The bartender recognized me from the gigs I used to do, "Sasha McCartney! I haven't seen you around here in ages! You still play music?"
"No, actually, I don't do that anymore," I replied. I really didn't want to talk about this.
He frowned, "It's a shame. I thought you were really talented. I suppose you're not with that fellow in this band anymore."
That hurt, "No."
I grabbed my drinks and didn't say anything to him as he told me to have a good night. That was the first time anyone else other than close friends has asked me about John, and considering it was a little over a year since our messy break up, it hurt more than I think it should have.
I sat down with our drinks and prayed for the show to be over soon, but then I would have to be inches away from John. I didn't know if I could handle it.
When the boys were done, I led Mr. Epstein backstage to meet the Beatles. When we walked into the room, John kept his back to me. Paul must have warned him that I was coming. Paul turned and ran to give me a tight embrace.
"Everything will be okay. Just look at me," he whispered before pulling away.
Paul made the boys line up to face me and Mr. Epstein. I kept my eyes locked on Paul, but I could feel John's eyes tearing into me as soon as he turned around. I knew he wanted me to look at him, but I wasn't going to do it.
George smiled, confidently saying, "And what brings Mr. Epstein here?"
I kept my eyes on Paul, "Boys, this is my manager at NEMS Record store, Mr. Brian Epstein. He's interested in managing your band," I turned to Mr. Epstein, "This is my brother Paul McCartney."
I was doing well so far, but now for the difficult part. I took a deep breath, "This is John Lennon," I looked at the floor as I introduced him.
He stuck his hand out to shake Mr. Epstein's hand. I instinctively flinched when his hand came so close to me. He dropped it to his side again.
I continued to introduce the other two, "This is George Harrison and Pete Best."
"Well, it's certainly nice to meet you all," Mr. Epstein said, "I am truly struck by your talent and personal charm. We will need to set up a meeting if you are interested in me being your manager. I believe I could get the recognition this band deserves."
"It sounds great," John spoke, and his voice sent shivers down my spine, "We can meet day after tomorrow."
"Perfect," Mr. Epstein replied, "Sasha, thanks for introducing me to the band. I'll see you at work tomorrow."
Mr. Epstein went on his way. I looked up to find young George staring at me, and I still felt John's eyes on me as well. George was always the youngest, and the member that I never got really close to, mainly because I was with John and Stu most of the time. His staring made me uncomfortable, so I began to look around awkwardly.
Within a split second, my eyes jerked the wrong way and locked with John's. My whole world stopped. His eyes were pleading, and mine probably looked afraid. I couldn't believe that I was inches from John, looking in to those hazel eyes with tiny specs of green. They weren't the cold eyes that I left in Hamburg. They were the eyes of my John, soft and pleading.
I felt tears surface and choked as I tried to speak. I clamped my hand over my mouth and ran from the boys to the stairs to get out of here.
"Sasha!" I heard John call my name. His voice sounded good saying my name, and I had missed it, but I just had to run.
I got outside in the cold air. My breathing was heavy, and my heart was racing. A hand grabbed my shoulder. I jumped and turned around to face Paul.
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Miss Americana // The Beatles
FanfictionIn 1957, Sasha McCartney, a teenage girl with a dream to become a famous musician, moves to her half-brother Paul's hometown of Liverpool, England. There she meets a rebellious, teenage John Lennon, but things get complicated when the band decides t...
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