An Alpha's Love

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That was all I ever was.

"Hey, Matt."

"Hey Lee, can we talk."

I opened the door wider for him to get in. "I was gonna make a cup of lemon-herb tea, wanna have a cup." He reluctantly obliged.

"So." I sipped my tea. "I don't know how to say this but I think we should break up."

"Oh." My voice cracked. "Listen Linden you're a great guy and all, you're just not my type anymore."

"What?" I asked setting down my cup. "I mean, you and I, it was never gonna work, we tried but we both know it wasn't working out."

"You mean, I gave my all and you threw it back in my face, you mean you just wanted a quick fuck and not a full relationship." He looked at me with pity. I knew my tears drew that out of him but I didn't want it.

"It wasn't like that, it's just...fuck, you and I were too different people, we like different things, and honestly Linden I think I mistook the vibe we both got from each other, you were innocent and shit, I wanted to be there for you and protect you:"

"I never asked for any of that, when you came up to me and told me you liked me, it didn't seem like you wanted to protect me, it seemed like you genuinely wanted to be with me, so don't tell me crap about mistaking feelings, I was just a pity case wasn't I?"

"No you were never a pity case, I loved you then I fell out of love."

"And you fell right into Charlottes arms wasn't it, yeah I saw you two." He looked stunned. "Matt you did a lot of stuff that I downplayed because I thought you would change but I was wrong."

"Don't pin the blame on me, Lee, you weren't as perfect as you want to claim!"

"And what exactly did I do wrong, I didn't have my tongue down half the cheer team males, I don't have my tongue and most likely dick in Charlotte, which you are! So tell me what did I do wrong."

"You think you're so perfect because you're untouched, that just makes you an embarrassment, I'm the only guy in that school who even batted an eyelash for your obese ass." I slapped him from where we stood.

"How dare you, now I actually see the truth, I was really just a pity case for the school to love you, what's wrong with you, what did I ever do to you?" I furiously wiped the tears away with my forearm.

"Thing is Lee you did nothing, and that's exactly why we didn't work, you were just a free ride ticket to get admirers. " He scoffs. "And now that I'm done with that you can go fuck yourself."

"Wow, so that was all I ever was huh." He chuckles walking toward the door. "Yeah, don't come in between me and Charlotte, you'll regret it." I didn't reply. The slight bang of the door and the auto-lock signaling his absence made me crumble to the ground.

I was a mess, and I didn't know if I could ever get over this, I hadn't done anything wrong yet got hurt. I wasn't the one in the wrong, I loved him. I was always sure the day was coming when Matt would break up with me but why did it hurt so much, why did it have to break me deep down.

I cried till I couldn't anymore. Dragging my feet upstairs I let myself fall onto the bed, the sleep was welcomed I didn't want to feel all this much hurt I just wanted to be numb.

I knew the next few days were going to be bad for me and I was going to hide it out.

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"Linden honey wake up, this is the third time you've missed school, you're not eating, you don't even talk, what's going on." I sigh rolling out of bed. "I just don't feel like me mom, but I promise I'm fine."

"You better be fine, or I'm taking you with me for a check up, now get ready for school." I nod to my mom and walk to the bathroom in my room. I do my morning routine, though I was sleeping, I still felt tired.

Mental exhaustion I guess.

My mother drops me off at school as is our usual Wednesday tradition when she tries to create time for me, I'm grateful she tries to be there and checks up on me.

I walk toward the gates and cue the whispers, I push my glasses up, drop my hoodie even further down my face, and walk toward the main school building. I spot Charlotte with Matt walking from the parking lot, funny how it doesn't even seem like they're a new couple.

I think I was oblivious to it, now it just seems I'm finally catching on.

I walk toward my locker and take out my books without even looking at my so called friends and my ex-boyfriend, I need as much space as I can from them both I don't want to cry though it hurts and the tears sting but I won't cry.

"Hey Linden, sorry about what happened." I turn to look at Andie smiling at me, at least I hope that smile was genuine because I've started to realize that half of the things I thought were normal now seem fake.

"It's cool, they are happier together, and that's what we all want right," I replied plastering the best fake enthusiasm and smile I could muster. All I wanted was to just be home and drown in wendys.

At lunch I picked up my food which I ate by myself outside, I couldn't stand to sit with them, I just didn't have enough strength to pretend I was okay so I evaded.

"Hey we didn't see you at lunch, you okay?" I smiled toward Charlotte. "Are we still pretending you aren't dating my ex." She looked surprised by my reply.

"I didn't want you to find out like that, I'm sorry it happened like that, and I'm sorry that I did that to you, I shouldn't have I know."

"Take that half ass apology and shove it up your vagina and use it however you can, you were supposed to be my friend and yet the reason why my boyfriend dumped me was you, just leave me alone."

"You know what fine, you didn't deserve him any way, you're just a load of calories and nothing else, you're so full of crap, he was doing you a favor even looking at you with weird hair color and those large glasses." She buffs and walks away.

I guess I was right, things are starting to unravel, I just hope I don't have to suffer anymore change I wouldn't be able to handle it. I walk toward my next class which was gym, took out my frustration on dodge ball.

After I cooled off, I found my way headed to the culinary class, happy to be making one of the best fish platters I liked.

"Hey watch it!!" Amie yells when she was the one in the wrong, this was yet again a realization that she was never really a friend, to begin with, I guess I was really just their pity friend.

"Why did you do that Amie, he's our friend." She snickers at Andie's comment. "This ugly troll, please, we were only friends with him because we had to look good and being compared against him worked didn't it." I felt sick after hearing that, so I hurriedly picked up my books and ran toward my class.

"Ouch." I had hit a wall I guess. I could smell musk and minty breathe fanning my neck.

"There you go, " My glasses are placed back on.

"Oh my."

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LMJ