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new email

milliebbrown@gmail.com→fwolfhard@gmail.com

finn
you've been reading all these emails. you've gotten every single one since september.

and you didn't reply? you didn't even say anything?

i'm so embarrassed right now.

i really wish you didn't send noah. i know it was you. why did you even do that? so you wouldn't have my blood on your hands?

i hate you finn. and i hate that i have to hate you.

if you were to tell me one year ago that my best friend would be a stranger, i wouldn't believe you. i'd protest, knowing that my finn would always be my best friend. i mean, we've gone through everything together, why wouldn't it always be like that?

i was a fucking idiot.

i wish someone would've told me. i wish someone broke the bubble of short lived happiness i was living in. it would hurt so much less.

i can't believe you let me think i actually had a permanent person in my life. i never have and never will.

fuck you finn.

i hope you feel better

i hope your life is so much more fucking whole without me in it.

then maybe my pain will be worth something to you.

sent to fwolfhard@gmail.com
03/11/20
1:21 am

a/n

hi!! sorry i was inactive, been busy, but i'll update more... speaking of, this book is almost over :(

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ily all, have a great day, fight against systemic racism and vote and comment!
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