I wiped my tears.but Ryan i am leaving you now ,i can't tell you to your face because I know you won't let me go. You were my fantasy ,my dream that came through like a movie but it's still a dream I know and I understand everything .you can't ruin your career and have your parents hate you because of me.You can't annoy Anna and keep hurting her because of mewho am I ,i am just Clara that clumsy nurseI wiped my tears again.don't get mad at me. it is not that I can't fight by your side but Ryan I am a nobody and I have a lot of things to lose.Secondly we can't win this war Ryan. We can't win this war without bloodshed and I don't want to watch R.D and A.G.H.C go down. My love, learn to live without me. Accept Anna, love her, take care of her, give her all the rights of a wife ,i will be in your heart that's enough for me but let her be in your arms... do the only right thing so your dad can be proud of you.I love you so much that i am letting you go. I love you Ryan i don't know if I will ever love another man. I love you so much. God bear me witness . but i really have no choice Ryan i wish I could tell you more I really believe that this is the right thing to do.Clara .