My Love Untold (Reposted)

A Dream Wedding

I sat up against the windowsill, my eyes switching from Levi's bed to Ymir's, then back again. I was one of the few people that they didn't mind still in the infirmary, so Krista had asked me to keep an eye out to make sure Ymir's condition didn't get worse. A few days ago, one of the medics had stayed with me through the night to keep me company before leaving for an emergency with one of our soldiers.

My eyes went back to Levi's bed and I grimaced, getting up and walking over to him. I hated seeing him in this way. As I looked over his bandaged wounds, I couldn't help but feel guilt well up inside my chest. I couldn't count the number of times I had relived that day, imagining the ways I could have kept him safe. I should've been there for him. The words he spoke to me before the mission haunted me in my sleep: 'No one should be on their own out there'.

I sighed and sat down, hearing a small squeak come from the chair beneath me. I flinched slightly at the sudden sound, my eyes searching for any sign that I had woken Levi up. He did need his rest, after all. I waited a few seconds before being satisfied with his lack of movement and leaned down to rest my chin in my hand. I felt my eyelids begin to become heavy and I shifted in my seat to get more comfortable. I wasn't sure how much time passed after that, but it couldn't have been long until I felt my consciousness slip away from me.

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I looked around at the table I was sitting at. Mikasa sat on my right and Armin's coat was draped over the chair to my left. Trying to get a good idea of where I was, I looked down at how I was dressed. I was wearing a strapless red dress ending around my mid-thigh. A short-sleeved red cardigan covered my shoulders and tied around my upper chest.

I glanced up at the table I was sitting at. A light blue table cloth covered the round table, and a woman was coming around to pick up small dessert plates. There was a beautiful bouquet acting as a centerpiece: white daisies, gardenias and white roses surrounded by purple forget-me-nots and pink geraniums. I fought the desire to reach over and smell the assortment of flowers and instead focused on the event around me.

Turning around in my seat, I found Armin on some sort of dance floor, his hand on a girl's waist. Sadly, Mikasa pulled my attention away before I could identify who he was dancing with.

"Are you okay, Eren?" she asked me. I nodded. I wasn't sure exactly where I was, but I could tell that it was a happy event.

A loud clinking sound snapped my eyes towards a large table at the front of the room. Levi was sitting in one of the chairs, his head against his hand in a way that almost made him look bored. My eyes moved slightly upwards and saw Petra holding a champagne glass and a fork. My heart swelled with happiness for the two of them.

"I think the tossing of the flowers is happening, soon," Armin whispered to me as he returned to his seat. I gave him a sideways look, wishing I had time to ask him who he was dancing with, but quickly returned my attention to the couple up front.

"Thank you all for being here," Petra started, a giddy smile on her face. "If you'll please make your way to the garden, we'll be tossing the flowers and garter in a few moments." I practically felt Armin's proud smile behind me as we stood to follow the crowd towards the garden. I grabbed my bag from my chair and slipped it up to my shoulder as Mikasa practically dragged me through the crowd.

I felt a hand land on my lower back and I turned in surprise, seeing Levi grinning at me. "Are you having a good time?" he asked me, beginning to make his way through the group with us. In the back of my mind, I felt Mikasa's hand disconnect from my arm, but I was too focused on trying not to get run over by the stampede of people.

"Absolutely," I responded. I wasn't sure why I had said anything, given I hadn't technically been present at the ceremony. My mouth wasn't done talking, though. "I almost cried when I saw Petra walk up in that dress." Levi nodded, his smile staying consistent as I spoke. I took a short breath, trying to get control over what I was saying.

"I could do with a few things changed," he said, glancing around at the decorations. I thought I saw him glance towards a group of people, but his eyes were on me again before I could be sure.

"The garter and flowers weren't your ideas, then?" I asked him. His smile shifted into a grimace as he gave me a slightly irritated look, causing me to laugh.

"What's so funny?" Mikasa shouted over the excited shouts around us. I turned back to where Levi had stood mere seconds ago, but found nothing. Confused, I turned back towards my step-sister and shook my head to brush her question off. I don't think she cared much for the answer as she quickly turned away from me to look at Petra and Levi on the stage.

Levi was already holding up the garter, almost as if it were a prize as he called for all the single men to crowd together on the floor. Mikasa blocked my vision, but I noticed Armin walk up to the group and crossed my fingers for him. I heard a loud synchronized grunt in frustration before a single guy yelled out happily. Armin returned, the garter awkwardly balled up in his hand.

"I feel odd carrying this around," he said, giving me a funny look. I bit back a snarky remark and waited for Petra to call for the single women.

She waited for the men to clear the floor and shouted out a simple, "Come on!" I heard laughter as I pushed my way past my sister. I looked up to the stage and saw Petra already getting in position, her backs to us as she readied herself, taking small glances behind her to make sure everyone was ready. I felt a strange pull in my chest as she let the flowers go, heading straight for me.